because of the pumpkin i came across these timelapse videos.. oh i really love them!
and clouds.. my fav stuff in the sky..
i like the way the shadows are cast on the city, it's cool and amazing
and the silence of the clip makes mi hold my breath - think: breath-holding attacks by kids.

there are the
1) blue variety: frustration leads to tears and holding the breath in expiration at the end of a wail fo rage. all childrean grow out of it before age of 5 years.
2) white variety: precipitated by pain or shock rather than frustration. child slumps to the floor, pale and not breathing. a seizure may follow secondary to cerebral hypoxia (reflex anoxic seizures). later in childhood, these children are prone to faints.

wat an apt video to be putting up on halloween.

this is kinda like life and death. i can so see it a person, wilting and dying away.. so it's kinda sad.

but maybe it's not so sad afterall because halloween is a time where the spiritual world makes contact with the physical one, and where magic is most potent. so u might be able to meet ur dead loved ones, isnt it? sounds kinda like Charmed.

The Rose - Bette Midler
this song kinda popped into my head this evening.. :) i like it q alot.

ok.. i know i should stop this but i guess this incident needs documentation
i took a nap this afternoon and woke up frm a vivid nightmare but oh well tt's nothing..
BUT i kinda found myself covered w lotsa insect bites! i think they look like mosquito bites.. i counted a grand total of 37! dammit
found on my face, the angle of my jaw.. my whole neck (both the anterior and post triangle, some along the SCM) my upper chest wall and my upperlimbs..
wtf
i'm so interested to see wat else can happen to mi
but well i think a turtle neck ll be good for sch tmr but it's too bloodly warm in S'pore for tt.. so this red papular obvious skin lesions ll b up for everyone to see i guess.
very well. fantastic.

didnt i hope that today will be a good day yesterday?
i guess it didnt work out q the way i wanted..
well the day started w mi waking up w a hoarse voice.. but i kinda got it bk more or less.. and my busy day started w the well-baby clinic, then moving on to NUH to clerk a girl for tutorial then to the last bit of my lit review meeting..
everything was fine until i was typing this really long email to my chp group but just before i sent it.. i dunnoe wat i pressed on sy's laptop and the whole page was gone and the whole email was gone. pui. now i gotta go write another one..

never mind.. then the day went on w mi at novena buying 1 inch cubes and going to tpy to help at the public health screening.. lala and dinner w a couple of meddies all went on fine.. until i set out on my journey home..

i tried walking to a place i thought was the bus stop.. but it turned out to b the taxi stand then i walk bk where i came frm to the bus stop but i didnt have my bus.. so due to my poor sense of direction.. (as usual) i walked up and down teh same street 3 times.. cause i gotta walk bk beyond where the taxi stand was to the road perpendicular to where i was...
when i finally got to the correct busstop.. i thought tt ll b the end of my bad day but i was WRONG.
because i was looking forward to some quiet time home at the upperdeck of bus 88 alone w/o ah tan.. to think abt stuff and mayb read.. and try not to think abt ahtan's halloween party at zouk and alcohol. but lo and behold.. there came a small single decker bus tt was kinda packed..
so i resigned to the fact tt i'll haf to stand for an hour's journey home.. and got on the bus
then to my HORROR.. my ezlink card wasnt in my wallet.. because i took it out earlier to sign in for PHS and i kinda chucked it into the abyss of my gigantic bag..
and there i was clinging on the the taptap machine for my dear life on a bumpy bus.. trying to search for the ezlink card in the abyss of my gigantic bag under terribly dim lighting and all the time entertaining the thought of being thrown off the bus if i cant find the card to pay for my ride (well i cud use coins but it didnt occur to mi then) just as i was abt to b more frustrated w myself.. my fingertips brushed against tt thin piece of plastic and managed to save my ass..

