well ID posting is finally over.. the test made me kinda abit stressed but it came n went. i like my con for the last wk dr L. she's american trained and she's v well-spoken. i really learnt alot abt how to communicate information to patient and not to assume that patients who dont speak eng very well can't understand or make their own decisions. she's very interesting and i really like the way she shares bits of stories w us during rds.. open up uptodate to discuss some conditions w us n all. she's so full of enthusiasm n i kept feeling that i'm not enthusiastic enough for her and not participating enough. but i din't sleep well, almost the whole of last wk and long rds w alot of standing can b q tiring.

she has many interesting analogies n quotes..
like how we r a planet w the commensal flora living on us and when our defense barriers r down, bugs like little aliens will attack us.. so we haf to take out our 'big gus' like antibiotics ha.

"just because you r paranoid, doesnt mean the whole world is not out to get you"

"it's better to light a candle than curse the darkness"

ID's kinda fun :)

then there was gang meetup on fri night that was really nice.. we did foot scrub together.. therapeutic n fun n having nice smelling feet at the end of it all.. then lotsa taboo n alot of laughing.
yest evening was fun too. at my ah ma's 68th bdae, miss hanging out w my cousins.. n looking at my young cousins in sec sch makes me feeling kinda old.. macam 老女人 watching 年輕小huo子 haa.. my 3yr old cousin is turing frm 2 sacks of rice to a definite 3.
happy birthday to my ahma.. :)

checking out jay's album on youtube now..

周杰倫 Jay - 說好的幸福呢 (失落非主流) MV + Lyrics 歌詞


詞: 方文山 曲: 周杰倫

你的繪畫凌亂著
在這個時刻
我像氣氛純白的白鴿
甜蜜散落了
繼續莫名的拉扯
我還愛你呢
而你斷斷續續唱著歌
假裝沒事了

時間過了 走了
愛情面臨選擇
你冷了 倦了 我哭了
一開始都不快樂
你用卡片紙寫著
有些愛隻給到這 真的痛了

怎麼了 你累了 說好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不說了 愛淡了 夢遠了
開心與不開心依稀數著你在不舍
那些愛過的感覺都太深刻
我都還記得

你不懂了 說好的 幸福呢
我錯了 淚干了 放手了 后悔了
隻是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉著
要怎麼停呢

你的繪畫凌亂著
在這個時刻
我像氣氛純白的白鴿
甜蜜散落了
繼續莫名的拉扯
我還愛你呢
而你斷斷續續唱著歌
假裝沒事了

時間過了 走了
愛情面臨選擇
你冷了 倦了 我哭了
一開始都不快樂
你用卡片紙寫著
有些愛隻給到這 真的痛了

怎麼了 你累了 說好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不說了 愛淡了 夢遠了
開心與不開心依稀數著你在不舍
那些愛過的感覺都太深刻
我都還記得

你不懂了 說好的 幸福呢
我錯了 淚干了 放手了 后悔了
隻是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉著
要怎麼停呢

怎麼了 你累了
說好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不說了
愛淡了 夢遠了
我都還記得

你不懂了 說好的 幸福呢
我錯了 淚干了 放手了 后悔了
隻是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉著
要怎麼停呢
為什麼這時候忍心離我而去



10 達芬奇的畫布 - Jay Chou 周杰倫 [NEW! Capricorn 魔杰座]



this happy sweet song's kinda like yuan you hui.. ;)

牆角迎風的雛菊.
茉莉花開的香氣.
閉上眼回到過去
劃分界限的座椅
下課就靠在一起
我就是離不開你
一路爭吵的話題
我們說好走到底
因為從此就分離
用黑板上的日期
倒數找你

慢慢清醒.原來思念你是加了糖的消息
我用鉛筆 畫得更仔細素描那天天氣
想你的香氣 我想遇見你

那童年的希望是一台時光機
我可以一路開心到底都不換季
帶竹蜻蜓.穿過那森林
打開了任意門找到你一起旅行
那童年的希望是一台時光機
給我放伯伯的糖糖你味道熟悉
所有回憶 在夏天的口袋裡
一起蕩秋千的夢境 在風中找尋著甜蜜

