oh guess waat
my mother sewed up tt
fucking
slit on the back of my shirt
without telling me
i snipped the thread off.
土曜日, 7月 30, 2005
today was q an exciting day, well i woke up abit late and didnt manage 2 hitch a ride on my dage's van to the mrt station coz i hafnt finish preparing to go out yet
but e sky was realli dark n i knew it was going to pour but then i still insist on finishg my stuff n asking my bro to go ahead w/o mi tinkg tt even if it rains later ~so wat.. i can make my own way to the lrt station haa
by e time i left my house at 12 i realize i was wrong
it was pouring lor
the drains were overflowing
and actualli sprouting out water
macam it choking lidat haa
abit like a geyser haa
as i was leaving the shelter my blk provided
i actualli saw a girl looking rather helplessly at the rain
so i tot if she was going to the lrt station we cud share the umbrella
altho my umbrella is pathetically small haa
i tot she looked malay but she turned out to b chinese
jus a nicelytanned one
she kinda needed a cab to go to harbour front
and i waited for the cab w her while sheltering her
so as we walked to the road both of us were half drenched alreadi..
i suddenly realize i cud actualli take a cab w her since she was heading towards NEL oso
so in the end we ended up getting in a cab to go kovan 2gether n then taking the train together until i dropped off at dhoby ghaut n she going on 2wards harbourfront..
i jus feel q surprised tt pple can jus meet lidat
2 total strangers aft spending half n hr 2gether
kinda got to noe each other abit more haa
like she germain 18 napoly...
and all tt
she jus a very friendly person tt looks v sweet n v jiantan lor
haa
so its kinda like a stranger/friend i met today
arrived at city hall mrt
w 3/4 of my shirt wet n soaked to the butt w my jeans.. freezing
went to eat subway w xian n carol..
then went to watch OT w xinyi xian carol crystal
it was rather entertaining
the mr black hilarious
mando is the best singer in the play :)
and it was v entertaining la.. haa
stuff like "suck my sock" walaooo
haa
mc was rather funni as well doing a honkie accent
then there was serena n jean n ruxin:)
i tink it was all good fun
altho i didnt q get the ending haa
we went off to a nice q cafe for dinner n felt for icecream n a drinks at 7-11
haa
i always enjoy the judo pples company
we jus tokcock alot of the time
n discuss abt carol bdae celeb
n tok tok tok lor
e 2 gps of pple tt im realli closer to
r gang n judogals
^__^
we r all different yet alike in some ways haa
then jus came bk frm tauhuay session w xian n xinyi
selegie tauhuay at upper serangoon rd
i tink i got rheumatism
coz my clothes were damp the whole afternoon
then my left shoulder left upper arm n left knee actualli felt v suan
wa sianzz..
n toking to xinyi n xian i realize tt my fam realli treat mi too well
n my attitude towards my parents n bros realli abit sucky sumtimes
shit
i better watch my own attitude sia
sigh
im feelg cold again
but e sky was realli dark n i knew it was going to pour but then i still insist on finishg my stuff n asking my bro to go ahead w/o mi tinkg tt even if it rains later ~so wat.. i can make my own way to the lrt station haa
by e time i left my house at 12 i realize i was wrong
it was pouring lor
the drains were overflowing
and actualli sprouting out water
macam it choking lidat haa
abit like a geyser haa
as i was leaving the shelter my blk provided
i actualli saw a girl looking rather helplessly at the rain
so i tot if she was going to the lrt station we cud share the umbrella
altho my umbrella is pathetically small haa
i tot she looked malay but she turned out to b chinese
jus a nicelytanned one
she kinda needed a cab to go to harbour front
and i waited for the cab w her while sheltering her
so as we walked to the road both of us were half drenched alreadi..
i suddenly realize i cud actualli take a cab w her since she was heading towards NEL oso
so in the end we ended up getting in a cab to go kovan 2gether n then taking the train together until i dropped off at dhoby ghaut n she going on 2wards harbourfront..
i jus feel q surprised tt pple can jus meet lidat
2 total strangers aft spending half n hr 2gether
kinda got to noe each other abit more haa
like she germain 18 napoly...
and all tt
she jus a very friendly person tt looks v sweet n v jiantan lor
haa
so its kinda like a stranger/friend i met today
arrived at city hall mrt
w 3/4 of my shirt wet n soaked to the butt w my jeans.. freezing
went to eat subway w xian n carol..
then went to watch OT w xinyi xian carol crystal
it was rather entertaining
the mr black hilarious
mando is the best singer in the play :)
and it was v entertaining la.. haa
stuff like "suck my sock" walaooo
haa
mc was rather funni as well doing a honkie accent
then there was serena n jean n ruxin:)
i tink it was all good fun
altho i didnt q get the ending haa
we went off to a nice q cafe for dinner n felt for icecream n a drinks at 7-11
haa
i always enjoy the judo pples company
we jus tokcock alot of the time
n discuss abt carol bdae celeb
n tok tok tok lor
e 2 gps of pple tt im realli closer to
r gang n judogals
^__^
we r all different yet alike in some ways haa
then jus came bk frm tauhuay session w xian n xinyi
selegie tauhuay at upper serangoon rd
i tink i got rheumatism
coz my clothes were damp the whole afternoon
then my left shoulder left upper arm n left knee actualli felt v suan
wa sianzz..
n toking to xinyi n xian i realize tt my fam realli treat mi too well
n my attitude towards my parents n bros realli abit sucky sumtimes
shit
i better watch my own attitude sia
sigh
im feelg cold again
金曜日, 7月 29, 2005
yesterday i had my sing to e dawn kbox session w mel beng jianrenlian n xinyi
this is e 3rd time kbox is earning money frm mi within a wk walao
but for 15buck i sang frm 830pm - 2am
q hua rite
aniway i had a goood time
not as if i can actualli sing but who cares rite haa sing until i shuang can alreadi
n got my hair cut
as usual my mama tinks its qiyide faxing
O_o"
watever
slptover at bengs house...
finally fell asleep at 4+am n woke up at abt 8
its a miracle im still awake now waiting for my tuition kid to cum at 7
GEMINI: 22may-22jul
We're all occassionally to take a break from the world. It's your turn, but your loved ones aren't used to this, so they might worry. Before you set about hibernating in earnest, reassure them. It's onli fair.
-well, too late haa
all these self fulfiling prophecies~?
i watched e Superstar performances n results tt my mama taped for mi jus now
walao how can the jason kick out the pseudokorean star who's 1.8m
my kinda my fav i tink
so it onli makes mi dislike the jason more
so poor thing
he got the sei- i tink
well when he cried i oso cry haa
dunnoe for wat
but it feels good
hafnt cried in a while.. not even aft i watch 3 whole drama serials frm korean n taiwan a few wks bk so haa
mayb im lucki
the onli thing tt makes mi cry these days is tv or books.. ha
the sun is superbright now
setting soon i guess
but the blue sky has grey clouds..
今夜 雨が降るかな-？
this is e 3rd time kbox is earning money frm mi within a wk walao
but for 15buck i sang frm 830pm - 2am
q hua rite
aniway i had a goood time
not as if i can actualli sing but who cares rite haa sing until i shuang can alreadi
n got my hair cut
as usual my mama tinks its qiyide faxing
O_o"
watever
slptover at bengs house...
finally fell asleep at 4+am n woke up at abt 8
its a miracle im still awake now waiting for my tuition kid to cum at 7
GEMINI: 22may-22jul
We're all occassionally to take a break from the world. It's your turn, but your loved ones aren't used to this, so they might worry. Before you set about hibernating in earnest, reassure them. It's onli fair.
-well, too late haa
all these self fulfiling prophecies~?
i watched e Superstar performances n results tt my mama taped for mi jus now
walao how can the jason kick out the pseudokorean star who's 1.8m
my kinda my fav i tink
so it onli makes mi dislike the jason more
so poor thing
he got the sei- i tink
well when he cried i oso cry haa
dunnoe for wat
but it feels good
hafnt cried in a while.. not even aft i watch 3 whole drama serials frm korean n taiwan a few wks bk so haa
mayb im lucki
the onli thing tt makes mi cry these days is tv or books.. ha
the sun is superbright now
setting soon i guess
but the blue sky has grey clouds..