so i "tee-ed" and moved in..
then my gigantic bag tt had an abyss kinda bang into this auntie's head.. she was seating behind where i was standing u see.. and i turned to apologize and she just glared at mi as if i did her some grave wrong in our past life.. so oh well "I'M SORRY"

and then there were seats freed up in front of mi and there was an excited elderly couple bent to get the seat.. i wasnt going to fight w them but in her excitement the auntie stepped on my left foot and the uncle kinda swiped he hand across my whole butt.. haiz wat's w my butt and old men's hand, i wonder? since it was probably accidental, i didnt grab him by the collar and didnt crash his balding head into the glass window but oh well.

then the long ride went on.. until i came home. feeling sicker by the minute.

ok.. i'm putting an end to this pathetic bad habit of recounting tiny bits of unimpt stuff tt led mi wallow in self-pity. all this bad vibes coming form the last few posts feels abit lame.. i might roll my eyes silently in my heart if someone comes up to mi complaining abt those complains i made.

so this has gotta stop and in an attempt to do so.. i shall try to recall positive things.
today i saw 3 babies.. 3, 5, 10mth old ones.. they're the cutest things.. and DA made alot more sense now aft Dr Amin went thru it w real life squirmy examples. there smiles and screams and tears tt stop ever so readily are q endearing.. so.. awwww..

and there was this auntie i especially rem helping her register for the PHS.. she kinda confided in mi abit more beyond those questions on the questionnaire i was adminstering and i thank her for that.. :) she made mi feel less robotic i guess.. and she smiles every so readily..

then there was this elderly indian lady on bus 88.. i kinda banged into her arm w my gigantic bag with an abyss but she just smiled and gave me the "it's ok, i understand look" (well mayb she wud haf reacted differently if i swiped her head w my bag) but it made mi feel less sian abt mi accidentally bumping into pple w my big bag. and she looked for mi immed aft the seat beside her freed up cause she knew i was carrying lotsa things.. she even smiled a goodbye before she left.. tt made mi happy for tt fleeting moment..

then there was ahtsui's attempt to buy mi dinner.. thnx man i appreciate ur kind thought.. altho it's abit puzzling but it's an act of kindness i guess :)

so enuff small good thngs tt happen right?

well i tried 2x to comfort my self-pitying sick soul/body today..
i got myself chocolate milk frm 7-11 downstairs of bukitmerah polyclinic..
cold choc milk calms mi down i think.. altho i wonder if it only started aft JC or it had been there all along

and on my way home.. in my last feeble attempt to comfort myself, i walked my fav route home..
it's abit longer than usual, this long str path along the road flanked with tall trees (tt had compound leaves). So when the wind blows and the dried leaves fall.. they form a pretty sight of small little yellow bits coming down frm above..
i liked this road best on an evening when the setting sun fliters thru the leaves..
at night.. it's kinda too dark to watch my pretty trees but i get to play w the shadows on the floor.. stepping in btw the lit-up holes where light came thru inbtw the branches tt cast shadows.
it was a still and quiet night.. and all i hear was my own foot steps and the sound of tires of cars driving past on the road.. few pple were on the road w mi.. and at times no one was.
i took a right turn and walked along rivervale pri sch.. i observed tt those ixora shrubs tt lined along the school fence had grown up q abit.. they used to b abt the level of my knee.. but now they're at the level of my elbow.. tt's q tall for ixora shrubs right? but giant bougainvilla shrubs never fail to impress mi as well.. haaha :)
i've watched them for almost 8 years.. since i moved here.
and i past by the bball court to reach my lift.. passing by 2 gps of pple playing bball at each half of the court.. as i walked thru the court thru the midline.. i was thinking to complete the suay-ness of it all mayb i bball might fly and hit my head frm behind or sumthing.. n i kinda got to the other side of the court just as i finished imagining the malu-ness of tt incident tt fortunately didnt happen.

