im sleepy but i dont feel like sleepg?
mayb im too excited abt the yunnan trip? tot i usually onli get the gitters of overseas trips the nite b4
mayb im enjoying the last nite tt i can stay up late n w nothing much on tmr
damn i haf tuition at 10am
夜深人 静
i like it at nite when there is no body to fan mi
but 寂静 与 寂寞
也只是一 线 之差
suddenly feel gratful tt i haf siblings
both my bro r out partying
onli mi n my parents to tok to
no one to crap w mi
no one to open my door n ask mi y i still not asleep
no one to quarrel w mi
no one to disturb mi

jus one nite haha
y i suddenly so 多愁善感？？
haha 93.3 is not helpg

i like quiet moments w myself but quiet at this moment seem abit overwhelming
y
i dont noe
mayb is the aftermath of watching long taiwanese serial haha
like angel tellg mi jus now
nothing to look forward to liao
its true
sum weird sense of emptyness
haha y do i like to watch tv so much?
my da ge always ask mi
when u peer into the tv
it brings u to another world
another place
u live the life of the the characters inside
like some omnipotent third invisible party
lookg at things happening

u leave ur reality
i forget my own life a while, while im watching
tt's y i tell my family not to distrub mi when i watch tv haha
it comes into the package of escape or denial when u need it
i need neither of these now but well.. haha

when a serial end
u haf to pick up ur life where u left it off
scary rite
mayb tt's y i hafg a sleepless nite on a silent nite
silent nite holy nite
haha apt for boxing day huh

im v tired my eyelids r closing

2004
cant realli bare to leave it behind
so mani new happening things happened
ended As
free until wa buay tahan
enjoyed life like taitai
shopping shopping go out like no one's buisness
gunbound till the next day

its onli 230am?

start to work
tuition tuition tuition
no collegues
met mani pple mani families mani kids
relief teaching
realized childhood ambition
teaching + tuition + teaching + tuition
slogged my ass off
earned my first XK

went for my first interview
scared like shit
work
function alone w/o fren for sum time
workaholic syndrom
tiredness unhappiness

resolved issuses
salvaged frenships
met long-time-no-see fren
first pair of 3-inch heels
met mr wierd at sentosa haha

got into medicine
happiness
sch started again
new environ
new frens
adaptation adaptation adaptation
didnt take long as usual

medicamp
brought bk some orientation memories
haha jus like the rj vcd we watched when gang came to stay over tt day
jc orientation is always special
one special nite
2yr long preoccupation
let it go liao?

cadavers w mushroom ears
mushroom pot n felika bdae!!

serene! yuan you hui is on 93.3 now hahaha
yuan you hui heng hao ting!

ok
mugging mugging
never studied so hard in my life but i guess not hard enuff
boohoo
harder harder mus try la

dad one yr anniversary for quitting smoking
mum ask mi wat i wud rem of her if she dies..
i said her nagging her noise haha
she was like eh!
actualli meant her everithing la
love niceness
but i cud never realli say it out
im a old-fashioned person i guess haha
sum lao kok kok person whu cant express love to fam out in words
heh
but i tink action n speech shows it here n there la
hope my parents dont go for explicit expression of love coz their daughter has sum prob w tt
but wat a qn my mama posed
a tinge of sadness in the air
glad to haf my family
i tink i cant b brave like my fren to tahan when her mama passed away
i wud jus dysfunction i guess if ani of my fam got anithing
at least at this pt la

2004 ending
im entering my 20s
eek
sigh dun wan la
i got 5mth n 4 days?
sigh sigh
y cant i stay in my 10s?
my bro say he's in his quarter life crisis so i shud shut up haha
cant help it la
going to pass my 10s w/o finding it
有点可惜
but i ll wait then
10 more yrs till aft my 20s?? haha
ll i gif up then? wont la 30 v old meh

hahah
this yr passed so fast
got a feelg tt b4 long i ll b in my 80s
wheezing n coughing
argh
seize the day?
haha

the new yr is approaching
kids r born
pple die
everi min

my warp theory of there is sumone whu look exactly like me on the other side of the world
ll it still stand?
i haf no explanation
i jus feel tt way haha

i shud sleep
or else 2.5hr of tuition feelg sleepy n teaching emath is no joke

MERRY CHRISTMAS

had a lot of fun yest at serene's house.. great way to spend xmas eve too w/o crowds n sweaty strangers...
thanx to serene n xinyi for preparing the nice 'candlelight' dinner n the great company la.. peiyun too

jus finish watching the rose 蔷薇之恋!!
haha thanx beng for lending me... i tink its realli a nice show haha
wat a show filled w incest n damn funni
yes serene its incestuous not incestful haha
since i got it on monday haf been sleepg at abt 5am everiday watching it so now when its finally finished there's this emptiness sigh
a feelg tt i always get aft watching sum ultra long serial.

THE ROSE by bette midler
Some say love, it is a river that drowns the tender reed.
Some say love, it is a razor that leaves your soul to bleed.
Some say love, it is a hunger, an endless aching need.
I say love, it is a flower, and you it's only seed.
It's the heart, afraid of breaking, that never learns to dance.
It's the dream, afraid of waking, that never takes the chance.
It's the one who won't be taken, who cannot seem to give.
And the soul, afraid of dyin', that never learns to live.
When the night has been too lonely, and the road has been too long,
And you think that love is only for the lucky and the strong,
Just remember in the winter far beneath the bitter snows,
Lies the seed, that withe the sun's love, in the spring becomes The Rose.

叶子

叶子 是 不 会飞 翔的翅膀
翅膀 是 落在天上的 叶 子
天堂 原 来应该 不是妄想
只是我早已 经 遗忘
当初怎么开始飞 翔

孤 单 是一个人的狂 欢
狂欢 是一群人的孤 单
爱情 原 来的开始是陪伴
但我也 渐 渐 地遗忘
当时是怎样有人陪伴
我一个人吃 饭 旅行
(到处)走走停停
也一个人看书 弹琴 自己 对话谈 心
只是心又 飘到了 哪 里就 连自己看也看不 清
我想我不 仅仅 是失去 你

haha the songs used in the show i q planty huh
toking abt plants.. i ve got a cactus!!
courtesy of beng n her mama :D

in the show sumtimes the stuff tt the character say can get q lyrical
i mean of course taiwanese drama always haf funni ideas n analogies the i ll go like HUH?
budden there r the ones tt catch my attention oso la

当项链环过颈项
我期待着
扣环在脖子后方接上的瞬 间
那瞬 间的悸动 尤如是星火
滑落了 胸口

hmm neva tot of it this way b4..

蛮有趣的一套 剧 集
可能有些地方我可感同身受 吧

什么肿着的大 饼脸 ，肉包子，难听的声音 haha
还有自卑感
都能 够 理解 的 感受

ok enuff of the show..

gotta tink of sum new yr resolutions
due to the new sch system this end of yr hols felt diff frm usual hols.. mayb jus like a jun one
doesnt mean end of a sch yr onli in the middle of it rite

ll b in china in sum hours time
brrrrr
ll b bk onli next yr
so yep wat a long time ill b gone haha

今天见了一些我没什么好感的人
他们那嘴脸
即可笑又讨厌
受不了
还是得为自己为家人争口气吧

i shall pseudo colour my daimaru eye n pray for safety on our journey :D

finally my com is back..
now its kinda brand new n like a stranger so i ve gotta customize it
cant sae animore in case py says i dwell n gif off bad vibes haha
paiseh la :P to py serene n tracy n anione w were affected

aniwae i luves balloons now!!
damn fun today made a balloon meant for iris but i gave it to a little jap boy on the bus
he slowly pry off his chubby fingers one by one... n played w the railing for a while b4 he dared to receive the little balloon dog frm mi
so cute
felt abit bad tt i cudnt make for his sis n another girl on the bus coz i had to get down la

the bbq was v fun
thanx iris for the invitation
i tink i derived most fun frm making balloons for pple, telling the shutter story and bursting balloon to scare susan
oh n cheemeng was moved to tears w his bday present

haha
i had a great time!

