Subject: dArk siDe Of u.. i find it quite true..
Capricorn (dec 22 - jan 19) You are rather materialistic and it is fueled by your fears of financial disaster. this makes you complain about monetary woes, irritating many with your obnoxious attitude. you can also be a social climber, manipulating your way up the ladder; name-dropping all the way to the top. once in a while, you'll have morbid thoughts about death something that scares you because you have no control over it. you tend to be obsessive about your mortality sometimes.
Advice Stop worrying about losing money, and you'd rid yourself of unfounded nightmares. stop manipulating others and you'll be free to concentrate on attaining your goals. get rid of your phobias and you'll be able to relax more and enjoy yourself.
Aquarius (jan 20 - feb 18) You tend to be too idealistic and naive sometimes. practicality gets thrown out of the window by you many times. cool and aloof, you rarely want to deal with deep emotions. you like to give advice but don't like to receive it. and ideas and inspirations that you sometimes neglect or follow through with them are constantly bombarding you. or else you are constantly shifting focus, giving people the idea with no staying power.
Advice Take time to explore your private feelings. not all people see things your way. and just because you come up with ideas, don't expect other people to do all the work for you. learn to trust people and accept advice.
Pisces (feb 19 - mar 20) You are an escapist - you have this knack of avoiding issues if they seem unpleasant. you delve into past memories to escape your present woes. there is also a tendency towards alcoholism and even drug abuse - you are on a search for some kind of 'high'. you also love to flirt and too much of it may send the wrong, dangerous signals out to other people. once in a while, a dark mood will descend on you and you become rather unsociable and withdrawn.
Advice Trust your instincts, but also be in control of your perceptions. whenever the escapist tendency hits you, join a seminar or get a pep talk from a friend to get your perspective right.
Aries (mar 21 - apr 20) A warrior at heart, you thrive on challenges and any strife and dramas, you are tempted to stir things up, just to keep yourself happy. you are also rather intolerant of mistakes and don't have patience for weakness or failings in others. and sometimes, you can be quite a snob as well you like to be seen at the right places or wear the right clothes. and you're also prone to bossiness. your restless nature may make you quit a project suddenly if you can't sustain the interest.
Advice Get off your high horse and pay your dues before people will accept you. learn to be more tolerant of others and try to see the other person's side of the story. if you believe in what you do, you can move mountains.
Taurus (apr 21 - may 20) You are stubborn and like to hold onto things, not wanting to let go of anything or anyone. you are slow to anger, but when you do get worked up to a rage - everyone step aside! you also have a selfish streak and can be quite sneaky as well. and although people may see you as helpful and agreeable, you sometimes have an inner struggle wanting the approval of others while sticking to your own opinions. you also tend to be suspicious of others and question their motives.
Advice Stop being mean and try to be nice. learn to forgive and let go of your past disappointments. learn from your mistakes and have faith in yourself and others as well.
Gemini (may 21 - jun 21) Your devil-may-care attitude sometimes could bring harm to yourself - you tend to live on the edge sometimes. many of you believe that you don't deserve success, somehow feeling guilty for it. you may give others too much of yourself sometimes that you lose yourself. you may be prone to suppressing motions as well. and at times that makes it difficult for you to accept affection and love.
Advice Work at listening to others and don't be tempted to try daring devil stunts all the time. and try doing something for yourself and once in a while, in between, doing favors for others. you're human, after all.
Cancer (jun 22 - jul 22) You can get carried away with emotions - your anger is overwhelming and your sadness can depress all those around you. you're also ultra-sensitive to other people's emotions and are affected by these as well. you tend to react before you think and then brood about what you may have done or said wrong. you are also prone to periods of morbidity, thinking dark thoughts. feelings of insecurity creep in now and then, making you snappish or else you try to win the approval of ev! eryone at your expense.
Advice Accept that you are hypersensitive to emotions and work with yours. go with the flow and by doing the right thing, you set an example for others. work with others and this will help build your confidence and open you up.
Leo (jul 23 - aug 22) On the rare occasion you lose your temper, you can turn into a savage beast. you seem to need an audience as well, to help boost your confidence and ego, sometimes. other times, you get caught up in the outward dramas of your life that you neglect what you're feeling inside. this results in a delayed reaction when emotions sneak up on you and you get hit with a whammy. you also tend to be proud and aggressive, cloaking these with your charm. when things don't go your way, you get impatient and may even throw a tantrum.
Advice Learn to spend some! time alone with yourself and get to know yourself better. and learn to experience your emotions at the moment; don't store them up for another time. and know that not all means justify the ends.
Virgo (aug 23 - sep 22) You have a martyr complex, feeling that you were put on this earth to do good work and not receive any credit for it. you tend to be ultra critical of yourself and others and you also worry about things that are beyond your control. a little pessimistic sometimes, you tend to be an intellectual snob. you bottle up all your insecurities and fears, and hesitate to reach out for help. and once in a while, you become a busybody that's when you also feel responsible for other people's problems.
Advice Modesty has its own limits - take credit for your efforts. give yourself a break and know that! you do not have to be successful in everything you do. keep focused and don't get tangled in other people's affairs too often.
Libra (sep 23 - oct 23) Your inability to reach a decision in matters of personal action is legendary. you like to weigh all the alternatives and hear every side of an argument - but this may take time and opportunities may pass you by because of it. you also like to expand energy on people who may not deserve it - you want to help the underdog. you are also sensitive to criticism and may take mild statements of fact very personally.
Advice Follow your instincts and act on them - stop sitting on fences. don't blindly trust people; learn to be a little more discriminating in your offers of help. learn to think for yourself and don't be swayed by persuasive tongues.
Scorpio (oct 24 - nov 21) You have a revengeful streak and a long memory for past hurts. sometimes you're downright spiteful. when you suffer, you make sure others suffer along with you. sometimes, you may even use deception to get what you want and to influence others to stay out of your way. you may even believe these untruths and unrealistic fears will grow on you. once in a while, you may come across someone that just rubs you on the wrong side for no apparent reason and you make it your mission to bury him or her.
Advice Flight the negative emotions that arise in you, and resentment will not sour your life. don't' give into temptation to tell lies, learn to conquer your strong tendency towards revenge and things will fall into place for you.
Sagittarius (nov 22 - dec 21) You've got a big mouth and unwittingly hurt an insult people with it. you can even go to utter strangers and give unsolicited advice and comments. you also seem to enjoy verbal duels with others whenever you can. and you sure can make sore losers, even suspecting foul play if things don't go your way. you have a knack for confrontation and you can't resist being sarcastic. you also don't think too much of many people, because you have mild superiority complex. vanity is also a trait in many of you.
Advice Learn with whom you can be frank otherwise keep your comments to yourself. discretion is the better part of valor. curb your cockiness, and you can combine it with your concern for serious issues, aiding in your search for truth.
beng sent this to mi haha q true huh.
yest's batch reunion was ok onli. abit boring.. hope my classmates dont regret listening to mi cuming :p coz they left earli when there was nothing to do.. paiseh paiseh
the music wasnt too bad towards the end..
but realise tt i dont realli miss the sch too much...
its jus experiences tt i remember and im grateful for but tts abt it i tink
but the parade sq is nice, in the new building w the sunset n nightfall n stars at night realli q nice
last wk of work startg tmr.. prob b treatg pple.. cant thanxk them enuff
n thu... O_o"
土曜日, 6月 25, 2005
it's 1:38 am
my dark eyerings ll never go away.
my wk started off bad i guess haha
altho i manage to meet up w 3f huay+serene+py alljudogals n allfamily in the wkend.. it kinda buildup my tiredness n sleeplessness haha n it jus hit mi real bad on monday
fever sorethroat flu u name it
tue was the worst of the bout of illness
and got better subsequently... the fever went down the sorethroat left but the flu was left behind lingering in my airpassages
termsheets r all settled
did another publication format..
but learnt sumthing new again
like how they keep records of the inv and how u use excel to tell u the maturity date is soon n the traders got to watch out n stuff
tt's abit more data entry but well get to c which org can afford to deposit mio w the bank haha
n had q a abit of fun search for the funni files
yt spent alot of time today teaching mi inverse floater n how they calculate the forward IR
so learnt alot
enuff abt work
as i cum towards the end of my working stint
one more wk left
grateful for the real break
to rest
but tink ill miss the pple there
they r realli nice
but dunnoe if we wud b in contact aft im gone
i came to realise tt im inconsequential there
prob aft a day or so
no one wud notice tt im not there animore
i wud look bk and b glad to b given this experience in a trading rm
but i ll move on
like i always did
mayb i always move on too quickly
everi stage of my life
its how i grow up n learn e easy way out u see
being super nostalgic n stuff is damn tiring.. not particularly abt this working stint but everi phase of my life in general.. mayb i always move on so quickly tt i leave pple behind n when i turn bk to look they r too far away.. then i cud onli jus move ahead.. its kinda like retribution or sumthing.. i always run away frm pain n distrubances i tink.. until its like stillwater heh
dunnoe if its good or bad
but its jus decisions
n prob too late to turn bk time
i ll jus leave w it
too mani things undone
too mani things unsaid
bottled up too much stuff
but im learnign haa
these days ill jus go ahead n do things i wan2 do
say things i wan2 say
coz if u tink too much
u ll lose to moment to do it
n prob ll regret next time..
tt's y its always the go ahead sign for mi
applicable onli for new things?
old history is too long too messy for mi to b able to do things so boldly w/o hesistation
haha
so much hua zhong hua
lets go bk to normal story tellg
im going to make a speech this thu
in front of the CEO of oc
argh
ll i stage fright n die?
haha
but i mus tell myself tt i dint take speech n drama for 2yrs in rg for nothing rite?
dunnoe la
i taying coz ttday kl kept complaining into my ear until my head was going to burst.. on tt feverish day
i dont mind speaking itink
hope i can do it well
its jus tt i noe i cant write well
i cant damn freaking write the bloody speech myself la
feel abit sian
like face off w the biggest weakness i haf.
writing well.
i ll try.. read more n stuff rite but its gonna take time :S
but chadwick was nice enuff to give my ideas n help mi along editing the speech too which im grateful for.
i felt abit bad today
ashamed
coz i did sumthing against my principle
was q proud myself for a moment then i dunnoe y i jus said it n felt lousy
argh
its prob not impt
but its against my beliefs
i hold my beliefs w great importance because i crumble w/o them
so im hit most badly when i do things i feel tt i shudnt haf done
much more than when i do things others think i shudnt haf done
watever la
words tt leave ur mouth can never cum bk
words tt never leave ur mouth might not b good too
so
watever la
im making jelly for them i tink
last chance aniway
cant thank them enuff
im sorry my frens haf to hear my rattle off abt work
tts the onli thing tts happening to mi now at least..
wait for 1-jul
then i wont say it animore haha
hopefully
pple get tired of listening to mi tok easily i tink
so its no gd huh
ok
n i carry too much access baggage?
like my frens were saying to mi tonite
i tink so too
but dunnoe y leh
dunnoe how to say la
went zouk tt nite
the germbag still drank abit la
lychee martini
long island
1/3 of a shot of tequila
n a shot of B52?32? the one w baileys.,.. suprisingly nice n sweet
was tt too little?
wasnt even tipsy or anithing
but jus wanted to try it
dun wan my git/liver to die tho heh
interestg pple dancing funnily
but met up w bel zj ws sw colleen
feel happi to fulfil my promise to meet up w them
i make empty promises to easily i tink
it always haunts b (well for a while) aft i didnt do wat i promise..
so i mus b more cautious w promising
n make it a pt to make it cum true
was fun
listening to their lives
their experiences
n hafing fun la
except for the smoke i kinda like e place
gd to clear a mind of everithing
w the lights n noise huh
i NEED SLP
the kid better dont b late tmr
coz im always in a bad mood when im sleepy
n i tolerate her for v long liao.. too long for mi to take it le
sian
hope to haf a gd day ahead.
my dark eyerings ll never go away.
my wk started off bad i guess haha
altho i manage to meet up w 3f huay+serene+py alljudogals n allfamily in the wkend.. it kinda buildup my tiredness n sleeplessness haha n it jus hit mi real bad on monday
fever sorethroat flu u name it
tue was the worst of the bout of illness
and got better subsequently... the fever went down the sorethroat left but the flu was left behind lingering in my airpassages
termsheets r all settled
did another publication format..
but learnt sumthing new again
like how they keep records of the inv and how u use excel to tell u the maturity date is soon n the traders got to watch out n stuff
tt's abit more data entry but well get to c which org can afford to deposit mio w the bank haha
n had q a abit of fun search for the funni files
yt spent alot of time today teaching mi inverse floater n how they calculate the forward IR
so learnt alot
enuff abt work
as i cum towards the end of my working stint
one more wk left
grateful for the real break
to rest
but tink ill miss the pple there
they r realli nice
but dunnoe if we wud b in contact aft im gone
i came to realise tt im inconsequential there
prob aft a day or so
no one wud notice tt im not there animore
i wud look bk and b glad to b given this experience in a trading rm
but i ll move on
like i always did
mayb i always move on too quickly
everi stage of my life
its how i grow up n learn e easy way out u see
being super nostalgic n stuff is damn tiring.. not particularly abt this working stint but everi phase of my life in general.. mayb i always move on so quickly tt i leave pple behind n when i turn bk to look they r too far away.. then i cud onli jus move ahead.. its kinda like retribution or sumthing.. i always run away frm pain n distrubances i tink.. until its like stillwater heh
dunnoe if its good or bad
but its jus decisions
n prob too late to turn bk time
i ll jus leave w it
too mani things undone
too mani things unsaid
bottled up too much stuff
but im learnign haa
these days ill jus go ahead n do things i wan2 do
say things i wan2 say
coz if u tink too much
u ll lose to moment to do it
n prob ll regret next time..
tt's y its always the go ahead sign for mi
applicable onli for new things?
old history is too long too messy for mi to b able to do things so boldly w/o hesistation
haha
so much hua zhong hua
lets go bk to normal story tellg
im going to make a speech this thu
in front of the CEO of oc
argh
ll i stage fright n die?
haha
but i mus tell myself tt i dint take speech n drama for 2yrs in rg for nothing rite?
dunnoe la
i taying coz ttday kl kept complaining into my ear until my head was going to burst.. on tt feverish day
i dont mind speaking itink
hope i can do it well
its jus tt i noe i cant write well
i cant damn freaking write the bloody speech myself la
feel abit sian
like face off w the biggest weakness i haf.
writing well.
i ll try.. read more n stuff rite but its gonna take time :S
but chadwick was nice enuff to give my ideas n help mi along editing the speech too which im grateful for.
i felt abit bad today
ashamed
coz i did sumthing against my principle
was q proud myself for a moment then i dunnoe y i jus said it n felt lousy
argh
its prob not impt
but its against my beliefs
i hold my beliefs w great importance because i crumble w/o them
so im hit most badly when i do things i feel tt i shudnt haf done
much more than when i do things others think i shudnt haf done
watever la
words tt leave ur mouth can never cum bk
words tt never leave ur mouth might not b good too
so
watever la
im making jelly for them i tink
last chance aniway
cant thank them enuff
im sorry my frens haf to hear my rattle off abt work
tts the onli thing tts happening to mi now at least..
wait for 1-jul
then i wont say it animore haha
hopefully
pple get tired of listening to mi tok easily i tink
so its no gd huh
ok
n i carry too much access baggage?
like my frens were saying to mi tonite
i tink so too
but dunnoe y leh
dunnoe how to say la
went zouk tt nite
the germbag still drank abit la
lychee martini
long island
1/3 of a shot of tequila
n a shot of B52?32? the one w baileys.,.. suprisingly nice n sweet
was tt too little?
wasnt even tipsy or anithing
but jus wanted to try it
dun wan my git/liver to die tho heh
interestg pple dancing funnily
but met up w bel zj ws sw colleen
feel happi to fulfil my promise to meet up w them
i make empty promises to easily i tink
it always haunts b (well for a while) aft i didnt do wat i promise..
so i mus b more cautious w promising
n make it a pt to make it cum true
was fun
listening to their lives
their experiences
n hafing fun la
except for the smoke i kinda like e place
gd to clear a mind of everithing
w the lights n noise huh
i NEED SLP
the kid better dont b late tmr
coz im always in a bad mood when im sleepy
n i tolerate her for v long liao.. too long for mi to take it le
sian
hope to haf a gd day ahead.