有些話從來不急
一直都放在心底
想要叫你看仔細
而單純世故的你
已經離去
哦.慢慢清醒
原來思念你是加了糖的消息
我用鉛筆.畫得更仔細素描那天天氣
想你的香氣.我想遇見你

那童年的希望是一台時光機
我可以一路開心到底都不換季
帶竹蜻蜓.穿過那森林
打開了任意門找到你一起旅行
那童年的希望是一台時光機
給我放伯伯的糖糖你味道熟悉
所有回憶.在夏天的口袋裡
一起蕩秋千的夢境.在風中找尋著甜蜜

那童年的希望是一台時光機
我可以一路開心到底都不換季
帶竹蜻蜓.穿過那森林
打開了任意門找到你一起旅行
那童年的希望是一台時光機
給我放伯伯的糖糖你味道熟悉
所有回憶.在夏天的口袋裡
一起蕩秋千的夢境.在風中找尋著甜蜜

哦.在找尋著甜蜜~
哦.在找尋著甜蜜~
哦.在找尋著甜蜜~



周杰倫 Jay - 喬克叔叔 (小丑) Lyrics 歌詞


cute lyrics :)
作詞：黃俊郎 作曲：周杰倫

親愛的不知道閉上了眼睛
像是發泄不是大家都可以
畫上眼影染著有色的淚滴
跌倒后莫慌在這個角最低
跌倒是始終是我故意
哈哈你笑的開心
我開始在玩命
扑克牌裡混的小項才一兩張
你看我看的重要行性
彩色的大卷發紅鼻子最滑稽的步伐
這樣的快樂你學會了嗎 會了嗎
用笨拙有驚險的雜耍繼續對你裝傻
所有的悲傷統統忘了吧 忘了吧

聽我說 拿出你的鈔票 香檳就買得到
先生小姐們趕快來 趕快來
在慢就看不到 從來沒想多少
還能跟教科說聲拜你知道
我隻是卑微的小丑 放棄后感動 就等你拍一拍手
人群算模糊 夜色多朦朧
月光也會跟著我
我不是孤獨的小丑
你笑了之后 不需要記得我
哎 任性的時候
漫天的星空 最明亮的是寂寞

下著雨 我躲在面具裡偷偷的在哭泣
為看了不能說的秘密
我學習我可以搶走我的生意別忘記
並不是要靠我才得冠軍
聽我說 拿出你的鈔票 香檳就買得到
先生小姐們趕快來 趕快來
在慢就看不到 從來沒想多少
還能跟教科說聲拜你知道
我隻是卑微的小丑 放棄后感動 就等你拍一拍手
人群算模糊 夜色多朦朧
月光也會跟著我
我不是孤獨的小丑
你笑了之后 不需要記得我
哎 任性的時候
漫天的星空 最明亮的是寂寞

我隻是卑微的小丑 放棄后感動 就等你拍一拍手
人群算模糊 夜色多朦朧
月光也會跟著我
我不是孤獨的小丑
你笑了之后 不需要記得我
哎 任性的時候
漫天的星空 最明亮的是寂寞

01 稻香 - Jay Chou 周杰倫 [NEW! Capricorn 魔杰座]

of course the song tt's being played on the radio q abit now :)

作詞：周杰倫 作曲：周杰倫

對這個世界如果你有太多的抱怨
跌倒了就不敢繼續往前走
為什麼人要這麼的脆弱 墮落
請你打開電視看看
多少人為生命在努力勇敢的走下去
我們是不是該知足
珍惜一切 就算沒有擁有

還記得你說家是唯一的城堡 隨著稻香河流繼續奔跑
微微笑 小時候的夢我知道
不要哭讓螢火蟲帶著你逃跑 鄉間的歌謠永遠的依靠
回家吧 回到最初的美好

不要這麼容易就想放棄 就像我說的
追不到的夢想 換個夢不就得了
為自己的人生鮮艷上色 先把愛塗上喜歡的顏色
笑一個吧 功成名就不是目的
讓自己快樂快樂這才叫做意義
童年的紙飛機 現在終於飛回我手裡
所謂的那快樂 赤腳在田裡追蜻蜓追到累了
偷摘水果被蜜蜂給叮到怕了 誰在偷笑呢
我靠著稻草人吹著風唱著歌睡著了
哦 哦 午後吉它在蟲鳴中更清脆
哦 哦 陽光灑在路上就不怕心碎
珍惜一切 就算沒有擁有