今夜 雨が降るかな-？
木曜日, 7月 28, 2005
oh forgot to mention tuesday morning
its rather weird
its drizzling n im suppose to meet caleb to collect his laptop so my dad dropped me off at bouna vista mrt at abt 715am
looking at all the acjc pple cuming down the escalator wear windbreakers n stuff reminded mi so much of sch days
well im one of the lucky pple who get ferried to sch so rain or shine it never taunted mi.. onli had to get a few drops of rain frm the carpark until i make it thru the bkgate b4 the sheltered pathway is there to shelter mi frm rain
but its tis rainy morning tt suddenly zap mi bk to the memories of jc
i usualli dont wake up so earli these days
n even in nus it feels different
but tt day at tt exact moment i was zapped bk to jc days
n i stood there like a third person watching pple pass mi by
i feel abit detached
but it felt like i was bk in jc times again
even felt a teeny bit weird tt i wasnt in sch uniform
its this kind of rainy mornings tt always remind mi of sch
in pri sch my mama ll take mi to sch w the umbrella in slippers
then we ll go to e reading corner in under the stairs in front of the girls toilet
the she'll wipe my feet dry n put on my socks n shoes for mi
in rgs i rem the 6+ morning feelg where we go to sch
the canteen in the morning if its cold there'll b pple eating breakfast n stuff
rj in the morn i seldom go canteen unless go celeb pples bdae
usually in lt3 i tink
sleeping
haa
or toking to serene py peishan
doing hw
haa
sch days
mayb coz schs startg la huh
oh but the pple at bouna vista realli weird
there was a super long queue frm e yellow box in front of the control station stretching out to the back of the ticketing booth until it curls ard the booth onto the other side
the head of the queue is a indian man giving out TODAY
i was like huh??!?!
i even went to join to queue to go get the papers lor
but compared to my raffles place days
cum on la whu queues for today jus swamp ard the booth n u ll b handed a copy wat or grab it urself la
this orderly queue not super effective oso mah
n the pple getting the newspaper prob wont cause a stampede la
dont noe if e queue's gd or not but there was definitely no queue up 95 haa
while waiting for caleb
i read tt pple think they sighted UFOs in mexicos
?
i dont noe where i stand w UFOs
hmm
anyway War of the Worlds has a sucky ending
but it was q a nice scary show
w like ppl sucked into the space ship like things w legs n then squashed like fruits n then the blood like orange juice like tt sprayed out frm the machine macam like fertiliser for plants released frm aircrafts
walau
i wonder where s the pulp
n pple zapped n vaporized into dust...
indeed ashes to ashes, dust to dust huh
its rather weird
its drizzling n im suppose to meet caleb to collect his laptop so my dad dropped me off at bouna vista mrt at abt 715am
looking at all the acjc pple cuming down the escalator wear windbreakers n stuff reminded mi so much of sch days
well im one of the lucky pple who get ferried to sch so rain or shine it never taunted mi.. onli had to get a few drops of rain frm the carpark until i make it thru the bkgate b4 the sheltered pathway is there to shelter mi frm rain
but its tis rainy morning tt suddenly zap mi bk to the memories of jc
i usualli dont wake up so earli these days
n even in nus it feels different
but tt day at tt exact moment i was zapped bk to jc days
n i stood there like a third person watching pple pass mi by
i feel abit detached
but it felt like i was bk in jc times again
even felt a teeny bit weird tt i wasnt in sch uniform
its this kind of rainy mornings tt always remind mi of sch
in pri sch my mama ll take mi to sch w the umbrella in slippers
then we ll go to e reading corner in under the stairs in front of the girls toilet
the she'll wipe my feet dry n put on my socks n shoes for mi
in rgs i rem the 6+ morning feelg where we go to sch
the canteen in the morning if its cold there'll b pple eating breakfast n stuff
rj in the morn i seldom go canteen unless go celeb pples bdae
usually in lt3 i tink
sleeping
haa
or toking to serene py peishan
doing hw
haa
sch days
mayb coz schs startg la huh
oh but the pple at bouna vista realli weird
there was a super long queue frm e yellow box in front of the control station stretching out to the back of the ticketing booth until it curls ard the booth onto the other side
the head of the queue is a indian man giving out TODAY
i was like huh??!?!
i even went to join to queue to go get the papers lor
but compared to my raffles place days
cum on la whu queues for today jus swamp ard the booth n u ll b handed a copy wat or grab it urself la
this orderly queue not super effective oso mah
n the pple getting the newspaper prob wont cause a stampede la
dont noe if e queue's gd or not but there was definitely no queue up 95 haa
while waiting for caleb
i read tt pple think they sighted UFOs in mexicos
?
i dont noe where i stand w UFOs
hmm
anyway War of the Worlds has a sucky ending
but it was q a nice scary show
w like ppl sucked into the space ship like things w legs n then squashed like fruits n then the blood like orange juice like tt sprayed out frm the machine macam like fertiliser for plants released frm aircrafts
walau
i wonder where s the pulp
n pple zapped n vaporized into dust...
indeed ashes to ashes, dust to dust huh
re·lin·quish (r-lngkwsh)
tr.v. re·lin·quished, re·lin·quish·ing, re·lin·quish·es
1. To retire from; give up or abandon.
2. To put aside or desist from (something practiced, professed, or intended).
3. To let go; surrender.
4. To cease holding physically; release: relinquish a grip.
[Middle English relinquisshen, from Old French relinquir, relinquiss-, from Latin relinquere : re-, re- + linquere, to leave; see leikw- in Indo-European roots.]
re·linquish·er n.
re·linquish·ment n.
Synonyms: relinquish, yield, resign, abandon, surrender, cede, waive, renounce
These verbs mean letting something go or giving something up.
Relinquish, the least specific, may connote regret: can't relinquish the idea.
Yield implies giving way, as to pressure, often in the hope that such action will be temporary: had to yield ground.
Resign suggests formal relinquishing (resigned their claim to my land) or acquiescence arising from hopelessness (resigned himself to forgoing his vacation).
Abandon and surrender both imply no expectation of recovering what is given up; surrender also implies the operation of compulsion or force: abandoned all hope for a resolution; surrendered control of the company.
Cede connotes formal transfer, as of territory: ceded the province to the victorious nation.
Waive implies a voluntary decision to dispense with something, such as a right: waived all privileges.
To renounce is to relinquish formally and usually as a matter of principle: renounced worldly goods.
tr.v. re·lin·quished, re·lin·quish·ing, re·lin·quish·es
1. To retire from; give up or abandon.
2. To put aside or desist from (something practiced, professed, or intended).
3. To let go; surrender.
4. To cease holding physically; release: relinquish a grip.
[Middle English relinquisshen, from Old French relinquir, relinquiss-, from Latin relinquere : re-, re- + linquere, to leave; see leikw- in Indo-European roots.]
re·linquish·er n.
re·linquish·ment n.
Synonyms: relinquish, yield, resign, abandon, surrender, cede, waive, renounce
These verbs mean letting something go or giving something up.
Relinquish, the least specific, may connote regret: can't relinquish the idea.
Yield implies giving way, as to pressure, often in the hope that such action will be temporary: had to yield ground.
Resign suggests formal relinquishing (resigned their claim to my land) or acquiescence arising from hopelessness (resigned himself to forgoing his vacation).
Abandon and surrender both imply no expectation of recovering what is given up; surrender also implies the operation of compulsion or force: abandoned all hope for a resolution; surrendered control of the company.
Cede connotes formal transfer, as of territory: ceded the province to the victorious nation.
Waive implies a voluntary decision to dispense with something, such as a right: waived all privileges.