日曜日, 6月 19, 2005
almost slept in my blanket n dark rm
then remebered something and came online to check again
went to read my blog and i realize something
jus like wat im doing now, and wat i do mostly as a conversattionalist
i dont exactly formulate my opinion and tots very well
i tell stories, recount, write stories
tt's all
sometimes i feel sick and tired of this
tired of how i cant covey my feelgs thoughts properly?
im really like born to entertain pple?
like todays 3f gathering.. i start to tell stories when i reached
yak yak yak for like 15min or sumthing
made everione laugh
sometimes i wonder if my sole f(x) within my frens is to do jus tt
b an entertainer
mayb tt's y i score so high in tt self monitor test i did during pdcp
haha
then i tok so much tt im actualli tired frm toking
when i stop toking if it becomes too quiet i ll start toking again
mayb its jus w 3f
my f(x) there is to entertain them
it always happen in all class gathering
i noticed tt i act very differently w diff pple
w the gang i try to b more steady coz tt's laoda's job
then w judo pple i can afford to b more kid n haha coz carol is more of our dajieda, i jus need to b a lubricant or sumthing
then w my family i tok damn alot too.. always trying not to haf akward silences since my bros barely tok to each other
sometimes i can afford to relac one corner n jus shuddup w pple im not too familiar w
i dunnoe la
q sianzz
i hope i can express myself better
altho im a freaking blindspot
\haha i spend 75% if the time tellg stories
when pple really challenge mi to make my stand
i cant do it well
which sucks
was lookg at friendster
the saw frens whu haf characteristics tt i really like
i realli like them in tt way
then i tink of the person i am
the person i am not
and the person i never wud b
if i like a particular characteristic of sumone
shud i learn to b lidat
its q weird rite
n i prob cant do it coz im not lidat.
but whu defines "lidat"
wat whu defines our character/personality
can we change it
shud we
do we need to
i wonder
oh i rem wat i wanted to blog abt last nite
baby cousin = jaydon choy (cui) kaijun
haha
shud bring him to watch initial D to support jay haha
was toking to a fren abt naming my cousin
fren i definitely an unknown so glad when fren offered info/opinions.. haha
i always like toking to pple prone to being an unknown
not tt im trying to sterotype everione but when unknowns tell mi personal stuff.. im honored n happy.
seriously.
wat they say seem more worthy then blindspots whu rattle off all the time
tink i dislike doing tt sumtimes
but i cant realli help it
im trying to keep my tongue in check hahah
can conserve energy in this way
im confused la
as to wat kind of person i wan to b
if i can change tt
oh my fav boy name is kenneth
and there's a story to it
but haah
watever rite...
mayb my son ll b a kenneth next time :)
then remebered something and came online to check again
went to read my blog and i realize something
jus like wat im doing now, and wat i do mostly as a conversattionalist
i dont exactly formulate my opinion and tots very well
i tell stories, recount, write stories
tt's all
sometimes i feel sick and tired of this
tired of how i cant covey my feelgs thoughts properly?
im really like born to entertain pple?
like todays 3f gathering.. i start to tell stories when i reached
yak yak yak for like 15min or sumthing
made everione laugh
sometimes i wonder if my sole f(x) within my frens is to do jus tt
b an entertainer
mayb tt's y i score so high in tt self monitor test i did during pdcp
haha
then i tok so much tt im actualli tired frm toking
when i stop toking if it becomes too quiet i ll start toking again
mayb its jus w 3f
my f(x) there is to entertain them
it always happen in all class gathering
i noticed tt i act very differently w diff pple
w the gang i try to b more steady coz tt's laoda's job
then w judo pple i can afford to b more kid n haha coz carol is more of our dajieda, i jus need to b a lubricant or sumthing
then w my family i tok damn alot too.. always trying not to haf akward silences since my bros barely tok to each other
sometimes i can afford to relac one corner n jus shuddup w pple im not too familiar w
i dunnoe la
q sianzz
i hope i can express myself better
altho im a freaking blindspot
\haha i spend 75% if the time tellg stories
when pple really challenge mi to make my stand
i cant do it well
which sucks
was lookg at friendster
the saw frens whu haf characteristics tt i really like
i realli like them in tt way
then i tink of the person i am
the person i am not
and the person i never wud b
if i like a particular characteristic of sumone
shud i learn to b lidat
its q weird rite
n i prob cant do it coz im not lidat.
but whu defines "lidat"
wat whu defines our character/personality
can we change it
shud we
do we need to
i wonder
oh i rem wat i wanted to blog abt last nite
baby cousin = jaydon choy (cui) kaijun
haha
shud bring him to watch initial D to support jay haha
was toking to a fren abt naming my cousin
fren i definitely an unknown so glad when fren offered info/opinions.. haha
i always like toking to pple prone to being an unknown
not tt im trying to sterotype everione but when unknowns tell mi personal stuff.. im honored n happy.
seriously.
wat they say seem more worthy then blindspots whu rattle off all the time
tink i dislike doing tt sumtimes
but i cant realli help it
im trying to keep my tongue in check hahah
can conserve energy in this way
im confused la
as to wat kind of person i wan to b
if i can change tt
oh my fav boy name is kenneth
and there's a story to it
but haah
watever rite...
mayb my son ll b a kenneth next time :)
土曜日, 6月 18, 2005
finally sometime alone w myself..
miss these 'me' times alot, been hanging a round people all day, so much so tt im q sick of crowds now..
work is tiring i tink n not too fun, so after working for three weeks I finally decided that I really should start studying harder next semester as going school is so much more fun.
I really feel drained and after my OT at office till 1230am on Wednesday night, by already bad eyebags have worsened so much so that I really look like some panda now.
Boss wanted to revamp the termsheet's look and feel as usual, into something that looks more professional but as usual "how does a termsheet actually look like??" and I wonder.
The first time they actually set a time limit for the work they want me to do so I decided I really should try my best.
But from 2 to 6pm, I did up so many termsheets until my boss is finally satsified but realize that there is so many more that I have to change by that night because jon was leaving for japan the next day and I need him to vet through the work to make sure that I don't screw up the calculations in the excel sheets.
So I started my OT to be nice so that he didn't have to do it himself or pass it on to andrew who is not incharge to take over..
at 9 he told me if I really can't finish then forget it la, but I decided to stay till 11pm.
At 11pm, I was still not done, but I realize that if I leave now, I will really be buganyuan.. haha because I already stayed so long and I want to finish it like TODAY!
jon left with his wife at 9+, telling me that he would be back later. As I was working and he didnt come back I was actually q pissed off that he is so unappreciative, but at that time I was really doing the work not because I want to help my collegue but more for my own buaytahan-ness, because I cant imagine to have to continue with it the next day. He came back at midnight to be shocked that I was still there but I told him I was finishing and I really completed the job at 1230 and emailed it to him. He kept saying," eh good job, good job. thanx for your effort" etc haha
walau my eyeballs were so dry by then I couldnt really see the screen too well.
Luckily there were people on night shift in the office doing 24hr market watch, otherwise I would be super freaked out if they left me alone in that hugh office. I left by the east lobby without realizing that only the west one had one exit that is open. My dad had been waiting for me all these while since 11pm and when i was trapped by locked doors in the east lobby, I could actually see his car parked along the road in the distance.
I felt some form of panic creepg up my back because it was really dark and I couldn't see anyone around. Haha i guess that is the feeling you get when you are trapped in a building alone with no way out. Serene always says she like to be trapped in some shopping mall to play at night.. haha I always scared got hantu and I really felt creepy sia.. decided to breathe deeply and stay calm to return to the office so that I could cross over to the west lobby.
As the lift came down from the 20+th floor.. I waited.
One floor by one floor.
The lift descended.
I held my breath when the lift finally reached F1
and when the door opened
there was
someone inside!
haha the security uncle la
scared the shit out of mi, lucky i didnt jump in front of him or scream into his face haha
but he was really nice
he showed mi the way through the 29th floor to get to the other side of the building
but as i was walking with him alone in the dark bank
i was tinkg if he murders me now or lock mi in how???? no one wud find mi
haha
luckily he was jus kind and helpful n wasnt murderous haha
and i finally got home for dinner at 1am then slept at 2am reached office at 8+ lookg like some zombie
haha i jus stopped blogging for like 30min coz toking on msn
now my train of tots gone
heh
but yep tts work
met my jc class mates today!
everione hasnt changed much
but most of them whu went overseas come bk attached haha so exciting
n as usual interrogated them abit
then went to linger ard until nite for father s day dinner
the food was good la
wa im q sick of eating le
been eatg good food like EVERIDAY
prob eating away all my pay sia
n i feel obese
shit'
i tink i shud fast for a wk or sumthing
to do some deetox
but tmr meet g 3 gps of pple
sigh
sure eat eat alot again la
siannz
my jc classmates didnt change too much la.. but scary how quickly a yr passsed by so quickly.
i miss mixing w pple my age
glad to see n meet up w frens la
all those overseas r like bk
meetg huay tmrr! n serene n py
haha im too tired to tink le
suan le dont write animore
miss these 'me' times alot, been hanging a round people all day, so much so tt im q sick of crowds now..
work is tiring i tink n not too fun, so after working for three weeks I finally decided that I really should start studying harder next semester as going school is so much more fun.
I really feel drained and after my OT at office till 1230am on Wednesday night, by already bad eyebags have worsened so much so that I really look like some panda now.
Boss wanted to revamp the termsheet's look and feel as usual, into something that looks more professional but as usual "how does a termsheet actually look like??" and I wonder.
The first time they actually set a time limit for the work they want me to do so I decided I really should try my best.
But from 2 to 6pm, I did up so many termsheets until my boss is finally satsified but realize that there is so many more that I have to change by that night because jon was leaving for japan the next day and I need him to vet through the work to make sure that I don't screw up the calculations in the excel sheets.
So I started my OT to be nice so that he didn't have to do it himself or pass it on to andrew who is not incharge to take over..
at 9 he told me if I really can't finish then forget it la, but I decided to stay till 11pm.
At 11pm, I was still not done, but I realize that if I leave now, I will really be buganyuan.. haha because I already stayed so long and I want to finish it like TODAY!
jon left with his wife at 9+, telling me that he would be back later. As I was working and he didnt come back I was actually q pissed off that he is so unappreciative, but at that time I was really doing the work not because I want to help my collegue but more for my own buaytahan-ness, because I cant imagine to have to continue with it the next day. He came back at midnight to be shocked that I was still there but I told him I was finishing and I really completed the job at 1230 and emailed it to him. He kept saying," eh good job, good job. thanx for your effort" etc haha
walau my eyeballs were so dry by then I couldnt really see the screen too well.
Luckily there were people on night shift in the office doing 24hr market watch, otherwise I would be super freaked out if they left me alone in that hugh office. I left by the east lobby without realizing that only the west one had one exit that is open. My dad had been waiting for me all these while since 11pm and when i was trapped by locked doors in the east lobby, I could actually see his car parked along the road in the distance.
I felt some form of panic creepg up my back because it was really dark and I couldn't see anyone around. Haha i guess that is the feeling you get when you are trapped in a building alone with no way out. Serene always says she like to be trapped in some shopping mall to play at night.. haha I always scared got hantu and I really felt creepy sia.. decided to breathe deeply and stay calm to return to the office so that I could cross over to the west lobby.
As the lift came down from the 20+th floor.. I waited.
One floor by one floor.
The lift descended.
I held my breath when the lift finally reached F1
and when the door opened
there was
someone inside!
haha the security uncle la
scared the shit out of mi, lucky i didnt jump in front of him or scream into his face haha
but he was really nice
he showed mi the way through the 29th floor to get to the other side of the building
but as i was walking with him alone in the dark bank
i was tinkg if he murders me now or lock mi in how???? no one wud find mi
haha
luckily he was jus kind and helpful n wasnt murderous haha
and i finally got home for dinner at 1am then slept at 2am reached office at 8+ lookg like some zombie
haha i jus stopped blogging for like 30min coz toking on msn
now my train of tots gone
heh
but yep tts work
met my jc class mates today!
everione hasnt changed much
but most of them whu went overseas come bk attached haha so exciting
n as usual interrogated them abit
then went to linger ard until nite for father s day dinner
the food was good la
wa im q sick of eating le
been eatg good food like EVERIDAY
prob eating away all my pay sia
n i feel obese
shit'
i tink i shud fast for a wk or sumthing
to do some deetox
but tmr meet g 3 gps of pple
sigh
sure eat eat alot again la
siannz
my jc classmates didnt change too much la.. but scary how quickly a yr passsed by so quickly.
i miss mixing w pple my age
glad to see n meet up w frens la
all those overseas r like bk
meetg huay tmrr! n serene n py
haha im too tired to tink le
suan le dont write animore
月曜日, 6月 13, 2005
today i made everione in the office happi haha so i end up feelg q good oso too..
then at a little bird during lunch w kl.. coz we saw it tt day when we walked past the stall n i tot it was a chick.. i turned out to b roasted quill hhaa
the taste is very savory but its so small n full of bones so i dont tink its v hua.. for $5
haha jus a try would b fine la...
then stayed for meetg.. glad tt im understandg more n more
then went dinner w yt, jon, R, A haha
they r v funni lor.. yt talked abt how he haf to do all the housework coz his gf refuse to help then he wkend ll go ntuc to shop for groceries like some auntie.. haha i can so imagine him lidat..
no wonder he always come across to mi as some one q thrifty.. mus b influence frm aunties :P
then R has a very expressive face n a very distict voice.. tt ill always rem haha
jon toks abt his wife.. how she dont realli do housework oso..n how he is a better cook.. these guys ar
A is still the same.. got the laojian juhua feelg to him..
like someone w a veri strong facade.. but toking to him make mi feel abit sad for all the working adults.. hope i wont b lidat next time..
he s working in the place he wans to la but not doing the exact thing he wants to do.. so yep
then he jus tell mi in a v sian way like.. its jus earning a living lor.. n i tink he ll slowly become an alcoholic if he doesnt stop drinkg everiother day haha
these r my old-er collegues whu range frm 27-33yrs old..
even older than my dage lor..
bankers huh.. the way they tok n think is v diff frm pple i know... so i find watching these pple q interesting actualli.. my opinion of them changes abitabit day by day.. but i ll b gone soon la so.. haha wat an experience..
i met a CUTE guy today
he's q old actualli but jus the whole package
he has veri pretty eyes and look very gentle n kind
haha coz boss made mi run an errand to 9th floor to get something frm MrR
haha tink he looks q young to b a VP la
but he's prob married and i onli saw him for like 1min or less
but jus an observation...
such calibre actualli exists in the bank! haha
shud i become a medicamp ogl?
they rejected mi at e beginning then they jus accepted mi again?
i so totally factored it out of my hols alreadi liaoz.. sianz
how???
i saw a kid today whu can memorize some 'ci'
which is super long, like a san zi jing or sumthing
her dad ll tell her line 20.. then she ll jus recite
omg n she's like 6??
how much discipline mus b instilled into a kid for her to perform lidat man?
i dunnoe to feel happi for her or not..
n on the other end of the spectrum..
sigh my tuition kid ar
problematic sia
i blackfaced her coz for 3wks she barely did my hw... n gave her a mini pep tok
and she got so scared she didnt bring out her hw to ask and she like become damn worried and stoned at home.. feel so helpless and cant do anithing lidat
omg.. my mama told mi coz she heard frm her mum
omg kids nowadays ar
r so pampered tt they become useless liaoz
y cant they pick them selves up frm failure>??
sigh i shant say pple
i noe how helplessness feel jolly well
but im going to b more patient but rest assured i ll 'educate' her to b more independent..
her parents shieldg her frm everi drop of rain issit going to help her lor..
whu can b there to protect n lead her by her nose for the rest of her life rite>??
sigh
then at a little bird during lunch w kl.. coz we saw it tt day when we walked past the stall n i tot it was a chick.. i turned out to b roasted quill hhaa
the taste is very savory but its so small n full of bones so i dont tink its v hua.. for $5
haha jus a try would b fine la...
then stayed for meetg.. glad tt im understandg more n more
then went dinner w yt, jon, R, A haha
they r v funni lor.. yt talked abt how he haf to do all the housework coz his gf refuse to help then he wkend ll go ntuc to shop for groceries like some auntie.. haha i can so imagine him lidat..
no wonder he always come across to mi as some one q thrifty.. mus b influence frm aunties :P
then R has a very expressive face n a very distict voice.. tt ill always rem haha
jon toks abt his wife.. how she dont realli do housework oso..n how he is a better cook.. these guys ar
A is still the same.. got the laojian juhua feelg to him..
like someone w a veri strong facade.. but toking to him make mi feel abit sad for all the working adults.. hope i wont b lidat next time..
he s working in the place he wans to la but not doing the exact thing he wants to do.. so yep
then he jus tell mi in a v sian way like.. its jus earning a living lor.. n i tink he ll slowly become an alcoholic if he doesnt stop drinkg everiother day haha
these r my old-er collegues whu range frm 27-33yrs old..
even older than my dage lor..
bankers huh.. the way they tok n think is v diff frm pple i know... so i find watching these pple q interesting actualli.. my opinion of them changes abitabit day by day.. but i ll b gone soon la so.. haha wat an experience..
i met a CUTE guy today
he's q old actualli but jus the whole package
he has veri pretty eyes and look very gentle n kind
haha coz boss made mi run an errand to 9th floor to get something frm MrR
haha tink he looks q young to b a VP la
but he's prob married and i onli saw him for like 1min or less
but jus an observation...
such calibre actualli exists in the bank! haha
shud i become a medicamp ogl?
they rejected mi at e beginning then they jus accepted mi again?
i so totally factored it out of my hols alreadi liaoz.. sianz
how???
i saw a kid today whu can memorize some 'ci'
which is super long, like a san zi jing or sumthing
her dad ll tell her line 20.. then she ll jus recite
omg n she's like 6??
how much discipline mus b instilled into a kid for her to perform lidat man?
i dunnoe to feel happi for her or not..
n on the other end of the spectrum..
sigh my tuition kid ar
problematic sia
i blackfaced her coz for 3wks she barely did my hw... n gave her a mini pep tok
and she got so scared she didnt bring out her hw to ask and she like become damn worried and stoned at home.. feel so helpless and cant do anithing lidat
omg.. my mama told mi coz she heard frm her mum
omg kids nowadays ar
r so pampered tt they become useless liaoz
y cant they pick them selves up frm failure>??
sigh i shant say pple
i noe how helplessness feel jolly well
but im going to b more patient but rest assured i ll 'educate' her to b more independent..
her parents shieldg her frm everi drop of rain issit going to help her lor..
whu can b there to protect n lead her by her nose for the rest of her life rite>??
sigh
日曜日, 6月 12, 2005
im tired these days
realli tired frm work altho i dont exactly do alot hhaa
but the first time i saw the final pdt of the research website thingy tt i "designed?" haa wrote abit la, i was actualli q proud of it altho boss later said the lang wasnt gd enuff to attract customers but got sum other pple to edit it, i still had some sense of accomplishment
work work.. had alot of fun observing the pple there
on fri went to sit w nellie and andrew n eddie whu showed mi how to do abit of FX, it s actualli more fun then jus studying off the screen.. hope boss says tt jon haf stuff for mi to help him w next wk la.. then i not so slack
but im still tired n sleepy
fri finally came n met up w frens...
wow felika (thx for the card, i realli like it), xy, serene, py
had a gd time, altho didnt go as hysterical as we use to may b coz i'm tired or hafnt seen them for q sum time, but i had a gdtime.. w gd company
mi n the jiu gui aka serene went for our hunt for a place to drink aft we parted w the rest haha
under S's recommendatn got a daiquiri, altho the alcohol if there was ani inside was so little tt i didnt taste or feel it
but the feelg's q gd, chillg out at the irish bar
its a place tt i had a vague memory of..
i rem carol brought mi there b4.. cant rem wat we did tt day but a few of us walked q a long dist to find tt place tt is lit w little purple lights at nite.,. it was realli beautiful tt nite, cant rem whu else was there tho.... but w tt bitbit memory, found tt place again last nite..
cheers* we shud do it more often :)
haha we tired to go into the pubs near somerset but either too full or too sleazy heh
aniwae 2 chiong for the last train, we ran so much tt got us soaked in sweat onli to b there 4min b4 the last train arrived
i dont realli drink, but i actualli like to go relac at these places once in a while? haah
seeing my collegues whu like go drinkg everiother nite and if anione cum late for work pple ll go ard saying tt he's too drunk to wake up haha
n to tink tt 2 of the guys in the office one joined manhunt b4 and the other is an elite model?
