tonight.. i came home with only my wallet, my handphone and my book "stop the emotional rollercoaster" haa
i was studying in the library and started chatting w yingwei.. then after a while.. we went to get dinner at NUH kopitiam and we happily continued our chat..
when i looked at the clock.. it was 1015! already!.. i was still thinking if the library closes at 1030 or 10.. haaa so we ran all the back.. to find out tt the lib doors are locked already.. haaa
even the security guard at the dean's office.. who called the campus security cant help me.
so..
my stuff.. my bag.. my notes.. my books... everything got locked up in the library.. lalala
n i gotta go bk to get it tmr morning heh
but well it was q an experience.. hahaa
i cant really believe it happened hahaa
but i had a real nice long chat w yw.. :)
oh n i met eric today..
i saw him.. he saw me.. and we smiled at each other..
at the same time i was busy searching my memory.. to try to recall where i've met this guy haa
it turned out he's was a fellow volunteer at assissi hospice when i volunteered there in m1.. great to see him again. hope he gets into med sch n get to b our junior! :)
木曜日, 3月 29, 2007
i'm glad that i've grown up quite a bit since years ago, and my self-worth is no longer determined by such things.. hmm
huimin is officially sick. ha..
i usually catch something each posting.. didnt expect to get it frm psychomed posting tho..
i have a sorethroat, somewhat like a flu n slight cough.. i think more's to erupt.. my tian.
after coming to 3 weeks in psych med posting.. i must say it's a real eyeopener..
it's been really interesting.. looking at the services.. the patients.. their problems.. how we can try to help them
but in some part of it.. it feels pretty bleak.
our forensic psy tutor told us abt the Penrose rule
The Penrose hypothesis (Penrose, 1939) suggests that the changes described above and the current prevalence of mental disorder in the prison population are linked by a complex relationship that centres on changing values in society. Penrose proposed that the approach society adopts towards people who behave in a socially unacceptable manner is largely dictated by prevailing social norms, the political climate and the availability of a suitable route for disposal. Thus, according to this hypothesis, an individual who behaves in a disorderly fashion is more likely to be dealt with by mental health services if such services are well-resourced and hospitalisation is favoured. In contrast, the same individual is more likely to be seen as an offender and sent to prison in a society where resources and statutory provision favour imprisonment .
Penrose also proposed that the proportion of society that ‘requires’ institutional care remains relatively constant over time, implying that if people with mental disorder cannot access hospital beds they will gravitate towards prison.
Although Penrose based his hypothesis on a study of criminal statistics and mental hospital populations across 14 European countries carried out over 60 years ago, the situation in many Western countries today where prison populations have risen significantly following the scaling down of in-patient psychiatric facilities certainly seems to fit the same model.
well and it's one posting where i've seen the most number of pt's i've clerked breaking down into tears at some point of the interview.. a handful of them, but significantly more than the other disciplines i've been to.
sometimes it just strikes u that life hasnt been too good to some of these people and we are a pretty fortunate lot already.
imh is a lovely place.
v spacious.. v quiet.. v serene.. i wont mind going bk to roam ard on my own someday haa.. and it's the nearest hospital to my house! haaa i'm usu bk home in less than 1/2 hr...
certain rooms in there are called the Serene Room..
i love the concept of The Flat as part of the OT programme.. where there's this room whereby when u go in through the door.. it looks exactly like stepping into someone's HDB apartment.. it helps our patients learn basic skills.. how to do housework and familiarize themselves w the environment at home before discharge.. v cool.. reminds me of the little tatami room we saw during our jap exchange w juntendo university.. the geriatric dept.. to help the elderly patient rehab and familiarize themselves with their home environment.. so as to b more prepared for discharge.
mental illness is a pretty lonely disease.. and there's so much stigma around it..
can we change the mindset of people?
"What if people don't change?"