To renounce is to relinquish formally and usually as a matter of principle: renounced worldly goods.
a blind woman in nip tuck says
everione has a special sent
and each sent has 3 notes..
a high note, a middle note and a low note
the high note is wat they wan pple to perceive them as
the middle note is a buffer region where in btw where the high hides the bottom low
and the low note is wat pple wan to hide - wat they r afraid of - their true self
got such thing meh??
i tink its jus a line e story writer threw in to show tt Christian is not as bad as he looks
did Julia really get her breasts done for the show? hmm but got a huge difference meh
eh mayb
symmtry is excellent
sloping is natural haa - tts wat u get if ur husband is a comestic surgeon.
omg she jus walk thru a glass door n shattered it
got such great impact meh
i tot in tv they always walk into the glass then squash their nose n mouth onli?
hmm
aniway the song is abit freaky
everione has a special sent
and each sent has 3 notes..
a high note, a middle note and a low note
the high note is wat they wan pple to perceive them as
the middle note is a buffer region where in btw where the high hides the bottom low
and the low note is wat pple wan to hide - wat they r afraid of - their true self
got such thing meh??
i tink its jus a line e story writer threw in to show tt Christian is not as bad as he looks
did Julia really get her breasts done for the show? hmm but got a huge difference meh
eh mayb
symmtry is excellent
sloping is natural haa - tts wat u get if ur husband is a comestic surgeon.
omg she jus walk thru a glass door n shattered it
got such great impact meh
i tot in tv they always walk into the glass then squash their nose n mouth onli?
hmm
aniway the song is abit freaky
水曜日, 7月 27, 2005
well aft such a negative post hmm
gotta say tt im feelg much better these days..
my wkend was v enjoyable haa
went to huays uncles house to celeb her dage's bdae
well b4 tt we even went to xuan xigua n strawberries to bring there as a hallo hallo gift
the xigua tt day at bishan ntuc wasnt too good
onli manage to pick one tt sounded nice we tapped haaa
at the house as usual theres like super sumputous dinner
n i got to see huays other bros close up coz usualli its like a glancce at her house until cant realli recog them
we like abitabit extra haa singing all the oldies karaoke tt belongs to her dage haa
then even going to sing song n cut cake haa
abit happi family plus 3frens kinda feeling haa
but the highlight of the nite was o coz the 2 boys
ryan n jason
so cute.. them swimming w all the other adults as audience
haa
n we went kbox thru the nite
damn fun.. got to sing our hearts out sia
n i got to try singing alone n staying in the rm alone haa
coz huay n serene went to put coupon then i sing taoze's melody alone..
no fun AT ALL
haa
last time i always visualize mi going to kox if i feel shitty to sing haa
but aft tt day i tink no la
not therapeutic at all n no fun.. sianzz
aniway we had alot of fun n went to huays place to stay over
huays erge kept asking qn over the hp when i ans as huay was driving
walao he dont ans my "whu r u" qn but kept asking alot of qn lor tsk
haa
but serene n huay watched videos n south park thruout the nite while i rest my eyes n fell asleep
haa
we woke up like 1pm i tink
haa
wa then mop ard her house n went to cgh n reach home at 4...
wat a way to spend sunday
cant rem wat i do on monday le la..
tink mop ard until tuition lor n pack my rm..
tues was damn tiring
matric got to c all the m1s
got some daogia.. shit her la
but the rest r generally q nice n sincere
so not so bad..
n went over to help float
did some mindnumbing job of pasting can-shreds on the float
wa super time consuming
but the general feelg was q sluggish le
hmm like abit sian.. but went ginza to shop of dinner w my yunnan pple
haa
i always wonder y i still go to bs
i tink coz i enjoy their company ba
they r realli nice n i enjoy nua-ing w them haa
n jing w the girls help whipped up dinner in an hr.., the salad n macoronee is realli nice
i got home w an eye infection tho
haa
got alot of bak-sia aka eye shit
oh well discharge coz of infection cuming out frm my right eye
better throw away tt contact soon
but slpt super alot
wa frm like1am to noon woke up for lunch then slpt again till like3
walao
haa
had a recurrent dream today..
i was in a foreign land.. for a purpose tt i cant rem
i met melissa there, erm my 209 classmate haa i tink tts kinda coz i met her yesterday
then i saw this clock kinda thing it ll open up n turn turn until it shows another design
the place is abit dark
but i cant place which country.. prob someplace i hafnt been to.. rome? haa
im there for.. hmm
i realli cant rem
but e thing is tt i had it when i went bk to slp aft 8am to noon then aft lunch it continued haa
aniway went i tell my mama
she was q freak haa she tot i had a nightmare
well i didnt
n she tot tt jus cause i opened my umbrella in my rm last nite to dry
she tink its no gd to open unbrellas in rm coz hantus hide in them?
hmm
i mean the eye10 says tt one of the jian gui ways is to open umbrella indoors haa
wa now she got mi abit spooked to stay in my rm
but well i survived the day b4 she told mi alone at home.. ok w a slping brother
haa tmr is another long day alone
so well
i shall jus enjoy my me-time
i tink i slp too much
but e slp is doing mi good la
feelg rested n less irritated
watchign nip/tuck now
haa
tmr theres sing to the dawn kbox session w xinyi beng mel
n gettg my hair cut haa
the longest tiny pony tail i had in a while. haa
gotta say tt im feelg much better these days..
my wkend was v enjoyable haa
went to huays uncles house to celeb her dage's bdae
well b4 tt we even went to xuan xigua n strawberries to bring there as a hallo hallo gift
the xigua tt day at bishan ntuc wasnt too good
onli manage to pick one tt sounded nice we tapped haaa
at the house as usual theres like super sumputous dinner
n i got to see huays other bros close up coz usualli its like a glancce at her house until cant realli recog them
we like abitabit extra haa singing all the oldies karaoke tt belongs to her dage haa
then even going to sing song n cut cake haa
abit happi family plus 3frens kinda feeling haa
but the highlight of the nite was o coz the 2 boys
ryan n jason
so cute.. them swimming w all the other adults as audience
haa
n we went kbox thru the nite
damn fun.. got to sing our hearts out sia
n i got to try singing alone n staying in the rm alone haa
coz huay n serene went to put coupon then i sing taoze's melody alone..
no fun AT ALL
haa
last time i always visualize mi going to kox if i feel shitty to sing haa
but aft tt day i tink no la
not therapeutic at all n no fun.. sianzz
aniway we had alot of fun n went to huays place to stay over
huays erge kept asking qn over the hp when i ans as huay was driving
walao he dont ans my "whu r u" qn but kept asking alot of qn lor tsk
haa
but serene n huay watched videos n south park thruout the nite while i rest my eyes n fell asleep
haa
we woke up like 1pm i tink
haa
wa then mop ard her house n went to cgh n reach home at 4...
wat a way to spend sunday
cant rem wat i do on monday le la..
tink mop ard until tuition lor n pack my rm..
tues was damn tiring
matric got to c all the m1s
got some daogia.. shit her la
but the rest r generally q nice n sincere
so not so bad..
n went over to help float
did some mindnumbing job of pasting can-shreds on the float
wa super time consuming
but the general feelg was q sluggish le
hmm like abit sian.. but went ginza to shop of dinner w my yunnan pple
haa
i always wonder y i still go to bs
i tink coz i enjoy their company ba
they r realli nice n i enjoy nua-ing w them haa
n jing w the girls help whipped up dinner in an hr.., the salad n macoronee is realli nice
i got home w an eye infection tho
haa
got alot of bak-sia aka eye shit
oh well discharge coz of infection cuming out frm my right eye
better throw away tt contact soon
but slpt super alot
wa frm like1am to noon woke up for lunch then slpt again till like3
walao
haa
had a recurrent dream today..
i was in a foreign land.. for a purpose tt i cant rem
i met melissa there, erm my 209 classmate haa i tink tts kinda coz i met her yesterday
then i saw this clock kinda thing it ll open up n turn turn until it shows another design
the place is abit dark
but i cant place which country.. prob someplace i hafnt been to.. rome? haa
im there for.. hmm
i realli cant rem
but e thing is tt i had it when i went bk to slp aft 8am to noon then aft lunch it continued haa
aniway went i tell my mama
she was q freak haa she tot i had a nightmare
well i didnt
n she tot tt jus cause i opened my umbrella in my rm last nite to dry
she tink its no gd to open unbrellas in rm coz hantus hide in them?
hmm
i mean the eye10 says tt one of the jian gui ways is to open umbrella indoors haa
wa now she got mi abit spooked to stay in my rm
but well i survived the day b4 she told mi alone at home.. ok w a slping brother
haa tmr is another long day alone
so well
i shall jus enjoy my me-time
i tink i slp too much
but e slp is doing mi good la
feelg rested n less irritated
watchign nip/tuck now
haa
tmr theres sing to the dawn kbox session w xinyi beng mel
n gettg my hair cut haa
the longest tiny pony tail i had in a while. haa
土曜日, 7月 23, 2005
wat a weird day
my day started bad n it ended bad
but i had a great day in btw
im in a super bad mood now
pui
-angry tt i gave my parents sum sucky shitty attitude again
-angry w myself, always waiting when wkend cums. shit.
