日曜日, 1月 30, 2005


no 2... my new jap fav.. the guy tt i saw whu loook like him stays near mi leh haha he's kenji sakaguchi.. py serene mel! he's the guy in pride whu fell down the escalator and had a pool of bld growing under his head? haha the lookalike got tt pattern la dark tall hmm :) Posted by Hello

i actualli saw three guys whu look like three actors earlier this wk.. i saw the three of them one on the lrt.. one at the nus sci centre busstop another along the rd near my house.. haha
firstly.. this is the korean actor frm glass slippers... soh ji sup i saw him on the lrt.. tt eyes tt look 2D haha damn jialat
they look like they were drawn on paper cut out n pasted on his face rite hahaPosted by Hello

lastly... ichikawa somegoro.. haha he acted in pride oso but i saw a thinner version of him in nus! haha tt guy got the same sleepy small eyes like cannot open lidat hee  Posted by Hello

火曜日, 1月 25, 2005

dilemma
being a good fren.. bearing hurt
i knew nothing was ok
i knew it when i heard, "actualli cum tink of it i dont need ur support"
i knew sumthing was falling apart but i dont noe how to hold on
so
i let things b?

mayb its my fault
everithing time i say it the line tt flash across my head is, "as usual rite"
i have gathered tt no matter wat i do sumone ll get hurt sumone ll b angry sumone ll...
then how
mayb tts y in midnite club, ilonka's fren (wats her name?) wanted a twin so badly so tt she cud b at 2 places at the same time

selfishness?
i dunnoe
how
mayb this is the chance for mi to prac sum decision making skills since my profession demands it anitime aniwhere
ha

i tried v hard
at least in my conscious state
do things tt make pple happi
treat others the way i wan to b treated
tts always the basic principle i live by

but sumhow
i dunnoe
everithing seems wrong
everithing seems wrong

whu can i ask to teach mi how to hold things together
u were holding bk ur tears
mayb im now too
( i suck at it man)

y issit tt the same issuse always arise
n i always seem to screw things up

things can go either way
jus on a decision i make
but sumone ard mi ll feel sum bad vibes sum hurt?

jus tt one nite
tt one sunday nite
i heard frm three pple had 3 phonecalls
3 diff issuses at hand
of which onli one involved mi
but i listen i advice i hear i try to help
i do

like i told a friend
i seem to hold alot of secrets for alot of pple
and at the same time i hold my own secrets
everi single one of it
coz as usual
huimin dwells she doesnt whine

not as if no one had asked mi how i felt b4
mayb its jus not in my bld
not a habit
not a choice

im so bottled up
i might look like a cushingnoid one dae

watever
2yrs of nightmare admist of all the joy i had came bk to haunt mi in a nite
but
i always do wat i jus decide to do on the spot
too mani considerations
too much of a dilemma

watever
the day is over
i enjoyed my day

congratulations
sorrie for ani hurt caused
but daoming shi ll say, " dao qian you yong de hua yao jing cha lai gan ma"

the obvious dist over the hp was sensed



土曜日, 1月 22, 2005

haha since my airen complained abt my jap here's sumthing in eng
i had a realli fun n exciting hari raya papaya ( fel n serene copyrighted)

i brought my parents out on a chinatown trip!!
at first when my dad suggested going down by mrt to look c look c i was like still ok

it onli hit mi when i was walked towards the lrt station w two pple tt add up their age almost hitting 100 liao haha
i suddenly realised tt was the first time in my life tt i ever did sumthing lidat

i guess like my mama always say " shio lork sun sei"
meaning its v easy to dote on pple younger
but to dote on ur elders seem to b a harder thing to do

aniwae we went to the lrt station
haha n my dad cudnt get in w his ezlink!
haha tt was the first time he went to the lrt place i guess
own transport all the time mah
i laugh like siao
then he looked at everithing at the station w wonder in his eyes

n guess wat
my parents chatted the green smrt person up
haha
they toktok
my mama even roped a stranger waiting for the lrt into their conservation

omg
i was q amazed how they cud tok to strangers lidat
now i noe where i got my extrovert bit frm