haha they look ok la but haha
today was a gd day too
beside being super pissed off w my lazy tuition kid, tt i sacrificed my slp to teach but did like 1/20 of the hw i gif her or sumthing tsk
hafnt had such a black face for a long time le
kids now a days ar.. tinktheir parent's money drop down frm the sky issit.. im hired to explain stuff to them, end up i can read the papers will waitg for the 2 do her work coz she did so little tt there was barely anithing to explain tsk
but brad pitt made the day as usual
mr n mrs smith
felt tt the pace of the show is abit weird tho, abit too slow in front but overall i wud say its gd..
rem '97 when i went to watch meet joe black, tt was when i first started to like him alot.
i mean alot,. like he's really my fav hollywood guy.. frm pri6 till now haha
but he's realli aged la can c
his face widened n became more angular but the nice feelg is still there :)
q a sweet show .. aww
airport to c huay... welcome bk!
gd to c u again.. didnt feel too long ago tt we jus sent her off for 1st yr n now she's bk
how time flies n we feel freaking old w all the 15 yr olds ard haha
but aft tt we went to watch the 93.3 concert haa jus for energy but we stood a grand total of 3.5hr?? haha
but serene's dream came thru gd for her la
saw them perform, and i manage to push her front front when they cum out of the tent to go to their bus... then she manage to taptaptaptaptap his arm haah.. i wanted to try mou-ing oso but too shock when ah di came out and too amused when serene started tapping his arm hahaha
but yea had a fun time la.. things tt we never dream of doing
well going aft stars isnt realli sumthing 20yr olds do rite.. but to make up for our lost childhood.. haha too busy studing last time huh..
aniwae my legs r so tired.. i need slp again
realli tired frm work altho i dont exactly do alot hhaa
but the first time i saw the final pdt of the research website thingy tt i "designed?" haa wrote abit la, i was actualli q proud of it altho boss later said the lang wasnt gd enuff to attract customers but got sum other pple to edit it, i still had some sense of accomplishment
work work.. had alot of fun observing the pple there
on fri went to sit w nellie and andrew n eddie whu showed mi how to do abit of FX, it s actualli more fun then jus studying off the screen.. hope boss says tt jon haf stuff for mi to help him w next wk la.. then i not so slack
but im still tired n sleepy
fri finally came n met up w frens...
wow felika (thx for the card, i realli like it), xy, serene, py
had a gd time, altho didnt go as hysterical as we use to may b coz i'm tired or hafnt seen them for q sum time, but i had a gdtime.. w gd company
mi n the jiu gui aka serene went for our hunt for a place to drink aft we parted w the rest haha
under S's recommendatn got a daiquiri, altho the alcohol if there was ani inside was so little tt i didnt taste or feel it
but the feelg's q gd, chillg out at the irish bar
its a place tt i had a vague memory of..
i rem carol brought mi there b4.. cant rem wat we did tt day but a few of us walked q a long dist to find tt place tt is lit w little purple lights at nite.,. it was realli beautiful tt nite, cant rem whu else was there tho.... but w tt bitbit memory, found tt place again last nite..
cheers* we shud do it more often :)
haha we tired to go into the pubs near somerset but either too full or too sleazy heh
aniwae 2 chiong for the last train, we ran so much tt got us soaked in sweat onli to b there 4min b4 the last train arrived
i dont realli drink, but i actualli like to go relac at these places once in a while? haah
seeing my collegues whu like go drinkg everiother nite and if anione cum late for work pple ll go ard saying tt he's too drunk to wake up haha
n to tink tt 2 of the guys in the office one joined manhunt b4 and the other is an elite model?
haha they look ok la but haha
today was a gd day too
beside being super pissed off w my lazy tuition kid, tt i sacrificed my slp to teach but did like 1/20 of the hw i gif her or sumthing tsk
hafnt had such a black face for a long time le
kids now a days ar.. tinktheir parent's money drop down frm the sky issit.. im hired to explain stuff to them, end up i can read the papers will waitg for the 2 do her work coz she did so little tt there was barely anithing to explain tsk
but brad pitt made the day as usual
mr n mrs smith
felt tt the pace of the show is abit weird tho, abit too slow in front but overall i wud say its gd..
rem '97 when i went to watch meet joe black, tt was when i first started to like him alot.
i mean alot,. like he's really my fav hollywood guy.. frm pri6 till now haha
but he's realli aged la can c
his face widened n became more angular but the nice feelg is still there :)
q a sweet show .. aww
airport to c huay... welcome bk!
gd to c u again.. didnt feel too long ago tt we jus sent her off for 1st yr n now she's bk
how time flies n we feel freaking old w all the 15 yr olds ard haha
but aft tt we went to watch the 93.3 concert haa jus for energy but we stood a grand total of 3.5hr?? haha
but serene's dream came thru gd for her la
saw them perform, and i manage to push her front front when they cum out of the tent to go to their bus... then she manage to taptaptaptaptap his arm haah.. i wanted to try mou-ing oso but too shock when ah di came out and too amused when serene started tapping his arm hahaha
but yea had a fun time la.. things tt we never dream of doing
well going aft stars isnt realli sumthing 20yr olds do rite.. but to make up for our lost childhood.. haha too busy studing last time huh..
aniwae my legs r so tired.. i need slp again
月曜日, 6月 06, 2005
haha i mus b too sleepy last nite forgot to mention my 2 hospital visits
my ahgong is in the hospital now coz he fell down and dislocated his knee.. then now too swollen so they jus put it in cast until the swell goes away so tt he can go 4 operation
listening to him and looking at him im q relieved coz he's feelg q ok jus the leg abit immobile and e funni thing is tt my dad says he realli enjoys the nurses' company and insist tt they help him up the bed instead of his sons.. haha tsktsk
all these se peh peh
haha
well aniwae as i was visiting my ah gong i saw a gudulaoren
he has dementia, tt's wat i heard and when he hear my ahgong call my dage ah ming.. something kinda clicked in his brain and he kinda remembered or imagined tt he had a grandson called ahming and start toking to my dage, asking him if he has met up w this other relative or sumthing and my dage jus conversed w him la... like play along
im glad he did it coz the gudulaoren realli very poor thing like no one kinda visits him
in the same ward there was another wheezing ahpek and another old man whu jus amputated his leg..
i was get q an overwhelming feelg when i step into wards.. like there r so mani patients inside everione has their stories to tell and they r all v poor thing
n i realized tt sumtime they jus need someone whu has the time to go tok to them, reassure them and pay them some attention, coz apparently i heard frm my ahgong he was really unhappy tt the doc jus came in and looked at his info and stuff and walked away w/o speaking a word to him.. hmph ill keep tt in mind
then we went downstairs to visit a grand uncle
another gudulaoren
his adopted son, tt's his bro's son la kinda abandoned him
tt bast*** cheated him of his cpf bought a 4rm flat
then aft tt changed to a 3rm and made him, a 78yr old ahpek sleep in the kitchen?? wth
then now aft he was hospitalised aft a fall his stupid son aka my dad's cousin jus doesnt wan to come to discharge him coz he doesnt wan to pay the bills
i cant believe these pple actualli exist, well i noe they do but within my family???!!??!!
he sucks lor
so now i oso dunnoe how
its not jus the hospital fees its how to get a place for tt old man to stay and find a job to survive and stuff..
where to start? i wonder
on a lighter note, i met my cousin
a new addition to the family :D a baby boy
now the biggest challenge is to find the right name haha
he's so cute and his face is so soft its powedery sia
tt is good complexion!
haha
but he's really suuuppppperr cute
like liv says, "new toy"
haha he ll kinda b the centre of attention for a long time la
but i mus remind myself to shower lots of concern to her older sis
so used to b our baby
now there's a tiny baby to get all teh attention i bet she feels abit hmm..
so!
haha i happily promised to b there at her sch's funfair to make balloon sculptures so tt she cud sell
haha wat haf i gotten myself into?
but i realli dont mind la entertaining kids
but guess i gotta learn alot more design so tt i can make wat they wan :D
shopped damn alot today for office wear
sigh
tired sia.. but gd to meet up w the taiwan! pple again haha n thai express's tomyam shop is ZAN!
haha
my eye got better hope it recovers la
my ahgong is in the hospital now coz he fell down and dislocated his knee.. then now too swollen so they jus put it in cast until the swell goes away so tt he can go 4 operation
listening to him and looking at him im q relieved coz he's feelg q ok jus the leg abit immobile and e funni thing is tt my dad says he realli enjoys the nurses' company and insist tt they help him up the bed instead of his sons.. haha tsktsk
all these se peh peh
haha
well aniwae as i was visiting my ah gong i saw a gudulaoren
he has dementia, tt's wat i heard and when he hear my ahgong call my dage ah ming.. something kinda clicked in his brain and he kinda remembered or imagined tt he had a grandson called ahming and start toking to my dage, asking him if he has met up w this other relative or sumthing and my dage jus conversed w him la... like play along
im glad he did it coz the gudulaoren realli very poor thing like no one kinda visits him
in the same ward there was another wheezing ahpek and another old man whu jus amputated his leg..
i was get q an overwhelming feelg when i step into wards.. like there r so mani patients inside everione has their stories to tell and they r all v poor thing
n i realized tt sumtime they jus need someone whu has the time to go tok to them, reassure them and pay them some attention, coz apparently i heard frm my ahgong he was really unhappy tt the doc jus came in and looked at his info and stuff and walked away w/o speaking a word to him.. hmph ill keep tt in mind
then we went downstairs to visit a grand uncle
another gudulaoren
his adopted son, tt's his bro's son la kinda abandoned him
tt bast*** cheated him of his cpf bought a 4rm flat
then aft tt changed to a 3rm and made him, a 78yr old ahpek sleep in the kitchen?? wth
then now aft he was hospitalised aft a fall his stupid son aka my dad's cousin jus doesnt wan to come to discharge him coz he doesnt wan to pay the bills
i cant believe these pple actualli exist, well i noe they do but within my family???!!??!!
he sucks lor
so now i oso dunnoe how
its not jus the hospital fees its how to get a place for tt old man to stay and find a job to survive and stuff..
where to start? i wonder
on a lighter note, i met my cousin
a new addition to the family :D a baby boy
now the biggest challenge is to find the right name haha
he's so cute and his face is so soft its powedery sia
tt is good complexion!
haha
but he's really suuuppppperr cute
like liv says, "new toy"
haha he ll kinda b the centre of attention for a long time la
but i mus remind myself to shower lots of concern to her older sis
so used to b our baby
now there's a tiny baby to get all teh attention i bet she feels abit hmm..
so!
haha i happily promised to b there at her sch's funfair to make balloon sculptures so tt she cud sell
haha wat haf i gotten myself into?
but i realli dont mind la entertaining kids
but guess i gotta learn alot more design so tt i can make wat they wan :D
shopped damn alot today for office wear
sigh
tired sia.. but gd to meet up w the taiwan! pple again haha n thai express's tomyam shop is ZAN!
haha
my eye got better hope it recovers la
土曜日, 6月 04, 2005
haha as i was reading my last entry i m realli amused.. i wrote "lky eyeball" wat i meant was "lky eyebags" la.. muahahaha
aniwae its been like more than a fortnight since i last blog liaozz...
wanted to write abt my pri sch class gathering tt i tried to organize
altho not mani pple turned up.. but im glad i tried la
now still trying to compile the list of contacts but tink for the rest of e pple tt i cant track down it ll take a while.. really glad to get bk in touch w some of the old frens and seeing how much everione has changed make mi feel old-er.
well then there was phs rite.. where i witnessed a ho faint in front of mi.. and i was so scared and stunned tt i realli felt helpless n cant do anithing.,. luckily there was lurenjia whu lifted her head or sumthing and i got help frm the mo and seniors in the consultation rm
tt experience really make mi realize tt im still so not there yet and there is still so much to learn
then toking to all the pple, heard abit abit of their stories here n there is realli q interestg la
but tt all seem q long ago
going over to stay at serene's house haha buying her diet coke coz she got sore throat and py got her heels stuck in the drain haa i tot she so brave go walk the drain w all the gaps summore..
but had a long tok w her, glad she's all cleared now
then soon aft i went off to TAIWAN!
we went so free n so easy tt we onli got the hotel ready and the airtix
other than tt we had nothing
no transport to hotel and stuff
and we jus land and met the first big hooha of our lives, the tix man whu look like a bear insisted tt we took 1000 change frm him alreadi but actualli he hafnt gave up.. still try to scare us say call mata, turn out to b his fault lor sigh
then at ximending some crazy man approach mi n ask mi for 100k haha
he ask mi if i were frm europe n ask mi for $$ luckily the ahzong mianxian guy shooed him away scary sia
had alot of fun w beng xian xyairen wendy pofun yumin
realli mai dong xi chi dong xi sia
im so fully everiday cant believe it
but its a good feelg living abroad for a while findg our way ard.,..
and had good company mah
didnt realli feel v out of place coz when we spoke mandrine most pple wont notice tt we r foreigners but its our slippers tt gave us away haha
tink not alot of pple over there wear slippers actualli
n watch lots of ch 15 16 haha
wow
ANIWAE
like the pple n the food there la
veri frenly and we were 'tricked' or coz of fate met 3 pple tt brought us to climb up the highest peak in taipei! haah we went up the highest pt of yang mi shan
i tot i wud jus stop breathing n die
stairs into the mist look like they ll lead mi to heaven but THEY R NEverENDING!
well it ended at the peak la
n the way down was another story sigh
but glad we all made it n went daishui w beautiful sunset
n the leofoo village was fun!!
so exciting went w beng whu kena coaxed/forced by mi to take all the rides some a few times haha
so much mai dong xi chi dong xi
had a great time n glad to b bk safe n sound
budden started work the next day on my bdae haha
ocbc bank treasury
was tinkg prob make mi count $$ or sumting but i was so wrong
i work in a tradng rm!
the sales side n the trading side
then q exciting, they ll shout across the rm and like ask for prices of USD/SGD and stuff and buy this sale tt
all the stuff abt stocks and shares n investments make mi totally clueless
met the hr pple
whu was q shock i dint noe anithing abt treasury
then met my boss terence, gave mi a short intro in like 15min
he's q nice la but hmm haah i like the fact tt he always ask for the best things like the template he made mi do was amended like more than5 times b4 he was happi sia n the weekly i hope it ll b done on mon sigh
but he made mi realize tt some one whu ask so much frm others n himself really make things work
coz he so hard to satsify tt make mi keep changing n changing until i was plesantly surprised tt the final pdt was so much nicer thAn the one i came out w initially. so yep tt's my boss
n his boss is wm, her name sounds like mine so when pple calll her which is v often, i ll look up
i was assigned to the research team n met chadwick
haha wat an uncommon name
but he's realli nice n frenly n bought mi kopi at starbucks on mon n tue
haha n bought mi lunch too.. im realli q paiseh la
but he realli made mi feel at home
haa they brought mi to drink aft mon's meetg n met the rest in terenece's team
now sitting w yt, my new neighbour whu is realli nice n soft spoken i tink., he remind mi alot of my dage, i tot he was the youngest of the team turn out tt he's like the 2nd oldest apart frm boss.
haha
n i met py on monday nite to celeb my bdae, thanx for the ribs ya
i m realli damn tiredfrm work
didnt slp enuff frm taiwan haha
n now got some stupid eyeinfection and to tink i slept for like 13hrs str frm yest... haha
im tired alreadii sigh
my poor eye
didnt noe tt the eyedrop i use dilates my eyeball no wonder so light sensitive the whoelday
wa cant take it le
slpg soon.
works q fun la, stocks n shares investments, encons
realli something totally new to mi, glad to b learning la
aniwae its been like more than a fortnight since i last blog liaozz...
wanted to write abt my pri sch class gathering tt i tried to organize
altho not mani pple turned up.. but im glad i tried la
now still trying to compile the list of contacts but tink for the rest of e pple tt i cant track down it ll take a while.. really glad to get bk in touch w some of the old frens and seeing how much everione has changed make mi feel old-er.
well then there was phs rite.. where i witnessed a ho faint in front of mi.. and i was so scared and stunned tt i realli felt helpless n cant do anithing.,. luckily there was lurenjia whu lifted her head or sumthing and i got help frm the mo and seniors in the consultation rm
tt experience really make mi realize tt im still so not there yet and there is still so much to learn
then toking to all the pple, heard abit abit of their stories here n there is realli q interestg la
but tt all seem q long ago
going over to stay at serene's house haha buying her diet coke coz she got sore throat and py got her heels stuck in the drain haa i tot she so brave go walk the drain w all the gaps summore..
but had a long tok w her, glad she's all cleared now
then soon aft i went off to TAIWAN!
we went so free n so easy tt we onli got the hotel ready and the airtix
other than tt we had nothing
no transport to hotel and stuff
and we jus land and met the first big hooha of our lives, the tix man whu look like a bear insisted tt we took 1000 change frm him alreadi but actualli he hafnt gave up.. still try to scare us say call mata, turn out to b his fault lor sigh
then at ximending some crazy man approach mi n ask mi for 100k haha
he ask mi if i were frm europe n ask mi for $$ luckily the ahzong mianxian guy shooed him away scary sia
had alot of fun w beng xian xyairen wendy pofun yumin
realli mai dong xi chi dong xi sia
im so fully everiday cant believe it
but its a good feelg living abroad for a while findg our way ard.,..
and had good company mah
didnt realli feel v out of place coz when we spoke mandrine most pple wont notice tt we r foreigners but its our slippers tt gave us away haha
tink not alot of pple over there wear slippers actualli
n watch lots of ch 15 16 haha
wow
ANIWAE
like the pple n the food there la
veri frenly and we were 'tricked' or coz of fate met 3 pple tt brought us to climb up the highest peak in taipei! haah we went up the highest pt of yang mi shan
i tot i wud jus stop breathing n die
stairs into the mist look like they ll lead mi to heaven but THEY R NEverENDING!
well it ended at the peak la
n the way down was another story sigh
but glad we all made it n went daishui w beautiful sunset
n the leofoo village was fun!!
so exciting went w beng whu kena coaxed/forced by mi to take all the rides some a few times haha
so much mai dong xi chi dong xi
had a great time n glad to b bk safe n sound
budden started work the next day on my bdae haha
ocbc bank treasury
was tinkg prob make mi count $$ or sumting but i was so wrong
i work in a tradng rm!