"The point is they will or they don't."
huimin is officially sick. ha..
i usually catch something each posting.. didnt expect to get it frm psychomed posting tho..
i have a sorethroat, somewhat like a flu n slight cough.. i think more's to erupt.. my tian.
after coming to 3 weeks in psych med posting.. i must say it's a real eyeopener..
it's been really interesting.. looking at the services.. the patients.. their problems.. how we can try to help them
but in some part of it.. it feels pretty bleak.
our forensic psy tutor told us abt the Penrose rule
The Penrose hypothesis (Penrose, 1939) suggests that the changes described above and the current prevalence of mental disorder in the prison population are linked by a complex relationship that centres on changing values in society. Penrose proposed that the approach society adopts towards people who behave in a socially unacceptable manner is largely dictated by prevailing social norms, the political climate and the availability of a suitable route for disposal. Thus, according to this hypothesis, an individual who behaves in a disorderly fashion is more likely to be dealt with by mental health services if such services are well-resourced and hospitalisation is favoured. In contrast, the same individual is more likely to be seen as an offender and sent to prison in a society where resources and statutory provision favour imprisonment .
Penrose also proposed that the proportion of society that ‘requires’ institutional care remains relatively constant over time, implying that if people with mental disorder cannot access hospital beds they will gravitate towards prison.
Although Penrose based his hypothesis on a study of criminal statistics and mental hospital populations across 14 European countries carried out over 60 years ago, the situation in many Western countries today where prison populations have risen significantly following the scaling down of in-patient psychiatric facilities certainly seems to fit the same model.
well and it's one posting where i've seen the most number of pt's i've clerked breaking down into tears at some point of the interview.. a handful of them, but significantly more than the other disciplines i've been to.
sometimes it just strikes u that life hasnt been too good to some of these people and we are a pretty fortunate lot already.
imh is a lovely place.
v spacious.. v quiet.. v serene.. i wont mind going bk to roam ard on my own someday haa.. and it's the nearest hospital to my house! haaa i'm usu bk home in less than 1/2 hr...
certain rooms in there are called the Serene Room..
i love the concept of The Flat as part of the OT programme.. where there's this room whereby when u go in through the door.. it looks exactly like stepping into someone's HDB apartment.. it helps our patients learn basic skills.. how to do housework and familiarize themselves w the environment at home before discharge.. v cool.. reminds me of the little tatami room we saw during our jap exchange w juntendo university.. the geriatric dept.. to help the elderly patient rehab and familiarize themselves with their home environment.. so as to b more prepared for discharge.
mental illness is a pretty lonely disease.. and there's so much stigma around it..
can we change the mindset of people?
"What if people don't change?"
"The point is they will or they don't."
土曜日, 3月 24, 2007
火曜日, 3月 20, 2007
this is a quaint picture with the faces of the main characters distorted
but oh well.. it's the best i could find from a quick google search
months ago i had this hugh craving to rewatch this drama
and i was very upset that youtube only had the first episode
i remembered i got it from serene but i just can't find it anywhere at home.
asked liv but she said she didnt have it
today... i saw it again!
beng returned it to me today at piano class
silly me, i absolutely forgot that i had lent it to her..
together with my Engine n Beachboys
so now.. haaa i shall rewatch it when i have time!
muahaha
my favourite japanese drama...
which ending i can never come to terms with
after watching it in my teens.. i shall now watch it again in my 20s and bring it out to watch it again in my 30s.. haaa
wonder how it would feel like then..
scarli i'm like the natsuki character in the show by my 30s haa
then i shall hope to meet a younger goodlooking souichiro... if fate allows haaa
argh. i hate dozing off at 9 n waking up at 3+.. wat kinda lousy sleep cycle is this
just when i tot i cud snap out of it after the whole of last wk by having a therapeutic wkend of excessive sleeping.
my tian. sorry to everyone who sms n msn me stuff but had no reply.. sorry guys. talk to u all in the morning.
i feel abit disorientated hmmm..
just when i tot i cud snap out of it after the whole of last wk by having a therapeutic wkend of excessive sleeping.
my tian. sorry to everyone who sms n msn me stuff but had no reply.. sorry guys. talk to u all in the morning.
i feel abit disorientated hmmm..
