水曜日, 8月 31, 2005

jus like serene expected i ll blog in their so called documentary-styled way of blogging

it was a good sakae buffet la
altho we always swear aft buffets n being so full we wan to puke, tt we ll never eat buffets in the near future, we always still kinda end up eating it
it was a long day yest i guess haa
ending w a $23.75 cab fare n reaching home at midnite but we it was good hanging ard
congrats to huay whu finally tuo li ku hai.. n happi bdae to her ergor

also to note : david wang.

mi n my little note bk..

月曜日, 8月 29, 2005

well, done with the frs presentation today. finally. py ask mi wat i was feeling when i was standing there at the lecturer spot.. seriously i didnt really feel much except to get it over and done with, when it wasnt my turn to talk, i actually looked carefully at everyone. it is really damn obvious wat everyone is doing, who's sleeping, who's chatting who's reading.

i guess this is what the lecturer felt, a rather shitty feeling i guess. i mean im no pro, jus a student so even if no one wants to listen to me i cant say anything, budden imagine u r some big shot frm some foreign uni, come and take all this shit frm med students who cant wake up their idea.,. then q sian rite..

personal principle, i dont talk in lecture la
but everyone is entitled to do watever they want.. tho i was abit pissed they kept talking when py was talking.. i even glared n frowned until i realize its q a funni thing to do then i stopped.. hee

watever

i m really grateful to calvin our TA, coz he doesnt owe us anything and he's not even obliged to help us but e fact that he takes time off to organize us, facilitate, vet the ppt, rehearse w us.. was great!
it always feel exceptionally good when someone does something nice to u when they dont owe it to u..
so thnx calvin

another night passed with low productivity..
feeling shitty again.. even end up looking at pple's blog.. wth

bk to study

土曜日, 8月 27, 2005

yest was a really good experience at assissi..
sis tang is nice, always trying to teach us stuff
we tried toking to a 65yr old lady.. she's kinda quiet abit bored i guess n 3 of us w her in a rm w like no conversation topics
hmm of coz i tried my v best to chat her up
but within the first few qns i made her cry dunnoe y...
i was abit taken aback actualli and was wondering if wat i said was too insensitive or not..
coz i asked her if she has children n she said no..
but started crying
later i went for a stroll w her n stayed ard the chat w her...
i felt the need n the desire to..
altho i wasnt actualli do sumthing substaintial but spendign time w the patients there n chatting w them is something i feel tt its impt..
i tink I was under the mentality of always doing sumthing substantial n missing out on the part of interacting w them.. tt's wat always happen when i did community service last time i guess.. but it was a gd chat altho most of the time we were silent
aft a while she offered to start a part of conversation aft a bout of silence..
tt's the happiness i feel when i tok to pple whu dont realli feel like opening up.. whu haf little words..
n the thought of them making tt effort to say sumthing or tell u sumthing abt tt, makes mi v happi
:)
i usualli try by toking alot at the beginning..
sharing abt myself so tt they feel more comfortable toking to mi..
hope this doesnt irritate pple ~

i was exposed to changing patients diapers, flipping them on bed, feedg them..
it was a new experience n i realli enjoyed it so much so tt i forgot abt my terrible toothache..
well caleb's 4buck/pill panadol is actualli q an effective painkiller for mi..

caleb mention sumthing on the train abt mi resembling him in some ways
n like i said altho i dont wish to realli acknowledge tt but yea..
i noticed tt a long time ago too..
the natural need to entertain pple
not tt i particularly makes mi happi but it makes pple happi
these days im less of tt i tink
im more moody these days.. haha py can prob agree w tt
i tink im letting myself b abit more revealing of how i feel so i tink its fine
coz i always do wat i tink is right or wat i feel like doing..
so its fine la

yunnan
shud i go bk again?
i dunnoe i dont realli feel like going bk again
honestly coz if i do, i wud haf ask my parents long ago
or "informed" in tt sense since some time ago...
i tend to make decisions like tt myself

i tink its the CA
pros scared the shit out of mi actualli.. panic attacks even now haa
i hate the feelg of inadequacy, unpreparedness or ignorance
in tt sense i dont tink im up to it
i dont tink i deserve to go - i tink im even paiseh to ask my parents coz not as if i was ai-zai last yr w my work..
n to go for a trip b4 CAs might make them flip, prob make myself flip, with anxiety N stress..
its the thing abt taking it at my own pace
not rushing things
i like to go yunnan coz it opens mi up to the world out there
a brand new experience, learning journey
altho i dread the cold.. but its an exp of A lifetime
like wat i told the m1s during matric
which i realli believe in
but its the thing tt i dont realli want to go tt badly this yr
i dunnoe y
i dont haf a greater calling or somekinda faith tt propels mi to go there
which is generally the case in my life, i onli account for myself n listen to wat i haf got to say
so hmm im still tinkg abt it

altho caleb says the deadline is today..
hee
found at tt my councillee is one of the chop stamp sign pple going
altho he told me he was q confirm to go alreadi
but hmm jus found out..