had alot of fun w the yunnan pple making jiaozi oso
the skin is abit thick la
but otherwise i tink it tasted good leh
jenheng got a cook's seh
his argaraetion skills r good sia

orchard rd is still as beautiful
today/yest is an enjoyable day :D

okok drove serene n py ard on wed nite rite almost killed me, them and mani other pple
shit
haha
but it was q a ride
first time i felt so tempted to leave the car at the car park n take the mrt home.. can u imagine
*shivers*
ok for list of misdeeds, pls redirect to gang blog

friday was a good dae too
apart frm learning wat i can cut if i slit sumone's neck
i also learnt abt queezing the thymus first if i go strangle some one? haha
then went out w judo gals!!
so long neva meet up liao
altho we jus mop ard orchard it was fun
kbox soon ya pple

tuition started again..
realize tt i dont realli like it
it such a drag but 100 bucks each time is good money so i shud jus shut up
n yest i killed my cd rom drive
bad mood
shit now all my entertainment is gone!!!!
no more mps no more movies to watch no more no more!!!!!!!
my handphone cant make tt irritating tring-ling sound animore
now my com went dumb oso
i shud jus shut up n join them

sigh
i drove my bros breadvan yest
damn fun
macam like a bus driver lidat
frm the side mirror i saw a vehicle tailgating mi super near n got scared
in the end it was the reflection of the vehicle i was driving
hahahahahahahahahahaah

my brain is fusing
i haf got a whole rm to pack
living in a sty now
n i haf got bioimaging to figure
polar express tmr? my anat groupers???
better go do my work soon

im not in the best of moods la but my horoscope for the wk says:
making sense of ur feelings no can b a little difficult
you could b feeling intense emotions and lose clarity
cheer up
the stars have shown tt negative situations are always temporary

im so trusting it
today im going to hide at home n do my stuff

hafnt blog for damn long since i decided to shut myself off frm blogging n msn for ca haha
ca s r finally over but i hafnt realli rested at all
tmr gotta wake up at 6?
tink frs is crap but sigh gotta do it so yea

had alot of fun w all the phototaking thing w serene n peiyun haha
damn funni
finally trained py up abit to haf more expressions rather than jus the smile when she takes photos hahah

briget jones is q funni
the tombstone: the spinster 1972-2050
was rather sad
n our weird neighbour
whus slightly middled aged midly fat haha laughed at everithing
the sheer volume of her laughter is haha

xmas is cuming
sigh a yr haf passed us by since As
so fast scary
when u look bk everithing tt happened seemed q small

spore idol
never realli followed watched here n there
taufik win i tink ok la coz he sings better
but abit sad for sly like abit poor thing lidat

haha n yes peiyun im NOW burning the incredibles for u
crap im so going to sleep thru tmrs thing i spoil my reputation n scare daniels gang
coz huimin the tape recorder during lec for once is dysfunctional
dont worry it ll happen again
the girl in front w the red sweater sleep helped relived tracy's jc days too haha

im damn sleepy sia
but i feel relieved enuff aha

tmr i haf got the car
tink might b driving gang ard if they r onz for dinner/supper tink of where to go pple
abit scared abit excited first time driving w/o dad or bro sia
wish me luck
but anione else whu wishes to b farried by me pray tt i hone my skills well well first
life n death
no joke haha

jay chou concert
it was DAMN GOOD
told the storys mani times liao
so abit tired to say
ll b uploading the photos soon la :D

everione has their prob
since its so festive i shant tink of mine
but i gotta do sumthing abt it soon

samuel tay head n neck hope he's good

mani mani things to do!!!
argh jibun ni: oyasumi

有些事我怎能不晓得
可能只是没办法坦诚所以装作若无其事

正如周杰伦所说

有些是没办法教 表错情的感觉有一点糟
赖着不走 会让人很感冒 以上这道理我全都了

Any takers as to which song this came frm? Haha

Aniwae omg!! Thanx to natkoh n carol im going to the jaychou concert!!
Second row tix!!!! Ahhhhhhhhhh
As my bro says :” u can even smell him lor” haha
Haha told everyone at home n some frens to share my excitement
But sad to say they r either not interested in him
Or not interested in wat I haf got to say.. mayb it doesn’t render a big response
But o well
Gotta stardeeeeeee hard hard now so tt I wont b too guilty spendg the 2nd last day frm CA w jaychou!

実は電話をかけてくれないほおが良いと思います
もう何も話したいの？

身勝手なあたし
ちょっとはずかしい
なみだはなげれぼしみたい

:D もくひょがあるけど

hey airen.. when u say -smile- this is wat i tink of :) tks

yest i knock an ah pek's head w my head.. i scared he got head lice shit he better dont haf...
while walking along the corridor in outram to nel..
he came frm the bk lor.. i was digging in my bag to look for my wallet w head slightly bent.. he was walking realli quickly coming frm the bk
tink he was lookg at the floor la
then our head collapsed
it was a non elastic collision and energy wasnt conserved and our heads were not stuck together? (damn cant rem phy)
:s

hafnt been feelg too good these days
today was the greatest challenge of the power of my anal sphincter, sphincter vesicae and s. urethra
sitting thru anat tut feeling like crap was no joke
and i tink tea is a diuretic or sumthing
aniwhere i scaled great heights to settle my prob
hope i dont get sick again
dont feel q right

actualli wat propelled mi to write issit all tt's said above
since im at it then shunbian la

我可能是一個比較理性的人吧
雖然我常叫別人要隨心所欲
但是。。

心裡有點不好受
言語有點難表達
朋友需要你的時候
你在哪
我好像忽略了朋友的需要
但卻還是沒能去給予慰藉
更糟的是 這是自己的選擇
對不起

可能是我想太多
可能這不是這次的重點
但
我并不喜歡這樣的自己
有點自私
人說
人不為己 天誅地滅
我從來無法苟同
但如今 我卻成了此 ﹖俗語的代言人﹖
沒辦法不這麼理性
但同時也可認清自己有時也有這種需要
如何應對呢﹖
常讓自己不去想﹐不去問﹐不去麻煩人
再也找不到像我如此愛逃避的人了吧
我不知道自己想說什麼
應該是內疚吧
還有點擔心
怕“老大”當得太沒用
可能自始至終就有點沒有
一年後一切將改變
第一次有些彷惶
第一次覺得每個人越走越遠

總歸 人都有私心
遷就別人曾經是我的專長
希望
不會失去
希望
還來得急
不想說了
該讀書了

沒有辦法有英文寫出自己的感受
因為沒有辦法把心赤裸裸的展現給別人
用中文是讓有緣人讀吧
若用日文是根本無法讓別人知道的事情
卻無處宣泄

宣泄完畢
讀書讀書
再不下苦功 又會重蹈覆輒

argh my hairband broke!
the one tt haf been w my since a levels
since i broke my arm..
thru thick and thin now reduced to a non-functional object
*sobz*

watched the BEST BET vcd todae
kao... it's mother hokkien haha
tink my hokkien comprehension improved quite abit from tt show
i wud say it was rather entertaining
and there's an unexpected twist in the show
tt i tot was rather good haha
at least there's a plot...

was trying to read a jap novel tt i bought mani yrs back..
there's a story titled "the story of ms tulip"
haha its a story frm the tulip's point of view la
manage to plog thru 2 pages of it
and guess wat
the tulips says she a red flower, 30cm tall
she hates two kinds of animals.. namely humans and cats
there's this young girl whu waters her everidae
but she's a moron coz she always gif too much water n cause her roots to rot
so ms tulip actualli moved in front of her in attempt to tell her to stop n try to escape despite being told tt if she moves in front of humans she'll b KILLED
haha but the girl jus doesnt get it

she once saw an animal called a car hit a person
and red stuff flowed out on the streets and the person ceased to move

she also dislikes a stupid cat tt like to dig the soil ard her
and she hopes tt the cat can hurry spill red stuff and cease to exist

the she talks about the horror stories she heard abt other flowers
how humans like to chop off their heads and pin the heads on their chest
how its disgusting tt humans like to hang corpse of orchids on their chest
and dried flowers..
they r jus dried corpses
she cant understand how human haf great interest and like to decorate themselves w corpses