月曜日, 3月 19, 2007
日曜日, 3月 18, 2007
huay got me to register at facebook.com haaa
it's nice to see her in all her pix, her life in nottingham.. i took some time to explore and went into the RGS n RJ groups.. saw many many familiar faces.. pple whom have been my schoolmates at some point of time in my life.. also fotos of the old rj campus
pretty nostalgic.. places where i had the most fun in my life.. met pple who influenced n shaped who i am..
n my school mottos are:
filiae melioris aevi
auspicium melioris aevi
it's nice to see her in all her pix, her life in nottingham.. i took some time to explore and went into the RGS n RJ groups.. saw many many familiar faces.. pple whom have been my schoolmates at some point of time in my life.. also fotos of the old rj campus
pretty nostalgic.. places where i had the most fun in my life.. met pple who influenced n shaped who i am..
n my school mottos are:
filiae melioris aevi
auspicium melioris aevi
just got bk home from a judo girls outing! wah i had so much fun :)
we havnt been out together for a pretty long time and i miss them all!
met huiyi at 4 to shop for beng's present.. and manage to get sunyanzi's newest "album" for free of the shelves of HMV! thnx to the friendly shopkeeper heee.. damn funny
and met HO ph on the train on my way here n dawn at city hall.. wat a small world :)
we shopped ard.. checked out the M at newurbanmale and headed to The Central @ clark quay
it's a pretty cool mall.. still q quiet cause many shops are not open but i think it'll be pretty cool when it's all open.. so it's nice to by at a less crowded on a sat aft...
we ended up eating at waraku!! to celeb beng's bday... enjoyed to food and had a lot of fun.. w the marble-drink n the nice waiter-boy haaa i was damn paiseh asking for the plastic bag in the end :p
but well we did our usual eating photo-taking chitchatting and laughing and i miss it alot! hafnt had much time together since JC when we see each other almost everyday and trained so hard together..
beng beng got 3 birthday songs! haa 2 frm our neighbour table of strangers! thnx guys..
altho i was all set ready to drink my heart out but we didnt la.. miss the happyhr anyway (some places sat dont haf oso) so we were kuai kids and ended by at coffee club..
MUDDY mud pie! tiramisu n nice pretty drinks.. was q fun.. n we were sitting on the bouncy bright coloured balls haaa remind me of dango! haaa PASSION tea was nice :)
clark quay's really q happening at night.. wah saw lotsa interesting pubs.. there's clinic C.. where u get to sit on wheelchairs and see pretty "nurses" in uniform tt needed more materials... haa
but it's pretty along the river at night :)
in short, i had the most wonderful time! thnx gals... take care lots.. till we meet again :)
we havnt been out together for a pretty long time and i miss them all!
met huiyi at 4 to shop for beng's present.. and manage to get sunyanzi's newest "album" for free of the shelves of HMV! thnx to the friendly shopkeeper heee.. damn funny
and met HO ph on the train on my way here n dawn at city hall.. wat a small world :)
we shopped ard.. checked out the M at newurbanmale and headed to The Central @ clark quay
it's a pretty cool mall.. still q quiet cause many shops are not open but i think it'll be pretty cool when it's all open.. so it's nice to by at a less crowded on a sat aft...
we ended up eating at waraku!! to celeb beng's bday... enjoyed to food and had a lot of fun.. w the marble-drink n the nice waiter-boy haaa i was damn paiseh asking for the plastic bag in the end :p
but well we did our usual eating photo-taking chitchatting and laughing and i miss it alot! hafnt had much time together since JC when we see each other almost everyday and trained so hard together..
beng beng got 3 birthday songs! haa 2 frm our neighbour table of strangers! thnx guys..
altho i was all set ready to drink my heart out but we didnt la.. miss the happyhr anyway (some places sat dont haf oso) so we were kuai kids and ended by at coffee club..