i tink i noe wat can put an end to it.. but im waiting for tt chance too
-angry w sumone
nothing impt jus bad vibes
-angry tt i put on alot of weight this hols
-angry i got zits on my forehead, so mani leh macam like during exams
-angry tt i noe my weird sleeping hrs r causing e zits but im still awake n typing at 1am+
-angry for being so childish n being angry
-angry tt sometime in e day i said sumthing i felt came out wrong. i hate this. things tt i say usualli dont cum out the way i mean it, n the sickening thing is i tok so much n then the probability of tt happening is usually high
life's a contradiction man. or a vicious cycle. wat-ever
*jus tok to xinyiairen hah feelg abit better
n playing jaychou cd trying to cheer myself up w it
dunnoe if it still works animore?
i was angry this morn
-angry tt i woke up late at 945. when i planned to leave the house
-angry w my dage coz he promise to send mi to potong pasir budden he made mi wait at the carpark for lik 15min until watever time i cud save frm his ride is gone
-angry tt i had to wait until i kicked his bumper
but i didnt fabiqi coz i noe he's already doing mi a favor
n i realized he was preparing frm work n had to bathe n stuff, coz i tot today he aft shift then he relaxing the morn away still make mi wait
well im glad i didnt b a bitch abt it
i jus took a deep breath
hop onto the van
onli started to talk aft i swallowed all the bad n accusing words tt were abt to cum out
i meant like jus swallow them in
but it felt q bad for a while
n im pissed off tt i cudnt do e same to my parents n my attitude is bad again.
mayb i shud train until bad things jus dont cum out by reflex even at home.
im damn well train w frens n strangers coz i jus swallow all the sinsiter spiteful words when they r at the tip of the tongue
then at home i take family for granted n anithing i bushuang then i jus blast at them
which sounds hypocritical
but its not
coz i didnt planned it
but its jus lidat
i tink i shud build tt front for everione
haha but i tink eventually i might jus swallow myself up
everithing tt cums out becomes mild n harmless? haha
we'll see
-n i got a feelg ani fren reading this ll tink im scary again.
O_o"
well if i realli eventually become a v even tempered person to everione mayb writing it might b the onli way to vent
all this bottling is increasing BP sia scarli i become hypertensive
on a lighter note
i had alot of fun today
w the judo gals
klunch was fun, hafnt ktv for ages
as usual in my company there's someone the hamsup staff is interested to noe :p
went to shop n bought a pair of 3/4 jeans tt fit q well n i like so happiness
saw another bag tt interest mi slightly but its 49 so forget it
met huiyi n had dinner at galilee(?spellg)
-my fav jay song track 6 is playing now-
super worth it 5.90 n the foods nice! where the old lips cafe was w nice big windows n super comfy furniture
hang out there n nua w them.. was so comfy we didnt wan to move
i enjoy their company :D
went esplanade n the upstairs there is realli nice n windy w a full moon n bright lights frm all the tall buildings
went home aft tt
-im too nua
but if i dont nua now when else rite
-im not too gd a tutor i tink
i feel tt i cud do better but sometimes feel abit inadequate
n these days when sometimes i need to explain the qn mani mani times ill lose my patience
i noe the tone of my voice shows it altho i ll breathe n curb it
i never scold them but i dislike my own impatience w my kids
tuition was somthing i didnt mind last time
but sometimes these days its a chore
when i dwell n complain means it irritates mi
but y does it irritate mi so much
of coz the kids bad attitude is a factor
but i also think my patience thinning is a factor too
but i dont like it
im always unhappi at being unhappi
wat kind of shit is tt
n i cant stop tutoring aniway
coz im trying to wean off my parents - i eat sai if i dont earn $ lor
like i always say
but argh im q pissed off la these days
it comes in bouts then i can b realli happi too
shud i blame it to perpectual tiredness n lack of slp?
i better go slp now.
my day started bad n it ended bad
but i had a great day in btw
im in a super bad mood now
pui
-angry tt i gave my parents sum sucky shitty attitude again
-angry w myself, always waiting when wkend cums. shit.
i tink i noe wat can put an end to it.. but im waiting for tt chance too
-angry w sumone
nothing impt jus bad vibes
-angry tt i put on alot of weight this hols
-angry i got zits on my forehead, so mani leh macam like during exams
-angry tt i noe my weird sleeping hrs r causing e zits but im still awake n typing at 1am+
-angry for being so childish n being angry
-angry tt sometime in e day i said sumthing i felt came out wrong. i hate this. things tt i say usualli dont cum out the way i mean it, n the sickening thing is i tok so much n then the probability of tt happening is usually high
life's a contradiction man. or a vicious cycle. wat-ever
*jus tok to xinyiairen hah feelg abit better
n playing jaychou cd trying to cheer myself up w it
dunnoe if it still works animore?
i was angry this morn
-angry tt i woke up late at 945. when i planned to leave the house
-angry w my dage coz he promise to send mi to potong pasir budden he made mi wait at the carpark for lik 15min until watever time i cud save frm his ride is gone
-angry tt i had to wait until i kicked his bumper
but i didnt fabiqi coz i noe he's already doing mi a favor
n i realized he was preparing frm work n had to bathe n stuff, coz i tot today he aft shift then he relaxing the morn away still make mi wait
well im glad i didnt b a bitch abt it
i jus took a deep breath
hop onto the van
onli started to talk aft i swallowed all the bad n accusing words tt were abt to cum out
i meant like jus swallow them in
but it felt q bad for a while
n im pissed off tt i cudnt do e same to my parents n my attitude is bad again.
mayb i shud train until bad things jus dont cum out by reflex even at home.
im damn well train w frens n strangers coz i jus swallow all the sinsiter spiteful words when they r at the tip of the tongue
then at home i take family for granted n anithing i bushuang then i jus blast at them
which sounds hypocritical
but its not
coz i didnt planned it
but its jus lidat
i tink i shud build tt front for everione
haha but i tink eventually i might jus swallow myself up
everithing tt cums out becomes mild n harmless? haha
we'll see
-n i got a feelg ani fren reading this ll tink im scary again.
O_o"
well if i realli eventually become a v even tempered person to everione mayb writing it might b the onli way to vent
all this bottling is increasing BP sia scarli i become hypertensive
on a lighter note
i had alot of fun today
w the judo gals
klunch was fun, hafnt ktv for ages
as usual in my company there's someone the hamsup staff is interested to noe :p
went to shop n bought a pair of 3/4 jeans tt fit q well n i like so happiness
saw another bag tt interest mi slightly but its 49 so forget it
met huiyi n had dinner at galilee(?spellg)
-my fav jay song track 6 is playing now-
super worth it 5.90 n the foods nice! where the old lips cafe was w nice big windows n super comfy furniture
hang out there n nua w them.. was so comfy we didnt wan to move
i enjoy their company :D
went esplanade n the upstairs there is realli nice n windy w a full moon n bright lights frm all the tall buildings
went home aft tt
-im too nua
but if i dont nua now when else rite
-im not too gd a tutor i tink
i feel tt i cud do better but sometimes feel abit inadequate
n these days when sometimes i need to explain the qn mani mani times ill lose my patience
i noe the tone of my voice shows it altho i ll breathe n curb it
i never scold them but i dislike my own impatience w my kids
tuition was somthing i didnt mind last time
but sometimes these days its a chore
when i dwell n complain means it irritates mi
but y does it irritate mi so much
of coz the kids bad attitude is a factor
but i also think my patience thinning is a factor too
but i dont like it
im always unhappi at being unhappi
wat kind of shit is tt
n i cant stop tutoring aniway
coz im trying to wean off my parents - i eat sai if i dont earn $ lor
like i always say
but argh im q pissed off la these days
it comes in bouts then i can b realli happi too
shud i blame it to perpectual tiredness n lack of slp?
i better go slp now.
