i realli wud like to apologize to my fren coz i kinda caused her to crash her bumper into a pillar
sorry abt tt
i realli tot the car had enuff dist to turn so i told her, "can, can.." and "bam!" sigh
im realli sorrie

paiseh to serene oso
the flower hunt was cancelled coz of mi

aniwae spent damn alot of $$ on bks
they were so heavy i cudnt move them so i got my bro to cum pick mi
waited at the lobby of panpacific hotel the guard's q nice

met a lady whu haf tt same pair of 3" heels tt i haf
its been such a long time since i saw anione whu has exactly the same pair of shoe as i do

was in a rather bad mood the whole sat
guilt i guess
i started to tink whether it's coz im always so frivolous, haha, nonsense tt caused the damage this time
always relaxed, laid bk, take things as they cum
do stupid things to make pple laugh
or sumhow they like to laugh at wat i say wat i do even when i didnt mean to make them laugh
i guess this is my default mode
but is it bad?
i can get v dark n gloomy and send off bad vibes when im in a shitty mood

mayb i shud tone down
take things more seriously
n jus shut tt trap of mine sumtimes
then i wont b hilarious in a bad way rite haha

dont noe la
been hiding at home most of the time
feel like calling pple, meetg up, catching up abit but jus cant perk myself up to go do it
but
im PACKING MY RM!
ha

the routine for those whu noe mi
i do it aft everi sch yr
tink it ll take q long haha

i finish the whole set of hana yori dango aka meteor garden tt liv lent mi a yr ago :p
wa took like 3-4 days
she took 11 yrs to draw all tt
wow
it started in 1990!
no wonder i always tot the fashion in tt comic was abit
then they had pagers
then handphones
haha can even see techo development in comic
n fashion evolving
oh i read the little columns the writer wrote
the first cd n cassette thing had kimura as hanazawa rui's voice
im dying to hear!!
haha
was craving for tt fam voice tt i went to watch gd luck today heh

they had naohito fujiki as rui in the movie oso
feel like watching too
did all those little tests at the bk of the comic
both tests said the f4 guy tt suits mi most is rui
O_o"
he so stone ? hahah
but i like the fact tt he boh huet anione except those pple he like, he like to sleep n watch tv (heh similar ) n if he has kimura's voice?!?
i prefer pple who noe wat they wan like domyoji
im going crazy over the comic la
glad tt i finally finish reading it the 2nd time
liv, going to return u soon la

as im tying this 93.3 is playing ni yao de ai
the penny dai's song
tt is the ending theme song for liu xing hua yuan
its a sign
haha
scary coincidence

jus like my horoscope on sat says im in for a bumpy rite tt day
n true enuff heh

walaue

bk to packing my rm!

I went for a swim today. The public pool is terrible. I think it has gotten from bad to worse, as I would safely say that the water was murky. I tried to comfort myself my thinking that the sun wasn't up and light hasn't entered the pool, so it isn't really that bad. But after a couple of laps, my sensitive-to-dirty-stuff skin started itching like nobody's business.
I saw many floating particles, including hair, flakes of skin and whatnots.
I decided to press on anyway to hit my target of 40laps, but after 26 my bladder was so freaking full that it felt like bursting. I didn't entertain that fleeting thought of peeing there n then. haha. O_o"
So i got out of the pool, went the loo, and was back in the pool soon after. Then i met a "water hantu" aka "shui gui"
A little one at least.
A young boy grabbed my ankle, when i swam past his path, that realli startled me, and my reflex action was to kick haha
Guess my S1,2 Archilles tendon reflex was triggered although he didn't exactly tap my Archilles tendon.
I really thought it was a water hantu but i wasnt in the end.
Think i scared the little boy and his dad/granddad who was standing by the pool looking at him swim and when i came back after one lap, they both packed up and left. O_o"
I remember quite vivdly that I didnt kick him at all so I hope he is ok and not feeling terribly traumatized.
What an exciting swimming experience haha
I hurriedly finished my remaining 14laps and went home as the sky was really dark and gloomy and it was about to pour.

- THE END-

i still feel tt i cant write naturally w perfect eng
macam like pri sch compo lidat sigh

On a lighter note, I have decided to try typing in good English, since everyone who read my blog seem to think that my command of English is terrible. I realized that I have a very hard time typing in complete sentences, since my thoughts usually appear in words or short phrases and since GP is gone for good in my life, I might just as well type in any way i want.
(That is a terribly long sentence)

PDCD is coming up in a couple of weeks time and "oh my god!" I have to write essays to pass the freaking exam, although peiyun mentioned the other day that the format of the test might have changed to MCQ.
Just to be on the safe side, I have better start learning how to write properly once again.

damn this is getting on my nerves.
watever

since i cant seem to get down to concentrating on biochem today i might as well write sumthing
was tinking of writing this all down after EVERITHING is over
but i guess it ll onli b over on 3 may n tts still q far away

the most harrowing experience of my life
mi n my stupidity
mi n my laziness
mi being a weakling
mi tinkg tt i cant bear all this animore

crap
it started during ca2 prep i guess
so mani things to rem i jus cant rem
so mani things to stardeee
no time no time no time
stress of exam
then ca came n went
in n out of depression
jus sitting at my table n cry
coz i cant take it
feel small whiney n stupid
aft the physio paper i knew i failed it

fuck
cried my way home hope no one saw
stardee again for anat
came n went
thanx to the tips frm the profs
it was ok
lifted my spirits abit n went home to sleep
got onto the wrong lrt blah blah
watched hitch

soon huayu was bk
im happi
three wks to pros
stress level rose once again
stardee stress depress cry whine go hysterical stardee again cry summore
i tink im going crazy
crossing out the days one by one
one wk left
i haf no time animore
yank my hair out until i tink im going bald
my mama sweep oso shock so much hair on the floor
no lunch everidae
cant eat
too depress
bit my fingers my lips
til the fingers flaky flaky skin n start bleed
it hurt so much tt i cudnt write animore
kept sucking my own bld frm my lips
kept picking on the zits on my face
cant bear to sleep everidae

pros came n left
last mon tue wed
b4 the paper
bouts of hysteria
i haf no time
i cant finish
i cant rem
i hate my self n i want to die - copywrited frm sumone but kept going thru my head
i cant take it animore

first thing on monday
everione says
huimin u look v stress
i noe
im v stressed
worried tt i wont do well
worried tt i need to go for viva
worried tt i need to go for supp
worried tt i fail supp n retain
worried tt i need to go on my knees to beg ocbc to continue gifing mi my scholarship
worried tt i fail
worried tt i cant take it when i fail
worried abt everithing on this world

cry like some whiney crap
coz everione at home to worry
acted like a freaky baby
wanted everione to sayang mi n tell mi it ll b fine
then ill feel bad toward my parent n cry even more

didnt noe how tt three days came n went
went home of wed to sleep everione went out to play
i need to stardee more for viva for supp i dunnoe
slept
awoken to continue worrying
cry
slept again
delirious i cant tink str

tok to xiangyun whu tried so hard to cheer mi up
tok to huayu whu was given the ardous task by my parents to comfort mi
whu can comfort mi
searching for sumone to save mi
no one can

got bk to stardeeing the next day
slow progress
slow
worries cant stop tinking abt the namelist for vivas
if i c my name on it how
if i go for supp how
actualli i noe i jus need to face the reality and get a life
go then go rite
shit scared like shit

budden
how?
dunnoe
py came by to stardee w mi for 2 days
i stardee but i dont learn
i cant commit stuff welll to memory coz i dont keep tinking abt them n draw links
i mus learn

tot the physio wud b out on fri
i didnt
tot the physio wud b out on mon
i didnt
ok tue confirm anat viva list out
scared liike shit again
coz my most confident subj
if im going for vivas for anat
the rest is dead

went to sch yest
cried like shit again b4 i left
scared like shit again on my bros van

py called my name isnt on it
heng
i cudnt believe kept running thru the list
its not there
shudnt haf to go for supp la
i cleared anat

physio is out too at 11+
cudnt breathe veri well on the way to the board
held my breath my name is not there

the little worry at the bk of my head
am i a direct supp?
alex say its rare unless u realli didnt do the paper
caleb say shudnt haf to go unless u noe u failed terribly for pros
i tried to calculate how i can get less than 40%
i need to get less than 46/120 to go for direct supp
q hard rite
but i never noe
i feel ok abt the final paper at least for the last 80 marks at the bk
but i never noe rite
feeling ok might not b ok
so shit
the direct supp list ll onli b out on 3may
till then haah

biochem is not out
i dunnoe im worried
im studyign but im slacking
shit shit
im studying la
aft i stop typing this

tried praying seriously the first time in my life
to tt mighty being out there
i learnt my lesson i did
pls let mi pass this time
pls jus let mi pass
can?

no name on the viva
r my prayers ansewered?
i dunnoe
biochem how?
i gotta study

my horoscope yest says -
That long, strange trip you've been on? Its about to come to a rapid-fire close - over the next 72hrs. Doesn't sound quick - unless you consider the past three long, strange weeks you've been enduring.

omg does it mean tt biochem viva list ll b out by tmr
i ll clear n i wont haf to go sup
a rapid fire close
serene sure has influenced mi to read into horoscope
lets hope its true

but like i told my bro
i deserved it all la
i did study
realli for m1 yr
alot harder than in jc liao
but it jus didnt seem good enuff
coz guess wat
huimin barely studied in jc ha
didnt even noe how i got my As result to b gd enuff
im didnt go good enuff

next yr if ever i land myself in such a situation again
i haf given the right to ppl close to mi
jus slap mi rite across the face to ask mi to wake up my idea
next yr im so not going to worry for pass fail vivas or supp
im going to get everithing str everiday
no cuming home to sleep coz im too tired nothing of tt sort

stop being a whiney lousy freak
tt scared ur whole fam
ur poor mum n dad
whu haf to worry for mi at work
scared i kill myself
my poor bros whu tried all their means to cheer mi up
to help mi in aniway
stop being a liability
my mama says she believes tt im smart
m i?