then my dad did sumthing i always do
hhahahahaha
he stepped over the yellow line
to testing testing see got camera c him or not
hahaha
i always do tt rite py?
see how long i can stand there b4 the announcement sound
then the green man toking to us
was rather shocked n ask him to hurry step bk
my mama jus tell him, "first timer la first timer paiseh"

omg
my journey barely started
we reached the mrt station.. i was trying to explain to them tt we shud stand on the left side so tt pple can walk down mah
then on the last flight of escalator b4 reaching the train
i saw tt the train was here
reflex got mi running down
n i realized tt i left my parents on top of the escalators
haha
my mama more public transport savvy
got down q quickly behind mi
then my dad was stranded haha
i tink he not used to standing on stuff tt move under him u c
then he was like frozen
we tried to hurry him
coz we were standing at the door liao
budden when he started climbing down
he stretched out both hands to hold on to both sides of the escalator la
w/o realizing he jus blked two teenages trying to run for the train
they paiseh to cui this uncle i tink
so they jus stood helplessly n saw the train left w/o them
i wanted to tell my dad to sian for them but he was too engrossed balancing
then he finally came down
i was laughing like siao coz the sight of my dad blking those 2 kids behind was hilarious
but i realized tt i shudnt haf ran for tt train
it was too dangerous for my parents la
my thoughtless ness
the return trip we jus gelek gelek took our time la

the train ride was ok
i macam tour guide explain this n tt to them

then we reach chinatown
wa
seh
the crowd is tremendous
like wave lidat
crowd crowd crowd everiwhere!!

my parents sian abit i can tell
haha but they seem to ying chou mi n stayed smiley hee
then we started crowd squeezing

wa buay tahan
we hopped into the heritage museum
then we looked at the little little oldie stuff tt my parents had sum fun laughing over
i saw tt fish thing tt we bought frm china
guess wat was the selling price?
9.90
its 10x the china price lor

aniwae we got bk into the crowd
and we got stuck in a human traffic jam
some uncle kept stepping on my slipper until i cant move forward
everione was complaining
n i was rolling rolling my eyes tinking, 'singporeans hmph'
then a auntie behind my mama started talking to her
she say,"aiyoh so mani pple, hai.. if we got qing gong then good hor, then we can fly above the crowd.."
i was like ?!?!
i jus laughed my head off damn loudly la
she was realli funni leh
then she went on n on wat kind of the powers we can haf to go against the crowd..
wa auntie
u win!

then we finally squeezed our way thru tt one street
all o us were exhausted liao
as a matter of fact
i barely saw anithing

ahaha
nvm
the ambience n atmospehere rite

then my dad decided tt he's not going bk the same way to the mrt liao
so we pressed on
walking along the main rd
n we saw 2 media corp actors
the old man
n the beard guy whu wear specs
i ll try to find their pix la

u noe wat my mama did???
she jus said damn loudly when they walked past her, " eh yan yuan... eh.."
to tell mi la
it kinda attracted everione ard 's attention
haha i didnt help by laughing super loudly too
i cudnt believe she jus did tt
the two of them were shocked lor
then the old man smiled but the other beard guy was erm still shocked haha

we pressed on
tiger beer was on sale
10 for $24.4o
so my dad bought 20
n they gave out free giant poker cards, 4 lucky no, n can take polariods w cai shen ye
so we took one w the three of us
i jus pulled my dad along
coz he paiseh dowan dowan
coz everione passing by stared
but whu cares
haha
actualli only can take one
of coz my mama insisted tt we bought 2 pax so can take two la
the promoter scared her n we took agaiN!!
haha
i insisted tt they put the pix in their wallets on the way home! :D

we bought some new yr goodies 1 box $1
wa damn cheap
quality passable la

then my dad say wat to outram la
so we went in tt direction
on the way so ppl singing operas, doing acrobat stuff
interesting
then we hungry went to sum da pai dang for supper...
the foods q good all the dim stuff n hk stuff

then we went home my dad kept saying he how smart go outram so we were one stop infont of chinatown n can get seats

yes yes sir
haha n we finally made our way home
both my parents say next yr
invite them to go they oso dun wan to go liao
haha i tink so too
better watch the crowd on tv on cny eve n laugh at them at the comfort of my home

aniwae i realli had alot of fun
wat a great way to spend a public hol
w my parents
sumthing tt mi n my bros stopped doing since?
i cant rem
now roles haf changed i guess
my parents used to bring us out
mayb now its our turn to bring them out rite?