?????
haha wat an insightful story
cadevers huh?
two pages r mobid enough for the day i guess
a tulip's pov
i neva tired lookg frm there

@_@

looking at xinyi's blog made mi wanna blog abit more too..
hah guess i hafnt been writing recently
better start doing it b4 i live my life w/o tinking abt it too much
oh went to watch mando b the hot one-n-onli lady onboard tt all the guys like haha
impressive mando!
then carol aka the god
whu controls sunrise n sunset was good too hee

oh met w the yunnan pple on sat too
starting to feel tt its not too bad to cum on this trip after all
altho the pple there r abit hallelujah for mi
budden i brought mi abit of insight as to their faith la
not tt im totally n'sync w their tinking but hmm jus know abit more abt how other pple belive in their beliefs? :)

i feel abit sad though emailing eugene abt the skills i haf
suddenly realize tt i dont realli haf mani skills
lilke abit unaccomplished n useless
well i can always learn but yea i need to learn la

today i slept till realli later
doze off like twice aft i woke up
wa the long awaited rest but hee better go read abdomen n go figure how pple can get abs la hor
n thorax
yea yea tests tests cuming ca cuming
i better buck up
in case sum pple look mi no up haha

oh oh last nite went to gif my cousins tuition
aft i parted w serene n py tot i jus drop by to help
hah the funniest thing happened!
but due to great impact on one's reputation
i cant publicize
but angel n liv.. u noe wat im toking abt rite? hahaha
okok
i apologize for harping on it

still feel abit sad abt yong qin's death of zhen qing last wk
aiyoh today i watch like she not ard so sad lidat
mi n my mama cried torrents when she died la sigh...

ok hi monday here i cum

haha pple check this out
its quite cool
chap 8 w the mum giving birth looks rather painful
got my mama n mi cringing abit w the lady at parturition
my mama kept saying.. y is her dad there?!?
haha
http://www.pbs.org/wgbh/nova/miracle/program.html#

tink i ought to create a new post so tt the big F*** dont glare starkly at pple
paiseh yea
im usualli not so vulgar hee
im relaxed n cooled once again i guess.. :P

fuck
i dropped my phone
so angry w myself im so gonna burst
tink i haf zero anger management
argh
hmm

relac
i always sae so
but i might jus haf cardiac failure if i try to relac la
tightness in the chest
gekkkk

the phone now doesnt haf the tinglingting sound animore
the one tt mando likes
the phone doesnt reset itself animore
when i press no
they dont go away when i close n open

wat the shit

my bro n my dad is surprisingly nice abt it
my dad tell mi its ok
he go get it fix for mi
my bro tell mi
everione haf days whereby they tink tt life sux
well tts nice of them

i guess ill jus explode at pple when they cum bother mi on a bad day
but now
im trying to calm down frm exploding within
or at myself

damn
today
is a bad day

so be it... so be it

OK
'papa, wud u pls take a pic of mi?'
'ok'
(repeat 2x) haha

aniwae today is a happi dae for serene
like i said
im honored to witness it haha
oh its a happi dae for mi too
altho i didnt keep mentioning it
:D

cant rem the last time i went out to shop for tt sole purpose
usually its shun bian frm sch ya
slacked damn alot hahah
tink i needed this aft mugging my ass off for the anat fa

ok
i slept till rather late today
yea :D
then at 11 + a went out
so i tink i walked for almost 12hrs today
my quadriceps femoris, tricpes surae n hamstrings r rather tired now
but its
OK

my agenda for the dae was to go out w my cousins n shop for a bdae present for my ah ma
but they were LATE
but its
OK

so i found myself walking n walking alone frm mrt to wisma to taka n to kino
found two rather cool books
one says MUTANT
its has all the birth deformities, conjoined twins n stuff in it
exciting
but abit scary too

then i found STIFF
it toks abt cadavers n death
hmm
how to determine when a person is realli dead
like a doctor even researched on it
claiming tt his patients lost 3/4 ounce immediately aft death
he made the necessary precautions to made sure tt it wasnt due to bowels or evaporation or anithing of tt sought
hmm he did it on 15 dying dogs
but they show no sign of weight loss at death
he was trying to make death aka the loss of your soul as sumthing tangential n substantial...
and dogs didnt haf soul as stated in his religion (watever it might b)
but it started an outrage la
pple r skeptical (so am i)
n pple were wondering how he cud find 15 dying dogs as n when he wanted them
so they claimed tt he poisoned them n slowing observed them die for the sake of his little experiment
i didnt finish reading tt bk
but its cool
ill try to locate it in the library next time

then serene came to meet mi
coz i told her i ll b out w my cousins mah
budden so qiao we on the phone so i invited her la
shes in a good mood today
she treated mi to coke
help mi carry a bag
n offered to buy mi chewren's day present

okok then we walked ard kino
met my cousins
ate at marche
tried 2 help mingli solve an a math qn in marche using their tissuse paper n scaring the staff i tink
we like 4 girls competing to solve so math qn lidat

then we went shopping for a bag
for ah ma
we went to og
n met my long-time-no-see-auntie
i like her quite abit last time
but jus abit awkward n i was abit lost for words la
but we walked n walked damn alot of places down the whole orchard rd
n we finally settlled on a new arrival og bag
yea
happi be-earli bdae to ah ma!!

okok settled w the present
n spent time w menbers of HEAL
my cousins haha
tink angel n serene can click quite well like wat serene say haha
n yea was fun
they better go study for o and a aft this wk end ar
i nag once again
DONT SLACK ANIMORE
hee

then we went ps in search of a movie but no haf
went spotlight in seach of lace but no haf
then we went in seach of jap food n haf!!
its at ps basement
ichiban sushi i tink
they haf the conveyer belt sushi mah
then the place is abit small n squeezy
i like leh realli more like a japan kinda place
the ambience
the food more exciting n prettier than sake sushi i tink
so yea tink ill go again
we eat till we happi n full
n sneakily drink the raspberry sprite we smuggle in frm carrefour

then we went esplanade
n watch pple dance watch pple act watch pple photog watch pple la
then we stand along the river n tok tok
took lots of pic too haha
of ourselves
n of our own depiction of each member of GANG (*new!)
haha it was damn funni la
two ah siaos along spore river
lamenting abt y no guys in our gang
haha
but yea feeling happi la
fullerton is beautiful
i always wanted to go to the river walk ard n cross the pretty bridges there
but today i crossed like four or more bridges lor
while we walked ard tt whole area trying to get to clark quay
satisfied my urge n desire once n for all ya
haha but yea still tink its nice
we walked damn alot today my legs r damn tired haha
but yea today is rather happi
oh shud be yest liao huh

okok
in conclusion
i miss slacking
i miss hafing no worries abt tests n work
although got lots of tut n reading to catch up
well theres always tmr
hee
neva like go out w onli serene b4 i tink
not in recent times
haha was rather fun
of coz w my cousins too
but yea today is a happi day

ps sorrie pple for making this a documentary
jus felt like documenting a happy day in this entry as a documentary

:)
tmr bk to reality
got two tuitions
n tutorials to do
again....
well one happi dae shud last mi for sumtime i guess :)