還記得你說家是唯一的城堡 隨著稻香河流繼續奔跑
微微笑 小時候的夢我知道
不要哭讓螢火蟲帶著你逃跑 鄉間的歌謠永遠的依靠
回家吧 回到最初的美好

還記得你說家是唯一的城堡 隨著稻香河流繼續奔跑
微微笑 小時候的夢我知道
不要哭讓螢火蟲帶著你逃跑 鄉間的歌謠永遠的依靠
回家吧 回到最初的美好

周蕙 - 不想讓你知道

你还爱我吗？

Alex and ShinAe 52 Eng Sub Ep26


my fav boy in pink :)
oh man these 4 kidos are really so lovable haa

Soba Ni Iru Ne - Thelma Aoyama Feat. SoulJa ENG SUBBED


heard this song q some time ago.. today while i was driving home, found it especially nice n soothing to listen to while driving @ nite..

「そばにいるね」
「I’LL BE BY YOUR SIDE」
作詞：SoulJa・青山テルマ 作曲：Soulja


あなたのこと　私は今でも思い続けているよ
いくら時流れて行こうと　I’m by your side baby いつでも
So.　どんなに離れていようと
心の中ではいつでも一緒にいるけど　寂しいんだよ
So baby please　ただ hurry back home

Baby boy　あたしはここにいるよ　どこもいかずに待ってるよ
You know dat I love you　だからこそ　心配しなくていいんだよ
どんなに遠くにいても変わらないよこの心
言いたい事わかるでしょ?
あなたのこと待ってるよ

[SoulJa]
んなことよりお前の方は元気か?　ちゃんと飯食ってるか?
ちくしょう、やっぱ言えねぇや
また今度送るよ　俺からのLetter

[青山テルマ]
過ぎ去った時は戻せないけれど　近くにいてくれた君が恋しいの
だけど　あなたとの距離が遠くなる程に　忙しくみせていた
あたし逃げてたの
だけど　日を閉じる時　眠ろうとする時　逃げきれないよ　あなたの事
思い出しては　一人泣いてたの

あなたのこと　私は今でも思い続けているよ
いくら時流れて行こうと　I’m by your side baby いつでも
So.　どんなに離れていようと
心の中ではいつでも一緒にいるけど　寂しいんだよ
So baby please　ただ hurry back home

Baby boy　あたしはここにいるよ　どこもいかずに待ってるよ
You know dat I love you　だからこそ　心配しなくていいんだよ
どんなに遠くにいても変わらないよこの心
言いたい事わかるでしょ?
あなたのこと待ってるよ

[SoulJa]
不器用な俺　遠くにいる君
伝えたい気持ちそのまま言えずに　君は行っちまった
今じゃ残された君はアルバムの中

[青山テルマ]
アルバムの中　納めた思い出の　意味より何気ないひと時が今じゃ恋しいの　
　（君のぬくもり）
And now あなたからの電話待ち続けていた　携帯握りしめながら　眠りに就いた
　（抱きしめてやりたい）
どこもいかないよ　ここにいるけれど　見つめ合いたいあなたのその瞳　
ねえ分かるでしょ　私待ってるよ

Baby boy　あたしはここにいるよ　どこもいかずに待ってるよ
You know dat I love you　だからこそ　心配しなくていいんだよ
どんなに遠くにいても変わらないよこの心
言いたい事わかるでしょ?
あなたのこと待ってるよ

[SoulJa]
俺はどこも行かないよ　ここにいるけれど　探し続けるあなたの顔
Your 笑顔　今でも触れそうだって思いながら手を伸ばせば　君は

あなたのこと　私は今でも思い続けているよ
いくら時流れて行こうと　I’m by your side baby いつでも
So.　どんなに離れていようと
心の中ではいつでも一緒にいるけど　寂しいんだよ
So baby please　ただ hurry back home