hopefully
she say im always v zai b4 exams
y this time so jialat
she doesnt wan to c it again
i dont wan to c it oso

i cant recognize myself in the mirror
im wasting away
lost 4kg studying in three wks hha

wat the helll
im going to concentrate on biochem now
hope my name is not on the list
hope its all over in 72hrs frm yest

but my heart ll b weighted until 3may
jus let mi pass this time
pls

-13/4/05


since i told myself i wud onli start blogging aft the whole harrowing exp is over here it is
biochem vivas didnt haf my name aniwae
now the last worry abt direct supp
i guess wat e hell if i haf to go i haf to go so i shud jus get a life and not wallow in my pathetic self inflicted misery

was relieved aft the biochem results were out so
yep
went out w gang
in py's words... my shortest skirt and my highest pair of heels
haha
jus wanted to make myself happi..

so now i wud do my stuff study summore help my bro w his stuff.. btw he's pissed off w mi coz i didnt let mi watch soccer yest sigh
and wait for 3may
if everithing is over its happiness
if everithing is not over... crap but ya life goes on

congrats to clement n terese.. :D
went to my cousins wedding ceremony / dinner on sat
i nice polite event haha
tink they r the speak english less rowdy pple so it was abit quiet la
jus like a nice sweet family gathering
when they went up on stage it was cheers.. instead of yum sheng haha
when they went ard to toast at each table no yum sheng oso
until..
they came to my table haha
the jokers of the nite award go to my 5th uncle n of coz my dad
hahah
they jus cant tahan the quiet and started to get more rowdy...
n the whole table yum sheng-ed n unison
the 2 cute uncles haha
we were so amused

its nice to see all my aunties n uncles kinda tipsy coz they were so happi for the auntie whu became a mother in law
my dad held his sister's hand n told her, ".. altho we siblings r close, we seldom see each other, but im realli happy for you tonight, happi to see clementi grow up frm a baby to him getting married now, im realli happi for you and these words come from the bottom of my heart..."

wa i was super touched by my dads speech to his sis

i m realli happi for my cousin too
my most vivid memory of him was he witnessing mi slip and fall during CNY one yr when i was q young coz i was running ard in my socks in his kitchen
its the kinda situation i dont wan to b caught dead in
n jus i was pickg myself up tinking heng ar no one was in the kitchen
he was there standing at the doorway
hahah
tink he mus b um-chio ing inside but didnt laugh into my face
i wud haf laughed out loud if i saw anithing lidat haha
i was realli young then
but this kinda embarassing situation.. i wud never forget in my life

so this is my cousin
a nice and gentle guy
ok sumone i c like twice a yr.. barely haf chance to tok but
yea i m realli happi for him

and the impressive thing was
at the end of the nite when everione queue up to congragulate the couple he was like abit drunk n red faced but he still recongize mi n thank mi for cuming haha

my dad
aiyah
downed 8glasses of beer and 2 glasses of red wine
argh
sigh

met a yr2 mo whu is a realli distant cousin
and he says he has a bro in m5
wat a small world

my cousins bestman knew him since pri 1 like more than 20yrs
his speech was nice
nice to haf such long lasting frens i tink
hope i can keep my frens lidat too :D

i love to attend weddings
haha
this is a more elegant one but tink abit more rowdiness wud b better :D
looking forward to attending the next joyous celebration..

did a good deed today
at dhoby ghaut mrt jus now then saw a 20+ girl walking weirdly coz she took off the bk part of her shoes and walking n dragging her shoes along
prob a new pair then scrapping the skin off her heel la
i got plaster in my bag
a habit i cultivated frm trngs last time
then hor i dunnoe wan to gif her not
like so paiseh stop in the middle of the road to seach n pass plaster to a stranger?!
haha
in the end i search while i walked found it
coz she was standing on the travellator resting her poor feet and making tong ku exp to her fren
she i jus turn to her and stuck out my hand w 2 plasters
i spoke in chinese leh coz she look like shes frm china
but she say thank you 2 in and accented voice
hmm either she dont speak chinese or didnt understood mi
mayb shes korean? haha
yep aniway she gave mi grateful eyes
but i was too paiseh to hang ard
so i jus smiled n walked on..
didnt miss my trains aft tt mayb it coz i did a good deed

haha watching some interview w a hongkong actor
the aubai in lu ding ji?
the big beard guy in alot of movies always the bad guy
omg
his voice is so incompatible w his image
he came frm a fam of docs but he took art
hes a v sensitive and careful person
wat a soft spoken guy..

the most intersting thing abt him was how he got married to his wife
he saw her while he was eating lunch at a filming ground
he got up to her n told her his an actor so-and-so and he wanted to marry her
jus lidat
omg ahha
she told him i dont noe u its impossible and left

1/2 a yr later
they met again in beijing (the last time was yunnan)
while he was filming
he told her tt he wud propose to her one wk later at the same time at the same place they met the first time
the girl didnt tink too much jus went to look c
he was there and they went to register marriage tt day
?!?

wat a weird couple

later chow yun fatt his fren told him he know y he married the girl jus by looking at her once
coz she bears a striking resemblance to most of the ladies tt he draws in his paitings... (rem he took art?)
photo - painting comparison
uncanny resemblance

such things realli exist?
hmm

macam like savage garden singing
" i knew i loved u before i met u"

wa their yuanfen is wow... :)

`happy birthday to xiangyun and huixian :)

arrrgggggghhhhhhhh 

jus came bk frm dinner to celeb my mama bdae haha
wa im so damn full now
attacked lots of crab feet :P
my dads fren pick the tab wow steady sia
hahah
i tink this is the kinda buddy buddy fren fren thing tt my dad shares w his fren
tt caleb mentioned
like they ll jus go pay whenver they eat together like sumtimes its u sumtimes its mi
:)

our neighbour table got 3 old uncle/old men la
then hor tink they eat full full liao drink happi happi liao
wa lao one guy jus lean on the bk of his chair and put his elbow on my mamas chair leh which is right behind his?!?
i was damn pissed off la
coz my mama kinda move the chair abit to hint hor
he still put his freaking elbow there
hmm
i jus moved my chair over and ask my mama to shift her chair nearer mi in big movements..
she looked kinda helpless
wa i jus said damn loudly to ask her to move right now
gifing the guy the dirtiest look i can tink off
tink he happen to turn ard
and our eyes meet
i glare at him w all my might
and tink he paiseh n shifted immed
even move his chair q far away frm my mama
dunnoe y i was so pissed
i almost wanted to throw my chopsticks lor
dare to bully my mama
tink she auntie scared u issit..
hmph
>:p
my mama later say she see mi so fierce she scared
n bro say skarli next time i kena chop by gangsters haha
dunnoe wat got over mi tho..
i always say, " never get intimidated" ..

another horror terrible thing i did on the rd once again
took a wrong turn out frm pasir ris and hit tpe tt was going in the wrong direction
nvm
went bk to pasir ris
drive drive abit n stopped at the traffic light
to my horror
i jus missed the turn to the right way
haha
guess wat i did
i reversed at the traffic light
aft i check tt theres no oncuming traffic haha
can see frm far far got sum cars charging towards mi liao
kanchiong like shit but still reversed..
then bro say no no not enuff
i say enuff enuff and wan to turn into the slip rd
but whu noes the car stalled
awww
when i was in the most awkward position w my car butt blking everiones way out to tpe
try again again again
stalled x3
haha
n realized in my kanchiong spider -ness
left my gear in third...
how to start ??
omg
my bro say its 3/10
haiyah
ill do better next time
tts y ... i need to drive more :D

us at my place w dage aka dangerous driver in bkground! 

mi py n jing at angels place 

us at mando's place!!.. the little ones sitting down n the three giants standing hahaa 

gang at my place *note my heng heng huat cai red shorts!! haha

supercute nephew lucas :D 

family photo on chuyi 

better jot this down before i forget...
since CNY is cuming to an end haha
i wud say i had a very enjoyable CNy this yr
altho didnt do aniwork for tt whole wk until i had to rush to finish one anat and two physio tut the nite b4 the whole of this wk
so stress until i had to try all sorts of funni mthd to keep awake at nite haha
sianz

budden CNY was good la i guess
apart frm the usual relatives visinting
went to attack huayus house on fri last wk to get angbao
hope her mama didnt tink we were angbao faced
coz i jus rang her up n happy new year-ed her and asked if we cud visit her
altho the angbao was of coz a factor but realli felt like saying hallo to huayus mama since we visited her the yr b4 as well
altho this time w/o hua yu ard la
haha there was the usual listening to uncle tok and nodding politely
then they was of coz mi wanting to try all sorts of CNY goodies but serene n py werent interested then scared her mama tink im tam - jak gui haha
oh n i knocked her curb when i was trying to part when i reached
her dad n erge saw lor sigh
boh pian la neva tried parking at landed property b4 mah.. i do fine at multi storey carparks lor haha

then the rest of gang came over
py had her dinner based on the menu tt she requested
like fried rice and egg w luncheon meet
a failed karaoke session at my house sining to jaychou mtv w bad sound system
n of coz gambling frm a pool of 40c it snowballed to 10+ bucks
\wa tt is a freaking exciting game tt made mi lose 100 bucks in a blink of an eye the day b4 but
haha my loss were absorbed by my er ge so it was ok