well did tt frs presentation until damn late last nite
paiseh py i knocked out at 3 + while she continue till 4..
haha we took turns to do n sleep
sianz it better turn out well
so good luck to us..

its was good staying overnite at berns house..
mani caring frens
n ate so much toast.. thnx jing

mani issuses to tink abt
mani things to study
better get to work

ohoh how can i forget to note this down
tt ban mian auntie at the nuh foodcourt pissed mi off so BADDDDDD!
walao
i was suffering frm a realli bad toothache frm my erupting wisdom too tt was killing mi thruout the day
so i decided to eat something soft and i orderd hor fun
she kinda let 10 pple go in front of mi
i was tinkg ok hor fun takes time to fry the juice so its ok
budden she gave my long awaited hor away
i told her
n she still got the cheek to tell mi.. no la urs is still cooking
wtf
im there so long until i almost became stone
n the second plate of hor fun tt appeared again was given away again..
i jus had to intercept it
altho i was paiseh for tt lady when i snatched the food away frm her
but its MINE lor
kao
n i was realli hungry
w a toothache n a bad day ~ coz i happi tot lec starts at 9 n was still bathing aft 7 at home
heng dad got mi there on time
but
argh
she jus pisses mi off
its not the mistake tt made mi angry.. i noe there's alot of customers shes busy
but its tt attitude n face k
i told her nicely she made the mistake
well i was expecting a sorry la
but a denial?!?
she realli cant see mi standing in front of her meh???
watever
im going to boycott the store for a mth!
26/8 - 26/9
argh..

木曜日, 8月 25, 2005

well guess i hafnt been blogging for a while..
3rd/4th wk into sch
busy like shit
swimming in tbs n notes tt i can never finish reading..
and due to my 4 wisdom teeth growing out simultaneously.. i got mani uclers in my mouth coz of abrasion by the sharp emerging teeth and swollen gums macam the volcano going to erupt
prob try to visit a dentist soon coz i dont wan the other teeth to decay w the wisdom..
walao.. i sense a freaky nightmare at my door step
i HATE dentist visitss..
tt rattling ceiling fan frm pri sch dental clinic.. i can still c it when i close my eyse :S

aniwae perpectual tiredness
slow-ness in work..
but neverthless finding wats going on in lec interesting enuff..
:)
i like virology haha togavirus - i can so see a little virus wearing a toga dancing ard, btw causes RUBELLA..
haha sianz.. i onli rem such things..
the virology lecturer saved himself towards the end of the lec.. coz i changed frm damn sleepi to interested enuff to stay awake..
met the pharmco lecturer.. he's toking speed is faster than my writing speed i tink.. not alot of lecturers are like tt.. mayb onli prof hooi but oh well

happi things include
a good dinner during py's bdae
the jap immersion.. feels like a little holiday for myself ... so detached frm sch and playing tt's so legitimate.. gd company.. i like the japs they r nice :)
got a chance to practice my pok japanese
n got to go into underwater world n sit cable car coz the team tot i wud b of some help translating.. but im realli not tt zai.. paiseh
oh n my bro shared a little story frm his childhood w me.. hee so sweet.. awww
i m involved in it la altho i cant realli rem.. but yea i rem the object concerned..

i like my pbl prof tt py tinks tt he looks like dong fang bi li..
come on lor he's indian leh
but he's a realli nice guy,..
he encourages a v good environment to learn 2gether.. not afraid to make mistakes coz he corrects n explains well - something i realli appreciate frm tutors.. well instead of patho tutor2 who proclaims tt i can never b a surgeon coz i cant tell him terminal ileum when he wanted it, instead i onli said small intestine.. oh well, we shall c
i'm realli kinda encouraged by the pbl prof.. oops cant rem him name now but ll go check later.

n my frs gp..
gou shi yun
sigh so qian tt kena picked to do presentation lor 2 out of 20 over gps rite
sickening..
some how some way i became one of the presentors so good luck to us

dunnoe la
alot of things to study...