金曜日, 7月 22, 2005
ok finally rested abit n calmed my nerves..
i had a super exciting day
well most of the excitment came in the night tho haah
slpt for 4hrs n woke up earli in the morn to take 156 to assisi hospice where suppose to meet py n ny to go take a look n settle the volunteer stuff
the coordinator geraldine is really nice
n we got to tour the wards abit
they only take in cancer patients but oso offer day care service for adults n kids who r sick i guess
found myself doing tt thing i always do b4 i step into a ward
i'll take a deep breathe to brace myself against wat is to come
wat is to be seen n wat is to be felt
it strengthens mi frm within i guess like when pple try to put on a brave front
i do tt b4 i go on long driving expeditions like wat i did tonight oso haa
well visited the plc
met caleb
then mi n py went off to a realli interesting KFC at tpy
it was run by deaf pple n i tink its a very good concept
the staff was nice n it was a new experience for mi i guess
communication w/o spoke lang was pleasantly surprisingly ok :D
helped py w the phamplet
was the outline of yunnan can squirt blood sia trying to get one tt fits
but hope its almost done
die hafnt edit angels ppt yet :P do it tmr nite la
then i met xy beng pofun for shopping!
bought this lime green halter
dont ask mi y
the epitome of peer pressurehaha but beng promise to wear w mi
its the same colour as tt giordanon doggy tshirt la.. the one i wore to jay's concert n told carol to pretend it's jay chou's face
shopped abit n bought Mystic Rivers!
reading the bk half way
i tink the description in there is really not too bad
coz it propelled mi to buy the vcd i watch to check out if the casting pple did a great job n if the actors cud fulfil the image of them in my head
~waiting in anticipation
i'll prob onli watch it aft i finish e bk
so as not to spoil the fun
then mama say im suppose to go drive my bro's black peugeot home
coz it's parked at ahk's house n they going into m'sia tmr so ani one can use it when we wan la
n haha i told me pofun xian beng
n it got them so excited tt they wanted an adventure
-me sending them home one by one......
haha
its was a freaking long journey
more than 1.5hrs i tink
i picked up the van frm bishan mrt n drove my bro bk to his gf's house
to testing..
coz i never drove tt darn van b4
i always tell mi to let mi try but always didnt get the chance
n who noes the first time im driving it is to drive w/o my bro to save mi??!!??!
n when the car was cranky n needs servicing
something dropped into the aircon i tink.. mayb a piece of paper
now the car is damn noisy n rattles when u turn on the air con
n so he told mi to turn up the radio to mask the noise? haha
well it was so loud i cudnt realli hear the tingting sound when i was speeding la
n the aircon can onli turn on small small so kelian those ladies at the back haha
oh well i went into the usual hysterical fits tt i usually go into when i haf to drive alot of pple
i dont do it when i onli drive myself
coz the feelg of pple's life in ur hands is stressful
aha guess i haf to get used to it anihow
might as well b sooner rather than later..
so frm bishan off i went heading to BOONLAY
they directed mi n everithing was aok
until this part aft ri
im suppose to turn off to whitly road to go pie but the turn was on the right n i was on the extremely left lane
n i got confused when pofun said turn right i kept tinkg of going left haha
then jus before i cross the exit to the pt of no return i jus did a damn sharp turn to save my ass la
heng onli got one driver probably shaking his head at mi until his neck's loose or sumthing
n we had a prob
the oil tank was running LOW
but i manage to tahan until jurong east haha
then i turned into the oil station well firstly it was rather near the pump until i tink pofun tinks im going to hit it but i tink wont haha
then i ask the uncle help mi fill coz idunnoe how to open the tank.. need key to turn frm outside kind
but lagi best
the oil fillg site is on the right but the pump is on the right so i gotta reverse n go park on teh other side of the van..
jus when i was abt to do jus tt
i realize i cant turn the car keys
waa kao
i panicked i turn turn turn turn
it didnt move
then i hurry hurry call my bro
then he say relax check the wheel
e freaking steering wheel was locked!!
walau
he kept saying the phone asking mi to relax relax
in the end to unlock the wheel i jus got to step on the clutch n turn the wheel abitabit then can le
pls dont ask mi y the wheel lock ed itself
coz I DONT NOE!
heng the uncle at the station was q nice
n there was a lorry man who smiled.. coz i tink he q shocked im the driver haha
n when i had to squeeze btw his lorry+Him N another car
he kinda plastered himself on teh side of the lorry
tink he tink i might jus bulldoze him down or sumthing
but safely w pofun on the passenger seat we made it to her placE!
haha
her clear directions n w beng now on teh passenger's seat got us safely back on PIE
now we embark on the journey frm BOONLAY to PASIR RIS
haha
it was ok la expressway straight straight
so not so bad
the onli thing tt worrys mi si my astig is not corrected on one eye
n when i drive at night the headlights everithing blur blur i cant c very well scary
but on e way was not too bad
glad all my passengers felt safe haa
n cudnt go too fast too coz i scared mataa catch my speedy van
haha
n mi n xian discussed our plan to b fulfilled by this academic yr!
haha
hehe
soon.. well not so soon later
we reach bengs place n now xian got on to the passenger seat
everione sitting there get to hug the tigger's pink pig fren (wat's the name) the pillow my bro has
ani way
we came to e cross roads again haha
issit tpe(pie) or tpe(sle)
everitime i go home frm pasir ris
i haf the same prob walau eh
the last time i reversed in teh middle of the road w many cars charging towards mi was coz of the same qn tt i had no ans to
now i noe
its
TPE (SLE) to go home...
aniwae this time i slow till super slow.. no need to reverse tho heng 11+ barely ani cars
then we went off to tpe reached tampines road
wa super ulu
its the kinda plc u dont wan ur car to break down n ur hp to low batt la
the jungle road where no one ll cum safe u
scary
heng i had mel n xian company..
then i was saying filling the oil tank is like peeing b4 u drive
the sense of relief
n not the heart hanging in air kinda feeling where u scared ur bladder tingles or the oil light blink where there is no toilet or gas station in site
tt kinda feelg
then for a moment i tot i got to pee in the wild
wa pang tang sia..
aniwae w a few glitches we made it to xians house
not b4 i cudnt decide if the car going str was turning into the left most lane tt i can afford to turn oso n not b in danger..
walau i tink on tt my judgement is damn bad
i shud haf waited like 2sec more
but its always lidat when i drive..
\when teh car cuming far far ill hum dunnoe too fast for mi to turn right b4 he hits mi not
then ill wait
then when he's much nearer n i finally decide well it seems like his speed is slow enuff for mi to beat then ill jus turn..
usually when he's like super near already
walau then its damn dangerous...
shit la
either i gain enuff exp to judge it's cuming speed
or i jus b hum n wait abit more la
i do both but in the reverse order.
sianzz
but xian was ok
the mel joined the passenger seat
finally my tensed up nerve kinda relaxed abit
coz its sengkang n hougang
cum on
its my area
but i was WRONG.
well i had to drop mel off on the left side of the road sum where near her house aft a traffic light
i decided to fliter left aft the traffic light u c
so i did
aft i checked the side mirror tt theres no car there then i filter la
well i didnt check the rear mirror
coz tts wat i do.. i seldom check rear mirror when i drive can coz its too big aniway to c clearly
but i forgot to check my blind spot
n lo n behold
there is a blue van beside mi n i cut STRAIGHT INTO HIS PATH
walau damn close
he had to swere to avoid mi n he horned damn loudly
ok my fault
tink i finnaly to relax liao tot i finaaly reaching home
wa i was damn sorry la
but i tot no bang not so bad he wud jus drive away aft cursing mi in his car
so i jus stopped at the roadside infront of a busstop to drop mel off
BUt i WAS WRONg!
he actually drove beside mi n the moment i stopped his swerved his car right into my path n stopped
like his car slanting into my lane so tt i cant move aniwhere la
to block my path
to my freaking horror
he jumped out of his blue van n started scolding mi w alot of hand actions
something like " siao ar, u blind or wat"
wah
i was damn freak
i cud feel blood draining frm my face lor
like ROAD RAGE in realtime
he came like not v near but q near my van oso
i scared he bang on teh van lor
but he didnt
we jus gif a super apologetic face n kept saying "sorry sorry"
luckily at this moment the bus came frm behind
actualli i wasnt blocking e bus
it cud turn into the busstop but the blue van blocking mi was blocking the bus
so the man bohpian glare some one n jumped on n drove away../
wa i was scared lor
mel then dropped off n i was alone in teh car
i made sure tt the van ahead got onto the puggol flyover much ahead of mi coz i slowed down so tt he cudnt change his mind n cum crash my window w steel bars or sumthing
haha told beng abit
she say we judo no scared
but i tink i was
n its the kind u noe u r in e wrong then all the more cannot raise voice kinda feelg
n he loooked REALLLI angry
ii tink i wud lock the door reverse n drive off if he attaackes
n call mel to call mata
it was at the back of my head la.. until e bus came to my rescue
damnb heng
but dunnoe if i ll b too stunned not
well glad i never had to test myself
jus like e show mel n xian tellg mi abt wat u wud do in extreme scenarios..