MUDDY mud pie! tiramisu n nice pretty drinks.. was q fun.. n we were sitting on the bouncy bright coloured balls haaa remind me of dango! haaa PASSION tea was nice :)
clark quay's really q happening at night.. wah saw lotsa interesting pubs.. there's clinic C.. where u get to sit on wheelchairs and see pretty "nurses" in uniform tt needed more materials... haa
but it's pretty along the river at night :)
in short, i had the most wonderful time! thnx gals... take care lots.. till we meet again :)
土曜日, 3月 17, 2007
木曜日, 3月 15, 2007
today i actually came home an hour earlier than usual.. and now even after my dinner, the sky is still bright! haa sun hasnt set yet...
now that i'm posted to CGH, i enjoy my 15min walk to the busstop in front of caro's house daily... it save me about 60cents from taking a bus just for that 1 busstop of distance between CGH and tampines, and provides me with this precious time of the day, just hanging out with myself.
"walking is about clearing the head" this is a quote i got from my fren's blog.
i'll reflect on my day, appease myself if need be and be thankful.
be thankful that my sanity is still intact
be thankful that the only voice i hear in my head is me talking to myself in first person.
no auditory hallucinations. heh.
now that i'm posted to CGH, i enjoy my 15min walk to the busstop in front of caro's house daily... it save me about 60cents from taking a bus just for that 1 busstop of distance between CGH and tampines, and provides me with this precious time of the day, just hanging out with myself.
"walking is about clearing the head" this is a quote i got from my fren's blog.
i'll reflect on my day, appease myself if need be and be thankful.
be thankful that my sanity is still intact
be thankful that the only voice i hear in my head is me talking to myself in first person.
no auditory hallucinations. heh.
水曜日, 3月 14, 2007
just hear this song on class 95. it got mi recalling a distant vague memory many years back.. when i was on a bus heading towards east coast park w my friends.. this song came up.. someone was singing it.. and there was possibly a hilarious song competition trying to see who can memorize the SBS tv drama theme songs n sing in on the bus ride.. haa does anyone shares this bit of memory w me? (Hopefully it's not one of my hallucinations)
Title: I Will Remember You lyrics
Artist: Sarah McLachlan
I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Remember the good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things got bad
How clearly I first saw you smilin’ in the sun
Wanna feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one
I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
I’m so tired but I can’t sleep
Standin’ on the edge of something much too deep
It’s funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can’t be heard
But I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
I’m so afraid to love you, but more afraid to loose
Clinging to a past that doesn’t let me choose
Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light
And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Weep not for the memories
Title: I Will Remember You lyrics
Artist: Sarah McLachlan
I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Remember the good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things got bad
How clearly I first saw you smilin’ in the sun
Wanna feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one
I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
I’m so tired but I can’t sleep
Standin’ on the edge of something much too deep
It’s funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can’t be heard
But I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
I’m so afraid to love you, but more afraid to loose
Clinging to a past that doesn’t let me choose
Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light
And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Weep not for the memories
psychomed posting has started for 3 days
feels abit weird w/o py ard.. we have been in diff gps before but never in diff hospitals.
thankfully i haf my kakis frm paeds kx n yw and new kakis like dawn n barry...
lectures and tutorials have all been pretty interesting so far... just alot of reading to catch up cause i've been sleeping real early for past 2 nights :p
talked to a couple of patients.. now at my stage of not knowing so much yet, clerking feels more like having a chat.. to find out the patient's stories..
watched a video today.. q insightful and showed pretty crude n gruesome techniques docs have used before when technology was pretty backward such as transorbital lobotomy.. walaueh.. i was cringing in my seat seeing them pushing tt sharp thing thru the guy's eye socket... @_@
hai.. glad we dont do such things now...
feels abit weird w/o py ard.. we have been in diff gps before but never in diff hospitals.
thankfully i haf my kakis frm paeds kx n yw and new kakis like dawn n barry...
lectures and tutorials have all been pretty interesting so far... just alot of reading to catch up cause i've been sleeping real early for past 2 nights :p
talked to a couple of patients.. now at my stage of not knowing so much yet, clerking feels more like having a chat.. to find out the patient's stories..
watched a video today.. q insightful and showed pretty crude n gruesome techniques docs have used before when technology was pretty backward such as transorbital lobotomy.. walaueh.. i was cringing in my seat seeing them pushing tt sharp thing thru the guy's eye socket... @_@
hai.. glad we dont do such things now...