日曜日, 8月 21, 2005


all the japs frm juntendo med sch! Posted by Picasa

us! Posted by Picasa

more pix at merlion/esplanade Posted by Picasa

ma-ri-on Posted by Picasa

mi n reina! Posted by Picasa

mi keita n leonard Posted by Picasa

girls at marche! Posted by Picasa

dinner at marche Posted by Picasa

at zouk! Posted by Picasa

after sentosa :) Posted by Picasa

jap immersion!! Posted by Picasa

月曜日, 8月 15, 2005


i realli like this pix.. i dunnoe y. its a fren's msn pix.. the heart out there for everione to c, mayb for the person himself to c ? haa Posted by Picasa

日曜日, 8月 14, 2005


check out the photo frame i customized for my jap immersion student!! haah hope she likes it. yes i noe my art sucks, my hand is clumsy and the fish didnt look like a fish at all n i spent 2 hrs making the clay figures n painting the frames only.... haha but the final pdt q cute rite?? :D n paiseh xy made u wait so long on fri jus to make it.. sorry sorry  Posted by Picasa
had a long phone chat w serene last nite
called her aft i suddenly felt like callg her..
:)

initialli there was abit of awkward-ness like she shocked tt i called or sumthing
haha O_o"
ya la...
i dont haf e habit of callg pple to allo-allo
dunnoe y
mayb scared sumtimes call nothing much to say
~cant hold the conversatn well
but crap la
w my gang n frens frens actualli the conversation can go realli far even when it started w no agenda

paiseh pple
haa
when i dont call to allo, its not tt i dont tink abt them or anithing
i ll tink tink then hope theyre doing ok.. and lidat lor
haa abit feeble ar
jus no haf the habit but heng some of my frens ll call mi to allo last time

dont noe wat is my pt
coz gemini's haf haphazard thoughts? haha
but these days i do wat my gut feelg says
called some pple when i feel like to check on them.. to chat
:)
it's q a gd thing i guess

n oh btw aft the panweibo thing i watched on yu le bai fen bai
i tink im q a xiao lao ren too
sigh~

felt damn disgusted w myself on fri. like super disgusted
now trying my v best not to let tt happen again

土曜日, 8月 13, 2005

well the combined martial arts display i went w xinyi yest wasnt too bad
jus abit too long..
paiseh xy, kept u waitin' so long for mi but well i was making FISH and TURTLE not stingray and of coz the starfish n seashell tt everione recognizes..
wa realize my art realli pok like shit.. i spend 2hrs paintg the frame n make little clay sea creatures until i cannt tahan my clumsy hands haa

aniwae i was impressed by the display
showcased 11 different martial arts gp
aikido, copeira, fencing, karate, kendo, nam wah pai, judo, silat, tae kwon do, taiji, whushu

was v interestg the body control tt some of the pple demonstrated was damn zai..
wow
some stuff i haf seen n come across b4
like aikido, kendo, judo, taekwondo, taiji, wushu etc la

it was q funni
coz like the taichi master w sword w pinky ribbon tt xy wans to snip off n take home,
he kinda vibrates everitime he exert some force
damn funni
n xy was controllg then she oso vibrating until i wanted to tell her tt the taiji master's stunt reminded mi of her laughing in her silent mode..

the kendo oso
walao so mani pple laugh lor.. coz the tink chopping someone's helmet w a bamboo stick is damn funni or sumthing
karate macam jap wushu lidat w a guy w comic character hair..
n the nam wah pai wah they can do qigong n break bricks w palm ~Scary!
but i didnt realli noe wat happened in fencing tho
tink the voiceover abit off timing w the pple issit or they do do like different frm wat i hear.. dunnoe la
aikido is v rou lor.. v like tui shou n bend pple hand into weird position to control it.. hmm
taekwondo board-kicking destruction was of coz impressive but they missed some targets here n there n their presentatn was abit long huh

of coz judo was familiar
kinda reminded days of training
but they show cased all the standing kinda groundwork like damn impressive lor haa

silat is v graceful
n capoeira was like wow
im not suprised now tt its under e national arts council
macam all the pple in there break dance lor
w song dance kicks n CARTWHEELs haa
v interesting suppose to b started by brazilian salves to stand up against their masters..
fongseng's prata wasnt as satsifying but we saw some mediacorp guy
py met us too..
n i was so tired i went home n slept all the way today

~tired @_@

金曜日, 8月 12, 2005

omg!
my horoscope is how zhun today

Gemini:
Think about how much great stuff your body does for you every single day? Now the question is, what are you doing to take care of it? Are you eating right? Exercising? Getting enough sleep?