we went to send py to the bus stop and on the way bk we were at the bball court trying to play
in the end the gang had the closest encounter w MATAs!!
who took down our names sigh
ahah
fel took note of their names tho
but aiyoh neighbourhood mata wat can they do to use good citizens who were playign bball at 11pm...
ok la abit in considerate but i read the signboard liao they cudn't fine us ;p
nvm

the next day was down to mandos house
was all set and ready to take bus down when my bro say he not using van i can use
wa damn freaking stress
coz i neva drove the van out alone b4
but i was tinking if i cant do it now
i ll neva b able to drive alone
aft tt horrifying exp i had the other time haha
but as usual my driving prob is i buay kai si
n my bro n dad realli trust mi enuff to gif mi car/van keys
so of coz i haf to da - san -san (=brave brave)
and drive out alone lor
the first mishap was at the carpark... i was jus driving on one level going to go down to the next when i dropped my hp at the side of the seat
i onli bent down to retrieve my hp for like one sec
n when i look up i was damn near a car tt was parked lor
wa!
i jus zam brake immed
and stopped sooo near tt car
then i was damn freak n took like a 2min breather b4 i slowly reversed and moved bk on tract
to mandos house was surprisingly ok
altho i was damn hum at the beginning and drove at like 60kmh even w no cars ard haha
i accidentally entered the taxi stand until so taxi uncle glare at mi coz i took his space
but aiyoh.. later managed to wait safely at sum pick up pt la

haha
at mandos house we lao yusheng and nua in her rm
miss the days where judo gals jus lie ard on the mats doing stupid things
but yea ate damn alot coz lunch her maam cooked us some duck dish tt is like restaurant standard lor wa super cool

then aft ice cream was time to head to my house haha
the 5 of them packed themselves into my van
and off we go w mando in front to show the way out...
beside them screaming at mi beating ONE red light
nothing else happened so
haha
heng ar

stuffed ourselves silly once again
and played all sorts of card games tt we used to play at nite in trng camps
of coz got huiyis fave name game when we jus scream at each other

then my bro drove them bk to where they wanted to go
on a super bumpy and dangerous ride tt onli carol enjoyed and freaked xinyi out alot alot
im jus used to it liao la hahha

sunday my tut kids came for tut and they ate damn alot of my quality street chocolates
wa q scary
i dont mind the food being gone
but they were more interested in the food then their math tb lor
but cNY i mus not scold but i warn them next time better not

then went to angels house and had lots of fun
the food was good
my second yusheng
n learnt abit abt angels secret drink receipe haha
n learnt nerds!!
a v exciting game tho haha
and q a ride bk home hitching eugene's ride
but ahem
we got kinda veri veri lost
and haha frm eunos to sengkang
we bypassed chinatown and neared nus and almost went bk to tampines la k
ahem haha
but i was grateful for the ride anihow

went for one BS
wasnt as intimidating as i tot
but got mi interested to reading the bible more
not for anithing but jus tt the stories in there's q intersting
faith is not the upmost on my list now tho
hmm i dunnoe la
but looking forward to the next session tho
haf yet to do sumthing for xiangyun :P but her bdae cuming!!

stayed at the anat museum everiday aft sch
sigh
tyring to finish the slides tt i neva seem to b able to shit la
no time no time no time damn stress
was toking to mando xian n carol over lunch yest
of coz xian n carol had fun on vday
haha mando went home
n i stayed in the anat museum until they chased mi out at 6 lor
lonely?
no la
tt wasnt on my mind at all
altho abit sad to step into my 20s lidat but haha
boh pian rite
nvm
cant realli be bothered abt such things now coz

CAs is in 2 wks
arggghhhhhhhhh
time to hit the books again!
:s
gambarimasu!

and of coz the most exciting day of the wk was on 17/2/04
where mi and serene and marcus shared our little secret
aheheh
yes serene *clinking of glasses* heres a toast to 8 yrs of frenship tt ll onli get worse rite?
haha :D

today still going to celeb mama's bdae w dinner at punggol :D

瓦 解
歌手:南拳 妈妈
专辑:南拳 妈妈的夏天
瓦解
词:弹头
曲:周杰伦
编 曲:锺兴 民
宇豪 :说着 笑着的午后
钟 声一直在停 留
风声静 静 躺着在诱 惑
我一个人在角落
没有你陪伴的我
连寂寞都笑我太 堕 落
弹头 : 广场旁边的烟 囱
烟 雾 弥漫你面容
我悄悄背 颂 你 的温柔
喝着加 温后的 啤 酒
这样唯美的 镜头
是否只存在故事之中
豪+弹:在你的身后
时间 把过去带走
时间把镜头带 走
不假思索
回 忆不放手好
想在跟 你牵着手
牵着你给我的 温柔
哭过以后眼 泪还是不停的流
在你身后
时间把 画 面带走
时间把 镜头带 走
不假思索
回 忆不放手好
想在跟 你牵着手
牵着曾有过的温柔
哭过以后眼 泪还是不停的的流
遇见彩虹雨下 过之后
街角出 现 彩虹
泪流乾之后
有彩虹

CNY jus passed mi by so quickly haha
visting ^ 100000
tired sia
but had alot o fun
realize tt the elders r alot older and i haf kinda grown up...
a couple of new additions to the fam
more baby nephews haha
lucas is so cute!

alot of the elders seem older
but its a happi festive festival
realli realli like CNY
but guess i ll haf to wait another year haha

more celebrations to come on the wkend
but well...
visiting of fam membs kinda finish liao

a more relaxed newyr
we take things more slowly
less chiong-ing here n there
coz less pple to visit (altho its not anithing good but..)
my dad asked mi to tok to the elders more
and haha yea tink i shud do tt more
suddenly realize tt my ahgong is alot alot older hmm
still happi and smiley though..
jus feel a sense of ending at the beginning of the yr
haha
do i like chinese new year or do i love chinese new yr!
its realli pple, relatives, well wishes

offhand
i wish..
tt ahgong ll b in good health
tt everione ll haf a good yr ahead w lotsa happiness
tt kids ll enjoy sch, nephews like damien, darren, benedict, brandon, nieces like sarah, shirlyeen... mani mani more
tt cousins whu r embarking into more diversed stuff besides studying haha haf a good yr ahead too..
dunnoe la

i watched sooo much tv, gorge myself crazy, impressed my auntie w the length of my skirt and the ht of my heels haha :D
feel tt i didnt tok to my cousins enuff.. hmm try again next yr la
i drove~!
now my dad kinda can get drunk all he wans coz EVERIONE at home drives now haha
my mama say im steady..
for once some one trusts my skills
*Clap*

saw a pic on my frens blog tt left mi abit zhen han though haha
jus abit la, rite?

gotta settle dowe.. pple CA is in 25days time

HAPPY NEW YEAR

haha i cant believe this.. i tried searching for the lyrics of my fav chinese new yr song.. the gong xi gong xi song? haha n i found this!

http://www.kiddyhouse.com/CNY/gongxisong.html

Smile at everyone you see
Everyone in the family
On this Happy New Year's Day
We wish you a "Kong Si", "Kong Si"
Kong Si, Kong Si, Kong Si Nee yah
Kong Si, Kong Si, Kong Si Nee

haha CNY song w english lyrics try singing everione!!! muahaha
the site even haf a midi file to listen to..
im super full aft the steamboat now
went for a stroll w my bro and dad n guess wat haah
we tried walking frm sengkang to puggol and bk and in the end we strolled for 50min.. :D

and i found this too.. frm a 27yr old guy yuhui's blog haha
same tune pple same tune!

I was sleeping on my bed,
Everyone though I was dead.
Doctor brought a coffin in,
I jumped out and he jumped in.
Gong xi, gong xi, gong xi ni.

It was such a peaceful night,
Vampire gave me a bite.
Sunrise made me feel so blue,
Now I want to bite you too.
Gong xi, gong xi, gong xi ni.

first verse was frm his sis n he came up w the 2nd one haha
abit touch wood but haha

每条大街小巷
每个人的嘴里
见面第一句 话
就是恭喜恭喜恭
喜恭喜恭喜 你呀
恭喜恭喜恭喜 你
冬天一到 尽头
真是好的消息
温暖的春 风
吹醒了大地恭
喜恭喜恭喜 你呀
恭喜恭喜恭喜 你
恭喜恭喜恭喜 你呀
恭喜恭 喜恭喜 你
皓皓冰雪溶解眼
看梅花吐蕊慢
慢花也活 络
听到一声 鸡啼
恭喜恭喜恭喜 你呀
恭喜恭喜恭喜 你
经过多少困 难
经历多少磨 练
多少心 儿盼望
春天的消息恭
喜恭喜恭喜 你呀
恭喜恭喜恭喜 你
恭喜恭喜恭喜 你 呀
恭喜恭喜恭喜 你
this is my fav CNY songs coz i love the lyrics.. haa since pri sch;..
enjoy pple!

haha 

haha these r the 2 pple i met at chinatown w my parents... yeshipin n liangtian haha 

no 2... my new jap fav.. the guy tt i saw whu loook like him stays near mi leh haha he's kenji sakaguchi.. py serene mel! he's the guy in pride whu fell down the escalator and had a pool of bld growing under his head? haha the lookalike got tt pattern la dark tall hmm :)

i actualli saw three guys whu look like three actors earlier this wk.. i saw the three of them one on the lrt.. one at the nus sci centre busstop another along the rd near my house.. haha
firstly.. this is the korean actor frm glass slippers... soh ji sup i saw him on the lrt.. tt eyes tt look 2D haha damn jialat
they look like they were drawn on paper cut out n pasted on his face rite haha

lastly... ichikawa somegoro.. haha he acted in pride oso but i saw a thinner version of him in nus! haha tt guy got the same sleepy small eyes like cannot open lidat hee  

dilemma
being a good fren.. bearing hurt
i knew nothing was ok
i knew it when i heard, "actualli cum tink of it i dont need ur support"
i knew sumthing was falling apart but i dont noe how to hold on
so
i let things b?