the sales side n the trading side
then q exciting, they ll shout across the rm and like ask for prices of USD/SGD and stuff and buy this sale tt
all the stuff abt stocks and shares n investments make mi totally clueless
met the hr pple
whu was q shock i dint noe anithing abt treasury
then met my boss terence, gave mi a short intro in like 15min
he's q nice la but hmm haah i like the fact tt he always ask for the best things like the template he made mi do was amended like more than5 times b4 he was happi sia n the weekly i hope it ll b done on mon sigh
but he made mi realize tt some one whu ask so much frm others n himself really make things work
coz he so hard to satsify tt make mi keep changing n changing until i was plesantly surprised tt the final pdt was so much nicer thAn the one i came out w initially. so yep tt's my boss
n his boss is wm, her name sounds like mine so when pple calll her which is v often, i ll look up
i was assigned to the research team n met chadwick
haha wat an uncommon name
but he's realli nice n frenly n bought mi kopi at starbucks on mon n tue
haha n bought mi lunch too.. im realli q paiseh la
but he realli made mi feel at home
haa they brought mi to drink aft mon's meetg n met the rest in terenece's team
now sitting w yt, my new neighbour whu is realli nice n soft spoken i tink., he remind mi alot of my dage, i tot he was the youngest of the team turn out tt he's like the 2nd oldest apart frm boss.
haha
n i met py on monday nite to celeb my bdae, thanx for the ribs ya
i m realli damn tiredfrm work
didnt slp enuff frm taiwan haha
n now got some stupid eyeinfection and to tink i slept for like 13hrs str frm yest... haha
im tired alreadii sigh
my poor eye
didnt noe tt the eyedrop i use dilates my eyeball no wonder so light sensitive the whoelday
wa cant take it le
slpg soon.
works q fun la, stocks n shares investments, encons
realli something totally new to mi, glad to b learning la
水曜日, 5月 18, 2005
ive got so much to share today
but its 130 alreadi.. n lky eyeballs ll haunt mi forever arrrggggghhhhh
today had been an interesting day
im startign to enjoy the course alot :)
our lec mentioned abt personality, communication styles and prof usa screened THE TERMINAL for us today
and i started to realize tt aft the lec n tut
i can better spot the diff types of pple ard in the movie and how pple converse and stuff
which realli strikes mi alot and wow.. its so real, like wat prof linus says... and its so much ard our lives tt i realli enjoy being able to pick up these signs..
i mean i used to try observing strangers and stuff but this gifs mi a more structed way of observing.. and putting it down in a better way
tut was fun
im a A- type of person, as expected.. i tot i might b an almost B or sumthing haa
im INFP - same as jialin, almost similar to pofun haah issit a gemini trait?? heh
pple tot i wud b E but i guess i can b both.. jus more confortable being an introvert, time spent alone is v impt to mi.. i totally dont resent it but instead i realli enjoy it... i like being w pple too haha abit of both la
im a blind spot in johari's window
and i so not surprised haha
i tok alot all the time
which is sumthing i recently wan to curb and change
coz its too frivolous and i feel tt things tt i say r sumtimes meaning less
sumtimes i feel tt way
but the onli meaning i find in it is tts my way of sharing w pple.. wat happens in my life, whu i met, wat i saw, wat i heard, funni things
but seldom wat i feel, seldom dreams desires needs.. haha almost never my secrets..
abit got dug up haha i guess in a mcdonalds yrs ago at typ haha
i tot i wud never say anithing tt is so inside, until i met pple whu r so willing to share n encourage us/mi to share haha
but tt s v long ago
i believe tt pple in the blindspot might not exactly b read like an open bk
jing2 pointed tt out too
pple whu tok alot
like jh oso a blindspot, alot of crap, funni things but seldom deep deep feelgs or anithing
true
so i guess it depends on the content of ur speech, ur audience, whether u r comfortable enuff to disclose more or not..
the course is gettg interestg n if i dont sleep soon i wont last till 5pm and 9pm for tut arrggghhh
then aft sch went w jing2 py pf to a nursery.. coz they lookg for flowers for church deco for a fren's wedding
corona was more for landscape didnt haf alot of flowers.. nice catcus tho
met pepper
a v guai dalmation tt loves pettg! haa
i tink it needs alot of attention n love.. ll put his face against ur leg.. wait for u to rub his head or neck so so enjoys it.. awwww
im not super into animals i prefer plants coz i tink i cant take care of them well and i dont haf the energy n interest to do a gd job.. tink the emotional attachment is too much to bare too in case anithing happens scared
then went to GG
for flowers.. super cold fridge
caspea is v nice n pretty n purple
flowers r beautiful...
i tink i learnt q abit how to purchase flowers for wedding deco liaoz haha
the dogs there look abit more fierce so i scared haha
oh pepper left a linger smell on my hand tt i wasnt too comfortable w so i went to wash it off..
as i was tokg to ny when we cum bk i realise tt i tink flowers r very pretty n nice but they r jus too short lived for my liking
i wud like them but i wont love them..
i always tot im someone whu 不在乎天长地久，只在乎\曾经拥有
but the flowers realli made mi reevulate n i realise tt i do like things tt last longer in my life so yep haha
we went holland v for dinner
the roads zoom mi bk to sumtime yrs ago..
memories tt r not shared but stayed w mi..
sumone pulled mi away frm a vehicle on the road coz i was too busy toking n didnt look properly
its ard the same time tt i feel more abt some stuff
and as i was walking along the road tonite at hollad v.. i was reminded of the past i guess..
the cool nite wind and the lights and the mani angmos sitting ard..
i dont noe if its all in the past
it shud b la
had a fun bs
ate nydc haah
and alex let mi eat yikou of his cheesecake to satsify my craving haha
and went home
on the train all alone, i starting reading this bk
二十岁的生日
haha i borrowed the bk coz it s so apt.. to prepare myself for the big 2 and noe wat to wish for haha
i was so into reading it tt when i heard "outram park station, passengers going towards punggol or harbour front, pls alight and transfer to the north east line..."
the door was open
i froze in my seat
my brain hurriedly process the info tt the door is going to close soon
and jus when everione in my carriage got off i grabbed everithing n dash out of the door
heng ar! didnt get giap!
haha
on the nel.. wow
met this happi fam
like three sis w blond hair.,. all mums
w like almost 10kids in all in tow
super noisy
scary.
e kids jump ard, tok loudly, played, stepped on sumone's leg and stuff wow like the Rascals haha
haha i was actualli q amused more than annoyed
altho almost everione was staring and dint looked too happi
haha one of the adults was holding on to a cane, readi to whack the kids anithing.. wa!
kids r hard to bring up
i realised.. very very hard..
came bk home watched abit of tv went online tok to pple
then the little box came up at the bottom right hand corner
and haha
my heart skipped abit n raced for like a split sec haha
a long lost feelg i guessed, no matter how fleetg
comtemplating if i shud initiate a conversation or not
while toking to mani pple at the same time haa
pleasantly surprise to find a fren intiated a conversation over msn.. n_n
tok to my frens
and told a fren abt the johari's window tt i did today
a self assessment to see wat kind of conversationalist u r
im a blindspot
n i told him he is an unknown
coz lookg at the conversation box, the ave is like 4 purple statments and one short blue one
unknows tok very little , they ans little, ask little
so pple dont noe much abt them and they dont noe much abt pple
and we started discussing all the 4 character types
facade, arena, blindspot, unknown
unknown pple r suppose to haf depth he says haha
i agree as i know someone in class like tt whu i always enjoy toking to
and whu always let mi learn abt stuff tt i didnt noe abt :)
but unknowns r easily misunderstood.. they say they r used to it or they dont bother..i hope they can speak up abit more.. n they ll find pple whu r interested in wat they ve got to say
but sumtimes they r jus not interested in e person or they r afraid tt they ve got nothing interesting to say
the rapid heartbeat was realli fleetg
nothing more came to it, at least i noe inside myself
so i guess its realli sumthing of the past haha
but its been a long long time since tt fleetg thing was felt..
im not estatic but it kinda puts a smile to my face ha
better go sleep now....
but its 130 alreadi.. n lky eyeballs ll haunt mi forever arrrggggghhhhh
today had been an interesting day
im startign to enjoy the course alot :)
our lec mentioned abt personality, communication styles and prof usa screened THE TERMINAL for us today
and i started to realize tt aft the lec n tut
i can better spot the diff types of pple ard in the movie and how pple converse and stuff
which realli strikes mi alot and wow.. its so real, like wat prof linus says... and its so much ard our lives tt i realli enjoy being able to pick up these signs..
i mean i used to try observing strangers and stuff but this gifs mi a more structed way of observing.. and putting it down in a better way
tut was fun
im a A- type of person, as expected.. i tot i might b an almost B or sumthing haa
im INFP - same as jialin, almost similar to pofun haah issit a gemini trait?? heh
pple tot i wud b E but i guess i can b both.. jus more confortable being an introvert, time spent alone is v impt to mi.. i totally dont resent it but instead i realli enjoy it... i like being w pple too haha abit of both la
im a blind spot in johari's window
and i so not surprised haha
i tok alot all the time
which is sumthing i recently wan to curb and change
coz its too frivolous and i feel tt things tt i say r sumtimes meaning less
sumtimes i feel tt way
but the onli meaning i find in it is tts my way of sharing w pple.. wat happens in my life, whu i met, wat i saw, wat i heard, funni things
but seldom wat i feel, seldom dreams desires needs.. haha almost never my secrets..
abit got dug up haha i guess in a mcdonalds yrs ago at typ haha
i tot i wud never say anithing tt is so inside, until i met pple whu r so willing to share n encourage us/mi to share haha
but tt s v long ago
i believe tt pple in the blindspot might not exactly b read like an open bk
jing2 pointed tt out too
pple whu tok alot
like jh oso a blindspot, alot of crap, funni things but seldom deep deep feelgs or anithing
true
so i guess it depends on the content of ur speech, ur audience, whether u r comfortable enuff to disclose more or not..
the course is gettg interestg n if i dont sleep soon i wont last till 5pm and 9pm for tut arrggghhh
then aft sch went w jing2 py pf to a nursery.. coz they lookg for flowers for church deco for a fren's wedding
corona was more for landscape didnt haf alot of flowers.. nice catcus tho
met pepper
a v guai dalmation tt loves pettg! haa
i tink it needs alot of attention n love.. ll put his face against ur leg.. wait for u to rub his head or neck so so enjoys it.. awwww
im not super into animals i prefer plants coz i tink i cant take care of them well and i dont haf the energy n interest to do a gd job.. tink the emotional attachment is too much to bare too in case anithing happens scared
then went to GG
for flowers.. super cold fridge
caspea is v nice n pretty n purple
flowers r beautiful...
i tink i learnt q abit how to purchase flowers for wedding deco liaoz haha
the dogs there look abit more fierce so i scared haha
oh pepper left a linger smell on my hand tt i wasnt too comfortable w so i went to wash it off..
as i was tokg to ny when we cum bk i realise tt i tink flowers r very pretty n nice but they r jus too short lived for my liking
i wud like them but i wont love them..
i always tot im someone whu 不在乎天长地久，只在乎\曾经拥有
but the flowers realli made mi reevulate n i realise tt i do like things tt last longer in my life so yep haha
we went holland v for dinner
the roads zoom mi bk to sumtime yrs ago..
memories tt r not shared but stayed w mi..
sumone pulled mi away frm a vehicle on the road coz i was too busy toking n didnt look properly
its ard the same time tt i feel more abt some stuff
and as i was walking along the road tonite at hollad v.. i was reminded of the past i guess..
the cool nite wind and the lights and the mani angmos sitting ard..
i dont noe if its all in the past
it shud b la
had a fun bs
ate nydc haah
and alex let mi eat yikou of his cheesecake to satsify my craving haha
and went home
on the train all alone, i starting reading this bk
二十岁的生日
haha i borrowed the bk coz it s so apt.. to prepare myself for the big 2 and noe wat to wish for haha
i was so into reading it tt when i heard "outram park station, passengers going towards punggol or harbour front, pls alight and transfer to the north east line..."
the door was open
i froze in my seat
my brain hurriedly process the info tt the door is going to close soon
and jus when everione in my carriage got off i grabbed everithing n dash out of the door
heng ar! didnt get giap!
haha
on the nel.. wow
met this happi fam
like three sis w blond hair.,. all mums
w like almost 10kids in all in tow
super noisy
scary.
e kids jump ard, tok loudly, played, stepped on sumone's leg and stuff wow like the Rascals haha
haha i was actualli q amused more than annoyed
altho almost everione was staring and dint looked too happi
haha one of the adults was holding on to a cane, readi to whack the kids anithing.. wa!
kids r hard to bring up
i realised.. very very hard..
came bk home watched abit of tv went online tok to pple
then the little box came up at the bottom right hand corner
and haha
my heart skipped abit n raced for like a split sec haha
a long lost feelg i guessed, no matter how fleetg
comtemplating if i shud initiate a conversation or not
while toking to mani pple at the same time haa
pleasantly surprise to find a fren intiated a conversation over msn.. n_n
tok to my frens
and told a fren abt the johari's window tt i did today
a self assessment to see wat kind of conversationalist u r
im a blindspot
n i told him he is an unknown
coz lookg at the conversation box, the ave is like 4 purple statments and one short blue one
unknows tok very little , they ans little, ask little
so pple dont noe much abt them and they dont noe much abt pple
and we started discussing all the 4 character types
facade, arena, blindspot, unknown
unknown pple r suppose to haf depth he says haha
i agree as i know someone in class like tt whu i always enjoy toking to
and whu always let mi learn abt stuff tt i didnt noe abt :)
but unknowns r easily misunderstood.. they say they r used to it or they dont bother..i hope they can speak up abit more.. n they ll find pple whu r interested in wat they ve got to say
but sumtimes they r jus not interested in e person or they r afraid tt they ve got nothing interesting to say
the rapid heartbeat was realli fleetg
nothing more came to it, at least i noe inside myself
so i guess its realli sumthing of the past haha
but its been a long long time since tt fleetg thing was felt..
im not estatic but it kinda puts a smile to my face ha
better go sleep now....
月曜日, 5月 16, 2005
haha after a hectic wk.. finally some time to myself
better sleep soon or else i wud start looking like lky AGAIN!
aniwae this wk of lab work i wud say had been really enjoyable. Not only did i learn alot of skills and understood biochem abitbit better, i got to hang ard w pple who r older than mi, made some frens, and really enjoyed their company alot. I realised tt mixing ard w pple older, gives me a wider perspective as they r really more experienced n mature and stuff tt they say, jus little things can somtimes wow mi... leaving me to feel that mi n my frens can never say things lidat.. coz we hafnt been there and done tt.
there'e sokying..
whom i was attached to actualli.. i tink i enjoyed my time so much becoz she is sumone w a v warm disposition, very sweet, friendly and got mi feelg very comfortable in the lab in a realli short time.
im realli someone who warms up to pple slowly, esp when i end up in a foreign environment, i ll always tend to keep to myself or cant speak up n i dont noe y.. but she jus kept toking to mi.. teaching mi stuff
the beginning was more academic stuff but later on got on to our lives, family, childhood, jingzhongren, korean drama... and we talked alot abt everithing
she gave mi lots of advice
stuff like i gotta start saving my $$ so tt i can pay off my loan n wont b in debt when i graduate.. $50k.. ok ill try haha
she told mi abt housework... how we shud appreciate our mums n stuff... i mean stuff like i told her i always feel kinda unfair n bushuang becoz my mum ll ask mi to do stuff tt my bros wud never do, coz they n their lazy bums jus wont do it. budden she told tt next time, in-laws or other pple whu not onli critise u but critise ur mum more for not being able to teach u well..
coz she's married and i dunnoe the stuff tt she says kinda make alot of sense but dont realli occur to mi tt much... yep
i respect her i tink, her views n stuff... she's v confident n wise
haha she taught mi ipo n shares too haha which i so totally haf no clue abt.. all while the pcr runs
she told mi no matter wat stuff u r not interested in, go learn abit of it, dont b ignorant coz like if i wan b a gd doc, kinda haf to commuicate n build rapport w lots of pple so u noe and kinda topic cant b too ignorant to hold a proper conversation.. esp kids, to settle them down u gotta tok abt wat they r interested in n wat they wan rite? haha
didnt occur to mi too.. i used to tink like eww computers, erm share? and so on la, then realise tt im too unreceptive of info tt's not of interest..
gotta learn more :)
and then there was jasmine tt i was suppose to haf met n known for a wk but due to her 4days sick leave, i onli met her on fri.. which is my last day
haha she is very my pattern kinda person i tink
likes dramas frm korean n taiwan haha
n she is crazy over zhengyuanchang haha
she say my THE ROse OST on the table and she was like, " u watch qiangwei too?" tt's it haha one sentence to forge a tweeny weeny kinda bond haha
i tok to her abit in the morn b4 but jus like politely hello hello dont feel ani strong affinty..
to tink a set of taiwan drama can help mi forge the beginning of a frenship haah
not tt im realli noe her alot la but conversation kinda flowed frm there n im grateful for tt... n she's going to lend mi some vcd w zyc tmr! yay :D
then there is liangjun
a lady frm china whu's married w a p4 kid
a short conversation one morning while waiting for sy to cum..
i like her
a very steady calmness abt her... wise :)
then there is wei-
i feel q bad tt i kept hafing prob catching his name
he like yezi haha
his comment for it, "man hao ting de, you dian shang gan"
haha tts when i was reminded of the ost n brought it to lend xinyi
jus feel wow, coz i was like almost the exact comment n evulation i wud gif to tt song so some uncanny weird feelg
there's zizhong frm hk
haah he's like the youngest in there or sumthing, apart frm mi la
he gifs me a feelg tt everione hen teng ta
like take care of him like a younger bro
then he abit blur haha
v funni lor
like to play computer game till 2am
n come in zombiefied
do his work n nap at ani possible moment while waiting for samples to run haha
there's haosheng
tall smalleyes a v typical PRC look
but he's v nice n helpful too
the funniest thing is tt when i offered him candy he said,
better not la, no good to eat too much candy haha
n sy told he he went on a fruit juice diet for a few mths, nothing but juice n lost 5-10kg i dunnoe haha
super vain! but he always haf an intent look while he's working hmm
dunnoe he squinting or eyes abit smaller tt s y :p
hha he saw mi reading a chinese bk n like
oh u du zhongwen de ar, na wo keyi geng ni jiang zhong we ba!