あなたのこと　私は今でも思い続けているよ
いくら時流れて行こうと　I’m by your side baby いつでも
So.　どんなに離れていようと
心の中ではいつでも一緒にいるけど　寂しいんだよ
So baby please　ただ hurry back home

http://fangirlcloset.wordpress.com/2008/02/02/%E3%80%8C%E3%81%9D%E3%81%B0%E3%81%AB%E3%81%84%E3%82%8B%E3%81%AD%E3%80%8D-%E9%9D%92%E5%B1%B1%E3%83%86%E3%83%AB%E3%83%9E-featsoulja/

Alex and ShinAe 43 Eng Sub Ep24



the babies are so cute! i like the 3rd one haa..

while reading about scarlet fever on wikipedia...

Popular cultural references:
Little Women by Louisa May Alcott (1868) - Beth contracts scarlet fever, seems to recover, but progresses to rheumatic fever and ultimately succumbs to congestive heart failure.

selamat hari raya.
today is a nice windy n chilly day..
wanted to blog abt saying bye to orhlulu my xiaogui.. my parents decided to set it free since it's grown q big n looked q squashed in it's box habitat.. so aft almost 2.5 years since my 21st bdae.. we let it go :) hope it's going well wherever it is.. seeing the world instead of just my living room. thnx to chermaine n carmen for the gift.. :) i hafnt been a responsible pet owner cause usu my mama takes care of it and it's so much closer to my mum than me la. this kinda commitment issue is tough.. so i shud never b a pet owner.. even my cactus kinda died sometime ago. sigh. cactus tt beng's mama gave me last time. i shud learn to take care of myself first.

then there's this cough/flu tt's been troubling me. till classmates think twice before sitting near me. n poor py kept getting blessed by my germy droplets. n the id lecturer calls me The Cougher. w caleb's prescription of klacid, i hope to recover soon. my running nose.. is making me look like rudolf all the time.

id is fun so far.. it reminds me of kisiizi when we discuss HIV and TB pericardial effusions in class. Dr Denis n her daring pericardiacentesis came into my mind, with no resus trolley.. but the pt got better. in the same bed Teddy passed away w the same condition. sigh. how we felt helpless n had to go knock on the UK doc's door at midnite cause we know shit abt helping a pt who's dying. hai..

kinda addicted to the alex n shinae youtube videos cause it gives a feel-good feeling but it's just for me to sidetrack for some almost-out-of-reality kinda situations occasionally, and it is not too bad i guess heh.

py n i met darren n dehan yest n had dinner.. it was damn funny just talking n listening to them.. miss my old CGmates.. hahaa

gotta go blow my nose.

We Got Married Ep 17 - Alex and Shin Ae (en) 1/2

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/We_Got_Married

this is so sweet..haha i really wan2 watch more of this variety show.. :)

We Got Married Ep 18 - Alex and Shin Ae 2/2 (en)


We Got Married [SUBBED] - Alex and Shinae EP 19 part 1


We Got Married Alex & Shin Ae Ep 6 part 1/2(Eng Sub)

Aww he's so sweet, i shud learn how to massage n moisturize my own feet in case no one would do it for me next time :p

he's alex from Clazziquai and she's Shin Ae, the wife of song seung hun in summer scent who passed away n her heart was transplanted into son ye jin.

13年後的蠟筆小新-小白的最後(感人)


蠟筆小新-牠的名子叫小白


小叮当故事的结局 on the net..
http://doraemon.ezdn.cc/

this is very sweet. ^_^


i love this ad!

Mamma Mia! New Movie Clip Dancing Queen Full(ABBA)


ABBA - dancing queen
You can dance, you can jive, having the time of your life
See that girl, watch that scene, dig in the dancing queen

Friday night and the lights are low
Looking out for the place to go
Where they play the right music, getting in the swing
You come in to look for a king
Anybody could be that guy
Night is young and the music’s high
With a bit of rock music, everything is fine
You’re in the mood for a dance
And when you get the chance...