mayb its my fault
everithing time i say it the line tt flash across my head is, "as usual rite"
i have gathered tt no matter wat i do sumone ll get hurt sumone ll b angry sumone ll...
then how
mayb tts y in midnite club, ilonka's fren (wats her name?) wanted a twin so badly so tt she cud b at 2 places at the same time

selfishness?
i dunnoe
how
mayb this is the chance for mi to prac sum decision making skills since my profession demands it anitime aniwhere
ha

i tried v hard
at least in my conscious state
do things tt make pple happi
treat others the way i wan to b treated
tts always the basic principle i live by

but sumhow
i dunnoe
everithing seems wrong
everithing seems wrong

whu can i ask to teach mi how to hold things together
u were holding bk ur tears
mayb im now too
( i suck at it man)

y issit tt the same issuse always arise
n i always seem to screw things up

things can go either way
jus on a decision i make
but sumone ard mi ll feel sum bad vibes sum hurt?

jus tt one nite
tt one sunday nite
i heard frm three pple had 3 phonecalls
3 diff issuses at hand
of which onli one involved mi
but i listen i advice i hear i try to help
i do

like i told a friend
i seem to hold alot of secrets for alot of pple
and at the same time i hold my own secrets
everi single one of it
coz as usual
huimin dwells she doesnt whine

not as if no one had asked mi how i felt b4
mayb its jus not in my bld
not a habit
not a choice

im so bottled up
i might look like a cushingnoid one dae

watever
2yrs of nightmare admist of all the joy i had came bk to haunt mi in a nite
but
i always do wat i jus decide to do on the spot
too mani considerations
too much of a dilemma

watever
the day is over
i enjoyed my day

congratulations
sorrie for ani hurt caused
but daoming shi ll say, " dao qian you yong de hua yao jing cha lai gan ma"

the obvious dist over the hp was sensed

haha since my airen complained abt my jap here's sumthing in eng
i had a realli fun n exciting hari raya papaya ( fel n serene copyrighted)

i brought my parents out on a chinatown trip!!
at first when my dad suggested going down by mrt to look c look c i was like still ok

it onli hit mi when i was walked towards the lrt station w two pple tt add up their age almost hitting 100 liao haha
i suddenly realised tt was the first time in my life tt i ever did sumthing lidat

i guess like my mama always say " shio lork sun sei"
meaning its v easy to dote on pple younger
but to dote on ur elders seem to b a harder thing to do

aniwae we went to the lrt station
haha n my dad cudnt get in w his ezlink!
haha tt was the first time he went to the lrt place i guess
own transport all the time mah
i laugh like siao
then he looked at everithing at the station w wonder in his eyes

n guess wat
my parents chatted the green smrt person up
haha
they toktok
my mama even roped a stranger waiting for the lrt into their conservation

omg
i was q amazed how they cud tok to strangers lidat
now i noe where i got my extrovert bit frm

then my dad did sumthing i always do
hhahahahaha
he stepped over the yellow line
to testing testing see got camera c him or not
hahaha
i always do tt rite py?
see how long i can stand there b4 the announcement sound
then the green man toking to us
was rather shocked n ask him to hurry step bk
my mama jus tell him, "first timer la first timer paiseh"

omg
my journey barely started
we reached the mrt station.. i was trying to explain to them tt we shud stand on the left side so tt pple can walk down mah
then on the last flight of escalator b4 reaching the train
i saw tt the train was here
reflex got mi running down
n i realized tt i left my parents on top of the escalators
haha
my mama more public transport savvy
got down q quickly behind mi
then my dad was stranded haha
i tink he not used to standing on stuff tt move under him u c
then he was like frozen
we tried to hurry him
coz we were standing at the door liao
budden when he started climbing down
he stretched out both hands to hold on to both sides of the escalator la
w/o realizing he jus blked two teenages trying to run for the train
they paiseh to cui this uncle i tink
so they jus stood helplessly n saw the train left w/o them
i wanted to tell my dad to sian for them but he was too engrossed balancing
then he finally came down
i was laughing like siao coz the sight of my dad blking those 2 kids behind was hilarious
but i realized tt i shudnt haf ran for tt train
it was too dangerous for my parents la
my thoughtless ness
the return trip we jus gelek gelek took our time la

the train ride was ok
i macam tour guide explain this n tt to them

then we reach chinatown
wa
seh
the crowd is tremendous
like wave lidat
crowd crowd crowd everiwhere!!

my parents sian abit i can tell
haha but they seem to ying chou mi n stayed smiley hee
then we started crowd squeezing

wa buay tahan
we hopped into the heritage museum
then we looked at the little little oldie stuff tt my parents had sum fun laughing over
i saw tt fish thing tt we bought frm china
guess wat was the selling price?
9.90
its 10x the china price lor

aniwae we got bk into the crowd
and we got stuck in a human traffic jam
some uncle kept stepping on my slipper until i cant move forward
everione was complaining
n i was rolling rolling my eyes tinking, 'singporeans hmph'
then a auntie behind my mama started talking to her
she say,"aiyoh so mani pple, hai.. if we got qing gong then good hor, then we can fly above the crowd.."
i was like ?!?!
i jus laughed my head off damn loudly la
she was realli funni leh
then she went on n on wat kind of the powers we can haf to go against the crowd..
wa auntie
u win!

then we finally squeezed our way thru tt one street
all o us were exhausted liao
as a matter of fact
i barely saw anithing

ahaha
nvm
the ambience n atmospehere rite

then my dad decided tt he's not going bk the same way to the mrt liao
so we pressed on
walking along the main rd
n we saw 2 media corp actors
the old man
n the beard guy whu wear specs
i ll try to find their pix la

u noe wat my mama did???
she jus said damn loudly when they walked past her, " eh yan yuan... eh.."
to tell mi la
it kinda attracted everione ard 's attention
haha i didnt help by laughing super loudly too
i cudnt believe she jus did tt
the two of them were shocked lor
then the old man smiled but the other beard guy was erm still shocked haha

we pressed on
tiger beer was on sale
10 for $24.4o
so my dad bought 20
n they gave out free giant poker cards, 4 lucky no, n can take polariods w cai shen ye
so we took one w the three of us
i jus pulled my dad along
coz he paiseh dowan dowan
coz everione passing by stared
but whu cares
haha
actualli only can take one
of coz my mama insisted tt we bought 2 pax so can take two la
the promoter scared her n we took agaiN!!
haha
i insisted tt they put the pix in their wallets on the way home! :D

we bought some new yr goodies 1 box $1
wa damn cheap
quality passable la

then my dad say wat to outram la
so we went in tt direction
on the way so ppl singing operas, doing acrobat stuff
interesting
then we hungry went to sum da pai dang for supper...
the foods q good all the dim stuff n hk stuff

then we went home my dad kept saying he how smart go outram so we were one stop infont of chinatown n can get seats

yes yes sir
haha n we finally made our way home
both my parents say next yr
invite them to go they oso dun wan to go liao
haha i tink so too
better watch the crowd on tv on cny eve n laugh at them at the comfort of my home

aniwae i realli had alot of fun
wat a great way to spend a public hol
w my parents
sumthing tt mi n my bros stopped doing since?
i cant rem
now roles haf changed i guess
my parents used to bring us out
mayb now its our turn to bring them out rite?

when i jus reached chinatown
my mama asked mi to hold on to her hand tight
so tt i wont get lost in the crowd
then i told her i cud easily make my way home w my eyes closed lor
its my parents whom im worried abt getting lost in the crowd
of coz my dad ll say taxi sure can go home

but yea
they took so mani yrs to bring us up huh :D
im no longer a kid tt they worry abt getting lost in the crowd n crying
they r not so young animore oso
yrs past by q quickly i guess
they still tink im sum baby haha they say tt tot wont go away till they *** (choy)

i learnt fried rice twaytiao konyaku jelly these two days haha
one day one day ill b able to cook on my own!
i guess the most evident thing tt the china trip changed mi was aroused my interest in cooking
much to my mama's pleasant surprise
but seeing jing n jenheng cook so well
i oso oso wan to learn!

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im back frm china n haf survived one wk of sch
heh
the china trip was v fun
exposed mi to new weather environment pple thinking food...
so mani so mani experiences..

wow
felt slightly diff when i was there
hope to b more aware of it la huh

spent the new yr eve n day there
so when i came bk spore
everithing in yunnan seemed like a dream
including the passing of the yr
hahah so i tink i ll b stuck in 2004 mode for some time

