omg i hafnt blog like for 2 wks plus.. haha mayb pple tot i'm dead.. well i feel like i'm dying?!? haha
but as i told beng relief teaching is like breaking an arm la
at first denial: like the full impact of the shit hasnt sunk in yet then u still hopeful everidae.. planning wat u'll do wif the kids la
then cums anger, irritation: argh like feel like throwing them out of the window.. the same thing i felt everitime i move my arm abit n the pain's like everiwhere till u cant identify the source la
haha then cums the aceeptance of the fact.. feeling more at peace with stuff aft settling at the eqm.. still trying to find it but better now la

i shud haf been blogging man.. cant realli rem all the haha things i did with the kids/ experience with them la...
but well most of the time i'm screaming at the top of my voice scolding n trying to shut them up but wa ather jialat for voice n general well being

funny things tt happen include my pri1s singing 'cha shao bao' song to mi i mean they onli noe tt three words out of the whole song but still volunteered to sing... ani other part of the song they'll barely hum it n try to bypass tt part to CHA SHAO BAO again haha

pri 3 tink i hafnt been too nice to them la coz they smarties then i tend to b more strict wif them which iz like unfair but i'm checking myself on tt

pri 5s wa lao
zhenjie broke his leg coz he fell down a flight of stairs in sch so i had to run ard looking for the teachers tt booked the classrooms on ground floor so as to swap with them.. sigh
but they did IT man
thu(12/2/04)
made mi cry in front of the whole class la
tt waz like freaking diu lian but boh ian i guess
'ke yi' was the one tt triggered it off kept saying he dont need my box of rubber n ding zui until i snapped.. n said ' cant u show mi some respect?' i neva wanted to sae tt becoz i alwayz believe tt respect needs to b earned n u cant demand it frm anione let alone my students/kids..

but woah
once it started juz cant stop la.. like all my weiqu for the past 12 daes juz burst the dam or sumthing
n sum irritating boy haf to shout across the whole class to announce the arrival of my tears so as to shut them up
i walked out
not on them
but to go toilet la
to seek some quiet.. rare in sch
n composure

i mean it was reslved aft tt la
wif keyi feeling veri guilty n kept apologising to mi and some of them staying bk to offer mi help to carry stuff..
aiyah they r still cute to mi la

juz like my pri1s
i dont prac favouritism but there r a few kids tt i juz realli like their face n the way they tok haha like haochuan daryl wenhui... aiyoh most of my pri1s r cute la... actualli all my students r...

well thu last week was the most memorable of my whole relief teaching experience there i mean i cried budden 2 gang mates came over n literally brighten my dae la
to tink i haf to hide in a corner immediately after my crying stint at the pri5class coz tears juz cant stop following.. squatting in a little corner wif one door tt leads to dunnoe-where.. abit like the rgs guitar rm last time

haha but when they came... familiar faces cant help but smile
guess alwayz tot i'm ok alone most places i go
but ya la w/o frens ard it's rather lonely i guess.,, esp haf to deal with alot of shit alone wif no close pple to tok to.. always hiding in my corner in the staff rm i guess... i'll forget to eat my lunch/recess coz i haf no time..

sad rite... but tt day huayu n felicia came.. the first time i went down for recess... met my pri1s n some pri 5s haha they r realli cute wan to sit near us n meet my frens... fel shaking hand with the weihan (ultra guai n smart=veri gd boy) n letting peiru aka sickening kaypo queen like her alot haha she still rem her i tink.. n the other kids asked mi abt the both of them today oso like when they cuming again/...

hafing recess wif them iz another enjoyment tt they brought mi to go experience la i guess.. hahah if i haf the time, i'll go visit them n treat them to um food la..

they r all little angles outside class but all of them together making alot of noise.. wah lao damn scary la haha

sometimes i feel scared of them like amanada told mi the ka-chua syndrom like y u scared of stuff so much smaller than u rite?

the pri5 hope i can help them improve.. my rehearsed (in my brain) lecture to them which i hafnt say yet...
iz by the time i leave i dare say tt i haf put in the effort wif them n tried my best n i'll demand each n everione of them to reflect n see if they can tell mi they haf put in the effort to learn frm mi not la

aft the crying stint haha worked abit la i guess... they abit more attentive n will show mi the bi ji they copied... hope it'll help them improve.. aiyah

my pri 3 i hope to chop chop finish syllabus n intro them to chem-er chinese stuff like chengyu yan yu n poems.. mayb they will learn to appreciate them n like chinese more like mi haha b wowed by how much juz a few words used nicely can express a whole lot of things...

went bk to sch on sat as well

b4 i reached the school fell down at pasir ris mrt station damn malu
waz carrying the whole big bag of bks with both arms until i cant realli see the steps i'm going down la... then didnt step properly n the sandles bent n almost went rolling down dropped my bks my breakfast lckily waz walking behind the crowd n onli 3 other guys saw.. on jc guy helped pick up my 1/2 eaten waffer in plastic bag.. one indian uncle helped mi pick up my bks n said "slowly".. n the guy beside mi on my side of the railing haha the rest were on the other side la... he juz damn shocked n kinda frozen he still didnt recover aft i stood up lor haha i hafta comfort him saying 'm ok.. onli blue-black at the shin... no matter how sadist it may sound.. kinda missed bruises remind mi of the days wif judo where i got a high vount of 13 bruises at one time

haha but i can understand how he felt... the same way i felt everitime carol crumble beside mi going down the stairs at ri while sms-ing haha i juz shocked n stared haha

then beng came down to help mi mark
haha we suppose to go orchard to meet the rest at 2 on sat so muz set off at 1 but i cant finish la then she came down n helped mi n we marked until 4 sigh still didnt finish but she helped mi with the zuoye n tingxie.. thanx beng!

other teachers muz tink i'm wierd n useless alwayz getting frens to cum sch to help mi haha nvm la

heard the mdm jenny woo i'm reliefing iz cuming bk
pple tell mi i'm losing my job soon n i told them i dont mind
got urge to slack la n wan to gif the kids bk to better hands so tt juz in case i cant teach wont realli screw up their lives la.. haha
i'm looking forward to they day whereby i dont haf to teach.. not realli coz i hate the job.. i'm starting to b used to it la n kinda liked it but more of a good rest..

the day will cum n i guess i cant bear to leave them but we shall see

till then ahah do my best la/..

juz finish typing my lesson plan n its 2+am liaoz.. shit la tmr got sch n morn + nite tuition haha lack of sleep again.. will make mi irritable.. so shud go kun now...

i like the stickers i bought to paste in their books 100+ smiley face stickers of diff design not onli light up their day but light up mine oso la

n the dancing robot n jap sweets i bought at action city on sat haha they love it n i like seeing them so happy too

oh glad to find out tt no matter how irritating you yi iz he cares n protects perry.. good job man

hilarious dancing robot tink i shud go buy one for myself haha

ZZZZzzzz....