今日 は雨を降りました
父さんは「もう秋ですよね」 て
そうかな-
私最近 「プライド」を見ています
何か、秋は話たいこと理解しますよ
春との会話、私も同じ返事をやるかも
それじゃ、私もそんな冷たい人分かるな？
春のような人会えますか？
彼はなんかかわそう
春この季節は冬に続けて、だからまだまだ冷たいでしょう？
でもその冷たの後、まだ暖かいですよね。
私ほんとに 「秋」 この名前、季節大好き
涼しく落ち着いている感じ
気持いいな-
その二人の将来どうかな-
エンディング見ければ分かる
私のは。。。
さ、わからない
もうすぐ二十歳になるですけど
一回、一度もない
心の声 聞こえるか、聞きたいのか？
寂しさ？
「知らないことが恋しいでわない」
ね-

yea although i told quite a few pple liao n provided free entertainment for all of them
i shall tell the story of mi kena cheated by ah pek!!
jus for the record in case i want to read it to entertain myself next time
neva pian cai, neva pian se though but yea pian my feeeeling n time la i guess

i was on my way bk home aftt sending my tut kid to the lrt station
on last rainy sunday
the at my void deck got an ah pek
he starting call mi la
ah muay.. which is like xiao mei
at first i jus walked on but he kept calling then i look at him la
then he asked mi to go over

aiyoh getting long winded
then hor
he wanted mi to buy duck rice n kopio of him la
summore got mani request like
dun wan to sauce la rem to take spoon la all those la
then i tink tink
but he say he leg pain like so poor thing lidat so i okok lor
he gave mi $3.10
i ask him he sure enuff not coz i onli brought my hp no $$
he say enuff then enuff la

i mean jus spend some time n effort wont die rite
budden it was like 1220 liao
n my other tut kid cuimg at 1 mah
so i hurry hurry go buy

when i reach the food court
i realise tt duck rice is onli going at 3.30
told the stall keepers discretely whether they can sell mi 2.50 worth of duck rice la
walau so paiseh
they tell mi xiao jie we onli sell 3 or 3.50 ones
so i boh pian tell them
dont lidat la i buy for sum ah pek i no $$ pls pls
sumthing along these lines
then kena laughed at but i managed to buy it u c
but in the end forgot to ask them not too add the sauce
so ah pek too bad la huh

then i went to the drink stall
n asked them if their kopi o is 60c rite rite??
walau they say 80c
i sad n sianz liao
so started 'begging' the stall holders AGAIN
then yea i tell i onli got 60c left on mi la
pls pls so ah pek ask mi to buy one
then they laugh laugh again n okok lor

jus then my mama called
n she scolded mi upside down la
she say i so stupid
the ah pek abit wierd n siao one
always downstairs everidae ask pple to buy things for him
he even asked my mama a few times b4!!
n my mama oso witness him asking other pple oso
most pple say they not free la

then when i walked bk
nearing the void deck i saw my mama toking to him
then i tink tink
the ah pek cham alreadi sure let my mama say till die
n yea indeed my mama told him to rem my face, mi her daughter n he better dont ask mi again coz i busy, my tut kid cuming, which is true n its 1245 alreadi.. mi wet n lunchless still
then yea n he say okok paiseh paiseh
he say dont tell AH LIAN
haha god noes whu is she
but yea my mama say if he ever ask mi again
she ll go tell AH LIAN
n tt scared the shit out of him la

later my mama tell mi tt he was strolling ard everiwhere when she went downstairs ll waiting for mi to cum bk
i mean he kinda forgotten he leg pain la(tsk)
then my mama go ask him tot u told my daughter u leg pain?!?
n he paiseh hurry hurry sat down on the chair
my mama say u so free y dont go buy urself he say her no umbrella
when she threaten to go his house to see if he realli got umbrella not he jus kept quiet

so in the end my mama concluded
he's jus abit boh liao n wierd n lazy
n trying to use not enuff $$ to buy stuff hoping other pple ll pay 4 him so tt he shun pian zhuan dao

so yea
this is the lengthy story of my contact w an ahpek
n as n epilogue : my tut kid came earli was standing outside door liao when i came bk at 1245
so i went on to teach my third tut of the day W/O lunch
so haha
(huimin get humpy w/o food rite? gang?)

i mean i feel abit cheated onli la
not so bad
but fake leg pain walau
i indeed entertained the thought of kopping his 3.10 n going home w it aft he gave mi
but i told myself to banish tt evil thought
aft hafin say so much
i still tink i wud go help the next elderly tt try to fake mi la
haha i mean i shud gif them the benefit of the doubt rite?
but my mama ll say i kena cheated alreadi oso dunnoe
sigh
but yea if this ah pek ask mi the next time..

ill go complain to AH LIAN!!

- THE END -

to zhijia
heyhey jus read ur letter
while u rem my "zha! gege", i'll always rem how u as a huazhugege fanatic enslaved mi to b ur slave/eunuch and i ben ben agreed.. hafing served u loyally for almost 4yrs?
haah
good old days in rg
take care of urself gege ya
hope u haf a safe flight, flying off now to the other side of the globe
n yea technology ll keep us close n in contact ya
work hard n jiayou 4 everithing

:)always willing to serve u..
da liu zi

its an eventful day again
breakfast w oilvia n peiyun
nice kaya toast n egg hee
ll miss olivia
n zhijia whom i jus sent off a while ago

heard the tok on the yunnan yep
tink its a rather enriching experience la
helping pple
getting out of comfort zone
SERVE
hmm
hope i can go n lookg forward to it man

oh serene mus haf "big-open some eye-boundaries" today
second fren tt i drove ard
hee she praised mi so yea haha :P
oh n my dad brought us to supper w his frens
namely tua pek n a-uncle-who-has-a-daughter-in-smu
haha i neva c the second uncle b4 but yea all my dad good fren la
i like the uncle leng tt look like my tua pek
haha tink he v happi to find someone whu enjoy slowly savouring crab like him
n tt ll b mi
haha
hes nice
all the uncle uncle rather cute n endearing tok abt everithing, suan my dad, remind mi of mi n my frens too
the crabs quite good today
i abit full n sleepy now
hee
satsified!

wa reminded mi of the good old days when i was taking driving lessons frm my dad
then everi nite aft my lesson
he ll bring mi to eat supper w his buddy buddy
haha they chat tok
i quietly eat lor
aha
;)

i had an adventure yest
frm sengkang to ponggol
nice fun exciting happi

sometimes i feel lousy n small
im lousy

went shopping w judo gals
had lotsa fun
happi happi happi
:)

reflect upon my self
sad lousy sianz

gemini = moody
disturbing

finally a wk has passed hols again
huayu is almost gone for a wk liao n i realised tt i missed sangyu's departure oso
due to my procrastinatn in getting in touch w her to find out when exactly she was leaving..
i suck rite
n my shitty 55/100
im lousy la
but mi ll tell myself tt if i studied hard i wud do better
hope la hope
tink gotta buck up coz i guess a doc cant erm n cant recall where the median nerve lies rite?
oh but voon's lec was fun n nice
n i learnt how to communicate w patients in coma in my lec while i was sleeping on sat morn's lec haha
but wanting to work hard aside
realli thankful for the hols la
realli realli happi :D
slacking away..

didnt realli cry alot when huayu left huh
unlike mi when i was younger...
but getting her phone call bk i realli nice la
so excited for her
tink she ll haf lots of fun
but i hope she noe tt she can fall bk on her gang anitime ya

im incoherent
n sleepy
but hafnt been feeling too good sumdaes recently
mayb coz i cant articulate my emotions too well la
i oso dunnoe
jus feel abit wierd
if i snapped at anione
i apologize
not so sunny like the weather hor
gloomy rainy dark sianz
n no zhen qing today :(
i tink the piggy soft toy tt i gave huayu looked like shang deng qing jia
haha
the qinghua qingyun's mum w its slitty eyes
scary haha

today i learnt tt snake has alot of bones wow
tot they look rather boneless to mi
ignorance
n they haf mani mani ball n socket joints
the a dragonfly nymph stays in water for 1-3yrs
b4 becoming an adult depending on its species until tadpole which stays in water for abt 3-5 mths b4 becoming a frog

the adv of gifing pri sch tut
haha
but sian had two today so abit zonk out liao

魔力
I have you to be with
Everything will be easy
晒的阳光 淋的雨滴 都值得回忆
I have you to be with
才懂心不够近才怕距离
心电感应 绝不断讯
会如影子随瑚
曾灰心以为 我来错了世界
太多想法很另类 找不到人了解
当我说的感觉 牵动著你的脸
互动的泪 让我们变得特别
你是我的魔力 想要勇敢就想你
一眨眼睛 把不如意 都变成流星
你是我的魔力 心情不好我就想你
删除忧郁 复制甜蜜
笑容不结冰
幸福是间电影院 没有单人的座位
要肩碰肩 才能看好戏上演