haah he was like realli shock tt i read chinese or sumthing
then there r pple frm dr yang's lab too
li yang- always in berms n sandles hhaa (i hope i got the name rite)
a few faces w no names... the intro on mon was too quick for mi to catch everione's names...
i was abit paiseh n awkard coz everione seem to feel tt i was there to replace jasmine coz while she wasnt there i was there, using her stuff, her benchspace.. then when jasmine came bk i was realli worried i got into her way n stuff but i the end.. i tink too much la haa
everithing is fine
i realli learnt alot
n haha i like feel boxes w tips to sterilise them haa
n i got an ependoff tube to practice how to open it w one hand and do stuff
my clusmy slow speed walao
so a wk of work
met up w the judo gals on fri nite yaa hafnt seen them in ages
like xian n huiyi haha
oh b4 tt met pofun n her fren wenyang, when i told him my name, he went: oh! u r the huimin frm rj la!
haha tt famous meh?
heh heh :p
sentosa - sat
alot of fun , wind, sand, sea
sand!
haha im aching all over as serene predicted.. but it was fun.. jus playing ball n passing.. oh n taking lots of pictures
or jus lying down on a poncho,listen to music and gaze at the sky
enjoyg the wind (didnt haf too much sun tt day), sea, sand, crowd..
haha n i tink i was too intrigue by my pillow radio tt pple cant tahan mi liaoz hehe
but yay i had a fun day altho no tan but haha
had a nice time coz got great company! lets go again soon peeps
its damn late i hafnt packed my bag argh!
i better dont doze off in lec tmr... sigh
better sleep soon or else i wud start looking like lky AGAIN!
aniwae this wk of lab work i wud say had been really enjoyable. Not only did i learn alot of skills and understood biochem abitbit better, i got to hang ard w pple who r older than mi, made some frens, and really enjoyed their company alot. I realised tt mixing ard w pple older, gives me a wider perspective as they r really more experienced n mature and stuff tt they say, jus little things can somtimes wow mi... leaving me to feel that mi n my frens can never say things lidat.. coz we hafnt been there and done tt.
there'e sokying..
whom i was attached to actualli.. i tink i enjoyed my time so much becoz she is sumone w a v warm disposition, very sweet, friendly and got mi feelg very comfortable in the lab in a realli short time.
im realli someone who warms up to pple slowly, esp when i end up in a foreign environment, i ll always tend to keep to myself or cant speak up n i dont noe y.. but she jus kept toking to mi.. teaching mi stuff
the beginning was more academic stuff but later on got on to our lives, family, childhood, jingzhongren, korean drama... and we talked alot abt everithing
she gave mi lots of advice
stuff like i gotta start saving my $$ so tt i can pay off my loan n wont b in debt when i graduate.. $50k.. ok ill try haha
she told mi abt housework... how we shud appreciate our mums n stuff... i mean stuff like i told her i always feel kinda unfair n bushuang becoz my mum ll ask mi to do stuff tt my bros wud never do, coz they n their lazy bums jus wont do it. budden she told tt next time, in-laws or other pple whu not onli critise u but critise ur mum more for not being able to teach u well..
coz she's married and i dunnoe the stuff tt she says kinda make alot of sense but dont realli occur to mi tt much... yep
i respect her i tink, her views n stuff... she's v confident n wise
haha she taught mi ipo n shares too haha which i so totally haf no clue abt.. all while the pcr runs
she told mi no matter wat stuff u r not interested in, go learn abit of it, dont b ignorant coz like if i wan b a gd doc, kinda haf to commuicate n build rapport w lots of pple so u noe and kinda topic cant b too ignorant to hold a proper conversation.. esp kids, to settle them down u gotta tok abt wat they r interested in n wat they wan rite? haha
didnt occur to mi too.. i used to tink like eww computers, erm share? and so on la, then realise tt im too unreceptive of info tt's not of interest..
gotta learn more :)
and then there was jasmine tt i was suppose to haf met n known for a wk but due to her 4days sick leave, i onli met her on fri.. which is my last day
haha she is very my pattern kinda person i tink
likes dramas frm korean n taiwan haha
n she is crazy over zhengyuanchang haha
she say my THE ROse OST on the table and she was like, " u watch qiangwei too?" tt's it haha one sentence to forge a tweeny weeny kinda bond haha
i tok to her abit in the morn b4 but jus like politely hello hello dont feel ani strong affinty..
to tink a set of taiwan drama can help mi forge the beginning of a frenship haah
not tt im realli noe her alot la but conversation kinda flowed frm there n im grateful for tt... n she's going to lend mi some vcd w zyc tmr! yay :D
then there is liangjun
a lady frm china whu's married w a p4 kid
a short conversation one morning while waiting for sy to cum..
i like her
a very steady calmness abt her... wise :)
then there is wei-
i feel q bad tt i kept hafing prob catching his name
he like yezi haha
his comment for it, "man hao ting de, you dian shang gan"
haha tts when i was reminded of the ost n brought it to lend xinyi
jus feel wow, coz i was like almost the exact comment n evulation i wud gif to tt song so some uncanny weird feelg
there's zizhong frm hk
haah he's like the youngest in there or sumthing, apart frm mi la
he gifs me a feelg tt everione hen teng ta
like take care of him like a younger bro
then he abit blur haha
v funni lor
like to play computer game till 2am
n come in zombiefied
do his work n nap at ani possible moment while waiting for samples to run haha
there's haosheng
tall smalleyes a v typical PRC look
but he's v nice n helpful too
the funniest thing is tt when i offered him candy he said,
better not la, no good to eat too much candy haha
n sy told he he went on a fruit juice diet for a few mths, nothing but juice n lost 5-10kg i dunnoe haha
super vain! but he always haf an intent look while he's working hmm
dunnoe he squinting or eyes abit smaller tt s y :p
hha he saw mi reading a chinese bk n like
oh u du zhongwen de ar, na wo keyi geng ni jiang zhong we ba!
haah he was like realli shock tt i read chinese or sumthing
then there r pple frm dr yang's lab too
li yang- always in berms n sandles hhaa (i hope i got the name rite)
a few faces w no names... the intro on mon was too quick for mi to catch everione's names...
i was abit paiseh n awkard coz everione seem to feel tt i was there to replace jasmine coz while she wasnt there i was there, using her stuff, her benchspace.. then when jasmine came bk i was realli worried i got into her way n stuff but i the end.. i tink too much la haa
everithing is fine
i realli learnt alot
n haha i like feel boxes w tips to sterilise them haa
n i got an ependoff tube to practice how to open it w one hand and do stuff
my clusmy slow speed walao
so a wk of work
met up w the judo gals on fri nite yaa hafnt seen them in ages
like xian n huiyi haha
oh b4 tt met pofun n her fren wenyang, when i told him my name, he went: oh! u r the huimin frm rj la!
haha tt famous meh?
heh heh :p
sentosa - sat
alot of fun , wind, sand, sea
sand!
haha im aching all over as serene predicted.. but it was fun.. jus playing ball n passing.. oh n taking lots of pictures
or jus lying down on a poncho,listen to music and gaze at the sky
enjoyg the wind (didnt haf too much sun tt day), sea, sand, crowd..
haha n i tink i was too intrigue by my pillow radio tt pple cant tahan mi liaoz hehe
but yay i had a fun day altho no tan but haha
had a nice time coz got great company! lets go again soon peeps
its damn late i hafnt packed my bag argh!
i better dont doze off in lec tmr... sigh
火曜日, 5月 10, 2005
heh didnt blog abt House of Wax in the end
too tired these few days
aniwae its a freaking gross show tt make my stomach feel weird aft it
on par w hannibal la the gross level haah
jus a v bian tai show
Elisha Cuthbert .... Carly Jones Chad Michael Murray .... Nick Jones Brian Van Holt .... Bo/Vincent Paris Hilton .... Paige Edwards Jared Padalecki .... Wade Jon Abrahams .... Dalton Chapman Robert Ri'chard .... Blake Dragicia Debert .... Trudy Sinclair (as Dragitsa Debert) Thomas Adamson .... Young Bo Murray Smith .... Dr. Sinclair Sam Harkess .... Young Vincent Damon Herriman .... Roadkill Driver Andy Anderson .... Sheriff (more)
http://houseofwaxmovie.warnerbros.com/
i tink tt pic on this site is realli a gd representative of the show
haha chad is suppose to look like bradpitt and beckham like serene says
abit la
the young n thin version
but i still like brad pitt heh
and the last part reminded mi alot of SLUGS tt i watched when i was young
tts another long story
like u try to save the world and kill the evil stuff
but one of them manage to escape n is left behind
sigh
to do evil stuff again
ն�ݲ��� ��
sigh
today started work at prof tan's lab
met sokying my shifu i guess
she's realli nice
taught mi alot
but my puny brain wow
trying to absorb as much stuff as possible
but its fun
im q jialat at pipetting still
lots of bubbles in ependoff tube
but she is realli nice abt everithing.. she say she usualli more fierce w her students
oops hope to get things rite n do better tmr
today went to level3 to sleep
tink some pple tink i hantu or sumthing
i was the onli person there n when i woke up occasionally i can see pple waiting for the lift looking at mi try ing to decide if im realli someone or not??!?!!
dunnoe la
but the lab attachment is q fun
met alot of collegues alot frm china
i can onli rem haosheng yizhong and baijing
the rest sigh cant realli catch their names
hope to rem more names tmr
my gel didnt turn out too well abit of bands but not clear enuff
sy says its q gd for a first try
hmm
tmr lets learn sequencing
sleep nowww
too tired these few days
aniwae its a freaking gross show tt make my stomach feel weird aft it
on par w hannibal la the gross level haah
jus a v bian tai show
Elisha Cuthbert .... Carly Jones Chad Michael Murray .... Nick Jones Brian Van Holt .... Bo/Vincent Paris Hilton .... Paige Edwards Jared Padalecki .... Wade Jon Abrahams .... Dalton Chapman Robert Ri'chard .... Blake Dragicia Debert .... Trudy Sinclair (as Dragitsa Debert) Thomas Adamson .... Young Bo Murray Smith .... Dr. Sinclair Sam Harkess .... Young Vincent Damon Herriman .... Roadkill Driver Andy Anderson .... Sheriff (more)
http://houseofwaxmovie.warnerbros.com/
i tink tt pic on this site is realli a gd representative of the show
haha chad is suppose to look like bradpitt and beckham like serene says
abit la
the young n thin version
but i still like brad pitt heh
and the last part reminded mi alot of SLUGS tt i watched when i was young
tts another long story
like u try to save the world and kill the evil stuff
but one of them manage to escape n is left behind
sigh
to do evil stuff again
ն�ݲ��� ��
sigh
today started work at prof tan's lab
met sokying my shifu i guess
she's realli nice
taught mi alot
but my puny brain wow
trying to absorb as much stuff as possible
but its fun
im q jialat at pipetting still
lots of bubbles in ependoff tube
but she is realli nice abt everithing.. she say she usualli more fierce w her students
oops hope to get things rite n do better tmr
today went to level3 to sleep
tink some pple tink i hantu or sumthing
i was the onli person there n when i woke up occasionally i can see pple waiting for the lift looking at mi try ing to decide if im realli someone or not??!?!!
dunnoe la
but the lab attachment is q fun
met alot of collegues alot frm china
i can onli rem haosheng yizhong and baijing
the rest sigh cant realli catch their names
hope to rem more names tmr
my gel didnt turn out too well abit of bands but not clear enuff
sy says its q gd for a first try
hmm
tmr lets learn sequencing
sleep nowww
金曜日, 5月 06, 2005
went kbox w beng n pofun haha
me n beng sang until damn shiok la
then pofun always gif us the funni look like we crazy or sumthing
coz mi n beng sang songs can go into sum semi screaming mode haha like ���� rite??
then those songs i realli like to sing is like �߽⣬��dz and mani more la
oh i was recommended q a few new songs by beng as usual..
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nice haha didnt noe xy used the lyrics of this song as her msn nick last time...
n guopinchao was rather cute in the mtv
then aft watching the yezi mtv.. jus realized tt the guy inside is ֣Ԫ ��
and didnt noe tt jolin tsai sang the rose in some r&b version hahah?
and mi n beng r going to practise yuan dian rite rite???
heh abit slow.... aniway had alot of fun la!
thanx to JJ's free 2 klunch tt beng used....
me n beng sang until damn shiok la
then pofun always gif us the funni look like we crazy or sumthing
coz mi n beng sang songs can go into sum semi screaming mode haha like ���� rite??
then those songs i realli like to sing is like �߽⣬��dz and mani more la
oh i was recommended q a few new songs by beng as usual..
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nice haha didnt noe xy used the lyrics of this song as her msn nick last time...
n guopinchao was rather cute in the mtv
then aft watching the yezi mtv.. jus realized tt the guy inside is ֣Ԫ ��
and didnt noe tt jolin tsai sang the rose in some r&b version hahah?
and mi n beng r going to practise yuan dian rite rite???
heh abit slow.... aniway had alot of fun la!
thanx to JJ's free 2 klunch tt beng used....
木曜日, 5月 05, 2005
wow i jus watched 4hrs of tv str tonite
aft 4.5hr of tuition
i watched 1/2 of schizophrenic fann
well tt was not exactly correct as she has split personality n a quick google search led me to find an article tt says it is a misconception to say tt split personality is part of schizophrenia.
http://www.abc.net.au/science/k2/moments/s1200266.htm
i quote,
"The popular myth that "split personality" is part of schizophrenia may have arisen because the word "schizophrenia" comes from Greek words meaning "split mind". But the "split" is not referring to "split personality", but rather to the fact that the person is "split from reality".
schiz?o?phre?ni?a (skts-frn-, -frn-)
n.
1. Any of a group of psychotic disorders usually characterized by withdrawal from reality, illogical patterns of thinking, delusions, and hallucinations, and accompanied in varying degrees by other emotional, behavioral, or intellectual disturbances. Schizophrenia is associated with dopamine imbalances in the brain and defects of the frontal lobe and is caused by genetic, other biological, and psychosocial factors.
while the thesaurus says
multiple personality - a relatively rare dissociative disorder in which the usual integrity of the personality breaks down and two or more independent personalities emerge
split personality
dissociative disorder - dissociation so severe that the usually integrated functions of consciousness and perception of self break down
anyway tts not realli the pt
aft tt i watched kangxi lai le...
today was xiao S's dance teachers whu r husband n wife
wow tink ballroom dancing is realli nice
then there was 1/2 hr of strong medicine on AXN i tink
a show tt i haf always wanted to catch..
abit more messy than ER i guess
then i went on to watch ER n Tru calling tt felika recommended
ER was yup usual
tough decisions tough life
pregnant lady w kidney cancer tts aggressive
she was so scared tt she chose chemo over her fetus so went for abortion
but the carcinoma is so maglinant tt she wont survive aniway
but the husband didnt override the wife's wishes to abort
so tt baby wasnt given a chance n the wife haf to die aniway
? sigh
then there was tru calling
wow q a freaky show
its like the girl get to rewind her day
and go save someone frm dying
but today's episode is: a long day
cant find a better title for it i guess
she first witness Michael die, shot in the heart
so she rewound the day n started again
and saved michael but he killed the convenient store keeper
then she rewound the day again n saved them both
but caused a young shoplifter to die of a car accident
then she prevented all tt frm happening but found out tt michael's daughter haf some sort of myopathy and died
then she rewound again and saved michael frm a gunshot in his chest but he was stabbed to death by a robber
so now he dies and can donate his heart to his daughter which is the only way to save her
so someone has to die tt day...
wow
each time the person dies
they wud call out to her or grab her hand and say, " save mi"
haha tink this always happens in the show
but since im first timer
i was realli shocked and in turn grabbed my remote control rather abruptly and very tightly haha
aft the show ended i had goose bumps all over
wow freaky sia
i mean its gd to b able to rewind ur day i guess
if u made so mistake tt u wud like to correct
but i dont realli tink tt there is like a best possible way for things to happen
i guess its jus this weird permutation of all the possibilities tt make everyones fate interlink into this messy thing
but tt's life and how it works rite?
if u can rewind infinitely, its actualli q tiring for greedy pple coz they ll keep repeating tt day again and again..
how wud u b able to move on in life then.
things happen time passes n pple move on
���� �� ��Ҳ��һ �� �� ��
anyway wat a show..
todays been a long day for me as well
drove to a carworkshop
stalled ONCE on the road and kena horned as sual
went to serenes house toswim and tan
yay the water is so much cleaner than hougang public pool tt made mi itch all over eeks
haha and yes serene
the pilots and planes jus kept flying over us to watch 2 girls suntan rite??
haha GOOD LUCK!
met PRof tan yest.. my mentor
she is realli nice
once she started to talk
omg she reminded mi so much of xiangyun
scary
ill ask her if she's pieces next time :)
given mi the opportunity to work in her lab.. i really appreciate it
something i found:
http://www.novareinna.com/constellation/gemini.html
recently im realli into twins and i suddenly realize tt my sign, gemini = the twin
haha and omg everithing i read abt gemini in this site so far...
is so apt for myself tt it scares mi :s
but i realli hope such stuff r not and wont become self fulfiling prophecies
kbox tmr w beng n pofun :)
aft 4.5hr of tuition
i watched 1/2 of schizophrenic fann
well tt was not exactly correct as she has split personality n a quick google search led me to find an article tt says it is a misconception to say tt split personality is part of schizophrenia.
http://www.abc.net.au/science/k2/moments/s1200266.htm
i quote,
"The popular myth that "split personality" is part of schizophrenia may have arisen because the word "schizophrenia" comes from Greek words meaning "split mind". But the "split" is not referring to "split personality", but rather to the fact that the person is "split from reality".
schiz?o?phre?ni?a (skts-frn-, -frn-)
n.