if we always think thru such stuff we might survive n not die or b in less dangerous situations rite haha
whew n i drove slowly home
tried parking at 3b
but v narrow
n whil i was trying a car had to pass so didnt haf time to slowly so i drove up to 4a
n parked not too bad
but the scary thing was the car opposite had a man inside jus sitting there n kept looking over
dunnoe he getting a smoke or not but he jus didnt move n sat there n kept staring
i scared he cum out n mug mi sia coz over midnight le
but heng anothe car w 2 pple came to park so i hurry got off n left while they still in the car
so the man
if he were a criminal wont really attack mi la.
im back home
safe n sound
glad for the exp to drive long distances n my passengers felt steady n safe
onli me teh last exp.. hope she's not too traumatized
other than tt no stalling not much horning
i took a damn deep breath b4 i set off lor haha
hope everithing turns out good
n im glad i made it home
i was worried for my passenger coz i dont drive damn frequently n tt was the first time i driving tt black van n its dark at night n i dont noe the roads well
but all's well n tt's the most impt!
kbox tmr!
i had a super exciting day
well most of the excitment came in the night tho haah
slpt for 4hrs n woke up earli in the morn to take 156 to assisi hospice where suppose to meet py n ny to go take a look n settle the volunteer stuff
the coordinator geraldine is really nice
n we got to tour the wards abit
they only take in cancer patients but oso offer day care service for adults n kids who r sick i guess
found myself doing tt thing i always do b4 i step into a ward
i'll take a deep breathe to brace myself against wat is to come
wat is to be seen n wat is to be felt
it strengthens mi frm within i guess like when pple try to put on a brave front
i do tt b4 i go on long driving expeditions like wat i did tonight oso haa
well visited the plc
met caleb
then mi n py went off to a realli interesting KFC at tpy
it was run by deaf pple n i tink its a very good concept
the staff was nice n it was a new experience for mi i guess
communication w/o spoke lang was pleasantly surprisingly ok :D
helped py w the phamplet
was the outline of yunnan can squirt blood sia trying to get one tt fits
but hope its almost done
die hafnt edit angels ppt yet :P do it tmr nite la
then i met xy beng pofun for shopping!
bought this lime green halter
dont ask mi y
the epitome of peer pressurehaha but beng promise to wear w mi
its the same colour as tt giordanon doggy tshirt la.. the one i wore to jay's concert n told carol to pretend it's jay chou's face
shopped abit n bought Mystic Rivers!
reading the bk half way
i tink the description in there is really not too bad
coz it propelled mi to buy the vcd i watch to check out if the casting pple did a great job n if the actors cud fulfil the image of them in my head
~waiting in anticipation
i'll prob onli watch it aft i finish e bk
so as not to spoil the fun
then mama say im suppose to go drive my bro's black peugeot home
coz it's parked at ahk's house n they going into m'sia tmr so ani one can use it when we wan la
n haha i told me pofun xian beng
n it got them so excited tt they wanted an adventure
-me sending them home one by one......
haha
its was a freaking long journey
more than 1.5hrs i tink
i picked up the van frm bishan mrt n drove my bro bk to his gf's house
to testing..
coz i never drove tt darn van b4
i always tell mi to let mi try but always didnt get the chance
n who noes the first time im driving it is to drive w/o my bro to save mi??!!??!
n when the car was cranky n needs servicing
something dropped into the aircon i tink.. mayb a piece of paper
now the car is damn noisy n rattles when u turn on the air con
n so he told mi to turn up the radio to mask the noise? haha
well it was so loud i cudnt realli hear the tingting sound when i was speeding la
n the aircon can onli turn on small small so kelian those ladies at the back haha
oh well i went into the usual hysterical fits tt i usually go into when i haf to drive alot of pple
i dont do it when i onli drive myself
coz the feelg of pple's life in ur hands is stressful
aha guess i haf to get used to it anihow
might as well b sooner rather than later..
so frm bishan off i went heading to BOONLAY
they directed mi n everithing was aok
until this part aft ri
im suppose to turn off to whitly road to go pie but the turn was on the right n i was on the extremely left lane
n i got confused when pofun said turn right i kept tinkg of going left haha
then jus before i cross the exit to the pt of no return i jus did a damn sharp turn to save my ass la
heng onli got one driver probably shaking his head at mi until his neck's loose or sumthing
n we had a prob
the oil tank was running LOW
but i manage to tahan until jurong east haha
then i turned into the oil station well firstly it was rather near the pump until i tink pofun tinks im going to hit it but i tink wont haha
then i ask the uncle help mi fill coz idunnoe how to open the tank.. need key to turn frm outside kind
but lagi best
the oil fillg site is on the right but the pump is on the right so i gotta reverse n go park on teh other side of the van..
jus when i was abt to do jus tt
i realize i cant turn the car keys
waa kao
i panicked i turn turn turn turn
it didnt move
then i hurry hurry call my bro
then he say relax check the wheel
e freaking steering wheel was locked!!
walau
he kept saying the phone asking mi to relax relax
in the end to unlock the wheel i jus got to step on the clutch n turn the wheel abitabit then can le
pls dont ask mi y the wheel lock ed itself
coz I DONT NOE!
heng the uncle at the station was q nice
n there was a lorry man who smiled.. coz i tink he q shocked im the driver haha
n when i had to squeeze btw his lorry+Him N another car
he kinda plastered himself on teh side of the lorry
tink he tink i might jus bulldoze him down or sumthing
but safely w pofun on the passenger seat we made it to her placE!
haha
her clear directions n w beng now on teh passenger's seat got us safely back on PIE
now we embark on the journey frm BOONLAY to PASIR RIS
haha
it was ok la expressway straight straight
so not so bad
the onli thing tt worrys mi si my astig is not corrected on one eye
n when i drive at night the headlights everithing blur blur i cant c very well scary
but on e way was not too bad
glad all my passengers felt safe haa
n cudnt go too fast too coz i scared mataa catch my speedy van
haha
n mi n xian discussed our plan to b fulfilled by this academic yr!
haha
hehe
soon.. well not so soon later
we reach bengs place n now xian got on to the passenger seat
everione sitting there get to hug the tigger's pink pig fren (wat's the name) the pillow my bro has
ani way
we came to e cross roads again haha
issit tpe(pie) or tpe(sle)
everitime i go home frm pasir ris
i haf the same prob walau eh
the last time i reversed in teh middle of the road w many cars charging towards mi was coz of the same qn tt i had no ans to
now i noe
its
TPE (SLE) to go home...
aniwae this time i slow till super slow.. no need to reverse tho heng 11+ barely ani cars
then we went off to tpe reached tampines road
wa super ulu
its the kinda plc u dont wan ur car to break down n ur hp to low batt la
the jungle road where no one ll cum safe u
scary
heng i had mel n xian company..
then i was saying filling the oil tank is like peeing b4 u drive
the sense of relief
n not the heart hanging in air kinda feeling where u scared ur bladder tingles or the oil light blink where there is no toilet or gas station in site
tt kinda feelg
then for a moment i tot i got to pee in the wild
wa pang tang sia..
aniwae w a few glitches we made it to xians house
not b4 i cudnt decide if the car going str was turning into the left most lane tt i can afford to turn oso n not b in danger..
walau i tink on tt my judgement is damn bad
i shud haf waited like 2sec more
but its always lidat when i drive..