when i jus reached chinatown
my mama asked mi to hold on to her hand tight
so tt i wont get lost in the crowd
then i told her i cud easily make my way home w my eyes closed lor
its my parents whom im worried abt getting lost in the crowd
of coz my dad ll say taxi sure can go home

but yea
they took so mani yrs to bring us up huh :D
im no longer a kid tt they worry abt getting lost in the crowd n crying
they r not so young animore oso
yrs past by q quickly i guess
they still tink im sum baby haha they say tt tot wont go away till they *** (choy)

i learnt fried rice twaytiao konyaku jelly these two days haha
one day one day ill b able to cook on my own!
i guess the most evident thing tt the china trip changed mi was aroused my interest in cooking
much to my mama's pleasant surprise
but seeing jing n jenheng cook so well
i oso oso wan to learn!

木曜日, 1月 20, 2005

こころヘ
聞いていますよ。。。
どうして話さないの?
いったい何を考えているの?
自分もしらない
うらやましい?
そうもないと想う
ぜんぜんかなしいじゃない
でもどうしてこまるの?
いつもじゃなくて
ときどき
さ-- @_@

金曜日, 1月 14, 2005

im back frm china n haf survived one wk of sch
heh
the china trip was v fun
exposed mi to new weather environment pple thinking food...
so mani so mani experiences..

wow
felt slightly diff when i was there
hope to b more aware of it la huh

spent the new yr eve n day there
so when i came bk spore
everithing in yunnan seemed like a dream
including the passing of the yr
hahah so i tink i ll b stuck in 2004 mode for some time

7wks n 2days to ca2 n counting
sigh
mayb i need nkf to teach mi abt kidneys since pseudo allan woo is making mi blur-er by the day

jialat
sameul tay is actualli q nice n cute
i ll always rem tt dorsal root ganglion contains pseudo unipolar cell bodies
work is piling up huimin.. sigh

cough n lao-sai abit abit since i return
but recovering
hope py n jh recover soon too

met the yunnan pple today..
haah q a few of them
at first was abit paiseh to ktv w so mani pple
not as crazy n ah siao as w judogals gang or cousins la
hah but q fun la

went sleazy ktv when it is not so sleazy so not so bad
dinner at holland v was ok onli
the suan la tang wasnt suan n la enuff wat can i say?
and the xiaolong tang bao didnt haf tang in it cheat my feelings

tmr is the day for serene
hope she has fun :)

日曜日, 12月 26, 2004

im sleepy but i dont feel like sleepg?
mayb im too excited abt the yunnan trip? tot i usually onli get the gitters of overseas trips the nite b4
mayb im enjoying the last nite tt i can stay up late n w nothing much on tmr
damn i haf tuition at 10am
夜深人 静
i like it at nite when there is no body to fan mi
but 寂静 与 寂寞
也只是一 线 之差
suddenly feel gratful tt i haf siblings
both my bro r out partying
onli mi n my parents to tok to
no one to crap w mi
no one to open my door n ask mi y i still not asleep
no one to quarrel w mi
no one to disturb mi

jus one nite haha
y i suddenly so 多愁善感??
haha 93.3 is not helpg

i like quiet moments w myself but quiet at this moment seem abit overwhelming
y
i dont noe
mayb is the aftermath of watching long taiwanese serial haha
like angel tellg mi jus now
nothing to look forward to liao
its true
sum weird sense of emptyness
haha y do i like to watch tv so much?
my da ge always ask mi
when u peer into the tv
it brings u to another world
another place
u live the life of the the characters inside
like some omnipotent third invisible party
lookg at things happening

u leave ur reality
i forget my own life a while, while im watching
tt's y i tell my family not to distrub mi when i watch tv haha
it comes into the package of escape or denial when u need it
i need neither of these now but well.. haha

when a serial end
u haf to pick up ur life where u left it off
scary rite
mayb tt's y i hafg a sleepless nite on a silent nite
silent nite holy nite
haha apt for boxing day huh

im v tired my eyelids r closing

2004
cant realli bare to leave it behind
so mani new happening things happened
ended As
free until wa buay tahan
enjoyed life like taitai
shopping shopping go out like no one's buisness
gunbound till the next day

its onli 230am?