the previous post is abit distrubing so i guess a new one ll b good
im sleepy but muscles of the lower limb damn
realli hope the prof dont always cum ask my qn
i noe i shud prepare n stuff but i did jus not enuff huh

i resoluted a few things this few days
dunnoe if i cud do them
ah shit shudnt sound demoralised b4 anithing has even started

my resolutions
change certain things la inertia is not good
love my books n notes n onli my bks n notes? haha
pay more attention to my frens whu need attention

die tink i need alot of tea tmr morn
aniwae the resolutions r lidat vaguely
im not too ok w stating them explictly they r 4 me n myself

being huayus party laision was rathing tiring
haha but i had fun
washing fruits like malay ladies
maria working handinhand w thumbi
putting up PARTY signs everiwhere but scared mata catch us
n when ll i ever get a chance to make a whole BIG pot of ribena w a garden hose oops.. hee
bringing pple to the toilet
topping up the longan fruit thing
bringing chairs for pple
haha
i like so bAngLa lidat but yea im glad i was of help

huayu is flying off in abt 10hrs
sigh
then she ll b gone 4 9mths
our frenship dates bk to 7+yrs
qi nian de gan qing rite rite
ll miss her la
but she ll b bk
she ll b bk
i dont like farewells
but reunions r fine hopefully w/o ani wierd british accent haha
tmr
hmm tmr we c each other at the airport la
@_@

be-earli bon voyage ( i didnt write w smudged orange ink) haha

i'm very sad today
p.s. pls dont ask mi y. i mean it.

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sumtimes i feel abit exploited jus coz im nice
n i always try to help other pple
sumtimes i wan to tell the person to jus f off
as if like my veri existence to the person is to help it
it pisses mi off real bad
n i bet it doesnt care
laugh at mi summore tts it man
tmd
もう好きでわないよ。
気持悪い なー
私はあなたによって大事な人じゃない
にもかかわらず
私を使う為に、私をおしゃべりします。
厭だな-

discover what candy you are @ quiz me

got this quiz thing frm fel's blog.. didnt go read for a long time liao so one shot read mani mani entries ago..

finally got down to reading my blog a few days ago
n i agree it is like a documentary haha
onli reminding mi wat happened but not so much how i felt then
so i guess im more aware of it now so mayb next time it might proof a easier n more insightful read for my frens haha

the seoul garden dinner was a rather nice one
sze chuan chicken is still the hot fav
n we spent almost three hrs in there lor
tokin n eating as usual
cant rem since when tt place became our gang's "aft-a-major-exam-mus-go-place"
but yea its been mani yrs since we first started patronizing the shop liao

the standard has improved abit i guess w more constant refill of chicken wings n even sushi now haha
then we saw a table of like 6-8 gals near us
they realli kinda reminded how we were like sum time ago...
in sch u alot of laughter n noise hmm

then there was my son: the smily face thing w a body of a bag
i left him behind coz he was too much of a nuisance oops..

huayu gave us the pinkie pouches tt has the word xpression on it
wonder if serene has cut away the tag liao not
afraid tt pple might relate the brand to sumthing else..
haha
but yea
ohoh
u all noe wat
i found out frm my cousin tt she bought the exact same on in thailand for 45 cents
and to tink tt the stingy boss refuse to give us a discount of 40 more cents
auntie-ness aside
we did it aniway haha

n the scary thing abt huay had py's no wrong all the time n didnt realize it..
its better late then neva la
but like serene say everithing happens for a reason ..
so mayb us trying to fit our photos to suit the hiphop gang ringtone in huayu hp was fate haha

sitting along the steps near cine until like 11 + is haha not exactly the glam thing to do but we always do such things la i guess

wonder how it wud b like when huay's gone..
sigh

gotta go studdy coz i tink im veri behind n cant rem my stuff
then the prof ask qn i always scared i cant ans then sianz..
but i found my new keep-me-awake-fren
the tea w milk at the sci canteen
it realli works
thanx to ahline n mando for their intro to breakfast at nus haha
n to beng for tt cao mei xian zi pen we donated 2.50 for haha
its in my pencil holder on my table staring at mi haha

:)

todae i was out the whole day la
well jus came home
hmm heng my er ge came down to send mi home or else my parents ll b calling mi like siao sigh
ani wae i drove home frm bishan, eunice's place
wow rather fun first timw go express way haha
n not w my dad summore w my bro haha
went to like abt 110 lidat quite fun
but like 1+am no traffic then can lidat la
hafta prac more

ok today went to celeb py's bdae
HAPPY BIRTHDAE!!
eh we went to watch stepford wives at cine
a wierd show la but entertaining enuff
w gang n xinyi then went to coffee club to eat
nice seafood lasagne

then went to walk ard n soon enuff it was like seven + n we were at orchard mrt..
erm met my med og la
but in the end i pangseh them didnt go for dinner feel abit bad.,.. sigh
but met up w fareux la my rj og
vincent one fine day msg us n say try to revive our og so hmm
tink its quite a feat coz liek 8 pple turn up today
got vida yvette lesile vincent mi daisy kaiyi n ryan la
everione more or less the same la
but i guess two of the guys put on wt the other two turned skinnier dunnoe y
not so bad noe jing kuang of everione
hear countless army stories
hoe to kill frog snake mointer lizard..
it was ok la
thanx the pple for organising man

yea i noe today mi n py gotta see ahems la
but i nearer view abit
mr * (the name has been removed due to unforseen circumstances aka threat frm a recent bdae gal haha) put on quite abit of wt kept getting suan so haha
but i mean nothing liao la i guess
dont feel too excited of heart beat until wan to collapse or anithing
jus like fren n frens
so yea
guess im finally over it man

but tok tok st swensens
then left at like eleven they wan to play pool at cine but mother crowded so didnt then jus walk ard sum pple left
until like onli got five pple left
so we went to marriot hotel n sit n tok summore lor
gossip abt pple
didnt c the dnd pple
but in the end say another guitar rgs senior in med too so hmm but cant rem her name so oops
but yea i rem she s nice
mayb i go look ard 4 her next time

then wait 4 my bro n went home lor
tired tmr still haf tuition..
wat an eventful day haha

i feel sad angry tired happi well fucmost of the time neutral..
i m starting to get sick n tired of alot of things
things tt always happen
things tt i always do
low threshold of emotions
fuck
i dunnoe even noe wat i m feeling now
tink i need sum change
for the better or the worse
haha
no happiness no sadness wth is wrong?
cant sustain my sadness for more than an hr..
cant feel happy for more than half
shit
i noe certain things bother mi but i dont do anithing abt it
i jus dont
becoz most of the time huimin is jus fine w anithing
the person tt usually wont get angry
the person tt is always short tempered at home
i hate?
shit i was even apprehensive to type the word hate
jus as i m to type the word i love...
watever
i dont like the way i behave sumtimes but it jus cums out
no good no good
better b more conscious of life b4 its over
u ll jus b reduced to sum bones tendons muscles rite?
unconsciously i live i feel i see i hear
hmm
mayb tts y i stop excelling in things i do animore coz nothing realli bothers mi or at least i cant pin pt it sumtimes
this statment contradicts to the one i made earlier..
dammit

haha frm the site meter i guess everione stop visiting my blog coz i hafnt been writing..
well so much haf happened since erm 2nd aug?
there was the wk of rag n flag in sch where i kinda spent the whole wk asking be**ing for money haha not so bad la
pple either walk past mi as if im transparent or smile n walk away or nice enuff to stop n donate
sigh i dont realli like selling flags or flowers la
the more fun part was the savh ah pek n ah mmms
my partner was a funky 84 yr old ah ma who speaks fluently n rather happening la
my teochew sprouting skills finally came to good use i guess haha
discussing now big or pretty tt bird is n how nice tt wild plant was
n then my og rather on stay n help rag overnite on fri too...
but not so bad learnt how to pay 99, hearts, carom properly so yea
i pretty much like my og la
all the rather nice pple
can click w like all the girls n hit off v well w like iris jean santhya...
i tink one of the days went to stayover at huayu house cant exactly rem wat day
but she summoned mi n i was going to learn driving so i appeared at her door step at 11+
kena shot wierd looks by her family though haha
but yea drank chicken soup we manage to cook
oh it was thu coz serene was rather unhappi tt she missed her oc n asked mi if i taped but i didnt
haha
i rem now