日曜日, 3月 11, 2007
haha guess who came by my place to try out my treadmill? haaaawith this pix.. it ended my whole cny visiting spree
i had alot of fun
it's a pity tt the judo girls cudnt find a good time to come over
cause xy's in sandiego, xian was flying off to china, and the meddies had pros...
we'll make it up k
let meet up soon!
and HAPPY BIRTHDAY BENG!
may ur 22nd birthday be a fantastic one... :)
hope u had lotsa fun today
beng's my fellow giant frm judo.. us n carol are the 3 giants partnership hee
n my fellow piano kaki
thnx for dragging me along to join the class.. i had q abit of inertia n hesitance to join in feb last year but all i can say was looking bk at my first year of piano learning.. it had been fun
altho we q frequently miss classes cause of sch
n always go w/o practicing oops
n the prices kept increasing *heartpain
but all in all.. it had been fun
jiayou beng! for 2007.. cya real soon :)
my mama w peiyunthis year py is the sole representative frm our hualahualagang doing cny visit at my house..
cause ser's in spain n fel's busy tt day
haha the 2 of us visited huayu's parents earlier in the day and had a nice long conversation with them
san nian le...
us visiting huay's parents in her place during cny cause she's at nottingham..
but next year.. we shall gao da yi dian! cause huay ll b back..
n everyone can come by my place for some daidee and
HUAT AR!
HUAT AR!
haaa my mama n dad would love to cya guys..
she's how gam w u all also haaa
so me n py.. spent our chu8 visiting as well... :)
my tutees came by to visit me during cny as well.. carmen n chermainemiss those sunday mornings we spent togther the past couple of years with me nagging at them to do their maths homework n tys..
haaaa
all the best to u guys for ur course applications and the future ya!
take care :)
they have always been very gam w my mama haa
carmen w orhlulu
chermaine w orhluluhaaa my 2 pet wu gui were given by the 2 of them on my 21st birthday
one's coke light n the other one's orhlulu...
then i went to japan n when i came bk i received the sad news tt one of them died
i always tot it had been orhlulu who passed away, but i was wrong! it was cokelight..
i must have heard it wrongly the first time they told me..
so i've been calling orhlulu cokelight for the past couple of mths.. hee
let it grow up first.. then i'll let it go one day.. :)
these were my 2 wu guis when they were really young..pix taken at my chalet last year..
now tt cokelight's gone hope orhlulu isnt too lonely
orhlulu has really grown up q abit..
this is lucas.. my favourite nephew! haaahe's such a sweet little boy.. who comes bumbling towards u in tt "boardbased" gait immed when u stretched out ur arms to carry him
altho the last time he ever saw me was months ago
a v friendly boy who's not shy
v v lovable...
this year he's abt 3 and he has a mei mei now..
he has this new habit of sticking out his tongue whenver u wanna take a pix w him haaa
i tried to DA on many of my neices nephews cousins.. n realized i haf forgotten when some milestones appear le oopss..
lucas even appeared in my dreams aft cny haa
this was him last year!!
some meddies.. namely chekwun jenheng n wenhann came by my placewe wanted to go ard to each person's house to visit but didnt manage to do it cause there wasnt time.. n there was this constant nagging thought of pros..
no.. we didnt end up studying together haa
aft the first stop at my place we went over to jenheng's place n had a real fun time playing this nitendo mario game of his.. tt was really v exciting..
haa i hate the skipping over the firerope thingy cause i'm damn lousy at it..