start to work
tuition tuition tuition
no collegues
met mani pple mani families mani kids
relief teaching
realized childhood ambition
teaching + tuition + teaching + tuition
slogged my ass off
earned my first XK

went for my first interview
scared like shit
work
function alone w/o fren for sum time
workaholic syndrom
tiredness unhappiness

resolved issuses
salvaged frenships
met long-time-no-see fren
first pair of 3-inch heels
met mr wierd at sentosa haha

got into medicine
happiness
sch started again
new environ
new frens
adaptation adaptation adaptation
didnt take long as usual

medicamp
brought bk some orientation memories
haha jus like the rj vcd we watched when gang came to stay over tt day
jc orientation is always special
one special nite
2yr long preoccupation
let it go liao?

cadavers w mushroom ears
mushroom pot n felika bdae!!

serene! yuan you hui is on 93.3 now hahaha
yuan you hui heng hao ting!

ok
mugging mugging
never studied so hard in my life but i guess not hard enuff
boohoo
harder harder mus try la

dad one yr anniversary for quitting smoking
mum ask mi wat i wud rem of her if she dies..
i said her nagging her noise haha
she was like eh!
actualli meant her everithing la
love niceness
but i cud never realli say it out
im a old-fashioned person i guess haha
sum lao kok kok person whu cant express love to fam out in words
heh
but i tink action n speech shows it here n there la
hope my parents dont go for explicit expression of love coz their daughter has sum prob w tt
but wat a qn my mama posed
a tinge of sadness in the air
glad to haf my family
i tink i cant b brave like my fren to tahan when her mama passed away
i wud jus dysfunction i guess if ani of my fam got anithing
at least at this pt la

2004 ending
im entering my 20s
eek
sigh dun wan la
i got 5mth n 4 days?
sigh sigh
y cant i stay in my 10s?
my bro say he's in his quarter life crisis so i shud shut up haha
cant help it la
going to pass my 10s w/o finding it
有点可惜
but i ll wait then
10 more yrs till aft my 20s?? haha
ll i gif up then? wont la 30 v old meh

hahah
this yr passed so fast
got a feelg tt b4 long i ll b in my 80s
wheezing n coughing
argh
seize the day?
haha

the new yr is approaching
kids r born
pple die
everi min

my warp theory of there is sumone whu look exactly like me on the other side of the world
ll it still stand?
i haf no explanation
i jus feel tt way haha

i shud sleep
or else 2.5hr of tuition feelg sleepy n teaching emath is no joke

土曜日, 12月 25, 2004

MERRY CHRISTMAS

had a lot of fun yest at serene's house.. great way to spend xmas eve too w/o crowds n sweaty strangers...
thanx to serene n xinyi for preparing the nice 'candlelight' dinner n the great company la.. peiyun too

jus finish watching the rose 蔷薇之恋!!
haha thanx beng for lending me... i tink its realli a nice show haha
wat a show filled w incest n damn funni
yes serene its incestuous not incestful haha
since i got it on monday haf been sleepg at abt 5am everiday watching it so now when its finally finished there's this emptiness sigh
a feelg tt i always get aft watching sum ultra long serial.

THE ROSE by bette midler
Some say love, it is a river that drowns the tender reed.
Some say love, it is a razor that leaves your soul to bleed.
Some say love, it is a hunger, an endless aching need.
I say love, it is a flower, and you it's only seed.
It's the heart, afraid of breaking, that never learns to dance.
It's the dream, afraid of waking, that never takes the chance.
It's the one who won't be taken, who cannot seem to give.
And the soul, afraid of dyin', that never learns to live.
When the night has been too lonely, and the road has been too long,
And you think that love is only for the lucky and the strong,
Just remember in the winter far beneath the bitter snows,
Lies the seed, that withe the sun's love, in the spring becomes The Rose.