1. Any of a group of psychotic disorders usually characterized by withdrawal from reality, illogical patterns of thinking, delusions, and hallucinations, and accompanied in varying degrees by other emotional, behavioral, or intellectual disturbances. Schizophrenia is associated with dopamine imbalances in the brain and defects of the frontal lobe and is caused by genetic, other biological, and psychosocial factors.
while the thesaurus says
multiple personality - a relatively rare dissociative disorder in which the usual integrity of the personality breaks down and two or more independent personalities emerge
split personality
dissociative disorder - dissociation so severe that the usually integrated functions of consciousness and perception of self break down
anyway tts not realli the pt
aft tt i watched kangxi lai le...
today was xiao S's dance teachers whu r husband n wife
wow tink ballroom dancing is realli nice
then there was 1/2 hr of strong medicine on AXN i tink
a show tt i haf always wanted to catch..
abit more messy than ER i guess
then i went on to watch ER n Tru calling tt felika recommended
ER was yup usual
tough decisions tough life
pregnant lady w kidney cancer tts aggressive
she was so scared tt she chose chemo over her fetus so went for abortion
but the carcinoma is so maglinant tt she wont survive aniway
but the husband didnt override the wife's wishes to abort
so tt baby wasnt given a chance n the wife haf to die aniway
? sigh
then there was tru calling
wow q a freaky show
its like the girl get to rewind her day
and go save someone frm dying
but today's episode is: a long day
cant find a better title for it i guess
she first witness Michael die, shot in the heart
so she rewound the day n started again
and saved michael but he killed the convenient store keeper
then she rewound the day again n saved them both
but caused a young shoplifter to die of a car accident
then she prevented all tt frm happening but found out tt michael's daughter haf some sort of myopathy and died
then she rewound again and saved michael frm a gunshot in his chest but he was stabbed to death by a robber
so now he dies and can donate his heart to his daughter which is the only way to save her
so someone has to die tt day...
wow
each time the person dies
they wud call out to her or grab her hand and say, " save mi"
haha tink this always happens in the show
but since im first timer
i was realli shocked and in turn grabbed my remote control rather abruptly and very tightly haha
aft the show ended i had goose bumps all over
wow freaky sia
i mean its gd to b able to rewind ur day i guess
if u made so mistake tt u wud like to correct
but i dont realli tink tt there is like a best possible way for things to happen
i guess its jus this weird permutation of all the possibilities tt make everyones fate interlink into this messy thing
but tt's life and how it works rite?
if u can rewind infinitely, its actualli q tiring for greedy pple coz they ll keep repeating tt day again and again..
how wud u b able to move on in life then.
things happen time passes n pple move on
���� �� ��Ҳ��һ �� �� ��
anyway wat a show..
todays been a long day for me as well
drove to a carworkshop
stalled ONCE on the road and kena horned as sual
went to serenes house toswim and tan
yay the water is so much cleaner than hougang public pool tt made mi itch all over eeks
haha and yes serene
the pilots and planes jus kept flying over us to watch 2 girls suntan rite??
haha GOOD LUCK!
met PRof tan yest.. my mentor
she is realli nice
once she started to talk
omg she reminded mi so much of xiangyun
scary
ill ask her if she's pieces next time :)
given mi the opportunity to work in her lab.. i really appreciate it
something i found:
http://www.novareinna.com/constellation/gemini.html
recently im realli into twins and i suddenly realize tt my sign, gemini = the twin
haha and omg everithing i read abt gemini in this site so far...
is so apt for myself tt it scares mi :s
but i realli hope such stuff r not and wont become self fulfiling prophecies
kbox tmr w beng n pofun :)
火曜日, 5月 03, 2005
Module Code Module Title Grade
MD1110
HUMAN STRUCTURE & DEVELOPMENT
B+
MD1120
STRUCTURAL & CELL BIOLOGY (CB)
B
MD1130
SYSTEMS BIOLOGY (SB)
B-
hahah abit sian tt anat got b+ but physio hafing b- is good enuff for mi :D
since the results r out..
this is the first n last time ill b so stressed n depressed over exams
\^_^ / p
MD1110
HUMAN STRUCTURE & DEVELOPMENT
B+
MD1120
STRUCTURAL & CELL BIOLOGY (CB)
B
MD1130
SYSTEMS BIOLOGY (SB)
B-
hahah abit sian tt anat got b+ but physio hafing b- is good enuff for mi :D
since the results r out..
this is the first n last time ill b so stressed n depressed over exams
\^_^ / p
月曜日, 5月 02, 2005
haha i finished another set of comics yest.. hikaru no go
but the most disturbing thing is tt i jus found out tt my fav character in the bk which is sai.. is not a woman?!? haha
mayb i too slow la
i went to seach on him.. realize tt there is q a discussion of his gender but i gathered he is a guy.. they call him bishonen = mei shao nian in jap la
jus a very pretty guy... coz he's the emperor weiqi teacher last time.. he's this ancient ghost tt is veri zai at go=weiqi..
so yup im traumatized
i read the whole bk feelg tt he's a girl la but now thinkg of it i guess its true he's a guy sigh some pple say the author tend to protray him as neutral so tt pple focus on him as a person/a ghost w the essence of weiqi
but he's so cute in the bk.. like childish kinda cute haha
dunnoe la
but i finally finished it aft 2 yrs!
stop halfway when his spirit vanished coz i was rather sad abt it n q sian to read on... tt was yrs ago.. finally got down to finishg the comic.. sense of accomplishment sia
wat a long wkend it has been
i mean i dont exactly haf to go to sch tmr la
but the stone in the heart dropped off on fri u c
then went to meet serene n xinyi for a short short while
then came home to cut my bro bdae cake
on sat hor we went out to eat
my horrigible driving skills once again almost knock the curb at a veri narrow rd near chompchomp haha w my dad beside mi.. c how he glare at mi :s
haha
but when to celeb my bro bdae again.. ate so muchhhhhhh
on man
i ate: zutzut, gonggong, stingray, satay, roti john, some china noodles, hokkien mee, icekacang, taohuay, carrotcake, sugar cane drink (haha i typed bamboo?)
i tink tts all
wa
the zut zut has a story
last time the gang went to chompchomp and ordered zut zut but we cudnt zut tt little creature out of the shell until the stall holders laugh at us n demo for us hahah so malu
n the mango icekacang at the market beside chompchomp = not nice
the nuh staff canteen one is much nice
well sugar cane if left on the floor will suck up the soap water, cat's pee watever on the floor at the hawker centre.. cant rem which teacher told mi tt..
was so traumatized tt i abstained frm it for q some time until recently
cats pee.. sigh someone once said moutain dew look like cats pee n i drank it almost everiday for 2yrs haha
oh i was realli full tt was a great dinner nice!
read comics till 3am coz i cudnt put it down but woke up at 6.. to go airport to send caleb off to yunnan
altho nightfall was witnessed in the airport but well i didnt spoil the strange familiar feelg i get everitime im at the airport
hang ard for q some time n tok w the yunnan pple n met joshua, fren of jing n nav
came home n then brought my mama to my 9th aunt's place
for a
gathering.
the 2nd time i noticed something abt them when they tok to mi
abit scary but rather amusing
their smiles r abit too radiant for my own preference
said hi n went to look at food liao haa
oh then there were mani long balloons n a pump and i instantly became the entertainer!
heng im the shimu of qiqiu bang so dont praypray ar ahha
made mani mani balloons for the kids lor n made them happi haha
i enjoyed myself more lidat..
attracted the attention of all the kids
easier for mi to break the barrier of starting to get to tok to them
apart for liv they all, i dont realli tok much to my cousin even during CNY.. tok more to my bros n enuice lor.. the rest jus smile,happinewyr, bye and tts all
esp the younger ones...
coz i mean my cousins frm kinda in batches - got age gp one
i belong to the older grp actualli my dage is the oldest n im the 2nd youngest la
aft tt there s a gap of 7 yrs w/o ani new bld before the next batch came up.. now tt batch of kids ave at ard 12 n my batch ave at ard 22
so i entertained the below 12 gp haha
tok to DEK - dennis edward n keith haha
the three boys ar walaoeh damn funni
they got like some scorpion tail n fighting weapons made out of balloons lor
but i kinda like them
they r nicer then i tot
E is very kind, gentle, goodboy, honest.. i like him
D is smart, caring, learns things fast
K tok to him the least but ambitious in a good way, and q nice oso
so the three of them r v fun to b w la
then theres sharon
oh i tok to andrew at length ahhaa
we r off the same age and aft knowing him for 20yrs.. this is like the first time i tok so much to him.. haha weird rite? coz mayb i haf so mani cousins then i dont realli know most of them veri well in person..
ok its never too late to try i guess..
went over to tutor angel last nite
tt lazy bum haha
advice tt i tried to gif her are stuff tt i hoped someone whu haf told mi when i was in j1... not tt i confirm wud listen at least the POV of someone out of the situation wud b clearer i guess haha
aniwae GP= geometric progression not general paper
haha
when she asked mi to teach her GP i asked her
"huh how to teach? compre or compo??"
hahah
n her aircon hates mi
broke down when i was at her house haha
i need sleep badly coz i woke up damn earli for tuition today
pui
haha
lky's eyebags!!
but the most disturbing thing is tt i jus found out tt my fav character in the bk which is sai.. is not a woman?!? haha
mayb i too slow la
i went to seach on him.. realize tt there is q a discussion of his gender but i gathered he is a guy.. they call him bishonen = mei shao nian in jap la
jus a very pretty guy... coz he's the emperor weiqi teacher last time.. he's this ancient ghost tt is veri zai at go=weiqi..
so yup im traumatized
i read the whole bk feelg tt he's a girl la but now thinkg of it i guess its true he's a guy sigh some pple say the author tend to protray him as neutral so tt pple focus on him as a person/a ghost w the essence of weiqi
but he's so cute in the bk.. like childish kinda cute haha
dunnoe la
but i finally finished it aft 2 yrs!
stop halfway when his spirit vanished coz i was rather sad abt it n q sian to read on... tt was yrs ago.. finally got down to finishg the comic.. sense of accomplishment sia
wat a long wkend it has been
i mean i dont exactly haf to go to sch tmr la
but the stone in the heart dropped off on fri u c
then went to meet serene n xinyi for a short short while
then came home to cut my bro bdae cake
on sat hor we went out to eat
my horrigible driving skills once again almost knock the curb at a veri narrow rd near chompchomp haha w my dad beside mi.. c how he glare at mi :s
haha
but when to celeb my bro bdae again.. ate so muchhhhhhh
on man
i ate: zutzut, gonggong, stingray, satay, roti john, some china noodles, hokkien mee, icekacang, taohuay, carrotcake, sugar cane drink (haha i typed bamboo?)
i tink tts all
wa
the zut zut has a story
last time the gang went to chompchomp and ordered zut zut but we cudnt zut tt little creature out of the shell until the stall holders laugh at us n demo for us hahah so malu
n the mango icekacang at the market beside chompchomp = not nice
the nuh staff canteen one is much nice
well sugar cane if left on the floor will suck up the soap water, cat's pee watever on the floor at the hawker centre.. cant rem which teacher told mi tt..
was so traumatized tt i abstained frm it for q some time until recently
cats pee.. sigh someone once said moutain dew look like cats pee n i drank it almost everiday for 2yrs haha
oh i was realli full tt was a great dinner nice!
read comics till 3am coz i cudnt put it down but woke up at 6.. to go airport to send caleb off to yunnan
altho nightfall was witnessed in the airport but well i didnt spoil the strange familiar feelg i get everitime im at the airport
hang ard for q some time n tok w the yunnan pple n met joshua, fren of jing n nav
came home n then brought my mama to my 9th aunt's place
for a
gathering.
the 2nd time i noticed something abt them when they tok to mi
abit scary but rather amusing
their smiles r abit too radiant for my own preference
said hi n went to look at food liao haa
oh then there were mani long balloons n a pump and i instantly became the entertainer!
heng im the shimu of qiqiu bang so dont praypray ar ahha
made mani mani balloons for the kids lor n made them happi haha
i enjoyed myself more lidat..
attracted the attention of all the kids
easier for mi to break the barrier of starting to get to tok to them
apart for liv they all, i dont realli tok much to my cousin even during CNY.. tok more to my bros n enuice lor.. the rest jus smile,happinewyr, bye and tts all
esp the younger ones...
coz i mean my cousins frm kinda in batches - got age gp one
i belong to the older grp actualli my dage is the oldest n im the 2nd youngest la
aft tt there s a gap of 7 yrs w/o ani new bld before the next batch came up.. now tt batch of kids ave at ard 12 n my batch ave at ard 22
so i entertained the below 12 gp haha
tok to DEK - dennis edward n keith haha
the three boys ar walaoeh damn funni
they got like some scorpion tail n fighting weapons made out of balloons lor
but i kinda like them
they r nicer then i tot
E is very kind, gentle, goodboy, honest.. i like him
D is smart, caring, learns things fast
K tok to him the least but ambitious in a good way, and q nice oso
so the three of them r v fun to b w la
then theres sharon
oh i tok to andrew at length ahhaa
we r off the same age and aft knowing him for 20yrs.. this is like the first time i tok so much to him.. haha weird rite? coz mayb i haf so mani cousins then i dont realli know most of them veri well in person..
ok its never too late to try i guess..
went over to tutor angel last nite
tt lazy bum haha
advice tt i tried to gif her are stuff tt i hoped someone whu haf told mi when i was in j1... not tt i confirm wud listen at least the POV of someone out of the situation wud b clearer i guess haha
aniwae GP= geometric progression not general paper
haha
when she asked mi to teach her GP i asked her
"huh how to teach? compre or compo??"
hahah
n her aircon hates mi
broke down when i was at her house haha
i need sleep badly coz i woke up damn earli for tuition today
pui
haha
lky's eyebags!!
金曜日, 4月 29, 2005
Happi bdae to my erge today heng ar not midnite yet or else over liaoz
im getting nostalgic suddenly i dunnoe y
tinkg abt jc days... days i took jap
mayb coz i spent the nite toking to pri sch fren, jc frens la
one hectic yr past
i passed
finally the freaking nitemare is over
the vice dean says, " this is the beginning of a new yr"
?
okok
time to wake up n make 500x check tt stuff tt happen to mi this yr
wont happen to mi again
jus realize tt everione diverge in their paths to persue their dreams
jus like i did
n everione walked further away frm each other physically of coz
hearts oso abit la
unavoidable i guess
memories r the only things tt stay w u forever i guess
n tts all u haf left the day u die
hor
dunnoe y suddenly feel all weird n stuff
im v disturbed tt i cant rem my jap sensei's name
hope anione whu noe wat is the name of my jap teacher in rj.. pls let mi noe
i always tink tt pple ll haf more frens pple feel more distant its natural
its hard to hold on tightly to pple/things rite
but its tt sickeningly cold feelg creepg in my heart tt makes mi feel weird
dunnoe y O_o"
aniwae
haha
may is the season for bdaes!
rite?
im getting nostalgic suddenly i dunnoe y
tinkg abt jc days... days i took jap
mayb coz i spent the nite toking to pri sch fren, jc frens la
one hectic yr past
i passed
finally the freaking nitemare is over
the vice dean says, " this is the beginning of a new yr"
?
okok
time to wake up n make 500x check tt stuff tt happen to mi this yr
wont happen to mi again
jus realize tt everione diverge in their paths to persue their dreams
jus like i did
n everione walked further away frm each other physically of coz
hearts oso abit la
unavoidable i guess
memories r the only things tt stay w u forever i guess
n tts all u haf left the day u die
hor
dunnoe y suddenly feel all weird n stuff
im v disturbed tt i cant rem my jap sensei's name
hope anione whu noe wat is the name of my jap teacher in rj.. pls let mi noe
i always tink tt pple ll haf more frens pple feel more distant its natural
its hard to hold on tightly to pple/things rite
but its tt sickeningly cold feelg creepg in my heart tt makes mi feel weird
dunnoe y O_o"
aniwae
haha
may is the season for bdaes!
rite?
木曜日, 4月 28, 2005
my nail drop off the other day, frm my left middle toe. ran the door across it aft the cas n there was pus, aft tt i felt empty i too hum to yank the whole thing out so jus left it there. everitime i wear long pants it ll scrap across it n flip it abit abit.. n it finally dropped off sigh.. scary.. my left middle toe :_(
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水曜日, 4月 27, 2005
tink i finally got my retribution
yest my bro sent mi home then pass by buangkok mrt station then i anyhow say tt everytime the train bypass tt station w/o stoping, dont stare into the dark station coz u might c a hantu waving at u haha
i neva exactly saw it b4 la but i always worry i get some cheaptrill mustering my courage to stare into the empty station as the train pass by.
then i got scared by my dad last nite coz both mi n my bro toking on the phone in my rm then my came in, i didnt noe n when i turned ard saw him stading behind mi i screamed rite into his face haha.. tinkg got hantu
then i had an ultra vivid nightmare last nite
its a hantu nightmare again la
sigh
i was at an old sch cmpd sumthing like rj
then i was watching some trng of vj vball team i tink, in the dream my cousin was in the team la
but in reality my cousin is not in vj and not in vball
then i was w my senior victoria
then it started to drizzle, i need to go to the loo
then she said she wud wait outside for mi
then i went into a cubicle got toiletbowl but sumhow there r 2 toiletbowls in one cubicle and the other toilet bowl has like two long 'fu' crisscross across it
then beside it got a golden buddha statue and my toilet bowl is squashed to the wall
somehow i can see a sch attendant in front of mi while i peeing
a malay lady
she told mi this toiletbowl is hauted coz a young attendant named java killed herself in the cubicle or sumthing
then i hurry hurry finish peeing la tinking wa i scared sia
then the lighting kinda yellow or green cant realli rem, abit like the fright nite toilet feeling
i tried to open the toilet cubicle door tt somehow opens inward and scrap past e floor almost touching the budda i didnt haf alot of space to go out la but was squashed at the side of the cubicle n finally made my way out w/o touching the statue on the floor or the haunted cubicle
i even said bye to the attendant lor... friendly-ly
dunnoe y
even tho i was q freaked liao
then i cudnt find victoria n called her n she said her fren gifing her a ride so she left first
i cudnt rem how i got home
but i rem tt rainy nite n how it felt
cold, dark....
i used to not dream at all
then my series of night mares started aft the exams
always related to exams
like i didnt hand in the paper
or didnt go to sit for the paper and stuff
recently i stop hafing exams related dreams but now hantu dreams?
jus now i fell asleep and dreamt tt huiyi's bf is chen hanwei in huo xia qu
the biantai person tt i tell my mum he feels like a hantu
i even scolded him and asked him to leave her alone coz she like traumatized in his presence
hantu in another form..
weird dreams im having
if i tell my mama she sure say coz i got nothing better to do
haha
dunnoe la
nightmares
better than no dreams at all?