\when teh car cuming far far ill hum dunnoe too fast for mi to turn right b4 he hits mi not
then ill wait
then when he's much nearer n i finally decide well it seems like his speed is slow enuff for mi to beat then ill jus turn..
usually when he's like super near already
walau then its damn dangerous...
shit la
either i gain enuff exp to judge it's cuming speed
or i jus b hum n wait abit more la
i do both but in the reverse order.
sianzz
but xian was ok
the mel joined the passenger seat
finally my tensed up nerve kinda relaxed abit
coz its sengkang n hougang
cum on
its my area
but i was WRONG.
well i had to drop mel off on the left side of the road sum where near her house aft a traffic light
i decided to fliter left aft the traffic light u c
so i did
aft i checked the side mirror tt theres no car there then i filter la
well i didnt check the rear mirror
coz tts wat i do.. i seldom check rear mirror when i drive can coz its too big aniway to c clearly
but i forgot to check my blind spot
n lo n behold
there is a blue van beside mi n i cut STRAIGHT INTO HIS PATH
walau damn close
he had to swere to avoid mi n he horned damn loudly
ok my fault
tink i finnaly to relax liao tot i finaaly reaching home
wa i was damn sorry la
but i tot no bang not so bad he wud jus drive away aft cursing mi in his car
so i jus stopped at the roadside infront of a busstop to drop mel off
BUt i WAS WRONg!
he actually drove beside mi n the moment i stopped his swerved his car right into my path n stopped
like his car slanting into my lane so tt i cant move aniwhere la
to block my path
to my freaking horror
he jumped out of his blue van n started scolding mi w alot of hand actions
something like " siao ar, u blind or wat"
wah
i was damn freak
i cud feel blood draining frm my face lor
like ROAD RAGE in realtime
he came like not v near but q near my van oso
i scared he bang on teh van lor
but he didnt
we jus gif a super apologetic face n kept saying "sorry sorry"
luckily at this moment the bus came frm behind
actualli i wasnt blocking e bus
it cud turn into the busstop but the blue van blocking mi was blocking the bus
so the man bohpian glare some one n jumped on n drove away../
wa i was scared lor
mel then dropped off n i was alone in teh car
i made sure tt the van ahead got onto the puggol flyover much ahead of mi coz i slowed down so tt he cudnt change his mind n cum crash my window w steel bars or sumthing
haha told beng abit
she say we judo no scared
but i tink i was
n its the kind u noe u r in e wrong then all the more cannot raise voice kinda feelg
n he loooked REALLLI angry
ii tink i wud lock the door reverse n drive off if he attaackes
n call mel to call mata
it was at the back of my head la.. until e bus came to my rescue
damnb heng
but dunnoe if i ll b too stunned not
well glad i never had to test myself
jus like e show mel n xian tellg mi abt wat u wud do in extreme scenarios..
if we always think thru such stuff we might survive n not die or b in less dangerous situations rite haha
whew n i drove slowly home
tried parking at 3b
but v narrow
n whil i was trying a car had to pass so didnt haf time to slowly so i drove up to 4a
n parked not too bad
but the scary thing was the car opposite had a man inside jus sitting there n kept looking over
dunnoe he getting a smoke or not but he jus didnt move n sat there n kept staring
i scared he cum out n mug mi sia coz over midnight le
but heng anothe car w 2 pple came to park so i hurry got off n left while they still in the car
so the man
if he were a criminal wont really attack mi la.
im back home
safe n sound
glad for the exp to drive long distances n my passengers felt steady n safe
onli me teh last exp.. hope she's not too traumatized
other than tt no stalling not much horning
i took a damn deep breath b4 i set off lor haha
hope everithing turns out good
n im glad i made it home
i was worried for my passenger coz i dont drive damn frequently n tt was the first time i driving tt black van n its dark at night n i dont noe the roads well
but all's well n tt's the most impt!
kbox tmr!
my urs shoes.. poor things sia coz i bua-toh in front of cine in front of pple lor.. damn malu.. did a half split like the floor was slippery then one leg slipped n stretched in front n the other leg knelt down n hit floor got contusion.. then the impact so great tt my toes-in-btw broke the tong n now the left shoe died.. this pair been w mi for more than a yr.. see the big toe abrased until torn .. n no friction last time teach at wsps n rush for tuition carrying alot of bks to go home mark always damn poor thing.. if rainy day ll sleep, fall n drop all the books on e floor :S those were e days man.. my shoes officially can R.I.P
well on sat, me serene n huay were at THEFACEshOP at isetan n we were jus looking at the nail polish over there where e helpful saleslady w good nail painting skills offered to paint n show us how the colour looks like... haha her name's peiyun too.. n she ended up painting a diff colour on each nail showed us 2 type of nail art n we ended up helping the counter attract alot of business..n my hand even became exhibit A for a few minutes haa this pix w all the nail polish chipped n everithing was taken 5days aft it was painted.. haha only the thumb w flower had base coat over it i tink so still in tact. the rest testg testg only so easily scrapped off.. but i spent the longest time cleaning the thumb off tho
火曜日, 7月 19, 2005
昨日「世界の中心で、愛をさけぶ」というドラマを見る時、「日本語はでくること、本当にいいなー」と思いました。
日本語は本当に大好き
でも、そろそろ忘れちゃったかな-？
何か残念ね
でもちょっとだけもいいし
会話をわかる、その気持はいい
学校でこの学期、日本の医学の生徒たちは交留してチャンスがあります。
あしたクラスメートちょっと相談してあと
ぜったい返事します
なかエキサイテイグな-
楽しみしています！ n_n
昨日の夜
私ねお父さんに怒りました
私の運転技術はすごく下手です。
それは自分もわかるだし
でもお父さんはいつもいつも非難して
もう一回のチャンスくれない
アー
いらいらさせます！
私もっと怒らせます
本当に
自分に怒こるよ
馬鹿のような-
毎度もやって、毎度もだめなこと
悔し。。
態度も問題ある
私すごく最低な人かもしれません
「私もうだめ」そんな気持はやだ！
学校 も毎日の生活のなか、失敗ほしくないよ-
だかる準備すごく体節です
なんか勉強しよ-
最近のポストは
たくさんテレビの関係あることですよね
よくない
どしてテレビそんな大好き、中毒かかっているですか？
事実逃げているだよね
傷つけことない、困ることない、問題も考えなればいい
その世界は大好き。
でも弱いお病者 -- 哀れな-
痛むは絶対忘れたくないよ
忘れてできない。
아자아자~!
하이딩~!
日本語は本当に大好き
でも、そろそろ忘れちゃったかな-？
何か残念ね
でもちょっとだけもいいし
会話をわかる、その気持はいい
学校でこの学期、日本の医学の生徒たちは交留してチャンスがあります。
あしたクラスメートちょっと相談してあと
ぜったい返事します
なかエキサイテイグな-
楽しみしています！ n_n
昨日の夜
私ねお父さんに怒りました
私の運転技術はすごく下手です。
それは自分もわかるだし
でもお父さんはいつもいつも非難して
もう一回のチャンスくれない
アー
いらいらさせます！
私もっと怒らせます
本当に
自分に怒こるよ
馬鹿のような-
毎度もやって、毎度もだめなこと
悔し。。
態度も問題ある
私すごく最低な人かもしれません
「私もうだめ」そんな気持はやだ！
学校 も毎日の生活のなか、失敗ほしくないよ-
だかる準備すごく体節です
なんか勉強しよ-
最近のポストは
たくさんテレビの関係あることですよね
よくない
どしてテレビそんな大好き、中毒かかっているですか？
事実逃げているだよね
傷つけことない、困ることない、問題も考えなればいい
その世界は大好き。
でも弱いお病者 -- 哀れな-
痛むは絶対忘れたくないよ
忘れてできない。
아자아자~!
하이딩~!
well coz felika saw the ad tt cine was giving out free tix yest we went to try our luck.. and as expected most of the tix haf been sold out already budden there's this jap show where all seats at all timeslots are available haa.. none of us haf heard of tt show but we decided to go for it since the tix r free anyway.. w no expectation the show turned out ok for mi i guess.. a typical sad jap show but not really worth crying for i tink.. heh we were kinda traumatized by the funni uncle in front of felika whu scared away 2 of his neighbours n scratches his head then smell his fingers, scratch his axillary region, talks loudly n coughs onto the person in front of him etc.. weird guy hah
the show has the guy's first love dying of leukemia
the young actor is the guy in the water boys drama and guess wat the drama version of this story features the other guy in water boy as the main lead ha
apparently this show is q popular in japan
it's frm a bk/comic
shot into movie, drama serial and even has a musical with this story
abit cliche tho...
the guy whu acted as the adult version of the boy was actually the heaven coins actor
oh man over a span of a couple of yrs he really aged alot
i dunnoe y
the golden era of jap dramas spanning across the '90s
i was still under tt image of him, the him abt 6-7 yrs ago
he has aged
n i haf a prob w his voice
abit too nasal.. very '-nggg' to me, dunnoe y its so apparent didnt use head voice i suppose :P
frm japan i guess i like kimura's voice n sorimachi
watched abit of オ-バ-タイムtoday
my all time fav japshow
but i still cant tolerate the sucky ending
aha mus get down to watching it again.. prob i can c stuff i hafnt seen b4..