You are the dancing queen, young and sweet, only seventeen
Dancing queen, feel the beat from the tambourine
You can dance, you can jive, having the time of your life
See that girl, watch that scene, dig in the dancing queen

You’re a teaser, you turn ’em on
Leave them burning and then you’re gone
Looking out for another, anyone will do
You’re in the mood for a dance
And when you get the chance...

You are the dancing queen, young and sweet, only seventeen
Dancing queen, feel the beat from the tambourine
You can dance, you can jive, having the time of your life
See that girl, watch that scene, dig in the dancing queen

I LOVE this song :D

haha just watched mamma mia! it's a very funny and entertaining show, i laughed throughout the whole movie, altho some parts of it was too much of exaggerated eng-bollywood and some dancing sequences made the actors/actresses looked v chuan but all in all many songs that i really liked were in the movie and you cant help but move w the beat too.
n Pierce Brosnan is still so hot for an elderly guy... i wonder wats the male equivalent for "lao-chio" but aww he's really one of those old men that r damn cute n i like. (but there's no Electra complex going on in me) :p

I've got the most wonderful tutors one can ask for during this 1st wk of geri posting. esp my consultant dr T. He's very inspiring, very pro-teaching, very kind to all his patients and he really made me see the beauty of geri medicine.

I love the way my team docs will bend/squat down to speak to the patients who are lying on very low beds (so as to prevent them from falling from a height in the event they acidentally fall/jump off).
they'll hold the patient's hand, talking clearly n loudly into the ears of the hearing impaired patients, make sure that they are comfortable, try to tend to their complaints and relieve their sufffering. those uncommunicative ones, w time we might just forget that they are living, feeling human beings, not just a piece of meat that we try to treat. I like the way my team will look at so many aspects of care for our patients, the details of medical conditions n their treatment, the functional rehab, the psychosocial issues and discharge plans. not every old person get to go home when they leave the hosp.

Then there is the cofm-ish/communications kinda issues. when we were younger, sometimes it feels q dreary to keep talking about this kinda vague things, nothing like real concrete hard science that we need to cure diseases. but at the end of the day, our duty as docs is to heal, to comfort and not always to cure and prolong life. death is certain. the mortality of mankind is 100%. it's dying that is uncertain. it's dying that old people may fear. my con told us that if we're HOs next time and a pt is DNR, DIL who is getting hypotensive and desaturating, when we get called by nurses in the middle of the night, our job is not only to go do admin stuff like certifying death when it's a flat line. we need to ask if the patient is symptomatic cause we can relieve pain/breathlessness. we need to ask if family is around, cause we may need to reassure them that they patient is not suffering ++ in this last bit of the journey. end of life issues are very real and very relevant and it always feel very close to my heart.

the most difficult patient spits at u because he's being restrained and that's his only defence mechanism. he can't punch you when he wants. but all he ever wanted was malay-speaking people ard so that this elderly malay gentleman who can only speak malay feels more reassured. and the only other thing he wanted was... kopi-o.

haha old people are really cute.
another uncle said my con is a reporter and we med students are photographers. some grandiose huh. but he said my con is cute, macam like a kid, and that made us so tickled haaa...

tvb- Greed Mask THEME song

last sun was my cousin's wedding.
my dad is always the life of the party, the most sporting n funny character.. he can b a professional wedding singer when he retires and he's so much more hip n happening than his kids ha.
well i wonder how much of his fun loving/root-of-all-noise nature i haf inherited but pple who know us can easily understand why i can b abit odd haaaa.
check out his 花瓶大过中年人 pix.
he sang, he danced, he drank.
cheers. :)


w/o fail at all my cousins' weddings my dad is the uncle they'll invite to do the yum seng ha..


my dad n my 6th uncle
my dad kinda got the karaoke mood started when he got the ball rolling.. altho q alot of pple sang at my cousin's wedding i tink everyone was too paiseh to be the first one ha
my paternal family loves to sing haa n drink.. :P


this is q gay ahaa
my dad n his bro..


this pix is damn cute! haa
my dad w my bros, eunice, siauhui


my family!


yum yum yummmm seng!
my dad n my 5th uncle.. cheers to wilson's marriage!