7wks n 2days to ca2 n counting
sigh
mayb i need nkf to teach mi abt kidneys since pseudo allan woo is making mi blur-er by the day

jialat
sameul tay is actualli q nice n cute
i ll always rem tt dorsal root ganglion contains pseudo unipolar cell bodies
work is piling up huimin.. sigh

cough n lao-sai abit abit since i return
but recovering
hope py n jh recover soon too

met the yunnan pple today..
haah q a few of them
at first was abit paiseh to ktv w so mani pple
not as crazy n ah siao as w judogals gang or cousins la
hah but q fun la

went sleazy ktv when it is not so sleazy so not so bad
dinner at holland v was ok onli
the suan la tang wasnt suan n la enuff wat can i say?
and the xiaolong tang bao didnt haf tang in it cheat my feelings

tmr is the day for serene
hope she has fun :)

im sleepy but i dont feel like sleepg?
mayb im too excited abt the yunnan trip? tot i usually onli get the gitters of overseas trips the nite b4
mayb im enjoying the last nite tt i can stay up late n w nothing much on tmr
damn i haf tuition at 10am
夜深人 静
i like it at nite when there is no body to fan mi
but 寂静 与 寂寞
也只是一 线 之差
suddenly feel gratful tt i haf siblings
both my bro r out partying
onli mi n my parents to tok to
no one to crap w mi
no one to open my door n ask mi y i still not asleep
no one to quarrel w mi
no one to disturb mi

jus one nite haha
y i suddenly so 多愁善感？？
haha 93.3 is not helpg

i like quiet moments w myself but quiet at this moment seem abit overwhelming
y
i dont noe
mayb is the aftermath of watching long taiwanese serial haha
like angel tellg mi jus now
nothing to look forward to liao
its true
sum weird sense of emptyness
haha y do i like to watch tv so much?
my da ge always ask mi
when u peer into the tv
it brings u to another world
another place
u live the life of the the characters inside
like some omnipotent third invisible party
lookg at things happening

u leave ur reality
i forget my own life a while, while im watching
tt's y i tell my family not to distrub mi when i watch tv haha
it comes into the package of escape or denial when u need it
i need neither of these now but well.. haha

when a serial end
u haf to pick up ur life where u left it off
scary rite
mayb tt's y i hafg a sleepless nite on a silent nite
silent nite holy nite
haha apt for boxing day huh

im v tired my eyelids r closing

2004
cant realli bare to leave it behind
so mani new happening things happened
ended As
free until wa buay tahan
enjoyed life like taitai
shopping shopping go out like no one's buisness
gunbound till the next day

its onli 230am?

start to work
tuition tuition tuition
no collegues
met mani pple mani families mani kids
relief teaching
realized childhood ambition
teaching + tuition + teaching + tuition
slogged my ass off
earned my first XK

went for my first interview
scared like shit
work
function alone w/o fren for sum time
workaholic syndrom
tiredness unhappiness

resolved issuses
salvaged frenships
met long-time-no-see fren
first pair of 3-inch heels
met mr wierd at sentosa haha

got into medicine
happiness
sch started again
new environ
new frens
adaptation adaptation adaptation
didnt take long as usual

medicamp
brought bk some orientation memories
haha jus like the rj vcd we watched when gang came to stay over tt day
jc orientation is always special
one special nite
2yr long preoccupation
let it go liao?

cadavers w mushroom ears
mushroom pot n felika bdae!!

serene! yuan you hui is on 93.3 now hahaha
yuan you hui heng hao ting!

ok
mugging mugging
never studied so hard in my life but i guess not hard enuff
boohoo
harder harder mus try la

dad one yr anniversary for quitting smoking
mum ask mi wat i wud rem of her if she dies..
i said her nagging her noise haha
she was like eh!
actualli meant her everithing la
love niceness
but i cud never realli say it out
im a old-fashioned person i guess haha
sum lao kok kok person whu cant express love to fam out in words
heh
but i tink action n speech shows it here n there la
hope my parents dont go for explicit expression of love coz their daughter has sum prob w tt
but wat a qn my mama posed
a tinge of sadness in the air
glad to haf my family
i tink i cant b brave like my fren to tahan when her mama passed away
i wud jus dysfunction i guess if ani of my fam got anithing
at least at this pt la

2004 ending
im entering my 20s
eek
sigh dun wan la
i got 5mth n 4 days?
sigh sigh
y cant i stay in my 10s?
my bro say he's in his quarter life crisis so i shud shut up haha
cant help it la
going to pass my 10s w/o finding it
有点可惜
but i ll wait then
10 more yrs till aft my 20s?? haha
ll i gif up then? wont la 30 v old meh

hahah
this yr passed so fast
got a feelg tt b4 long i ll b in my 80s
wheezing n coughing
argh
seize the day?
haha

the new yr is approaching
kids r born
pple die
everi min

my warp theory of there is sumone whu look exactly like me on the other side of the world
ll it still stand?
i haf no explanation
i jus feel tt way haha

i shud sleep
or else 2.5hr of tuition feelg sleepy n teaching emath is no joke

MERRY CHRISTMAS

had a lot of fun yest at serene's house.. great way to spend xmas eve too w/o crowds n sweaty strangers...
thanx to serene n xinyi for preparing the nice 'candlelight' dinner n the great company la.. peiyun too

jus finish watching the rose 蔷薇之恋!!
haha thanx beng for lending me... i tink its realli a nice show haha
wat a show filled w incest n damn funni
yes serene its incestuous not incestful haha
since i got it on monday haf been sleepg at abt 5am everiday watching it so now when its finally finished there's this emptiness sigh
a feelg tt i always get aft watching sum ultra long serial.

THE ROSE by bette midler
Some say love, it is a river that drowns the tender reed.
Some say love, it is a razor that leaves your soul to bleed.
Some say love, it is a hunger, an endless aching need.
I say love, it is a flower, and you it's only seed.
It's the heart, afraid of breaking, that never learns to dance.
It's the dream, afraid of waking, that never takes the chance.
It's the one who won't be taken, who cannot seem to give.
And the soul, afraid of dyin', that never learns to live.
When the night has been too lonely, and the road has been too long,
And you think that love is only for the lucky and the strong,
Just remember in the winter far beneath the bitter snows,
Lies the seed, that withe the sun's love, in the spring becomes The Rose.

叶子

叶子 是 不 会飞 翔的翅膀
翅膀 是 落在天上的 叶 子
天堂 原 来应该 不是妄想
只是我早已 经 遗忘
当初怎么开始飞 翔

孤 单 是一个人的狂 欢
狂欢 是一群人的孤 单
爱情 原 来的开始是陪伴
但我也 渐 渐 地遗忘
当时是怎样有人陪伴
我一个人吃 饭 旅行
(到处)走走停停
也一个人看书 弹琴 自己 对话谈 心
只是心又 飘到了 哪 里就 连自己看也看不 清
我想我不 仅仅 是失去 你

haha the songs used in the show i q planty huh
toking abt plants.. i ve got a cactus!!
courtesy of beng n her mama :D

in the show sumtimes the stuff tt the character say can get q lyrical
i mean of course taiwanese drama always haf funni ideas n analogies the i ll go like HUH?
budden there r the ones tt catch my attention oso la

当项链环过颈项
我期待着
扣环在脖子后方接上的瞬 间
那瞬 间的悸动 尤如是星火
滑落了 胸口

hmm neva tot of it this way b4..

蛮有趣的一套 剧 集
可能有些地方我可感同身受 吧

什么肿着的大 饼脸 ，肉包子，难听的声音 haha
还有自卑感
都能 够 理解 的 感受

ok enuff of the show..

gotta tink of sum new yr resolutions
due to the new sch system this end of yr hols felt diff frm usual hols.. mayb jus like a jun one
doesnt mean end of a sch yr onli in the middle of it rite

ll b in china in sum hours time
brrrrr
ll b bk onli next yr
so yep wat a long time ill b gone haha

今天见了一些我没什么好感的人
他们那嘴脸
即可笑又讨厌
受不了
还是得为自己为家人争口气吧

i shall pseudo colour my daimaru eye n pray for safety on our journey :D

finally my com is back..
now its kinda brand new n like a stranger so i ve gotta customize it
cant sae animore in case py says i dwell n gif off bad vibes haha
paiseh la :P to py serene n tracy n anione w were affected

aniwae i luves balloons now!!
damn fun today made a balloon meant for iris but i gave it to a little jap boy on the bus
he slowly pry off his chubby fingers one by one... n played w the railing for a while b4 he dared to receive the little balloon dog frm mi
so cute
felt abit bad tt i cudnt make for his sis n another girl on the bus coz i had to get down la

the bbq was v fun
thanx iris for the invitation
i tink i derived most fun frm making balloons for pple, telling the shutter story and bursting balloon to scare susan
oh n cheemeng was moved to tears w his bday present

haha
i had a great time!

had alot of fun w the yunnan pple making jiaozi oso
the skin is abit thick la
but otherwise i tink it tasted good leh
jenheng got a cook's seh
his argaraetion skills r good sia

orchard rd is still as beautiful
today/yest is an enjoyable day :D

okok drove serene n py ard on wed nite rite almost killed me, them and mani other pple
shit
haha
but it was q a ride
first time i felt so tempted to leave the car at the car park n take the mrt home.. can u imagine
*shivers*
ok for list of misdeeds, pls redirect to gang blog

friday was a good dae too
apart frm learning wat i can cut if i slit sumone's neck
i also learnt abt queezing the thymus first if i go strangle some one? haha
then went out w judo gals!!
so long neva meet up liao
altho we jus mop ard orchard it was fun
kbox soon ya pple

tuition started again..
realize tt i dont realli like it
it such a drag but 100 bucks each time is good money so i shud jus shut up
n yest i killed my cd rom drive
bad mood
shit now all my entertainment is gone!!!!
no more mps no more movies to watch no more no more!!!!!!!
my handphone cant make tt irritating tring-ling sound animore
now my com went dumb oso
i shud jus shut up n join them

sigh
i drove my bros breadvan yest
damn fun
macam like a bus driver lidat
frm the side mirror i saw a vehicle tailgating mi super near n got scared
in the end it was the reflection of the vehicle i was driving
hahahahahahahahahahaah

my brain is fusing
i haf got a whole rm to pack
living in a sty now
n i haf got bioimaging to figure
polar express tmr? my anat groupers???
better go do my work soon

im not in the best of moods la but my horoscope for the wk says:
making sense of ur feelings no can b a little difficult
you could b feeling intense emotions and lose clarity
cheer up
the stars have shown tt negative situations are always temporary

im so trusting it
today im going to hide at home n do my stuff

hafnt blog for damn long since i decided to shut myself off frm blogging n msn for ca haha
ca s r finally over but i hafnt realli rested at all
tmr gotta wake up at 6?
tink frs is crap but sigh gotta do it so yea