http://aiosakebu.yahoo.co.jp/movie/
sat was enjoyable
went shopping w huay n serene
n went over to huay's house to slpover
went chompchomp!
haha the seehum was good and all e food which is making me v hungry now jus by tinking of it
watched 2 super racist shows over at her place
harold n kumar - omg, its the show where by some scenes make ur face freeze into a very 勉强 smile coz its really damn walaueh
white chicks - watched it AGAIN! haha still funny but tink i laughed harder the first time i watched it.. this time round i cud kinda anticipate the funni parts even before it cums out
slpt n huay drove us home
didnt noe how i actually survive thru 3 tuitions be 190bucks richer
psyching myself to stay awake
walau
q irresponsible huh
sigh but i wud say onli a few mins i was actualli dozing off
coz the kid dint do my hw n i jus sat there look at her do her sums
not as if i had to think or talk at all
jus sitting there was terrible
but haha
i had alot of fun :)
always worth it, in the name of fun!
went shopping w huay n serene
n went over to huay's house to slpover
went chompchomp!
haha the seehum was good and all e food which is making me v hungry now jus by tinking of it
watched 2 super racist shows over at her place
harold n kumar - omg, its the show where by some scenes make ur face freeze into a very 勉强 smile coz its really damn walaueh
white chicks - watched it AGAIN! haha still funny but tink i laughed harder the first time i watched it.. this time round i cud kinda anticipate the funni parts even before it cums out
slpt n huay drove us home
didnt noe how i actually survive thru 3 tuitions be 190bucks richer
psyching myself to stay awake
walau
q irresponsible huh
sigh but i wud say onli a few mins i was actualli dozing off
coz the kid dint do my hw n i jus sat there look at her do her sums
not as if i had to think or talk at all
jus sitting there was terrible
but haha
i had alot of fun :)
always worth it, in the name of fun!
Full house is a very light hearted show, hafnt watched a funny not so soapy korean show in a while, so not too bad
i tink i had a tv overdose so i'll try to abstain from tv from now on.
haha
i started watching at 11pm last night into the wee hours of the morning all the way till the first ray of sunlight filter through the curtains and the sun rose, until the sun is all up and very bright then i fell asleep haha
like i told my frens today
百感交集
i usually concuss ard 5am b4 the sun rises u c
so when the sun was actually rising
there was suddenly alot of feelings rushing thru
haa
i even paused my show and open up the curtains to look at the sky at daybreak
then i suddenly realized that due to my weird sleeping habit these days
aka sleeping earli in e morn n not getting up before noon
im actually missing out on beautiful mornings ha
but the solace i find at night, the quietness n stillness
as if the whole world is asleep execpt for mi
is too attractive n familiar for mi to gif up haha
no noise no excessive warmth
i like being up at night i guess
or mayb its jus a habit
too torturing to drag myself up earli in the morn
aniway
the show issnt too bad
n i kinda like the ost
for pple v interested in the show, check this out
http://spaces.msn.com/members/yaoyaobar/Blog/cns!1p8f8W66DHRnTbqTY7pUVlsQ!243.entry
a rather impressive site with bits of the show
i was rather impressed how they can kinda film the 2 characters living together in the house and the show goes on day by day
but they can still find things for them to act
i wasnt bored
the interaction btw 2 housemates haha its realli q funni
but Rain reminds me of the 红豆女之恋/屋顶上的猫
its the way they talk i tink
if i close my eyes i can actually see e other actor talking
scary huh
same type of actor i guess
i tink i had a tv overdose so i'll try to abstain from tv from now on.
haha
i started watching at 11pm last night into the wee hours of the morning all the way till the first ray of sunlight filter through the curtains and the sun rose, until the sun is all up and very bright then i fell asleep haha
like i told my frens today
百感交集
i usually concuss ard 5am b4 the sun rises u c
so when the sun was actually rising
there was suddenly alot of feelings rushing thru
haa
i even paused my show and open up the curtains to look at the sky at daybreak
then i suddenly realized that due to my weird sleeping habit these days
aka sleeping earli in e morn n not getting up before noon
im actually missing out on beautiful mornings ha
but the solace i find at night, the quietness n stillness
as if the whole world is asleep execpt for mi
is too attractive n familiar for mi to gif up haha
no noise no excessive warmth
i like being up at night i guess
or mayb its jus a habit
too torturing to drag myself up earli in the morn
aniway
the show issnt too bad
n i kinda like the ost
for pple v interested in the show, check this out
http://spaces.msn.com/members/yaoyaobar/Blog/cns!1p8f8W66DHRnTbqTY7pUVlsQ!243.entry
a rather impressive site with bits of the show
i was rather impressed how they can kinda film the 2 characters living together in the house and the show goes on day by day
but they can still find things for them to act
i wasnt bored
the interaction btw 2 housemates haha its realli q funni
but Rain reminds me of the 红豆女之恋/屋顶上的猫
its the way they talk i tink
if i close my eyes i can actually see e other actor talking
scary huh
same type of actor i guess
金曜日, 7月 15, 2005
木曜日, 7月 14, 2005
raining ard this time of the day reminded me of the fun i had at ECP w jing ningyi n py on tuesday..
i had alot of fun cycling.. i luv cycling..
the wind in ur face
the passing trees to look at
the pple
the sea
it's great
and cycling in the rain was something i hafnt done in a while..
too bad didnt get the tan to remove my swimsuit line sigh
i like the last part of our journey bk
coz we were late returning the bike n skates, thus we had this formation where jing n ny would hold py's bike handle n mi n py ll jus cycle them bk so tt they can kinda hitch a ride
it wasnt free of accidents
ny fell down coz of some stupid plank on the floor
then jing fell down n i forgot abt ny so i break suddenly n he few in front due to inertia haha
it looks q funni but i hope he issnt hurt
had a gd time at angels house too
nua-ing away
even fell asleep while watching some vcd :P
celebrated yuenchyao's bdae in the nite n met some old frens on my way there
there's may n hervarthi(?) who noe mi as the story telling frens
we were frm hissoc 2gether... its q a surprise tt we still hit it off well w each other
feels abit weird to meet them at a mrt station aft almost 2yrs
n got to noe tt a boys didnt make it into the finals
walau
how can this happen
but jus hope tt sweenhsien issnt too sad..
dunnoe if i shud msg him to alloallo or not or ll it make him feel worse?
see how la
been at home
love the slacking
but i realli wan to finish tying up the loose ends in my rm
n get ready for the new yr
tink i wont go bk to the lab to work la
need 2 email them soon
i had alot of fun cycling.. i luv cycling..
the wind in ur face
the passing trees to look at
the pple
the sea
it's great
and cycling in the rain was something i hafnt done in a while..
too bad didnt get the tan to remove my swimsuit line sigh
i like the last part of our journey bk
coz we were late returning the bike n skates, thus we had this formation where jing n ny would hold py's bike handle n mi n py ll jus cycle them bk so tt they can kinda hitch a ride
it wasnt free of accidents
ny fell down coz of some stupid plank on the floor
then jing fell down n i forgot abt ny so i break suddenly n he few in front due to inertia haha
it looks q funni but i hope he issnt hurt
had a gd time at angels house too
nua-ing away
even fell asleep while watching some vcd :P
celebrated yuenchyao's bdae in the nite n met some old frens on my way there
there's may n hervarthi(?) who noe mi as the story telling frens
we were frm hissoc 2gether... its q a surprise tt we still hit it off well w each other
feels abit weird to meet them at a mrt station aft almost 2yrs
n got to noe tt a boys didnt make it into the finals
walau
how can this happen
but jus hope tt sweenhsien issnt too sad..
dunnoe if i shud msg him to alloallo or not or ll it make him feel worse?
see how la
been at home
love the slacking
but i realli wan to finish tying up the loose ends in my rm
n get ready for the new yr
tink i wont go bk to the lab to work la
need 2 email them soon
火曜日, 7月 12, 2005
e most poor thing guy in the show i guess.. reminded mi of the qn my gp teacher ask us last time, wat wud u do if u r going to die tmr? he went to say his gdbyes.. to the pple tt matter to him, even fake a letter to b sent aft he dies so tt the girl doesnt noe.. the amt of planning tt goes into it.. the things to do the things to say the things to look at.. jus b4 u die..
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