heh
today is the first time in my life my P+P feels so suan coz of hemorrhage
now i finally understands wat my frens usually describes
coz im lucky enuff neva to haf it in my life
sit oso cannot lie down oso cannot stand oso cannot
sigh
jialat
:s
yest my bro sent mi home then pass by buangkok mrt station then i anyhow say tt everytime the train bypass tt station w/o stoping, dont stare into the dark station coz u might c a hantu waving at u haha
i neva exactly saw it b4 la but i always worry i get some cheaptrill mustering my courage to stare into the empty station as the train pass by.
then i got scared by my dad last nite coz both mi n my bro toking on the phone in my rm then my came in, i didnt noe n when i turned ard saw him stading behind mi i screamed rite into his face haha.. tinkg got hantu
then i had an ultra vivid nightmare last nite
its a hantu nightmare again la
sigh
i was at an old sch cmpd sumthing like rj
then i was watching some trng of vj vball team i tink, in the dream my cousin was in the team la
but in reality my cousin is not in vj and not in vball
then i was w my senior victoria
then it started to drizzle, i need to go to the loo
then she said she wud wait outside for mi
then i went into a cubicle got toiletbowl but sumhow there r 2 toiletbowls in one cubicle and the other toilet bowl has like two long 'fu' crisscross across it
then beside it got a golden buddha statue and my toilet bowl is squashed to the wall
somehow i can see a sch attendant in front of mi while i peeing
a malay lady
she told mi this toiletbowl is hauted coz a young attendant named java killed herself in the cubicle or sumthing
then i hurry hurry finish peeing la tinking wa i scared sia
then the lighting kinda yellow or green cant realli rem, abit like the fright nite toilet feeling
i tried to open the toilet cubicle door tt somehow opens inward and scrap past e floor almost touching the budda i didnt haf alot of space to go out la but was squashed at the side of the cubicle n finally made my way out w/o touching the statue on the floor or the haunted cubicle
i even said bye to the attendant lor... friendly-ly
dunnoe y
even tho i was q freaked liao
then i cudnt find victoria n called her n she said her fren gifing her a ride so she left first
i cudnt rem how i got home
but i rem tt rainy nite n how it felt
cold, dark....
i used to not dream at all
then my series of night mares started aft the exams
always related to exams
like i didnt hand in the paper
or didnt go to sit for the paper and stuff
recently i stop hafing exams related dreams but now hantu dreams?
jus now i fell asleep and dreamt tt huiyi's bf is chen hanwei in huo xia qu
the biantai person tt i tell my mum he feels like a hantu
i even scolded him and asked him to leave her alone coz she like traumatized in his presence
hantu in another form..
weird dreams im having
if i tell my mama she sure say coz i got nothing better to do
haha
dunnoe la
nightmares
better than no dreams at all?
heh
today is the first time in my life my P+P feels so suan coz of hemorrhage
now i finally understands wat my frens usually describes
coz im lucky enuff neva to haf it in my life
sit oso cannot lie down oso cannot stand oso cannot
sigh
jialat
:s
月曜日, 4月 25, 2005
i realli wud like to apologize to my fren coz i kinda caused her to crash her bumper into a pillar
sorry abt tt
i realli tot the car had enuff dist to turn so i told her, "can, can.." and "bam!" sigh
im realli sorrie
paiseh to serene oso
the flower hunt was cancelled coz of mi
aniwae spent damn alot of $$ on bks
they were so heavy i cudnt move them so i got my bro to cum pick mi
waited at the lobby of panpacific hotel the guard's q nice
met a lady whu haf tt same pair of 3" heels tt i haf
its been such a long time since i saw anione whu has exactly the same pair of shoe as i do
was in a rather bad mood the whole sat
guilt i guess
i started to tink whether it's coz im always so frivolous, haha, nonsense tt caused the damage this time
always relaxed, laid bk, take things as they cum
do stupid things to make pple laugh
or sumhow they like to laugh at wat i say wat i do even when i didnt mean to make them laugh
i guess this is my default mode
but is it bad?
i can get v dark n gloomy and send off bad vibes when im in a shitty mood
mayb i shud tone down
take things more seriously
n jus shut tt trap of mine sumtimes
then i wont b hilarious in a bad way rite haha
dont noe la
been hiding at home most of the time
feel like calling pple, meetg up, catching up abit but jus cant perk myself up to go do it
but
im PACKING MY RM!
ha
the routine for those whu noe mi
i do it aft everi sch yr
tink it ll take q long haha
i finish the whole set of hana yori dango aka meteor garden tt liv lent mi a yr ago :p
wa took like 3-4 days
she took 11 yrs to draw all tt
wow
it started in 1990!
no wonder i always tot the fashion in tt comic was abit
then they had pagers
then handphones
haha can even see techo development in comic
n fashion evolving
oh i read the little columns the writer wrote
the first cd n cassette thing had kimura as hanazawa rui's voice
im dying to hear!!
haha
was craving for tt fam voice tt i went to watch gd luck today heh
they had naohito fujiki as rui in the movie oso
feel like watching too
did all those little tests at the bk of the comic
both tests said the f4 guy tt suits mi most is rui
O_o"
he so stone ? hahah
but i like the fact tt he boh huet anione except those pple he like, he like to sleep n watch tv (heh similar ) n if he has kimura's voice?!?
i prefer pple who noe wat they wan like domyoji
im going crazy over the comic la
glad tt i finally finish reading it the 2nd time
liv, going to return u soon la
as im tying this 93.3 is playing ni yao de ai
the penny dai's song
tt is the ending theme song for liu xing hua yuan
its a sign
haha
scary coincidence
jus like my horoscope on sat says im in for a bumpy rite tt day
n true enuff heh
walaue
bk to packing my rm!
sorry abt tt
i realli tot the car had enuff dist to turn so i told her, "can, can.." and "bam!" sigh
im realli sorrie
paiseh to serene oso
the flower hunt was cancelled coz of mi
aniwae spent damn alot of $$ on bks
they were so heavy i cudnt move them so i got my bro to cum pick mi
waited at the lobby of panpacific hotel the guard's q nice
met a lady whu haf tt same pair of 3" heels tt i haf
its been such a long time since i saw anione whu has exactly the same pair of shoe as i do
was in a rather bad mood the whole sat
guilt i guess
i started to tink whether it's coz im always so frivolous, haha, nonsense tt caused the damage this time
always relaxed, laid bk, take things as they cum
do stupid things to make pple laugh
or sumhow they like to laugh at wat i say wat i do even when i didnt mean to make them laugh
i guess this is my default mode
but is it bad?
i can get v dark n gloomy and send off bad vibes when im in a shitty mood
mayb i shud tone down
take things more seriously
n jus shut tt trap of mine sumtimes
then i wont b hilarious in a bad way rite haha
dont noe la
been hiding at home most of the time
feel like calling pple, meetg up, catching up abit but jus cant perk myself up to go do it
but
im PACKING MY RM!
ha
the routine for those whu noe mi
i do it aft everi sch yr
tink it ll take q long haha
i finish the whole set of hana yori dango aka meteor garden tt liv lent mi a yr ago :p
wa took like 3-4 days
she took 11 yrs to draw all tt
wow
it started in 1990!
no wonder i always tot the fashion in tt comic was abit
then they had pagers
then handphones
haha can even see techo development in comic
n fashion evolving
oh i read the little columns the writer wrote
the first cd n cassette thing had kimura as hanazawa rui's voice
im dying to hear!!
haha
was craving for tt fam voice tt i went to watch gd luck today heh
they had naohito fujiki as rui in the movie oso
feel like watching too
did all those little tests at the bk of the comic
both tests said the f4 guy tt suits mi most is rui
O_o"
he so stone ? hahah
but i like the fact tt he boh huet anione except those pple he like, he like to sleep n watch tv (heh similar ) n if he has kimura's voice?!?
i prefer pple who noe wat they wan like domyoji
im going crazy over the comic la
glad tt i finally finish reading it the 2nd time
liv, going to return u soon la
as im tying this 93.3 is playing ni yao de ai
the penny dai's song
tt is the ending theme song for liu xing hua yuan
its a sign
haha
scary coincidence
jus like my horoscope on sat says im in for a bumpy rite tt day
n true enuff heh
walaue
bk to packing my rm!
火曜日, 4月 19, 2005
I went for a swim today. The public pool is terrible. I think it has gotten from bad to worse, as I would safely say that the water was murky. I tried to comfort myself my thinking that the sun wasn't up and light hasn't entered the pool, so it isn't really that bad. But after a couple of laps, my sensitive-to-dirty-stuff skin started itching like nobody's business.
I saw many floating particles, including hair, flakes of skin and whatnots.
I decided to press on anyway to hit my target of 40laps, but after 26 my bladder was so freaking full that it felt like bursting. I didn't entertain that fleeting thought of peeing there n then. haha. O_o"
So i got out of the pool, went the loo, and was back in the pool soon after. Then i met a "water hantu" aka "shui gui"
A little one at least.
A young boy grabbed my ankle, when i swam past his path, that realli startled me, and my reflex action was to kick haha
Guess my S1,2 Archilles tendon reflex was triggered although he didn't exactly tap my Archilles tendon.
I really thought it was a water hantu but i wasnt in the end.
Think i scared the little boy and his dad/granddad who was standing by the pool looking at him swim and when i came back after one lap, they both packed up and left. O_o"
I remember quite vivdly that I didnt kick him at all so I hope he is ok and not feeling terribly traumatized.
What an exciting swimming experience haha
I hurriedly finished my remaining 14laps and went home as the sky was really dark and gloomy and it was about to pour.
- THE END-
i still feel tt i cant write naturally w perfect eng
macam like pri sch compo lidat sigh
I saw many floating particles, including hair, flakes of skin and whatnots.
I decided to press on anyway to hit my target of 40laps, but after 26 my bladder was so freaking full that it felt like bursting. I didn't entertain that fleeting thought of peeing there n then. haha. O_o"
So i got out of the pool, went the loo, and was back in the pool soon after. Then i met a "water hantu" aka "shui gui"
A little one at least.
A young boy grabbed my ankle, when i swam past his path, that realli startled me, and my reflex action was to kick haha
Guess my S1,2 Archilles tendon reflex was triggered although he didn't exactly tap my Archilles tendon.
I really thought it was a water hantu but i wasnt in the end.
Think i scared the little boy and his dad/granddad who was standing by the pool looking at him swim and when i came back after one lap, they both packed up and left. O_o"
I remember quite vivdly that I didnt kick him at all so I hope he is ok and not feeling terribly traumatized.
What an exciting swimming experience haha
I hurriedly finished my remaining 14laps and went home as the sky was really dark and gloomy and it was about to pour.
- THE END-
i still feel tt i cant write naturally w perfect eng
macam like pri sch compo lidat sigh
月曜日, 4月 18, 2005
On a lighter note, I have decided to try typing in good English, since everyone who read my blog seem to think that my command of English is terrible. I realized that I have a very hard time typing in complete sentences, since my thoughts usually appear in words or short phrases and since GP is gone for good in my life, I might just as well type in any way i want.
(That is a terribly long sentence)
PDCD is coming up in a couple of weeks time and "oh my god!" I have to write essays to pass the freaking exam, although peiyun mentioned the other day that the format of the test might have changed to MCQ.
Just to be on the safe side, I have better start learning how to write properly once again.
damn this is getting on my nerves.
watever
(That is a terribly long sentence)
PDCD is coming up in a couple of weeks time and "oh my god!" I have to write essays to pass the freaking exam, although peiyun mentioned the other day that the format of the test might have changed to MCQ.
Just to be on the safe side, I have better start learning how to write properly once again.
damn this is getting on my nerves.
watever
水曜日, 4月 13, 2005
since i cant seem to get down to concentrating on biochem today i might as well write sumthing
was tinking of writing this all down after EVERITHING is over
but i guess it ll onli b over on 3 may n tts still q far away
the most harrowing experience of my life
mi n my stupidity
mi n my laziness
mi being a weakling
mi tinkg tt i cant bear all this animore
crap
it started during ca2 prep i guess
so mani things to rem i jus cant rem
so mani things to stardeee
no time no time no time
stress of exam
then ca came n went
in n out of depression
jus sitting at my table n cry
coz i cant take it
feel small whiney n stupid
aft the physio paper i knew i failed it
fuck
cried my way home hope no one saw
stardee again for anat
came n went
thanx to the tips frm the profs
it was ok
lifted my spirits abit n went home to sleep
got onto the wrong lrt blah blah
watched hitch
soon huayu was bk
im happi
three wks to pros
stress level rose once again
stardee stress depress cry whine go hysterical stardee again cry summore
i tink im going crazy
crossing out the days one by one
one wk left
i haf no time animore
yank my hair out until i tink im going bald
my mama sweep oso shock so much hair on the floor
no lunch everidae
cant eat
too depress
bit my fingers my lips
til the fingers flaky flaky skin n start bleed
it hurt so much tt i cudnt write animore
kept sucking my own bld frm my lips
kept picking on the zits on my face
cant bear to sleep everidae
pros came n left
last mon tue wed
b4 the paper
bouts of hysteria
i haf no time
i cant finish
i cant rem
i hate my self n i want to die - copywrited frm sumone but kept going thru my head
i cant take it animore
first thing on monday
everione says
huimin u look v stress
i noe
im v stressed
worried tt i wont do well
worried tt i need to go for viva
worried tt i need to go for supp
worried tt i fail supp n retain
worried tt i need to go on my knees to beg ocbc to continue gifing mi my scholarship
worried tt i fail
worried tt i cant take it when i fail
worried abt everithing on this world
cry like some whiney crap
coz everione at home to worry
acted like a freaky baby
wanted everione to sayang mi n tell mi it ll b fine
then ill feel bad toward my parent n cry even more
didnt noe how tt three days came n went
went home of wed to sleep everione went out to play
i need to stardee more for viva for supp i dunnoe
slept
awoken to continue worrying
cry
slept again
delirious i cant tink str
tok to xiangyun whu tried so hard to cheer mi up
tok to huayu whu was given the ardous task by my parents to comfort mi
whu can comfort mi
searching for sumone to save mi
no one can
got bk to stardeeing the next day
slow progress
slow
worries cant stop tinking abt the namelist for vivas
if i c my name on it how
if i go for supp how
actualli i noe i jus need to face the reality and get a life
go then go rite
shit scared like shit
budden
how?
dunnoe
py came by to stardee w mi for 2 days
i stardee but i dont learn
i cant commit stuff welll to memory coz i dont keep tinking abt them n draw links
i mus learn
tot the physio wud b out on fri
i didnt
tot the physio wud b out on mon
i didnt
ok tue confirm anat viva list out
scared liike shit again
coz my most confident subj
if im going for vivas for anat
the rest is dead
went to sch yest
cried like shit again b4 i left
scared like shit again on my bros van
py called my name isnt on it
heng
i cudnt believe kept running thru the list
its not there
shudnt haf to go for supp la
i cleared anat
physio is out too at 11+
cudnt breathe veri well on the way to the board
held my breath my name is not there
the little worry at the bk of my head
am i a direct supp?
alex say its rare unless u realli didnt do the paper
caleb say shudnt haf to go unless u noe u failed terribly for pros
i tried to calculate how i can get less than 40%
i need to get less than 46/120 to go for direct supp
q hard rite
but i never noe
i feel ok abt the final paper at least for the last 80 marks at the bk
but i never noe rite
feeling ok might not b ok
so shit
the direct supp list ll onli b out on 3may
till then haah
biochem is not out
i dunnoe im worried
im studyign but im slacking
shit shit
im studying la
aft i stop typing this
tried praying seriously the first time in my life
to tt mighty being out there
i learnt my lesson i did
pls let mi pass this time
pls jus let mi pass
can?
no name on the viva
r my prayers ansewered?
i dunnoe
biochem how?
i gotta study
my horoscope yest says -
That long, strange trip you've been on? Its about to come to a rapid-fire close - over the next 72hrs. Doesn't sound quick - unless you consider the past three long, strange weeks you've been enduring.
omg does it mean tt biochem viva list ll b out by tmr
i ll clear n i wont haf to go sup
a rapid fire close
serene sure has influenced mi to read into horoscope
lets hope its true
but like i told my bro
i deserved it all la
i did study
realli for m1 yr
alot harder than in jc liao
but it jus didnt seem good enuff
coz guess wat
huimin barely studied in jc ha
didnt even noe how i got my As result to b gd enuff
im didnt go good enuff
next yr if ever i land myself in such a situation again
i haf given the right to ppl close to mi
jus slap mi rite across the face to ask mi to wake up my idea
next yr im so not going to worry for pass fail vivas or supp
im going to get everithing str everiday
no cuming home to sleep coz im too tired nothing of tt sort
stop being a whiney lousy freak
tt scared ur whole fam
ur poor mum n dad
whu haf to worry for mi at work
scared i kill myself
my poor bros whu tried all their means to cheer mi up
to help mi in aniway
stop being a liability
my mama says she believes tt im smart
m i?
hopefully
she say im always v zai b4 exams
y this time so jialat
she doesnt wan to c it again
i dont wan to c it oso
i cant recognize myself in the mirror
im wasting away
lost 4kg studying in three wks hha
wat the helll
im going to concentrate on biochem now
hope my name is not on the list
hope its all over in 72hrs frm yest
but my heart ll b weighted until 3may
jus let mi pass this time
pls
-13/4/05
since i told myself i wud onli start blogging aft the whole harrowing exp is over here it is
biochem vivas didnt haf my name aniwae
now the last worry abt direct supp
i guess wat e hell if i haf to go i haf to go so i shud jus get a life and not wallow in my pathetic self inflicted misery
was relieved aft the biochem results were out so
yep
went out w gang
in py's words... my shortest skirt and my highest pair of heels
haha
jus wanted to make myself happi..