had alot of fun w all the phototaking thing w serene n peiyun haha
damn funni
finally trained py up abit to haf more expressions rather than jus the smile when she takes photos hahah

briget jones is q funni
the tombstone: the spinster 1972-2050
was rather sad
n our weird neighbour
whus slightly middled aged midly fat haha laughed at everithing
the sheer volume of her laughter is haha

xmas is cuming
sigh a yr haf passed us by since As
so fast scary
when u look bk everithing tt happened seemed q small

spore idol
never realli followed watched here n there
taufik win i tink ok la coz he sings better
but abit sad for sly like abit poor thing lidat

haha n yes peiyun im NOW burning the incredibles for u
crap im so going to sleep thru tmrs thing i spoil my reputation n scare daniels gang
coz huimin the tape recorder during lec for once is dysfunctional
dont worry it ll happen again
the girl in front w the red sweater sleep helped relived tracy's jc days too haha

im damn sleepy sia
but i feel relieved enuff aha

tmr i haf got the car
tink might b driving gang ard if they r onz for dinner/supper tink of where to go pple
abit scared abit excited first time driving w/o dad or bro sia
wish me luck
but anione else whu wishes to b farried by me pray tt i hone my skills well well first
life n death
no joke haha

jay chou concert
it was DAMN GOOD
told the storys mani times liao
so abit tired to say
ll b uploading the photos soon la :D

everione has their prob
since its so festive i shant tink of mine
but i gotta do sumthing abt it soon

samuel tay head n neck hope he's good

mani mani things to do!!!
argh jibun ni: oyasumi

有些事我怎能不晓得
可能只是没办法坦诚所以装作若无其事

正如周杰伦所说

有些是没办法教 表错情的感觉有一点糟
赖着不走 会让人很感冒 以上这道理我全都了

Any takers as to which song this came frm? Haha

Aniwae omg!! Thanx to natkoh n carol im going to the jaychou concert!!
Second row tix!!!! Ahhhhhhhhhh
As my bro says :” u can even smell him lor” haha
Haha told everyone at home n some frens to share my excitement
But sad to say they r either not interested in him
Or not interested in wat I haf got to say.. mayb it doesn’t render a big response
But o well
Gotta stardeeeeeee hard hard now so tt I wont b too guilty spendg the 2nd last day frm CA w jaychou!

実は電話をかけてくれないほおが良いと思います
もう何も話したいの？

身勝手なあたし
ちょっとはずかしい
なみだはなげれぼしみたい

:D もくひょがあるけど

hey airen.. when u say -smile- this is wat i tink of :) tks

yest i knock an ah pek's head w my head.. i scared he got head lice shit he better dont haf...
while walking along the corridor in outram to nel..
he came frm the bk lor.. i was digging in my bag to look for my wallet w head slightly bent.. he was walking realli quickly coming frm the bk
tink he was lookg at the floor la
then our head collapsed
it was a non elastic collision and energy wasnt conserved and our heads were not stuck together? (damn cant rem phy)
:s

hafnt been feelg too good these days
today was the greatest challenge of the power of my anal sphincter, sphincter vesicae and s. urethra
sitting thru anat tut feeling like crap was no joke
and i tink tea is a diuretic or sumthing
aniwhere i scaled great heights to settle my prob
hope i dont get sick again
dont feel q right

actualli wat propelled mi to write issit all tt's said above
since im at it then shunbian la

我可能是一個比較理性的人吧
雖然我常叫別人要隨心所欲
但是。。

心裡有點不好受
言語有點難表達
朋友需要你的時候
你在哪
我好像忽略了朋友的需要
但卻還是沒能去給予慰藉
更糟的是 這是自己的選擇
對不起

可能是我想太多
可能這不是這次的重點
但
我并不喜歡這樣的自己
有點自私
人說
人不為己 天誅地滅
我從來無法苟同
但如今 我卻成了此 ﹖俗語的代言人﹖
沒辦法不這麼理性
但同時也可認清自己有時也有這種需要
如何應對呢﹖
常讓自己不去想﹐不去問﹐不去麻煩人
再也找不到像我如此愛逃避的人了吧
我不知道自己想說什麼
應該是內疚吧
還有點擔心
怕“老大”當得太沒用
可能自始至終就有點沒有
一年後一切將改變
第一次有些彷惶
第一次覺得每個人越走越遠

總歸 人都有私心
遷就別人曾經是我的專長
希望
不會失去
希望
還來得急
不想說了
該讀書了

沒有辦法有英文寫出自己的感受
因為沒有辦法把心赤裸裸的展現給別人
用中文是讓有緣人讀吧
若用日文是根本無法讓別人知道的事情
卻無處宣泄

宣泄完畢
讀書讀書
再不下苦功 又會重蹈覆輒

argh my hairband broke!
the one tt haf been w my since a levels
since i broke my arm..
thru thick and thin now reduced to a non-functional object
*sobz*

watched the BEST BET vcd todae
kao... it's mother hokkien haha
tink my hokkien comprehension improved quite abit from tt show
i wud say it was rather entertaining
and there's an unexpected twist in the show
tt i tot was rather good haha
at least there's a plot...

was trying to read a jap novel tt i bought mani yrs back..
there's a story titled "the story of ms tulip"
haha its a story frm the tulip's point of view la
manage to plog thru 2 pages of it
and guess wat
the tulips says she a red flower, 30cm tall
she hates two kinds of animals.. namely humans and cats
there's this young girl whu waters her everidae
but she's a moron coz she always gif too much water n cause her roots to rot
so ms tulip actualli moved in front of her in attempt to tell her to stop n try to escape despite being told tt if she moves in front of humans she'll b KILLED
haha but the girl jus doesnt get it

she once saw an animal called a car hit a person
and red stuff flowed out on the streets and the person ceased to move

she also dislikes a stupid cat tt like to dig the soil ard her
and she hopes tt the cat can hurry spill red stuff and cease to exist

the she talks about the horror stories she heard abt other flowers
how humans like to chop off their heads and pin the heads on their chest
how its disgusting tt humans like to hang corpse of orchids on their chest
and dried flowers..
they r jus dried corpses
she cant understand how human haf great interest and like to decorate themselves w corpses


?????
haha wat an insightful story
cadevers huh?
two pages r mobid enough for the day i guess
a tulip's pov
i neva tired lookg frm there

@_@

looking at xinyi's blog made mi wanna blog abit more too..
hah guess i hafnt been writing recently
better start doing it b4 i live my life w/o tinking abt it too much
oh went to watch mando b the hot one-n-onli lady onboard tt all the guys like haha
impressive mando!
then carol aka the god
whu controls sunrise n sunset was good too hee

oh met w the yunnan pple on sat too
starting to feel tt its not too bad to cum on this trip after all
altho the pple there r abit hallelujah for mi
budden i brought mi abit of insight as to their faith la
not tt im totally n'sync w their tinking but hmm jus know abit more abt how other pple belive in their beliefs? :)

i feel abit sad though emailing eugene abt the skills i haf
suddenly realize tt i dont realli haf mani skills
lilke abit unaccomplished n useless
well i can always learn but yea i need to learn la

today i slept till realli later
doze off like twice aft i woke up
wa the long awaited rest but hee better go read abdomen n go figure how pple can get abs la hor
n thorax
yea yea tests tests cuming ca cuming
i better buck up
in case sum pple look mi no up haha

oh oh last nite went to gif my cousins tuition
aft i parted w serene n py tot i jus drop by to help
hah the funniest thing happened!
but due to great impact on one's reputation
i cant publicize
but angel n liv.. u noe wat im toking abt rite? hahaha
okok
i apologize for harping on it

still feel abit sad abt yong qin's death of zhen qing last wk
aiyoh today i watch like she not ard so sad lidat
mi n my mama cried torrents when she died la sigh...

ok hi monday here i cum

haha pple check this out
its quite cool
chap 8 w the mum giving birth looks rather painful
got my mama n mi cringing abit w the lady at parturition
my mama kept saying.. y is her dad there?!?
haha
http://www.pbs.org/wgbh/nova/miracle/program.html#

tink i ought to create a new post so tt the big F*** dont glare starkly at pple
paiseh yea
im usualli not so vulgar hee
im relaxed n cooled once again i guess.. :P

fuck
i dropped my phone
so angry w myself im so gonna burst
tink i haf zero anger management
argh
hmm

relac
i always sae so
but i might jus haf cardiac failure if i try to relac la
tightness in the chest
gekkkk

the phone now doesnt haf the tinglingting sound animore
the one tt mando likes
the phone doesnt reset itself animore
when i press no
they dont go away when i close n open

wat the shit

my bro n my dad is surprisingly nice abt it
my dad tell mi its ok
he go get it fix for mi
my bro tell mi
everione haf days whereby they tink tt life sux
well tts nice of them

i guess ill jus explode at pple when they cum bother mi on a bad day
but now
im trying to calm down frm exploding within
or at myself

damn
today
is a bad day

so be it... so be it

OK
'papa, wud u pls take a pic of mi?'
'ok'
(repeat 2x) haha

aniwae today is a happi dae for serene
like i said
im honored to witness it haha
oh its a happi dae for mi too
altho i didnt keep mentioning it
:D

cant rem the last time i went out to shop for tt sole purpose
usually its shun bian frm sch ya
slacked damn alot hahah
tink i needed this aft mugging my ass off for the anat fa

ok
i slept till rather late today
yea :D
then at 11 + a went out
so i tink i walked for almost 12hrs today
my quadriceps femoris, tricpes surae n hamstrings r rather tired now
but its
OK

my agenda for the dae was to go out w my cousins n shop for a bdae present for my ah ma
but they were LATE
but its
OK

so i found myself walking n walking alone frm mrt to wisma to taka n to kino
found two rather cool books
one says MUTANT
its has all the birth deformities, conjoined twins n stuff in it
exciting
but abit scary too