and well a sucky thing happened again.. while i'm happily blogging.. i forgot to go tape the match btw Man U and Bolton for my erge. and i was 10min late at taping aft i realized it and when i on the tv.. walao rooney scored! haiz 10min into the game onli leh.. so i missed the goal but luckily manage to tape the replay of it. msg my bro to tell mi and thought he wud say "shit, cant trust u w anything" but luckily he only replied "sighz. ok lar" so he isnt tt pissed w mi. i hope.

okie i guess this is a progressively bad wk.. and next wk's schedule seemed damn hectic but i'll keep my fingers crossed for a better wk to come.
i might just lose this post trying to publish it.. to add to my sad little pathetic life.
but as my famous saying go.. if u think it's true then it is.. if u think it's not ture then it's not. this is as real as anything in this world can get i think. provided u r not delusional.

* see i knew it. this is the 2nd time i'm posting this post cause there were errors when i tried to post it the first time.. and if i didnt preempt myself and copy the whole bloody post up.. it'll all b gone and i'll slam my laptop shut and swear something under my breath. haiz.. it's abt 3 pages of a font size 12 times new roman on a word doc.

AHHHHHHHHHHH
my last line to my long post just now was hope nothing else bad happens to mi
but it just did a few seconds ago.. i just lost a damn long post.
so i'll have to leave out the details and summarize

bad things happen but i met nice kind pple la
1) cant feel the heptaosplenomeg in a young girl w ascites - on of my worse nightmares
2) the strap of my slipper came of
- so slipper became nonfunctional
- cant find anyone to borrow extra footwear
- tempted to steal OT's crocs lookalike
- an auntie and a young guy in red shirt helped mi fix the slipper temporarily altho i was left stranded and bare footed at the corridor near lift lobby 2 for dunnoe how long
- bought slippers at bazzar in the end
3) sneezing alot.. prob got frm kids due to my poor hand hygiene the first 2 days
4) friday's gone :( spent sleeping n studying in lib aft dinner
5) lost a long long post

i'm having a bad streak / a series of unfortunate events recently.. this gotta stop

my mum went ahead to get new frame for my specs in an attempt to revive it and i didnt participate in the purchase so wonder how it wud turn out.
haiz

wellbaby clinic, clerking, chp meeting, public health screening tmr
how to b at some many places at one time? i try la
fen1 shen1 shu4!!

今天就快結束了。
希望坏事不會在發生。
也不是說今天發生了很多坏事啦。
只是
1) 我快生病了。
2) 對圖書館理員有些不滿﹐卻忍氣吞聲﹐arrgh
3) 對家人也有些不耐煩
4) 跟了我6-7年的眼鏡今天終於expired - 断了。现在用胶带勉强还可以用。虽然有了新的眼镜但是还是不舍得把它扔掉。毕竟它跟了我这么多年。曾经掉在前往韩国的飞机上，5天的行程都靠隐形眼镜，到回国后才跟韩国的机场服务员联络上，顺利让它独自乘坐飞机回国，和我团聚。

哎呀，总之心情不好啦

today i talked to q a few gin-nas haha they are really q cute.. and there's those little ones that babbles only oohh~ man i better study hard so tt i can figure them out better.. kids make mi happy i guess.

and i donated bld. 345ml cant donate more cause she say my Hb 12 which is normal but not high enuff to donate more. hmm.. got free milo n biscuit n a free gv movie tix n Fe tablets.. woah but also a relatively big needle puncture mark.. it wasnt pain when they inserted the needle but prior to tt the needle with lignocain was abit pain sia..

lalala q fun :)

thnx 2 my 2 tudis for the bkmark frm taiwan..

well let mi just blog a quick one cause i really need to get some sleep to be all ready for my PAEDS posting tmr.. :)

tsktsk for coming home near 1am the day before school starts haaa but i had a lovely time tonight
started w Italian food at Spizza.. although i didnt get my well-deserved gratification of zooming past a long queue because i made a reservation, and they made me wait outside the restaurant while they cleared the table even aft a made a reservation.. it was fun eating there.
the appetiser w grilled veg, mozarella cheese wasnt really something i liked alot but it was fun listening serene introducing the ingredients used.. and the cheese was the best part of it i think. the pizza was good i must say.. the juicy mushroom.. hmmmmm :)
fel says we lack a good bottle of wine and all of us couldnt agree more..
ooh and the hazelhut hot chocolate from starbucks was good.. w the melting whipcream.. it brings in a warm fuzzy feeling into me.