but it was fun! :)
they even sang a birthday song for my mama lor haaa lol
we celebrated my mama's birthday at my dad's fren's place on chu3happy birthday to my dearest mama!
may her life be always filled with happiness
:)
(oops were those cofm notes in my hand?? haa, as my fotos ll show.. i did alot of visiting n playing during cny which is fun but hai.. no time left to study for pros! but glad pros are finally over.)
yea.. pros are finally over.. w any luck i shudnt haf to face vivas n can grow into M4 gracefully *fingers crossed*
i haf 2 days of hols and i dont really know wat to do with it.. there's so much things i wanna do but so little time.. hai
went for a nice long swim today.. the usual 40laps but this time haaa there were different experiences.
i've never swam on a weekend morning for as long as i cud remember.. cause i dislike the crowd n the even-dirtier water but i convinced myself since i haf no more hols till 2nd jun.. so yep..
n cause i woke up late.. i ended up at the pool at 10+ which was usu the time i leave the pool.. so the sunlight was abit stronger la.
so i macam had to do an obstacle course.. cause there were many classes goingon..
braking when kids passing, swimming the breadth of the pool
changing lanes when pple head on in my direction
squeezing to park at the end of the pool after i finish one lap
haaaa
q an interesting experience
but hai.. the dirtier water cause 2 wheals on my thigh.. gross :(
but i tried on my new swim suit today!
haa it amuses me that i got 2 tanlines now on my bk..
new areas got exposed today n they are kinda slightly red n burnt
but the tan part got tanner n the new part got tan.. so 2 shades la haaaaa
it ll prob take a while for me to even out tt distinction
oh n i went to the IT fair in the evening w my bro n sister-in-law
the crowd is damn scary! *shivers
but met aishu n jess
and thnx barry for the help w my dad's speech n fel for reading thru for me as well..
thankyou all.. my dad received praises for it, so thnx guys!
i haf 2 days of hols and i dont really know wat to do with it.. there's so much things i wanna do but so little time.. hai
went for a nice long swim today.. the usual 40laps but this time haaa there were different experiences.
i've never swam on a weekend morning for as long as i cud remember.. cause i dislike the crowd n the even-dirtier water but i convinced myself since i haf no more hols till 2nd jun.. so yep..
n cause i woke up late.. i ended up at the pool at 10+ which was usu the time i leave the pool.. so the sunlight was abit stronger la.
so i macam had to do an obstacle course.. cause there were many classes goingon..
braking when kids passing, swimming the breadth of the pool
changing lanes when pple head on in my direction
squeezing to park at the end of the pool after i finish one lap
haaaa
q an interesting experience
but hai.. the dirtier water cause 2 wheals on my thigh.. gross :(
but i tried on my new swim suit today!
haa it amuses me that i got 2 tanlines now on my bk..
new areas got exposed today n they are kinda slightly red n burnt
but the tan part got tanner n the new part got tan.. so 2 shades la haaaaa
it ll prob take a while for me to even out tt distinction
oh n i went to the IT fair in the evening w my bro n sister-in-law
the crowd is damn scary! *shivers
but met aishu n jess
and thnx barry for the help w my dad's speech n fel for reading thru for me as well..
thankyou all.. my dad received praises for it, so thnx guys!
月曜日, 3月 05, 2007
木曜日, 3月 01, 2007
[PV]Flavor Of Life - 宇多田
http://jland.wordpress.com/2007/02/04/utada-hikaru-flavor-of-life-ballad-version/
when I heard this song on MTV… I kinda liked it.. guess I miss Japan..
anyway.. didn’t know this is the song for hana yori dango II and the interpretation from the website I quoted is pretty interesting huh haa
http://jland.wordpress.com/2007/02/04/utada-hikaru-flavor-of-life-ballad-version/
when I heard this song on MTV… I kinda liked it.. guess I miss Japan..
anyway.. didn’t know this is the song for hana yori dango II and the interpretation from the website I quoted is pretty interesting huh haa
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