omg... the 3 chronic problems i haf now
im so stagnant tt i tink i can breed mosquito larva alreadi

n reading Life! at 145am on a sch day issnt the smartest thing to do oso la..

natsumatsuri!! 20/8 6pm

水曜日, 8月 10, 2005

i tink i m realli q stressed abt sch
3rd day into sch and my kogepan file is getting so fat it cud burst..
sigh
but had q a gd lesson at frs today haha the 2 TAs q funni.. or sometimes they tink they funni la
but they teach mi q abit.. learnt advanced n grand master course in pipetting altho last min failed at the final step
coz the sensei nvm teach mi or i stupid never press until no2 pressure pt b4 sucking liquid up.. wa q stressed got alot of things to settle sianz

火曜日, 8月 09, 2005


national day! Posted by Picasa
well jus finished watching the national day parade on tv.. ahha
i mus say i like national days celebration!! esp in sch last time.. like i always had alot of fun in rj n rgs n pri sch.. but i still rank chinese new yr celebration as my no1 fave celebrations la.. all the way bk to jsps hee :D

月曜日, 8月 08, 2005

had a late night last night
so i was so tired n zonked out today.. even at the the jap immersion meetg.. haah my brian wasnt realli functioning..
but aft i met peilin we had a good chat n lunch together, had a nice time

sounds my horoscope today - Gemini:
Communication may start out a little rocky, but keep your cool and, by mid-afternoon, you'll have your old gift of gab back - and then some. Hold off on big negotiations until then.

b4 i hitched a ride frm my bro home..
i was so tired i fell asleep when i got bk
n i had the weirdest of dreams..
i cud remembr more when i jus woke up but aft a dinner and tv i cudnt rem tt much
but vividly i jus rem
i was digging my own eyeball out
walau
i stick like 2 fingers in
then i got it out
no blood leh
onli the back of the eyeball felt sticky sticky macam like meshed out rice.. i was even like even separating my fingers slowly n feelg the sticky feelg
haa
then i was q scared n i put it bk into the hollow
then i regain my vision leh.. altho abit blur..
i blink blink until it got clearer... then i tink i woke up
haha the blur vision is the kind u get when u jus wake up wearing ur contacts n ur contacts r v dry..

wat a scary n vivid dream sia
i dunnoe y i get this kind of gross n hurting pple kinda dreams these days
mayb i m stressed subconsciously abt sch starting haa?
when i told my mama my dream
she tellg mi coz we cut dead pple until we super immune to body parts removal.. then going bk to sch triggered it off, like got mi tinkg abt it
but i told her i dont tink so la..
hmm

日曜日, 8月 07, 2005

haha saying tt "i wish there were more"- reminded mi of lincoln 3 echo in the island tho
well got down to reading n linkg up to laoxu's blog again..
seeing what she writes, what she posts, i had a weird feelg
not sure it i can but it down accurately in words..
in 3F last time, i always get a chance to talk to her, look at her drawings, sketches, hear her sing n stuff. tink these r the things i miss after graduation..
she's v different frm other pple i noe
i mean we can tok cock together
but there's stuff tt she says or shows tt's v interlectually n visually stimulating (well its a compliment haha.. if u r reading this),
which makes mi feel n suddenly realise tt in the almost 2yrs aft i stepped out of jc, aft i left behind all tt, i kinda got suck into the mundanes of everiday life.. like getting super emotional n angsty over little things as if im 13 or sumthing
i dunnoe
tink laoxu always haf like a calming effect over mi :)
makes mi feel tt i'm q "dry"? like inside.. like i wish there were more 內涵 in mi?
erm jus a need to improve.. to feel up my mind my thinking w more colourful stuff
:)
~kinda like a wakeup call
n im thankful for tt..

ladies n black.. haah we bu yue er tong all turned up in black.. they r members i recuit into the yaya spinsterhood.. haa all ladies whu r swinging singles can join :) Posted by Picasa

mi n sangyu outside SAUKUR.. haa the thai restuarant.. i kop these pix off mo's blog but yea it was a fun nite... good food n damn siao n funni conversations
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well today is rather exciting i wud say
erm but considerg i woke up at 11.50am heh
i had tuition w the-girl-i-always-complain-abt
and i was so pleasantly surprised tt she did my hw! for once.. i was like hallelujah!
good for her.. hope she keeps up e gd work
if she does.. she's officially the chiruanbuchiying category of tuition kids haa