叶子

叶子 是 不 会飞 翔的翅膀
翅膀 是 落在天上的 叶 子
天堂 原 来应该 不是妄想
只是我早已 经 遗忘
当初怎么开始飞 翔

孤 单 是一个人的狂 欢
狂欢 是一群人的孤 单
爱情 原 来的开始是陪伴
但我也 渐 渐 地遗忘
当时是怎样有人陪伴
我一个人吃 饭 旅行
(到处)走走停停
也一个人看书 弹琴 自己 对话谈 心
只是心又 飘到了 哪 里就 连自己看也看不 清
我想我不 仅仅 是失去 你

haha the songs used in the show i q planty huh
toking abt plants.. i ve got a cactus!!
courtesy of beng n her mama :D

in the show sumtimes the stuff tt the character say can get q lyrical
i mean of course taiwanese drama always haf funni ideas n analogies the i ll go like HUH?
budden there r the ones tt catch my attention oso la

当项链环过颈项
我期待着
扣环在脖子后方接上的瞬 间
那瞬 间的悸动 尤如是星火
滑落了 胸口

hmm neva tot of it this way b4..

蛮有趣的一套 剧 集
可能有些地方我可感同身受 吧

什么肿着的大 饼脸 ,肉包子,难听的声音 haha
还有自卑感
都能 够 理解 的 感受

ok enuff of the show..

gotta tink of sum new yr resolutions
due to the new sch system this end of yr hols felt diff frm usual hols.. mayb jus like a jun one
doesnt mean end of a sch yr onli in the middle of it rite

ll b in china in sum hours time
brrrrr
ll b bk onli next yr
so yep wat a long time ill b gone haha

今天见了一些我没什么好感的人
他们那嘴脸
即可笑又讨厌
受不了
还是得为自己为家人争口气吧

i shall pseudo colour my daimaru eye n pray for safety on our journey :D

日曜日, 12月 12, 2004

finally my com is back..
now its kinda brand new n like a stranger so i ve gotta customize it
cant sae animore in case py says i dwell n gif off bad vibes haha
paiseh la :P to py serene n tracy n anione w were affected

aniwae i luves balloons now!!
damn fun today made a balloon meant for iris but i gave it to a little jap boy on the bus
he slowly pry off his chubby fingers one by one... n played w the railing for a while b4 he dared to receive the little balloon dog frm mi
so cute
felt abit bad tt i cudnt make for his sis n another girl on the bus coz i had to get down la

the bbq was v fun
thanx iris for the invitation
i tink i derived most fun frm making balloons for pple, telling the shutter story and bursting balloon to scare susan
oh n cheemeng was moved to tears w his bday present

haha
i had a great time!

had alot of fun w the yunnan pple making jiaozi oso
the skin is abit thick la
but otherwise i tink it tasted good leh
jenheng got a cook's seh
his argaraetion skills r good sia

orchard rd is still as beautiful
today/yest is an enjoyable day :D

日曜日, 12月 05, 2004

okok drove serene n py ard on wed nite rite almost killed me, them and mani other pple
shit
haha
but it was q a ride
first time i felt so tempted to leave the car at the car park n take the mrt home.. can u imagine
*shivers*
ok for list of misdeeds, pls redirect to gang blog

friday was a good dae too
apart frm learning wat i can cut if i slit sumone's neck
i also learnt abt queezing the thymus first if i go strangle some one? haha
then went out w judo gals!!
so long neva meet up liao
altho we jus mop ard orchard it was fun
kbox soon ya pple

tuition started again..
realize tt i dont realli like it
it such a drag but 100 bucks each time is good money so i shud jus shut up
n yest i killed my cd rom drive
bad mood
shit now all my entertainment is gone!!!!
no more mps no more movies to watch no more no more!!!!!!!
my handphone cant make tt irritating tring-ling sound animore
now my com went dumb oso
i shud jus shut up n join them

sigh
i drove my bros breadvan yest
damn fun
macam like a bus driver lidat
frm the side mirror i saw a vehicle tailgating mi super near n got scared
in the end it was the reflection of the vehicle i was driving
hahahahahahahahahahaah

my brain is fusing
i haf got a whole rm to pack
living in a sty now
n i haf got bioimaging to figure
polar express tmr? my anat groupers???
better go do my work soon

im not in the best of moods la but my horoscope for the wk says:
making sense of ur feelings no can b a little difficult
you could b feeling intense emotions and lose clarity
cheer up
the stars have shown tt negative situations are always temporary

