Just feel like procrastinating on my reading for a while more, so here I am. I have been doing a bit of blog surfing and been trying to figure out since when did my command of english become so bad, that I can't even write in full sentences anymore. I cannot understand why is it so hard for my to spell properly using proper gramma and construct my sentences in full, while everyone else can.

I think it is kind of like a reflection of myself. Someone who is always very slack, very laid back. Most of the time, I don't do certain things because I just cannot be bothered. Changing a style of expression actually takes time, and it's abit too tiring for me to keep a constant check on my sentence structure.

But it's pathetic, and sometimes I really dislike myself for it. I'm too frivilous for my own good. As in frivilous in the sense that I'm most of the time in lala land, not knowing discipline, let the waves or tide (watever the expression is) carry me to whereever it wants to. It's unhealthy. I need discipline and I realize I work in something like a spasm, I can cover alot in a short span of time and then squander all my other hours away, while I'm fully aware that the moments I'm not studying, everyone else is. Noone is going to wait for me to wake up my idea. I only work when there is a pressure for deadlines, and deadlines I set for myself are frequently readjusted to my liking. Which sucks.

Anyway I read a few blogs written by Americans and I was rather appalled by myself. The fact that if I actually am not from Spore and I stumble upon my own blog, I'll need to spend tremendous amount of time figuring out what the hell this person is trying to convey. The documentary - style of recount is not exactly captivating for anyone either. I wouldn't have bothered. Seriously.

Haha so from the point of view of a stranger, I'm putting too much of my normal conversation in my writing. For someone, like myself, who really enjoys reading something well-written, be it in whatever language I can comprehend, I really suck at writing. Wow it hurts. Well it should, but I probably just can't be bothered to let it bother mi.