as usual the documentary goes on
then sch started soon enuff
xia tian yi jing guo qu le
first day of sch was after national dae rite
cant realli rem
the dean toking
he was not as sleep inducing as the vice dean whu effortly coax mi to sleep
how in auspicious as i was trying to tell everione hah
slept in the first lec
but i m proud to say tt i hafnt slept at all for the rest of it till this dae
on listen try to process n scribble like mad
i feel tt its quite silly to scribble almost everithing the lecturer says la but i tink it is some self comforting shit thingy tt i do to not feel so bad la rite
when i dont understand wat is happening at least i can tell myself tt i tried to write down wat he said then can read up later
alot of words i cant spell then i anihow anihow haah
incoherent
read up i m obviously so behind tt i dont wan to tink abt it
cannot cannot muz constantly remind miself
shit
i even did my tut
not the whole thing but the first few qn la
feel like i m constantly mugging for an invisible exam tt ll cum sooner or later la
sian like shit
but yea mayb i shud drink mug root beer in a mug to constantly remind my self
feel an info overload la
but yea i kinda like sch i wud say better than slacking at least
more purpose n directn

n there was pbl
during the workshop mi n peiyun were the onli two silent introverts haha
but nothing to say boh pian too
n i dont like toking in front of strangers or like fighting for an opportunity to tok
so pple whu jus now mi owas tink i veri quiet
dunnoe whether tts n understatment or over statement
but it wasnt so bad the second time i guess
i got mi rather excited tinking abt all the things im going to learn like wat is myocardial infarction
but like i was toking to joyce tt day like in rg rj so long neva realli had to go try to fit in in new environ wif new pple so yea tink my social skills gotta hone abit more la
but not so bad my class got like some jokers then ok la

anat prac was rather exciting too
was abit scared to go in la
then not so bad aft all
wanted to take mani step bk when the prof thrust an arm into my face 4 us to haf a closer look
jus one arm n nothing else
haha
but the bodies haf their faces covered skin n some tissuse removed n peni* hanging so abit desentisized la
not so much of a person when looking at it
but yea we gotta treat it wif respect

my tut almost the same pple as the pbl gp
but got like hsien min oso
he jus hafta intro mi to the class as luohan
tot tt name was exclusive to rj judo haha

n had my driving test on tue
wa lau scared like shit
so much of prac went in b4 the test lor went into the circuit like mani mani times
then i stupid stupid always hit curb in crank n s until my papa oso buay tahan say i lan
sigh but on mon nite i not so bad liao la
on the actual day damn nervous la
my car stalled when i was on the slope then i scared alreadi
then cuming down the slope i didnt signal too
but the tester mr yik was nice
he tell mi "signal left signal left" "relax calm down" haha
not so bad la then the rest of the circuit was ok until i went into the crank
haha
i hit the curb at the first bend
then my heart jus dropped sianz
i flu n cant breathe so was taking deep breaths until the tester asked mi aft the test y i kept panting haha
but yea went out n everithing was fine
got one time he say i stopped too far behind the car wait pple ll stuff their head in to cut lane
but then it was ok aft tt
then went onto eunos link coz i route 7 mah
aft the u turn tired to change lane to left lane
then saw a giant lorry charging towards mi i hum n cut out again
he said its dangerous coz pple cuming frm the centre lane ll knock mi when i suddenly cum out
i guess so
then i saw him tinking furiously i tot sure die
but it wasnt so bad after all coz got the free one tick for first time make tt mistake.. haha
in the end i passed w -14
hee
happi like shit
when i came out saw my dad then show him then he oso happi like shit
he say like strike 4d lidat haha

n yea i can drive liao
hafnt tried alone yet la
but to gang if i haf chance i cum pick u all up 4 supper k
when i prac abit on my own first la
unless my dad is invited too haha

my fareux og fren jus msg
say got gathering on sat
wa sat so happening
PEIYUN'S BDAE
... in two days time!! r u excited?
then got n405, charlamagne, fareux gathering.. howhow??

haf been tired tired the whole wk
sianz sia
sch is more exciting then slacking la but tiring sia everidae oso hafta go out
on no better watch my sia or else like carol lidat haha
todae is a rather fruitful day i guess but wa macam so shopping competition lidat
went ikea then damn alot of pple bet it mus b coz got sale
tink i can brave thru all this crowd i rather zai liao hah
went to shop for shelves n desk for my bro
their rm jus went thru some major furniture arrangement then got space for him to but a giant desk
he starting to mug liao good for him
hope he can keep his enthu up
doing his tuts n attending ivle lec liao boy im impressed
went wif my mama dage erge
my dad not there or else is whole fam shopping activity
buti can so see him standing in a corner impatiently waiting for everithing to end la so sigh
bought mani mani things quite cool
saw like a M2 couple the guy look scary to mi hmm
nvm
aniwae wat a shopping exp
my bro set up everithing liao look cool
heng my dage got bread van can send everithing home or else mus waste 40bucks delivery

woke up at like 11+ today
read the papers on my bed kept falling asleep on it
haha omg it was heavenly
almost forgot tt feeling n it all came bk
this used to b my mus do activity everi sundae morn last time
but since i started teaching tuition on sunday morn since nov
neva did tt animore
how deprive
didnt even realise wat i was depriving my self off in my crazy workaholic stint to earn $$
i haf decided i wan to slow down my "career" or even stop
i dont care animore guess i haf attain the amt of $$ i wan to earn
neva tot $$ was veri impt to mi
i mean i veri low maintainence one lor
sigh
they all jus sit in bank onli feel good when can buy bks n laptop w no worries haha
^__^
wth nvm
this is wat i consider a little happiness in life
like i told serene my default is always not happi not sad
but this morn for tt little while i felt happi
abit of true happiness haha
jus coz i got to do such silly stuff
but i like it
i luv?
haha

aniwae yest oso quite happening
got tuition w my ahem erm f*a*v* cousin
haha
frm like 8+ to 12 haha but quite good can eat cheese suasuage n serve net haha
then go gathering w 3f
serene came along too
lunch at marche
like i say where else can we go?
might as well make tt the 3f lao di fang hmm
met w them toktok played pool haha was rather fun
although i didnt tok alot unlike usual but i guess i was jus looking at them
trying to rem how they look like i guess
like soon enuff they ll all be in like diff countries lidat
i wud say i like pple frm my class
nice funni pple la huh

went bbq w my og at nite at WCP
wa didnt noe tt place so happening
got family picincs malay kids pushing each other ard on trolleys got jap kiddy baseball team trng
saw the med pple not alot of pple turn up la but not too few too
my og git 5 m1 + VICKY haha
oh well
then got like 7 ogls i tink haha
not too bad they told us alot of stuff
nice
like how to pon lec this impt tt not impt
for a moment ks mi felt like taking notes
haha like i predicted cant realli rem wat they said exactly haha
i mus turn into a mugger?? haha wat a thought
aniwae we chopchop first to start fire n cook
iris bought the nice jelly hearts
nice to see good to eat wow
i like
then got nuggets otah n suasages haha
i didnt realli cook at all jus stand ard n wait for food oops :p
nice bbq fish too
then tok tok tracy has a funni laughter haha
n i had ALOT of fun poking potatoes
like some psycho getting kicks stabbing pple
ooo
haha then we chopchop first to leave
settled at macs n toktok summore
then went home lor
found another nel kaki alvin stays in punggol haha
it was quite fun la i wud say hang ard n tok not too bad but alot o pple didnt turn up though

ok la need to sleep n burn cd
i mean burn liao sleep
meeting mel tmr
hope the gathering is cheng kong