i'm v tired. feel like i'll never b able to finish my work and many things are not meant to be. well after entertaining myself w all these happy/funny pix, time to get bk to work.

i hafnt had time to blog about this funny dream that py had until now.
she dreamt that the 2 of us when for bilateral disarticulation of our little toes.
she cant really remember the indications for it. possibly because it was in fashion? maybe i had diabetes? haa
but anyway my nice reg is the one who did the op
while waiting for her turn she suddenly felt that her feet would look ugly without the 2 little toes and she decided to back out of the op, sigh and so she saw my post op scar over my feet and dint go for the op.
sigh... so poor me, was left with 2 missing toes :(

fri was a fun time chilling out w py n huay.. love laughing till i'm totally tired and coming home to sleep.
just got back frm my cousin's tea ceremony.. it's nice n joyous. :) i'm looking forward to the dinner tonight :)

my auntie's going for decompression n fusion of her lumbar spine end of the mth, possibly for spinal stenosis.. she looks kinda worried.. reminds me of all the old aunties/uncles in the ward.. hope she's ok.. another auntie showed me her TKR scar n one showed me her trigger finger. ortho posting put to some use haa

today i suddenly realised why i like ortho as a subject. cause it's alot abt helping the patient regain function, relieve pain and disability. it's nice to see pt feel better, walk better, function better. but i'm not v into ortho surgeries so prob not a likely career option. but there's this thing abt old old pple walking into the clinic room w/o a wheelchair that just makes me feel happy to see them so healthy. yest at the reg clinic we noted that the next pt is 90 yo, so i started to move the chair away to clear up space for "the wheelchair". in the end the 90 yr old uncle walked in himself, albeit walking stick assisted but it just makes us smile and replace the chair for him to sit on. :) ortho is v relevant to everyone. i had an ortho consult for my humeral #, my mum and grandma are easily an ortho short/long cases, so it's kinda close to heart.

somehow i'm enjoying this ortho posting because of the nice doctors i met. my con is very nice, she's always smiling. my MO is very sweet n friendly and she always exudes this positive cheerful vibe. n met a nice reg who taught me at NUH last yr. he's very nice n funny, makes an effort to know ur name even if you're just joining his clinic, offers to give us tutorials which are v good. but i always dread it when he quiz me on sumthing n tells me "i'm sure you know" n i feel like i want to vanish into the ground because the fact is i dont know. hai..

n my ex-mentor who kinda instills alot of fear and cause me to have PTSD symptoms, even when he stands or sits remotely near me. i suddenly realize that i shud let it go. retrospectively mayb i was in the wrong too. there is nothing to fear expect for fear itself, mr eng likes to tell us. i decided that some scary teachers instills fear/unease in us even before they do anything to us. usu it turns out tt we are the ones w alot of preconceived ideas and it impairs our learning w all those negative thots/first impressions. just do ur best la.

mr tan's wife gave birth to a lovely daughter 2 days ago. such a joyous occasion. i'm sure coach is beaming w joy :)

oh and i actually met the Hero Mum in clinic today. the things mums do for their kids. ^_^ mdm, may you recover soon.
http://www.straitstimes.com/Free/Story/STIStory_240121.html

somehow i feel a little light hearted today, a strange feeling after so long. how long will it last i wonder.

Ben 10 transformation

hmm.. i shud watch more cartoons

My Sister In Law is 19 -Half Love-


My Sister-In-Law is 19 MV - Crazy For this Girl


i really wan2 finish watching this show soon.. but it's kinda sad the girl killed herself in reallife.

on my way home today, i saw on the lrt platform a mynah.
it has got its "toes" disarticulated on one foot.. so it kinda only had a stump on its left foot. something like an Syme's amputation of sorts?
poor thing. to think i'm doing ortho but i cant do anything for it.
hai.

just read huay's post.
i'm feeling abit too much these couple of days for my own comfort.
fear.joy.loneliness.excitement.anger.worthlessness...
too much, too frequent, too disturbing to my usual carefully titrated equilibrium.
seriously. wat the fuck. why shud i care. i cant go back in time to change things, can i?
mayb it's autumn, the rain, the chilly wind, the favourite season.
sigh.