and then there was the movie.. From Subway with love - a Czech Republic film, the 2nd last one from EUFF. it was a rather entertaining and funny movie and i enjoyed it..
the line tt i rem most: An ideal man is like a virus that invades a woman's rationality
haha :)
and i wondered wat Femigel that was used was.. a spermicide? or just a lubricant? do pple us lubricants lidat?.. i wonder. oh well haa

the love letter on a subway advertisement board and oliver's figure through the glass windows of his lit-up office reminded me of the mtv of Daniel Powter's Bad day, somehow.. and how laura loves oliver this 40yrold older man.. and we actually talked about our weird infatuation for charming older men/ profs from school haaa :)
oh fel i haf another example.. how i really like richard gere frm Pretty Woman :p men w greying hair haaa..

the happy ending of everyone finding love during Christmas is abit of a cliche but it still warms our hearts right? how the right people will meet each other on christmas. haa and so the saying goes. but it brought abit of a christmacy feeling into my heart...
i think it's a nice film for girls.
thnx ser crystal fel n fel's sis geraldine for a geat evening.
too bad peiyun cudnt join us.

the guy sitting beside me in the cinema is kinda like an uncle.. he wore a white tshirt and white berms and he was the first one to rushed out of the cinema as soon as the film ended.. and he came to watch the movie alone.. when ll i go for my first movie alone? i wonder.. i need to choose a correct therapeutic film for that special occasion i think :)

despite the snowy christmacy feeling i got frm the movie, i gotta clear pharmaco paeds chp cofm before christmas comes in 2mths.. lalala

there's still so many to-watch movie on my list.. if i'm lucky i might be going for my first big-screen R(21) show tmr haa let see how it goes.

at 12midnite i was standing at the roundabt near hougang mrt w serene waiting for my dad to come pick us up.. we talked abt the rain, the tree (the strategic tree) and perception~
the last min of my hols has ended.. i'm into the first hour of school!!

okie better go sleep.

this is what might be possibly better than alcohol on a friday night.. :)

last night when carol asked me what i did in the week i had so much trouble recalling.. maybe because i'm so tired trying to maximize my holidays that i cant really remember wat i did.. then i read ser's blog and suddenly it all came back..
haaa reading her blog at such an hour.. she's probably not awake yet but well i gotta jot this down because it's so impt n i dont wanna forget it

my week started w thurs when we met up at cedele for dinner.. where the sandwiches were pretty good and i love the ambience.. the nice warm yellow hue to the whole restaurant.. looking out frm the inside of wheelock place into the wet dark streets along orchard road that was standing in the drizzle.. the rain kept the crowd away and we had a good time.. laughing over the slightest silly things and just enjoying each other's company..
then there were the nostalgic bus 88 ride and ser's post of our conversation..
thnx for triggering the little memory at the back of my head.. those interesting conversations we always have.. so spontaneous yet so cheem at times..
reminising abt the upper deck first seat of the bus.. and taking goofy pix.. i'll post them soon.
passing by ur home and asking for a cup of tea.. wonder if we would still be able to do that many years from now yea?
and friday saw us checking out vivocity shopping for clothes to keep u nice chic and warm.. us giving up alcohol for a cup of coffee bean and cakes.. :) how we engage in long coversations abt geminis and how we both wanted to be abit more like the other
yea it's good to have pple that have known u for sooo long and mayb know u more than u know urself right?
and our dinner at jap restaurant.. it never fails to bring a smile to my face when u quote and unquote all our conversations.. haaa we are q funny pple ya and py's catching up!!
"because i had Wil*eyes.. tt's y u like me" hahaa
cant wait for EUFF subway w love, on sunday w u guys!