went out w mo n sangyu
found tt SAKURA is actualli a nice thai food place.. we didnt eat like realli v thai kinda THAI food la
but well the meegoreng, beef fried rice, crab vermicelli n tomyam soup was gd.. onli sent lik 7bucks k.. n i was so full n happi
haa
then went shoppg ard fareast until it closed b4 going home
had a good time
manage to catch up w laoxu n mo
jus like the gd old days in jc
lamentg how we miss jc days w classmates canteen uniform n stuff
i was q surprised at the beginning
coz aft not toking alot to sangyu for like almost a yr then suddenly shes bk then we can jus start toking like she never left..
i was abit taken aback at e beginning
and felt abit unnatural haa
but within like less than a min.. it was all; ok n natural alreadi haa
had a great time w them

i met a guy at rumbia lrt station at like 6+ when i left
he sat a sit away frm mi on the train
like theres an empty sit btw us
he then dropped at potong pasir

he was wearing a white polo T w a thick brown strip across
he's abt my height
dark w a chao bin
but he had on like a v old pair of sandles.. all faded n stuff
i was q bored so i was scrutinising everiones shoes..

on my way home
i met him again at sengkang mrt
then we took the same lrt again
n we got off at the same lrt stop
but at the control station i turn right n he turned left n tts it

wat a coincidence

aniway i dint jay walk at the junction in front of my house tonight, coz there was a kid standing beside mi
:)

i watched TWO OF US
this movie on ch5 by bruce willis n michelle pfeiffer
abt a married couple who's marriage is falling apart n they cant stand each other.

the last 5min of it the wife made like this whole long "speech" to the husband
abt like they r breaking up coz they cant stand each other but she says anione u b w ll haf traits u cant stand so y issit tt she cant try to accomodate?
then abt pple who stay together long enuff they haf a history
a history tt she dont wan to lose
she doesnt wan to not b able to share her kids stuff.. everi step n moment of their lives
jus like cities were built on top of other cities w time, but she doesnt wan to do tt

well i cant quote unquote too well
i onli noe i cried abit during tt part
haa
q shiok
hafnt cried like for a movie in a whole
all these romantic shows.. they seem to haf alot of such movies in e 90s
w michelle pfeiffer, meg ryan, tom hank, bruce willis... these actresses n actors
always bring like tears of gandong to ur eyes
:)

i like the ch5 logo thingy tt they show at 11pm
its like the no. "5" is an empty container w water poured into it.. till the brim
v artistic
the feel of it is v nice n comfortable
mayb even comfortg
fill water to the brim :) - contended-ness

im sleepy alreadi

土曜日, 8月 06, 2005

well first day of sch aint tt bad..
gettg into the flow of things
met the gp going w mi to japan immersion.. w amanda jiayang jinxi dehan jianhong teresa..
hope it ll b fun..
:)
went over to help the rag pple in e aft..
didnt noe tt i can sew sequins on the watermelon costume for hrs
haha was sewing is one field of its own man
impressed tt alvin n chrisseet can use the sewg machine so well haa
seeing meifang n susan n the rest so busy busy.. glad to b of help altho i q benshoubenjiao
when i was in sec sch for one time i wanted to join like drama to b the back stage props/costume crew, coz it looks q fun
hAha guess i got a taste of it yest.. q fun la
hope everithing turn out well for them.. they realli put in alot of effort
the float was impressive too..

meetg sangyu & mo 2nite

oh 2 backtrack abit
went to dimsum buffet w py wa ate so much tt i cudnt walk n didnt eat ani other meal the whole day
haa it was q fun la..
then watched to island w serene
q an exciting show la.. altho the last scene was abit freaki.. coz the clones w their white suits escaping into the dessert-lookalike-place looked like aliens tt jus dropped down fro UFOs n landed on earth..
dunnoe wats my stand w UFOs tho.. hmm i q sure we r not alone
aniwae both serene n mi tink tt ewan mcgregor is cute haa
in serene's words: smart spikey hair..

n i watched lost in translation earlier tt morn
i like the whole characters claustrophobic feelg altho they r in the open
coz they surrounded by alien-language speaking japanese
but i dont realli get the ending
n bill murray look like scarlette johanson's dad so.. erm
lost in translation... literally? haa

木曜日, 8月 04, 2005


mi n xy airen Posted by Picasa

xian n carol Posted by Picasa

beng n mando Posted by Picasa

happi bdae carol! Posted by Picasa

us decorating a tree Posted by Picasa

us again :) Posted by Picasa

tug-of-war Posted by Picasa

hantu spotted! Posted by Picasa

mi n beng Posted by Picasa