im so trusting it
today im going to hide at home n do my stuff

木曜日, 12月 02, 2004

hafnt blog for damn long since i decided to shut myself off frm blogging n msn for ca haha
ca s r finally over but i hafnt realli rested at all
tmr gotta wake up at 6?
tink frs is crap but sigh gotta do it so yea

had alot of fun w all the phototaking thing w serene n peiyun haha
damn funni
finally trained py up abit to haf more expressions rather than jus the smile when she takes photos hahah

briget jones is q funni
the tombstone: the spinster 1972-2050
was rather sad
n our weird neighbour
whus slightly middled aged midly fat haha laughed at everithing
the sheer volume of her laughter is haha

xmas is cuming
sigh a yr haf passed us by since As
so fast scary
when u look bk everithing tt happened seemed q small

spore idol
never realli followed watched here n there
taufik win i tink ok la coz he sings better
but abit sad for sly like abit poor thing lidat

haha n yes peiyun im NOW burning the incredibles for u
crap im so going to sleep thru tmrs thing i spoil my reputation n scare daniels gang
coz huimin the tape recorder during lec for once is dysfunctional
dont worry it ll happen again
the girl in front w the red sweater sleep helped relived tracy's jc days too haha

im damn sleepy sia
but i feel relieved enuff aha

tmr i haf got the car
tink might b driving gang ard if they r onz for dinner/supper tink of where to go pple
abit scared abit excited first time driving w/o dad or bro sia
wish me luck
but anione else whu wishes to b farried by me pray tt i hone my skills well well first
life n death
no joke haha

jay chou concert
it was DAMN GOOD
told the storys mani times liao
so abit tired to say
ll b uploading the photos soon la :D

everione has their prob
since its so festive i shant tink of mine
but i gotta do sumthing abt it soon

samuel tay head n neck hope he's good

mani mani things to do!!!
argh jibun ni: oyasumi

火曜日, 11月 16, 2004

有些事我怎能不晓得
可能只是没办法坦诚所以装作若无其事

正如周杰伦所说

有些是没办法教 表错情的感觉有一点糟
赖着不走 会让人很感冒 以上这道理我全都了

Any takers as to which song this came frm? Haha

Aniwae omg!! Thanx to natkoh n carol im going to the jaychou concert!!
Second row tix!!!! Ahhhhhhhhhh
As my bro says :” u can even smell him lor” haha
Haha told everyone at home n some frens to share my excitement
But sad to say they r either not interested in him
Or not interested in wat I haf got to say.. mayb it doesn’t render a big response
But o well
Gotta stardeeeeeee hard hard now so tt I wont b too guilty spendg the 2nd last day frm CA w jaychou!

実は電話をかけてくれないほおが良いと思います
もう何も話したいの?

木曜日, 11月 11, 2004

身勝手なあたし
ちょっとはずかしい
なみだはなげれぼしみたい

:D もくひょがあるけど


hey airen.. when u say -smile- this is wat i tink of :) tks Posted by Hello

水曜日, 11月 10, 2004

yest i knock an ah pek's head w my head.. i scared he got head lice shit he better dont haf...
while walking along the corridor in outram to nel..
he came frm the bk lor.. i was digging in my bag to look for my wallet w head slightly bent.. he was walking realli quickly coming frm the bk
tink he was lookg at the floor la
then our head collapsed
it was a non elastic collision and energy wasnt conserved and our heads were not stuck together? (damn cant rem phy)
:s

hafnt been feelg too good these days
today was the greatest challenge of the power of my anal sphincter, sphincter vesicae and s. urethra
sitting thru anat tut feeling like crap was no joke
and i tink tea is a diuretic or sumthing
aniwhere i scaled great heights to settle my prob
hope i dont get sick again
dont feel q right

actualli wat propelled mi to write issit all tt's said above
since im at it then shunbian la