brrr.. waking up to such a cold morning.. with an aching back is q a hard task..
i took so long to get up from underneath my nice and warm blanket.. how i wish i cud stay in there in such a weather for a much longer time
but no i cant.. i gotta wait till 9+ to call my cofm patient cause she bangseh mi yest
i feel sorry towards weifeng n py for going down w mi just to find tt my patient was not in.. sorry abt tt.. but she really told mi she wud b home when i called earlier in the week.. well i could have called yest morning to check but it just didnt occur to me.. bukit batok leh.. do u noe how far it is frm my house...... hahahaa
nvm hope we can do the visit today before rhuemato tutorial at AH

aft parting w py n weifeng and ended up at bugis area.. i went to check out books at YN and popular and went to shop ard raffles city n citylink myself... and bought 2 new tops! yay muahaha

then i met up w my dear judo girls.. aww i miss them..
dinner at the HK place at marina was interesting.. i had sweet n sour chicken spagetti.. not fantastic but interesting enuff.. and had a yuanyang... altho i'm no coffee drinker and it had a rather strong coffee taste but i cud still taste the tea beneath it all and thus it might be a good drink for me to start learning how to tolerate coffee haaa
then there was the giant icekachang which we ate but it toppled 1/2 way resulting in a couple of screams frm us followed by 1sec of pindrop silence from the whole restaurant hahahah it was really really funny
then spontaneously we suggesting ktv.. and found out tt kbox had LADIES NITE w no cover charge.. wat better deal for an outing of 7 LADIES right haaa
so frm 8-11 was singing singing singing non stop!!
aww i miss singing w them
it's always so fun.. a good mix of jaychou by mi carol beng and liangjingru+sunyanzi by the smallones oldies songs like dang ai cha shen er guo n zhengzhongji's songs haaaaa and of course attempted F.I.R and slaughtered a thousand chickens.. of course the damn funny songs like calcutta taxitaxi, say my name etc oh my.. where we laughed damn alot.. altho there was no dancing on the sofa or stage but we had fun i guess..
because we have known each other for so long.. we could totally let loose and do stupid things.. i no need to paiseh to control myself so haha it was therapeutic i must say.. singing my heart out into the mic.. altho i cant sing v well haa dont care already la.. lalala

by the time i'm home.. i was really tired and now i feel like nua-ing in my bed a little longer..
just a little while more haaa :)

CG1 with 2 of our exchange students - susan and maria

nice meeting u guys.. hope our dinner b4 u guys leave ll work out ya..

all the best!

my dear CG1..

last friday was the last day we'll be together as a CG haha nice getting to know u guys better throughout these 16wks of med and surg posting!

peiyun me yingci tohhan renjun weechuan weifeng jonathan!

it was really enjoyable learning w u guys ya.. :)

and this foto was taken outside ward 43 along the corridor to the paeds ward.. it must be a sign cause i'm returning to NUH for 4wks of paeds posting haa..

take care peeps.. i have so much memories of u guys.. from AH until NUH.. it had been fun :)

me and zhang-ge.. my fellow gang leader :)

haha renjun.. i think he brought alot of joy and laughter to our CG.. tutorials were never boring if he was around.. w comments such as dds and the "zhap" of the stomach
despite wat our tutors say.. i think his way of approaching patients is nice and friendly and i'm sure patients ll like docs tt are so friendly.. so hang in there for a while more than aft becoming a doc u can "HELLO" the patients all u wan! :)

yea nice knowing u altho the first thing u ever said to me in med sch wasnt so nice right? right? haha

me and jinxi

once i approach her w my camera she got reminded of my self-shots foto taking skills that were displayed in japan haha :)

me and wenhann!

green shirt green tie ?green pants haha :)

AGAIN! me yingci tohhan

me and my fellow CG mates!

me and dennis (from OMG) again :)