then i found STIFF
it toks abt cadavers n death
hmm
how to determine when a person is realli dead
like a doctor even researched on it
claiming tt his patients lost 3/4 ounce immediately aft death
he made the necessary precautions to made sure tt it wasnt due to bowels or evaporation or anithing of tt sought
hmm he did it on 15 dying dogs
but they show no sign of weight loss at death
he was trying to make death aka the loss of your soul as sumthing tangential n substantial...
and dogs didnt haf soul as stated in his religion (watever it might b)
but it started an outrage la
pple r skeptical (so am i)
n pple were wondering how he cud find 15 dying dogs as n when he wanted them
so they claimed tt he poisoned them n slowing observed them die for the sake of his little experiment
i didnt finish reading tt bk
but its cool
ill try to locate it in the library next time

then serene came to meet mi
coz i told her i ll b out w my cousins mah
budden so qiao we on the phone so i invited her la
shes in a good mood today
she treated mi to coke
help mi carry a bag
n offered to buy mi chewren's day present

okok then we walked ard kino
met my cousins
ate at marche
tried 2 help mingli solve an a math qn in marche using their tissuse paper n scaring the staff i tink
we like 4 girls competing to solve so math qn lidat

then we went shopping for a bag
for ah ma
we went to og
n met my long-time-no-see-auntie
i like her quite abit last time
but jus abit awkward n i was abit lost for words la
but we walked n walked damn alot of places down the whole orchard rd
n we finally settlled on a new arrival og bag
yea
happi be-earli bdae to ah ma!!

okok settled w the present
n spent time w menbers of HEAL
my cousins haha
tink angel n serene can click quite well like wat serene say haha
n yea was fun
they better go study for o and a aft this wk end ar
i nag once again
DONT SLACK ANIMORE
hee

then we went ps in search of a movie but no haf
went spotlight in seach of lace but no haf
then we went in seach of jap food n haf!!
its at ps basement
ichiban sushi i tink
they haf the conveyer belt sushi mah
then the place is abit small n squeezy
i like leh realli more like a japan kinda place
the ambience
the food more exciting n prettier than sake sushi i tink
so yea tink ill go again
we eat till we happi n full
n sneakily drink the raspberry sprite we smuggle in frm carrefour

then we went esplanade
n watch pple dance watch pple act watch pple photog watch pple la
then we stand along the river n tok tok
took lots of pic too haha
of ourselves
n of our own depiction of each member of GANG (*new!)
haha it was damn funni la
two ah siaos along spore river
lamenting abt y no guys in our gang
haha
but yea feeling happi la
fullerton is beautiful
i always wanted to go to the river walk ard n cross the pretty bridges there
but today i crossed like four or more bridges lor
while we walked ard tt whole area trying to get to clark quay
satisfied my urge n desire once n for all ya
haha but yea still tink its nice
we walked damn alot today my legs r damn tired haha
but yea today is rather happi
oh shud be yest liao huh

okok
in conclusion
i miss slacking
i miss hafing no worries abt tests n work
although got lots of tut n reading to catch up
well theres always tmr
hee
neva like go out w onli serene b4 i tink
not in recent times
haha was rather fun
of coz w my cousins too
but yea today is a happi day

ps sorrie pple for making this a documentary
jus felt like documenting a happy day in this entry as a documentary

:)
tmr bk to reality
got two tuitions
n tutorials to do
again....
well one happi dae shud last mi for sumtime i guess :)

今日 は雨を降りました
父さんは「もう秋ですよね」 て
そうかな-
私最近 「プライド」を見ています
何か、秋は話たいこと理解しますよ
春との会話、私も同じ返事をやるかも
それじゃ、私もそんな冷たい人分かるな？
春のような人会えますか？
彼はなんかかわそう
春この季節は冬に続けて、だからまだまだ冷たいでしょう？
でもその冷たの後、まだ暖かいですよね。
私ほんとに 「秋」 この名前、季節大好き
涼しく落ち着いている感じ
気持いいな-
その二人の将来どうかな-
エンディング見ければ分かる
私のは。。。
さ、わからない
もうすぐ二十歳になるですけど
一回、一度もない
心の声 聞こえるか、聞きたいのか？
寂しさ？
「知らないことが恋しいでわない」
ね-

yea although i told quite a few pple liao n provided free entertainment for all of them
i shall tell the story of mi kena cheated by ah pek!!
jus for the record in case i want to read it to entertain myself next time
neva pian cai, neva pian se though but yea pian my feeeeling n time la i guess

i was on my way bk home aftt sending my tut kid to the lrt station
on last rainy sunday
the at my void deck got an ah pek
he starting call mi la
ah muay.. which is like xiao mei
at first i jus walked on but he kept calling then i look at him la
then he asked mi to go over

aiyoh getting long winded
then hor
he wanted mi to buy duck rice n kopio of him la
summore got mani request like
dun wan to sauce la rem to take spoon la all those la
then i tink tink
but he say he leg pain like so poor thing lidat so i okok lor
he gave mi $3.10
i ask him he sure enuff not coz i onli brought my hp no $$
he say enuff then enuff la

i mean jus spend some time n effort wont die rite
budden it was like 1220 liao
n my other tut kid cuimg at 1 mah
so i hurry hurry go buy

when i reach the food court
i realise tt duck rice is onli going at 3.30
told the stall keepers discretely whether they can sell mi 2.50 worth of duck rice la
walau so paiseh
they tell mi xiao jie we onli sell 3 or 3.50 ones
so i boh pian tell them
dont lidat la i buy for sum ah pek i no $$ pls pls
sumthing along these lines
then kena laughed at but i managed to buy it u c
but in the end forgot to ask them not too add the sauce
so ah pek too bad la huh

then i went to the drink stall
n asked them if their kopi o is 60c rite rite??
walau they say 80c
i sad n sianz liao
so started 'begging' the stall holders AGAIN
then yea i tell i onli got 60c left on mi la
pls pls so ah pek ask mi to buy one
then they laugh laugh again n okok lor

jus then my mama called
n she scolded mi upside down la
she say i so stupid
the ah pek abit wierd n siao one
always downstairs everidae ask pple to buy things for him
he even asked my mama a few times b4!!
n my mama oso witness him asking other pple oso
most pple say they not free la

then when i walked bk
nearing the void deck i saw my mama toking to him
then i tink tink
the ah pek cham alreadi sure let my mama say till die
n yea indeed my mama told him to rem my face, mi her daughter n he better dont ask mi again coz i busy, my tut kid cuming, which is true n its 1245 alreadi.. mi wet n lunchless still
then yea n he say okok paiseh paiseh
he say dont tell AH LIAN
haha god noes whu is she
but yea my mama say if he ever ask mi again
she ll go tell AH LIAN
n tt scared the shit out of him la

later my mama tell mi tt he was strolling ard everiwhere when she went downstairs ll waiting for mi to cum bk
i mean he kinda forgotten he leg pain la(tsk)
then my mama go ask him tot u told my daughter u leg pain?!?
n he paiseh hurry hurry sat down on the chair
my mama say u so free y dont go buy urself he say her no umbrella
when she threaten to go his house to see if he realli got umbrella not he jus kept quiet

so in the end my mama concluded
he's jus abit boh liao n wierd n lazy
n trying to use not enuff $$ to buy stuff hoping other pple ll pay 4 him so tt he shun pian zhuan dao

so yea
this is the lengthy story of my contact w an ahpek
n as n epilogue : my tut kid came earli was standing outside door liao when i came bk at 1245
so i went on to teach my third tut of the day W/O lunch
so haha
(huimin get humpy w/o food rite? gang?)

i mean i feel abit cheated onli la
not so bad
but fake leg pain walau
i indeed entertained the thought of kopping his 3.10 n going home w it aft he gave mi
but i told myself to banish tt evil thought
aft hafin say so much
i still tink i wud go help the next elderly tt try to fake mi la
haha i mean i shud gif them the benefit of the doubt rite?
but my mama ll say i kena cheated alreadi oso dunnoe
sigh
but yea if this ah pek ask mi the next time..

ill go complain to AH LIAN!!

- THE END -

to zhijia
heyhey jus read ur letter
while u rem my "zha! gege", i'll always rem how u as a huazhugege fanatic enslaved mi to b ur slave/eunuch and i ben ben agreed.. hafing served u loyally for almost 4yrs?
haah
good old days in rg
take care of urself gege ya
hope u haf a safe flight, flying off now to the other side of the globe
n yea technology ll keep us close n in contact ya
work hard n jiayou 4 everithing

:)always willing to serve u..
da liu zi

its an eventful day again
breakfast w oilvia n peiyun
nice kaya toast n egg hee
ll miss olivia
n zhijia whom i jus sent off a while ago

heard the tok on the yunnan yep
tink its a rather enriching experience la
helping pple
getting out of comfort zone
SERVE
hmm
hope i can go n lookg forward to it man

oh serene mus haf "big-open some eye-boundaries" today
second fren tt i drove ard
hee she praised mi so yea haha :P
oh n my dad brought us to supper w his frens
namely tua pek n a-uncle-who-has-a-daughter-in-smu
haha i neva c the second uncle b4 but yea all my dad good fren la
i like the uncle leng tt look like my tua pek
haha tink he v happi to find someone whu enjoy slowly savouring crab like him
n tt ll b mi
haha
hes nice
all the uncle uncle rather cute n endearing tok abt everithing, suan my dad, remind mi of mi n my frens too
the crabs quite good today
i abit full n sleepy now
hee
satsified!