happi birthdae to caroline yubaba ahline partner ..
pleased to beat u? haha

wow hafnt blog since yimyee came so didnt noe of this colour thingy
okie wat haf i done since then huh...
gang went on our overnite stays at huayu's house n mine..
we went huayu's uncle house n i realli like the tea there...
well the first nite we tried to scare yy at airport but ended up missing her rite haha i challenged my heels though but realise cant run or balance on a bus w it la sianz
aniwae i felt abit awkward at first but glad tt i soon found the way she tok n laughed damn familiar n yea got comfortable
glad tt yy came
we had lotsa fun going sentosa altho it rained n going WWW
we went shopping for mian bao n pinic food for sentosa n had picnic... pple pls tink of mr wierd heh
haha tok tok late into the nite n the chao san si huh
cant believe i dreamt of huayu's dad offering it to us at breakfast the nite we ate it
juess his "yao bu yao chi shui guo" thingy threatening us w knife scared mi
everione stayed over at mi house on wed nite rite haha cant believe how 6 ppl can squeeze into my tiny rm heh
n serene n fel my ka gias (whu i noe haf been trying to overthrow mi) made mi do tt stupid dj-ing thing haha n i fell asleep
aniwae we took bus 27  like usual n yy left
haha heng we all didnt cry
but abit she bu de
hope she cum bk soon
or mayb next time we can all go over hk together
we went for k lunch aft tt rite
first time i c pple falling asleep in the ktv lounge haha
but yea kbox together then went home n sleep la
yy's visit came to an end
:s

then went to watch spidey man w judo pple i wore my spiderman tshirt for bossini n held the spideyman popcorn bucket to pose for a pic w the spidey man poster haha
we went to eat marche aft tt then got mini blackout haha
we went pofun's house a few days aft tt too rite? to swim  wa her pool the water extra cold n clear nice
then we went to play pool haha took damn long to finish one game haha
then went diaso to shop we were there for damn long
quite a cool place everithing 2dollar haha
then xinyi bought damn alot of things as ususal haha
then we went bk to eat eat n went home
bought my two korean handbooks tt teach mi korean n jap haha

then yepyep days went by n i went med camp on monday
hmm met peiyun n went then
we arrived rather earli then abit apprehensive
but we went n hmm my og is charlemagne
quite nice pple la n ogls quite nice too
so qiao my er ge's sec sch classmate khaiwei in my gp too
then got iris jean jocelyn santhya sunder cheemeng victor pple i kinda c b4 in sch last time
then got other pple frm other jc s too
painted the monkey flag on the first day jus coz mark shirt had tt print n we tot it was quite cute haha
2nd day had alot of games la...
dirty stuff like slide across the bench tt has dynamo ketchup egg to play shrek pass toothpaste w body parts n sick ur hair into dirty water sigh
the got troy building fortress w cardboard n haf waterbomb war
then learnt mass dance my partner is benjamin haha mi abit pshycomotor  but reminded mi of the raindance last time in rj
then all those games n stuff n fright/mambo nite lor
got the chucky station where the little girl ghost kept sitting on the ground looking scary then got the funni ghost tt kept hugging mi n the tall black ghost tt jumped out hmm
then got the rgs girl whu hanged herself coz her l1r5 is 32 haha
n her ah ma whu ll smile at u sinisterly aft she signed it
then sector charlie w the army ghost w make u pick ur his chang/liver haha
then went into the haunted toilet w daphne hahah she rather funni can scream damn loudly n i tried to giap the ghost w the toulet door as i tried to trap her inside dont let her cum out haha
3rd day went palawan
played all the watergames stuff rather sandy but ok la
got my black chaota tan tt onli serene cant see haha
campfire was se n boring n i fed so mani mosquitos tt i bet they mus b overweight n cant fly liao haha
played polar bear games n the pass-the-coin game haha till morning didnt sleep at all
plus all the 'intellectual' games haha
broke camp on thu morn oh mus tok abt the food got the surprising nice chee cheong fan in food warp the day b4 got cornflakes n then got roti prata oso
hmm

went to watch the judo finals at tpy aft tt
haha mi n pofun went sumo bento then almost fell asleep in there
aft eating we went downstairs n slept on the bench w our bags like sum run away kids lidat heh i woke up suddenly n saw pple staring aat us w tt disgusted look la 
then we move to the stadium to sleep haha
c girls won they look rather zai
c boys lost tink they still need more of tan&eng trng
b girls didnt play
b boys lost sigh
a girls lost too but guess they did their best la
reminded mi quite alot of us exactly a year ago scary how time passed by so fast
a boys won
omg its a match to rem i tink junming looked rather steady tink he put up a good fight but looked shattered when he was thrown
then justin rather impressed by him
my impression o him last time was like he try try then cant then ll defend n run ard but he didnt stop trying at all thruout tt 3 min yea commendable n he won
then emerson wow
hi tomonage cant b described la like the hc guy almost threw him lor trip him abit n he fell but as he was falling he tomonage him wa when the refeere called for an ippon both sides cheered la but we won haha
then jeremy another one like justin lidat kept trying shoulder throw althogh he's big hmm but he lost
budden tzeming won haha
steadily earned his koka n yukos haha
n we won!

i liked us singing the sch song aft the end of our competitions
a sense of belonging n pride hmm
yea we won

met up w huayu serene n py yest
hmm huayu recovered frm her water-bean liao
then she was rather angry w her bro
i understand
eat n tok hmm like wat we always do
serene kept saying like our last outing lidat but i dont tink so la...
haha had fun n met beng n sheryl hafing their sec 4 class outing

wa this shunfeng n ah chun ah tsktsk so drama but yea they met...
i shud go watch all the tv i wan today la
sigh sianz
sch starting tmr ...
then how then how
cant sleep till late late when i wan 
cant watch all the tv i wan sigh...
i shall resolute to stay afloat? haha jus dont fall bk on sch stuff la hor
yea ok to nus tmr la

haha wat a happening past three daes these past three daes haf been.
on tue aft cedric n nigel's tuition, angel asked mi to chinatown w her
she wanted to buy the spirited away little black bird which i told her can b found at lucky plaza n she wanted to used up tt $5 voucher tt i got when i went there w the judo gals b4 CNY to buy tt ninja top
the bra shop haha
but wow tt place was rather diff frm CNY most of the shops r closed then alot up for rental i guess no one wud noe tt little slide door tt leads to B2
but well she got her thingyy the black birds w the ultra skinny legs tt r rather flimsy,.,.
i told her i saw many leg-less bird of tt species n korea but she still bought it i guess haha
the scary shop keeper xiaofei is rather faggorty
but oh well the bra shop wasnt open so we decided to walk ard to check out china town
we walked n walked until we came to this street tt sells lotsa food in little push carts
b4 tt we saw this man wu ll make scultpures of ur face for $30 bucks his quite good but the little heads he making reminded mi of CHUCKY hhaa
then the food place.. its rather cool like angel says the 60s shanghai tan w like ghostly qibao-ed ladies walking ard haha

ahh cheated my feelings tot oc is here then in the end its ENCORE telecast of soccer-netherlands n portugal
oh ahaha got meteor garden

aniwae
we ated haha cha kauay tiao, BOH PIA!!, tangyuan, zha bingqiling, n KAYA BALLS... argh... i haf been traking kaya balls for yrs FINALLY!!
kaya ball is sumthing tt i like to eat frm amk central hawker centre haha but recent yrs i tink the little stall beside the fruit stalll close down liao so boh liao
we walked n walked n walked frm smith street to sago street to south bridge rd bk to pagoda street
haha saw all the cheena-cheena stuff n the pretty ZEN lamps tt cost like 100+
im suppose to buy angel one coz she like it
mayb i ll wait until she work n haf $$ n will buy one for each of us haha
then we went bk lucky plaza but the owner of the bra shop still not bk so we si xin alreadi
on our way home we went into the break talk shoppin mall w the giant popular
damn cheena oso haha all the zhong guo ren w the cheena feel in there
tink one day i can go there to cultivat abit of wen hua xiu yang too heh
we haf officially checked out chinatown frm exit A n found all da xiao chi place the cha siu thingy haha
cool place great company :)
then the BLACKOUT
haha rather happening
i hafnt realli exp such a big scale blackout in years
apparently the worst in 11yrs??
was on the phone w serene when i heard onli static frm the other end then realised there was a BO
my mama efficently lit candles frm the shen deng on the shen tai haha
my erge was downstairs heng didnt get stuck in the lift but hafta climb 15storeys out.
his soeed climbing was so fast tt was quite unbelivable so i tink he scared dark haha
then hung ard the living rm worrying abt my dad a while coz cudnt get him
the whole tpe was rather dark then scary lor
i was rather hum n scared as well
hehe
but in the end i took up my mama suggestion n went to bathe in the candle light
wow damn cold water yellow yellow light wat n exp
frm 10+ to almost 12 then the episode ended.