我可能是一個比較理性的人吧
雖然我常叫別人要隨心所欲
但是。。

心裡有點不好受
言語有點難表達
朋友需要你的時候
你在哪
我好像忽略了朋友的需要
但卻還是沒能去給予慰藉
更糟的是 這是自己的選擇
對不起

可能是我想太多
可能這不是這次的重點
但
我并不喜歡這樣的自己
有點自私
人說
人不為己 天誅地滅
我從來無法苟同
但如今 我卻成了此 ﹖俗語的代言人﹖
沒辦法不這麼理性
但同時也可認清自己有時也有這種需要
如何應對呢﹖
常讓自己不去想﹐不去問﹐不去麻煩人
再也找不到像我如此愛逃避的人了吧
我不知道自己想說什麼
應該是內疚吧
還有點擔心
怕“老大”當得太沒用
可能自始至終就有點沒有
一年後一切將改變
第一次有些彷惶
第一次覺得每個人越走越遠

總歸 人都有私心
遷就別人曾經是我的專長
希望
不會失去
希望
還來得急
不想說了
該讀書了

沒有辦法有英文寫出自己的感受
因為沒有辦法把心赤裸裸的展現給別人
用中文是讓有緣人讀吧
若用日文是根本無法讓別人知道的事情
卻無處宣泄

宣泄完畢
讀書讀書
再不下苦功 又會重蹈覆輒

日曜日, 11月 07, 2004

argh my hairband broke!
the one tt haf been w my since a levels
since i broke my arm..
thru thick and thin now reduced to a non-functional object
*sobz*

watched the BEST BET vcd todae
kao... it's mother hokkien haha
tink my hokkien comprehension improved quite abit from tt show
i wud say it was rather entertaining
and there's an unexpected twist in the show
tt i tot was rather good haha
at least there's a plot...

was trying to read a jap novel tt i bought mani yrs back..
there's a story titled "the story of ms tulip"
haha its a story frm the tulip's point of view la
manage to plog thru 2 pages of it
and guess wat
the tulips says she a red flower, 30cm tall
she hates two kinds of animals.. namely humans and cats
there's this young girl whu waters her everidae
but she's a moron coz she always gif too much water n cause her roots to rot
so ms tulip actualli moved in front of her in attempt to tell her to stop n try to escape despite being told tt if she moves in front of humans she'll b KILLED
haha but the girl jus doesnt get it

she once saw an animal called a car hit a person
and red stuff flowed out on the streets and the person ceased to move

she also dislikes a stupid cat tt like to dig the soil ard her
and she hopes tt the cat can hurry spill red stuff and cease to exist

the she talks about the horror stories she heard abt other flowers
how humans like to chop off their heads and pin the heads on their chest
how its disgusting tt humans like to hang corpse of orchids on their chest
and dried flowers..
they r jus dried corpses
she cant understand how human haf great interest and like to decorate themselves w corpses


?????
haha wat an insightful story
cadevers huh?
two pages r mobid enough for the day i guess
a tulip's pov
i neva tired lookg frm there

@_@

日曜日, 10月 24, 2004

looking at xinyi's blog made mi wanna blog abit more too..
hah guess i hafnt been writing recently
better start doing it b4 i live my life w/o tinking abt it too much
oh went to watch mando b the hot one-n-onli lady onboard tt all the guys like haha
impressive mando!
then carol aka the god
whu controls sunrise n sunset was good too hee

oh met w the yunnan pple on sat too
starting to feel tt its not too bad to cum on this trip after all
altho the pple there r abit hallelujah for mi
budden i brought mi abit of insight as to their faith la
not tt im totally n'sync w their tinking but hmm jus know abit more abt how other pple belive in their beliefs? :)

i feel abit sad though emailing eugene abt the skills i haf
suddenly realize tt i dont realli haf mani skills
lilke abit unaccomplished n useless
well i can always learn but yea i need to learn la

today i slept till realli later
doze off like twice aft i woke up
wa the long awaited rest but hee better go read abdomen n go figure how pple can get abs la hor
n thorax
yea yea tests tests cuming ca cuming
i better buck up
in case sum pple look mi no up haha

oh oh last nite went to gif my cousins tuition
aft i parted w serene n py tot i jus drop by to help
hah the funniest thing happened!
but due to great impact on one's reputation
i cant publicize
but angel n liv.. u noe wat im toking abt rite? hahaha
okok
i apologize for harping on it

still feel abit sad abt yong qin's death of zhen qing last wk
aiyoh today i watch like she not ard so sad lidat
mi n my mama cried torrents when she died la sigh...

ok hi monday here i cum