so now i wud do my stuff study summore help my bro w his stuff.. btw he's pissed off w mi coz i didnt let mi watch soccer yest sigh
and wait for 3may
if everithing is over its happiness
if everithing is not over... crap but ya life goes on
was tinking of writing this all down after EVERITHING is over
but i guess it ll onli b over on 3 may n tts still q far away
the most harrowing experience of my life
mi n my stupidity
mi n my laziness
mi being a weakling
mi tinkg tt i cant bear all this animore
crap
it started during ca2 prep i guess
so mani things to rem i jus cant rem
so mani things to stardeee
no time no time no time
stress of exam
then ca came n went
in n out of depression
jus sitting at my table n cry
coz i cant take it
feel small whiney n stupid
aft the physio paper i knew i failed it
fuck
cried my way home hope no one saw
stardee again for anat
came n went
thanx to the tips frm the profs
it was ok
lifted my spirits abit n went home to sleep
got onto the wrong lrt blah blah
watched hitch
soon huayu was bk
im happi
three wks to pros
stress level rose once again
stardee stress depress cry whine go hysterical stardee again cry summore
i tink im going crazy
crossing out the days one by one
one wk left
i haf no time animore
yank my hair out until i tink im going bald
my mama sweep oso shock so much hair on the floor
no lunch everidae
cant eat
too depress
bit my fingers my lips
til the fingers flaky flaky skin n start bleed
it hurt so much tt i cudnt write animore
kept sucking my own bld frm my lips
kept picking on the zits on my face
cant bear to sleep everidae
pros came n left
last mon tue wed
b4 the paper
bouts of hysteria
i haf no time
i cant finish
i cant rem
i hate my self n i want to die - copywrited frm sumone but kept going thru my head
i cant take it animore
first thing on monday
everione says
huimin u look v stress
i noe
im v stressed
worried tt i wont do well
worried tt i need to go for viva
worried tt i need to go for supp
worried tt i fail supp n retain
worried tt i need to go on my knees to beg ocbc to continue gifing mi my scholarship
worried tt i fail
worried tt i cant take it when i fail
worried abt everithing on this world
cry like some whiney crap
coz everione at home to worry
acted like a freaky baby
wanted everione to sayang mi n tell mi it ll b fine
then ill feel bad toward my parent n cry even more
didnt noe how tt three days came n went
went home of wed to sleep everione went out to play
i need to stardee more for viva for supp i dunnoe
slept
awoken to continue worrying
cry
slept again
delirious i cant tink str
tok to xiangyun whu tried so hard to cheer mi up
tok to huayu whu was given the ardous task by my parents to comfort mi
whu can comfort mi
searching for sumone to save mi
no one can
got bk to stardeeing the next day
slow progress
slow
worries cant stop tinking abt the namelist for vivas
if i c my name on it how
if i go for supp how
actualli i noe i jus need to face the reality and get a life
go then go rite
shit scared like shit
budden
how?
dunnoe
py came by to stardee w mi for 2 days
i stardee but i dont learn
i cant commit stuff welll to memory coz i dont keep tinking abt them n draw links
i mus learn
tot the physio wud b out on fri
i didnt
tot the physio wud b out on mon
i didnt
ok tue confirm anat viva list out
scared liike shit again
coz my most confident subj
if im going for vivas for anat
the rest is dead
went to sch yest
cried like shit again b4 i left
scared like shit again on my bros van
py called my name isnt on it
heng
i cudnt believe kept running thru the list
its not there
shudnt haf to go for supp la
i cleared anat
physio is out too at 11+
cudnt breathe veri well on the way to the board
held my breath my name is not there
the little worry at the bk of my head
am i a direct supp?
alex say its rare unless u realli didnt do the paper
caleb say shudnt haf to go unless u noe u failed terribly for pros
i tried to calculate how i can get less than 40%
i need to get less than 46/120 to go for direct supp
q hard rite
but i never noe
i feel ok abt the final paper at least for the last 80 marks at the bk
but i never noe rite
feeling ok might not b ok
so shit
the direct supp list ll onli b out on 3may
till then haah
biochem is not out
i dunnoe im worried
im studyign but im slacking
shit shit
im studying la
aft i stop typing this
tried praying seriously the first time in my life
to tt mighty being out there
i learnt my lesson i did
pls let mi pass this time
pls jus let mi pass
can?
no name on the viva
r my prayers ansewered?
i dunnoe
biochem how?
i gotta study
my horoscope yest says -
That long, strange trip you've been on? Its about to come to a rapid-fire close - over the next 72hrs. Doesn't sound quick - unless you consider the past three long, strange weeks you've been enduring.
omg does it mean tt biochem viva list ll b out by tmr
i ll clear n i wont haf to go sup
a rapid fire close
serene sure has influenced mi to read into horoscope
lets hope its true
but like i told my bro
i deserved it all la
i did study
realli for m1 yr
alot harder than in jc liao
but it jus didnt seem good enuff
coz guess wat
huimin barely studied in jc ha
didnt even noe how i got my As result to b gd enuff
im didnt go good enuff
next yr if ever i land myself in such a situation again
i haf given the right to ppl close to mi
jus slap mi rite across the face to ask mi to wake up my idea
next yr im so not going to worry for pass fail vivas or supp
im going to get everithing str everiday
no cuming home to sleep coz im too tired nothing of tt sort
stop being a whiney lousy freak
tt scared ur whole fam
ur poor mum n dad
whu haf to worry for mi at work
scared i kill myself
my poor bros whu tried all their means to cheer mi up
to help mi in aniway
stop being a liability
my mama says she believes tt im smart
m i?
hopefully
she say im always v zai b4 exams
y this time so jialat
she doesnt wan to c it again
i dont wan to c it oso
i cant recognize myself in the mirror
im wasting away
lost 4kg studying in three wks hha
wat the helll
im going to concentrate on biochem now
hope my name is not on the list
hope its all over in 72hrs frm yest
but my heart ll b weighted until 3may
jus let mi pass this time
pls
-13/4/05
since i told myself i wud onli start blogging aft the whole harrowing exp is over here it is
biochem vivas didnt haf my name aniwae
now the last worry abt direct supp
i guess wat e hell if i haf to go i haf to go so i shud jus get a life and not wallow in my pathetic self inflicted misery
was relieved aft the biochem results were out so
yep
went out w gang
in py's words... my shortest skirt and my highest pair of heels
haha
jus wanted to make myself happi..
so now i wud do my stuff study summore help my bro w his stuff.. btw he's pissed off w mi coz i didnt let mi watch soccer yest sigh
and wait for 3may
if everithing is over its happiness
if everithing is not over... crap but ya life goes on
月曜日, 3月 14, 2005
congrats to clement n terese.. :D
went to my cousins wedding ceremony / dinner on sat
i nice polite event haha
tink they r the speak english less rowdy pple so it was abit quiet la
jus like a nice sweet family gathering
when they went up on stage it was cheers.. instead of yum sheng haha
when they went ard to toast at each table no yum sheng oso
until..
they came to my table haha
the jokers of the nite award go to my 5th uncle n of coz my dad
hahah
they jus cant tahan the quiet and started to get more rowdy...
n the whole table yum sheng-ed n unison
the 2 cute uncles haha
we were so amused
its nice to see all my aunties n uncles kinda tipsy coz they were so happi for the auntie whu became a mother in law
my dad held his sister's hand n told her, ".. altho we siblings r close, we seldom see each other, but im realli happy for you tonight, happi to see clementi grow up frm a baby to him getting married now, im realli happi for you and these words come from the bottom of my heart..."
wa i was super touched by my dads speech to his sis
i m realli happi for my cousin too
my most vivid memory of him was he witnessing mi slip and fall during CNY one yr when i was q young coz i was running ard in my socks in his kitchen
its the kinda situation i dont wan to b caught dead in
n jus i was pickg myself up tinking heng ar no one was in the kitchen
he was there standing at the doorway
hahah
tink he mus b um-chio ing inside but didnt laugh into my face
i wud haf laughed out loud if i saw anithing lidat haha
i was realli young then
but this kinda embarassing situation.. i wud never forget in my life
so this is my cousin
a nice and gentle guy
ok sumone i c like twice a yr.. barely haf chance to tok but
yea i m realli happi for him
and the impressive thing was
at the end of the nite when everione queue up to congragulate the couple he was like abit drunk n red faced but he still recongize mi n thank mi for cuming haha
my dad
aiyah
downed 8glasses of beer and 2 glasses of red wine
argh
sigh
met a yr2 mo whu is a realli distant cousin
and he says he has a bro in m5
wat a small world
my cousins bestman knew him since pri 1 like more than 20yrs
his speech was nice
nice to haf such long lasting frens i tink
hope i can keep my frens lidat too :D
i love to attend weddings
haha
this is a more elegant one but tink abit more rowdiness wud b better :D
looking forward to attending the next joyous celebration..
went to my cousins wedding ceremony / dinner on sat
i nice polite event haha
tink they r the speak english less rowdy pple so it was abit quiet la
jus like a nice sweet family gathering
when they went up on stage it was cheers.. instead of yum sheng haha
when they went ard to toast at each table no yum sheng oso
until..
they came to my table haha
the jokers of the nite award go to my 5th uncle n of coz my dad
hahah
they jus cant tahan the quiet and started to get more rowdy...
n the whole table yum sheng-ed n unison
the 2 cute uncles haha
we were so amused
its nice to see all my aunties n uncles kinda tipsy coz they were so happi for the auntie whu became a mother in law
my dad held his sister's hand n told her, ".. altho we siblings r close, we seldom see each other, but im realli happy for you tonight, happi to see clementi grow up frm a baby to him getting married now, im realli happi for you and these words come from the bottom of my heart..."
wa i was super touched by my dads speech to his sis
i m realli happi for my cousin too
my most vivid memory of him was he witnessing mi slip and fall during CNY one yr when i was q young coz i was running ard in my socks in his kitchen
its the kinda situation i dont wan to b caught dead in
n jus i was pickg myself up tinking heng ar no one was in the kitchen
he was there standing at the doorway
hahah
tink he mus b um-chio ing inside but didnt laugh into my face
i wud haf laughed out loud if i saw anithing lidat haha
i was realli young then
but this kinda embarassing situation.. i wud never forget in my life
so this is my cousin
a nice and gentle guy
ok sumone i c like twice a yr.. barely haf chance to tok but
yea i m realli happi for him
and the impressive thing was
at the end of the nite when everione queue up to congragulate the couple he was like abit drunk n red faced but he still recongize mi n thank mi for cuming haha
my dad
aiyah
downed 8glasses of beer and 2 glasses of red wine
argh
sigh
met a yr2 mo whu is a realli distant cousin
and he says he has a bro in m5
wat a small world
my cousins bestman knew him since pri 1 like more than 20yrs
his speech was nice
nice to haf such long lasting frens i tink
hope i can keep my frens lidat too :D
i love to attend weddings
haha
this is a more elegant one but tink abit more rowdiness wud b better :D
looking forward to attending the next joyous celebration..
金曜日, 2月 25, 2005
did a good deed today
at dhoby ghaut mrt jus now then saw a 20+ girl walking weirdly coz she took off the bk part of her shoes and walking n dragging her shoes along
prob a new pair then scrapping the skin off her heel la
i got plaster in my bag
a habit i cultivated frm trngs last time
then hor i dunnoe wan to gif her not
like so paiseh stop in the middle of the road to seach n pass plaster to a stranger?!
haha
in the end i search while i walked found it
coz she was standing on the travellator resting her poor feet and making tong ku exp to her fren
she i jus turn to her and stuck out my hand w 2 plasters
i spoke in chinese leh coz she look like shes frm china
but she say thank you 2 in and accented voice
hmm either she dont speak chinese or didnt understood mi
mayb shes korean? haha
yep aniway she gave mi grateful eyes
but i was too paiseh to hang ard
so i jus smiled n walked on..
didnt miss my trains aft tt mayb it coz i did a good deed
haha watching some interview w a hongkong actor
the aubai in lu ding ji?
the big beard guy in alot of movies always the bad guy
omg
his voice is so incompatible w his image
he came frm a fam of docs but he took art
hes a v sensitive and careful person
wat a soft spoken guy..
the most intersting thing abt him was how he got married to his wife
he saw her while he was eating lunch at a filming ground
he got up to her n told her his an actor so-and-so and he wanted to marry her
jus lidat
omg ahha
she told him i dont noe u its impossible and left
1/2 a yr later
they met again in beijing (the last time was yunnan)
while he was filming
he told her tt he wud propose to her one wk later at the same time at the same place they met the first time
the girl didnt tink too much jus went to look c
he was there and they went to register marriage tt day
?!?
wat a weird couple
later chow yun fatt his fren told him he know y he married the girl jus by looking at her once
coz she bears a striking resemblance to most of the ladies tt he draws in his paitings... (rem he took art?)
photo - painting comparison
uncanny resemblance
such things realli exist?
hmm
macam like savage garden singing
" i knew i loved u before i met u"
wa their yuanfen is wow... :)
`happy birthday to xiangyun and huixian :)
at dhoby ghaut mrt jus now then saw a 20+ girl walking weirdly coz she took off the bk part of her shoes and walking n dragging her shoes along
prob a new pair then scrapping the skin off her heel la
i got plaster in my bag
a habit i cultivated frm trngs last time
then hor i dunnoe wan to gif her not
like so paiseh stop in the middle of the road to seach n pass plaster to a stranger?!
haha
in the end i search while i walked found it
coz she was standing on the travellator resting her poor feet and making tong ku exp to her fren
she i jus turn to her and stuck out my hand w 2 plasters
i spoke in chinese leh coz she look like shes frm china
but she say thank you 2 in and accented voice
hmm either she dont speak chinese or didnt understood mi
mayb shes korean? haha
yep aniway she gave mi grateful eyes
but i was too paiseh to hang ard
so i jus smiled n walked on..
didnt miss my trains aft tt mayb it coz i did a good deed
haha watching some interview w a hongkong actor
the aubai in lu ding ji?
the big beard guy in alot of movies always the bad guy
omg
his voice is so incompatible w his image
he came frm a fam of docs but he took art
hes a v sensitive and careful person
wat a soft spoken guy..
the most intersting thing abt him was how he got married to his wife
he saw her while he was eating lunch at a filming ground
he got up to her n told her his an actor so-and-so and he wanted to marry her
jus lidat
omg ahha
she told him i dont noe u its impossible and left
1/2 a yr later
they met again in beijing (the last time was yunnan)
while he was filming
he told her tt he wud propose to her one wk later at the same time at the same place they met the first time
the girl didnt tink too much jus went to look c
he was there and they went to register marriage tt day
?!?
wat a weird couple
later chow yun fatt his fren told him he know y he married the girl jus by looking at her once
coz she bears a striking resemblance to most of the ladies tt he draws in his paitings... (rem he took art?)
photo - painting comparison
uncanny resemblance
such things realli exist?
hmm
macam like savage garden singing
" i knew i loved u before i met u"
wa their yuanfen is wow... :)
`happy birthday to xiangyun and huixian :)
土曜日, 2月 19, 2005
jus came bk frm dinner to celeb my mama bdae haha
wa im so damn full now
attacked lots of crab feet :P
my dads fren pick the tab wow steady sia
hahah
i tink this is the kinda buddy buddy fren fren thing tt my dad shares w his fren
tt caleb mentioned
like they ll jus go pay whenver they eat together like sumtimes its u sumtimes its mi
:)
our neighbour table got 3 old uncle/old men la
then hor tink they eat full full liao drink happi happi liao
wa lao one guy jus lean on the bk of his chair and put his elbow on my mamas chair leh which is right behind his?!?
i was damn pissed off la
coz my mama kinda move the chair abit to hint hor
he still put his freaking elbow there
hmm
i jus moved my chair over and ask my mama to shift her chair nearer mi in big movements..
she looked kinda helpless
wa i jus said damn loudly to ask her to move right now
gifing the guy the dirtiest look i can tink off
tink he happen to turn ard
and our eyes meet
i glare at him w all my might
and tink he paiseh n shifted immed
even move his chair q far away frm my mama
dunnoe y i was so pissed
i almost wanted to throw my chopsticks lor
dare to bully my mama
tink she auntie scared u issit..
hmph
>:p
my mama later say she see mi so fierce she scared
n bro say skarli next time i kena chop by gangsters haha
dunnoe wat got over mi tho..
i always say, " never get intimidated" ..
another horror terrible thing i did on the rd once again
took a wrong turn out frm pasir ris and hit tpe tt was going in the wrong direction
nvm
went bk to pasir ris
drive drive abit n stopped at the traffic light
to my horror
i jus missed the turn to the right way
haha
guess wat i did
i reversed at the traffic light
aft i check tt theres no oncuming traffic haha
can see frm far far got sum cars charging towards mi liao
kanchiong like shit but still reversed..
then bro say no no not enuff
i say enuff enuff and wan to turn into the slip rd
but whu noes the car stalled
awww
when i was in the most awkward position w my car butt blking everiones way out to tpe
try again again again
stalled x3
haha
n realized in my kanchiong spider -ness
left my gear in third...
how to start ??
omg
my bro say its 3/10
haiyah
ill do better next time
tts y ... i need to drive more :D
wa im so damn full now
attacked lots of crab feet :P
my dads fren pick the tab wow steady sia
hahah
i tink this is the kinda buddy buddy fren fren thing tt my dad shares w his fren
tt caleb mentioned
like they ll jus go pay whenver they eat together like sumtimes its u sumtimes its mi
:)
our neighbour table got 3 old uncle/old men la
then hor tink they eat full full liao drink happi happi liao
wa lao one guy jus lean on the bk of his chair and put his elbow on my mamas chair leh which is right behind his?!?
i was damn pissed off la
coz my mama kinda move the chair abit to hint hor
he still put his freaking elbow there
hmm
i jus moved my chair over and ask my mama to shift her chair nearer mi in big movements..
she looked kinda helpless
wa i jus said damn loudly to ask her to move right now
gifing the guy the dirtiest look i can tink off
tink he happen to turn ard
and our eyes meet
i glare at him w all my might
and tink he paiseh n shifted immed
even move his chair q far away frm my mama
dunnoe y i was so pissed
i almost wanted to throw my chopsticks lor
dare to bully my mama
tink she auntie scared u issit..
hmph
>:p
my mama later say she see mi so fierce she scared
n bro say skarli next time i kena chop by gangsters haha
dunnoe wat got over mi tho..
i always say, " never get intimidated" ..
another horror terrible thing i did on the rd once again
took a wrong turn out frm pasir ris and hit tpe tt was going in the wrong direction
nvm
went bk to pasir ris
drive drive abit n stopped at the traffic light
to my horror
i jus missed the turn to the right way
haha
guess wat i did
i reversed at the traffic light
aft i check tt theres no oncuming traffic haha
can see frm far far got sum cars charging towards mi liao
kanchiong like shit but still reversed..
then bro say no no not enuff
i say enuff enuff and wan to turn into the slip rd
but whu noes the car stalled
awww
when i was in the most awkward position w my car butt blking everiones way out to tpe
try again again again
stalled x3
haha
n realized in my kanchiong spider -ness
left my gear in third...
how to start ??
omg
my bro say its 3/10
haiyah
ill do better next time
tts y ... i need to drive more :D
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