wa reminded mi of the good old days when i was taking driving lessons frm my dad
then everi nite aft my lesson
he ll bring mi to eat supper w his buddy buddy
haha they chat tok
i quietly eat lor
aha
;)

i had an adventure yest
frm sengkang to ponggol
nice fun exciting happi

sometimes i feel lousy n small
im lousy

went shopping w judo gals
had lotsa fun
happi happi happi
:)

reflect upon my self
sad lousy sianz

gemini = moody
disturbing

finally a wk has passed hols again
huayu is almost gone for a wk liao n i realised tt i missed sangyu's departure oso
due to my procrastinatn in getting in touch w her to find out when exactly she was leaving..
i suck rite
n my shitty 55/100
im lousy la
but mi ll tell myself tt if i studied hard i wud do better
hope la hope
tink gotta buck up coz i guess a doc cant erm n cant recall where the median nerve lies rite?
oh but voon's lec was fun n nice
n i learnt how to communicate w patients in coma in my lec while i was sleeping on sat morn's lec haha
but wanting to work hard aside
realli thankful for the hols la
realli realli happi :D
slacking away..

didnt realli cry alot when huayu left huh
unlike mi when i was younger...
but getting her phone call bk i realli nice la
so excited for her
tink she ll haf lots of fun
but i hope she noe tt she can fall bk on her gang anitime ya

im incoherent
n sleepy
but hafnt been feeling too good sumdaes recently
mayb coz i cant articulate my emotions too well la
i oso dunnoe
jus feel abit wierd
if i snapped at anione
i apologize
not so sunny like the weather hor
gloomy rainy dark sianz
n no zhen qing today :(
i tink the piggy soft toy tt i gave huayu looked like shang deng qing jia
haha
the qinghua qingyun's mum w its slitty eyes
scary haha

today i learnt tt snake has alot of bones wow
tot they look rather boneless to mi
ignorance
n they haf mani mani ball n socket joints
the a dragonfly nymph stays in water for 1-3yrs
b4 becoming an adult depending on its species until tadpole which stays in water for abt 3-5 mths b4 becoming a frog

the adv of gifing pri sch tut
haha
but sian had two today so abit zonk out liao

魔力
I have you to be with
Everything will be easy
晒的阳光 淋的雨滴 都值得回忆
I have you to be with
才懂心不够近才怕距离
心电感应 绝不断讯
会如影子随瑚
曾灰心以为 我来错了世界
太多想法很另类 找不到人了解
当我说的感觉 牵动著你的脸
互动的泪 让我们变得特别
你是我的魔力 想要勇敢就想你
一眨眼睛 把不如意 都变成流星
你是我的魔力 心情不好我就想你
删除忧郁 复制甜蜜
笑容不结冰
幸福是间电影院 没有单人的座位
要肩碰肩 才能看好戏上演

the previous post is abit distrubing so i guess a new one ll b good
im sleepy but muscles of the lower limb damn
realli hope the prof dont always cum ask my qn
i noe i shud prepare n stuff but i did jus not enuff huh

i resoluted a few things this few days
dunnoe if i cud do them
ah shit shudnt sound demoralised b4 anithing has even started

my resolutions
change certain things la inertia is not good
love my books n notes n onli my bks n notes? haha
pay more attention to my frens whu need attention

die tink i need alot of tea tmr morn
aniwae the resolutions r lidat vaguely
im not too ok w stating them explictly they r 4 me n myself

being huayus party laision was rathing tiring
haha but i had fun
washing fruits like malay ladies
maria working handinhand w thumbi
putting up PARTY signs everiwhere but scared mata catch us
n when ll i ever get a chance to make a whole BIG pot of ribena w a garden hose oops.. hee
bringing pple to the toilet
topping up the longan fruit thing
bringing chairs for pple
haha
i like so bAngLa lidat but yea im glad i was of help

huayu is flying off in abt 10hrs
sigh
then she ll b gone 4 9mths
our frenship dates bk to 7+yrs
qi nian de gan qing rite rite
ll miss her la
but she ll b bk
she ll b bk
i dont like farewells
but reunions r fine hopefully w/o ani wierd british accent haha
tmr
hmm tmr we c each other at the airport la
@_@

be-earli bon voyage ( i didnt write w smudged orange ink) haha

i'm very sad today
p.s. pls dont ask mi y. i mean it.

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sumtimes i feel abit exploited jus coz im nice
n i always try to help other pple
sumtimes i wan to tell the person to jus f off
as if like my veri existence to the person is to help it
it pisses mi off real bad
n i bet it doesnt care
laugh at mi summore tts it man
tmd
もう好きでわないよ。
気持悪い なー
私はあなたによって大事な人じゃない
にもかかわらず
私を使う為に、私をおしゃべりします。
厭だな-

discover what candy you are @ quiz me

got this quiz thing frm fel's blog.. didnt go read for a long time liao so one shot read mani mani entries ago..

finally got down to reading my blog a few days ago
n i agree it is like a documentary haha
onli reminding mi wat happened but not so much how i felt then
so i guess im more aware of it now so mayb next time it might proof a easier n more insightful read for my frens haha

the seoul garden dinner was a rather nice one
sze chuan chicken is still the hot fav
n we spent almost three hrs in there lor
tokin n eating as usual
cant rem since when tt place became our gang's "aft-a-major-exam-mus-go-place"
but yea its been mani yrs since we first started patronizing the shop liao

the standard has improved abit i guess w more constant refill of chicken wings n even sushi now haha
then we saw a table of like 6-8 gals near us
they realli kinda reminded how we were like sum time ago...
in sch u alot of laughter n noise hmm

then there was my son: the smily face thing w a body of a bag
i left him behind coz he was too much of a nuisance oops..

huayu gave us the pinkie pouches tt has the word xpression on it
wonder if serene has cut away the tag liao not
afraid tt pple might relate the brand to sumthing else..
haha
but yea
ohoh
u all noe wat
i found out frm my cousin tt she bought the exact same on in thailand for 45 cents
and to tink tt the stingy boss refuse to give us a discount of 40 more cents
auntie-ness aside
we did it aniway haha

n the scary thing abt huay had py's no wrong all the time n didnt realize it..
its better late then neva la
but like serene say everithing happens for a reason ..
so mayb us trying to fit our photos to suit the hiphop gang ringtone in huayu hp was fate haha

sitting along the steps near cine until like 11 + is haha not exactly the glam thing to do but we always do such things la i guess

wonder how it wud b like when huay's gone..
sigh

gotta go studdy coz i tink im veri behind n cant rem my stuff
then the prof ask qn i always scared i cant ans then sianz..
but i found my new keep-me-awake-fren
the tea w milk at the sci canteen
it realli works
thanx to ahline n mando for their intro to breakfast at nus haha
n to beng for tt cao mei xian zi pen we donated 2.50 for haha
its in my pencil holder on my table staring at mi haha

:)

todae i was out the whole day la
well jus came home
hmm heng my er ge came down to send mi home or else my parents ll b calling mi like siao sigh
ani wae i drove home frm bishan, eunice's place
wow rather fun first timw go express way haha
n not w my dad summore w my bro haha
went to like abt 110 lidat quite fun
but like 1+am no traffic then can lidat la
hafta prac more

ok today went to celeb py's bdae
HAPPY BIRTHDAE!!
eh we went to watch stepford wives at cine
a wierd show la but entertaining enuff
w gang n xinyi then went to coffee club to eat
nice seafood lasagne

then went to walk ard n soon enuff it was like seven + n we were at orchard mrt..
erm met my med og la
but in the end i pangseh them didnt go for dinner feel abit bad.,.. sigh
but met up w fareux la my rj og
vincent one fine day msg us n say try to revive our og so hmm
tink its quite a feat coz liek 8 pple turn up today
got vida yvette lesile vincent mi daisy kaiyi n ryan la
everione more or less the same la
but i guess two of the guys put on wt the other two turned skinnier dunnoe y
not so bad noe jing kuang of everione
hear countless army stories
hoe to kill frog snake mointer lizard..
it was ok la
thanx the pple for organising man

yea i noe today mi n py gotta see ahems la
but i nearer view abit
mr * (the name has been removed due to unforseen circumstances aka threat frm a recent bdae gal haha) put on quite abit of wt kept getting suan so haha
but i mean nothing liao la i guess
dont feel too excited of heart beat until wan to collapse or anithing
jus like fren n frens
so yea
guess im finally over it man

but tok tok st swensens
then left at like eleven they wan to play pool at cine but mother crowded so didnt then jus walk ard sum pple left
until like onli got five pple left
so we went to marriot hotel n sit n tok summore lor
gossip abt pple
didnt c the dnd pple
but in the end say another guitar rgs senior in med too so hmm but cant rem her name so oops
but yea i rem she s nice
mayb i go look ard 4 her next time

then wait 4 my bro n went home lor
tired tmr still haf tuition..
wat an eventful day haha

i feel sad angry tired happi well fucmost of the time neutral..
i m starting to get sick n tired of alot of things
things tt always happen
things tt i always do
low threshold of emotions
fuck
i dunnoe even noe wat i m feeling now
tink i need sum change
for the better or the worse
haha
no happiness no sadness wth is wrong?
cant sustain my sadness for more than an hr..
cant feel happy for more than half
shit
i noe certain things bother mi but i dont do anithing abt it
i jus dont
becoz most of the time huimin is jus fine w anithing
the person tt usually wont get angry
the person tt is always short tempered at home
i hate?
shit i was even apprehensive to type the word hate
jus as i m to type the word i love...
watever
i dont like the way i behave sumtimes but it jus cums out
no good no good
better b more conscious of life b4 its over
u ll jus b reduced to sum bones tendons muscles rite?
unconsciously i live i feel i see i hear
hmm
mayb tts y i stop excelling in things i do animore coz nothing realli bothers mi or at least i cant pin pt it sumtimes
this statment contradicts to the one i made earlier..
dammit