wed was rather eventful until it was uneventful
my gage had a tooth decay went to extract but aft two hrs of digging n scraping n tugging onli haf on if came out n apparently the root was attached to sum meatal bits when my bro had a jaw op abt 5 yrs ago
so yea had to go 4 dental surgery n since both my parents r not free the maid n chauffeur job was taken uo my mi n my er ge
haha but i good thing came out of it i guess my bro seemed to start to initate conversation btw themselves.
they got lost on their way there n since i was sleeping behind the van they had to discuss their way to nuh haha
the we took care of the admin stuff n my bro went n py popped by too
mi n my erge then had time to kill at nus for mani mani hours...
we went ard looking for the office of finance to get the tuition fee loan form
then got lost n kept turning ard nus mani mani times haha finally found
then went lunch at the sci canteen
the went to the van to sit for a while b4 it was time to go bk coz my bro came out of the ot liao
he look rather pain the got bloody gauze in his mouth w stiches on gum
the coz hafta stay in hospital for 8hrs b4 can use medisave to pay so we hafta hang ard frm like 1+ till four
at first mi n erge still hahah n download ring tones until in the end my dage sat on chair to eat porridge i buay tahan fell asleep on the hospital bed...i jus slept the kind nurse pulled the curtain for mi,..
hehe
then the doc came n suaned mi asking if i was the patient n i paiseh paiseh haha
then i heard my bro didnt take any painkillers coz he didnt noe wat he was allergic to... hmmm
mus haf been quite pain
wow then we went home w eunice
n my bro they all sent mi to bayshore for tuition

talked to the dr teo abit
found out tt she was wow rather cool
hafta take care of the small middle n large one hope she is doing fine.
as our tuition came to an end a jap girl came in to share the reading rm..
i knew she was jap frm the look n her translating stuff
realli wanted to go start a conversation n chitchat abit for fun laa
but like paiseh so dilemma
haa then wadee started asking mi abt metero garden n i told her abt it was a jap comic n tt was when the girl looked up n smile n told us she was jap
then we chitchat
abit n realised tt shes minobu.
she 23 came to spore to b air stewardess aha n she tot i was my tuition kid classmates... hahah shes frm fukuoka
quite cool la tot to her for fun n she missed her home so sad haha
she say she stay in japan all the short short houses then look forward to the high rise place in spore tink mani sporeans tink the other way huh
but fun toking to her all da best man

thu
last day of tuition at cedric n nigel
i fa bi qi abit in the end n they ended up quite scared haha
but i tink they gettig to lazy n slack always chitchat n tok nonsense,.. sigh
but i guess it came to an end took pic w them n stuff
they were quite fun to teach like
boys will always b boys
the way the tink the funni things they tell u haha damn funni
cedric is the trying to act cool age will nigel always zhuang ke ai like wat cedric always say
haha rather like to sa jiao so
haha
the maid is nice too venjie
will rem her great food
in the end nigel msg mi the over teh rainbow ring tone her composed haah sweet.
hope they like my erge la
haha i showed them his photo as they requested like matchmaking lidat then i was the meiren...
haha

came home phobe cancelled tuition so had time n went to rm
bought my first pair of HEELS
always wanted to challenge the high stuff
three inches
n they cost onli 9 bucks
yea good buy
bought at the bata clearance sale haha
but test wore of 10min at home then my ankle feels wierd liao so haha
hope i can lian until can run in them
hmm need a good day to challenge them...
haha quite fun..

tmr at ecp w beng at manda :)

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It isn't the thing you do, dear,
It's the thing you leave undone
That gives you a bit of a heartache
At setting of the sun.

The tender word forgotten,
The letter you did not write,
The flowers you did not send, dear,
Are your haunting ghosts at night.

The stone you might have lifted
Out of a brother's way;
The bit of heartsome counsel
You were hurried too much to say;

The loving touch of the hand, dear,
The gentle, winning tone
Which you had no time nor thought for
With troubles enough of your own.

Those little acts of kindness
So easily out of mind,
Those chances to be angels
Which we poor mortals find --

They come in night and silence,
Each sad, reproachful wraith,
When hope is faint and flagging,
And a chill has fallen on faith.

For life is all too short, dear,
And sorrow is all too great,
To suffer our slow compassion
That tarries until too late;

And it isn't the thing you do, dear,
It's the thing you leave undone
Which gives you a bit of a heartache
At the setting of the sun.

~ M. E. Sangster ~

issit apt for mi or wat?
wat i dislike/hate abt miself
i procrastinate rather a lot in studies which is gifing mi nightmares nowadays sch's starting in life generally
tts y my rm can look like a ware house for mths
ming ri fu ming ri huh?
the poem tt was drilled into my head in higher class in pri sch last time
tmr i ll pack my rm
tmr i ll ...
tmr tmr tmr
sumtimes things pass u by
things tt u shud haf said or done
things tt u shud haf noticed
things tt u shud do when u promise
i dont like to promise pple anithing animore
sumtimes i not keep them
i feel bad abt it
sickening
but jian ku tou or sumthing jus keep doing it again n again
sianz sickening
hate is too strong a word itself n for mi
so is love
i guess
scary how i dont feel much abt mani things
i m realli not sure is it coz i realli cant b bothered or i jus dont feel it
but it is not a conscious effort i m certain
like huayu says i jus take things as it cums along
i dont like to disappoint
i try to b nice
i dont like confrontation
i dont speak my mind alot
i keep to myself most of the time?
i forget unhappy things
then days seem to b eassier
y do i wan days to pass by more easily?
haha silly qn
aniway my unhappiness jus left see wa so forgetful now chatting w frens
scary how pple jump in n out of emotions so easily
mayb coz i was veri moody n drastice when i was younger then it was hard la so now this is mi striking a balance dunnoe la hah


＂人原来是这样健忘的.同样的一个人在短短的时间内竟然变换了两个面目.
过后他又想,大概正因为这样健忘所以才能够在痛苦中生活下去."
~觉慧~

＂往事依稀浑如梦
都随风雨到心头"
~梅~

家--巴金

omg watched windstruck today
the first show tt i felt like watching again once as the show was cuming to an end
it has the funni hahaha parts of course
like the part myungwoo prentended to b a serial killer/rapist n mad the laoda kneel in front of hime
like the jyungjin role playing to b princess part n the ghost w hoping hair/wig, the janghyuk dressed like a jester haha
of course the nice sweet part
my fave was da books
the comic turn anime when u flip the pages? aww
the e sad part. i wont forgive them if the let him die there but i guess the ending i cant sae anithing liao la didnt noe so many things can happen 49days aft he die...
y change to wind when u die huh? carefree omnipresent
but cant b seen ya onli the paper plan
when the paper plan reappeared i knew i wud b the same one he tore out frm the mag
i knew it
the ultimate twist wats my sassy boy appearing walauuu
but i guess its realli touching la
i didnt cry like shit like my two kakis
but haha enuff to moisturize e eyes
hafnt cry damn hard for a lont time haha mayb i ll the next time i watch the show again la... i used to cry like shit at sad sad tv movie parts but too long neva use might b abit rusty haha
pple looking for a good laugh at the movie or at the funni lady sitting diagonally in front w funni laughter tt ends later than everione else in the cinema shud go watch
i wont want to b wind when i die though..
eh i not sure gotta tink abt it la
but tot the haleluya part of the light when he has to go was abit like bruce almighty ha
nice show

had a freaky dream this morn.. tink its coz i slept too earli last nite...
as usual theirs always common test n the two days b4 tt aka sat when the first paper starts on monday i hafnt started studying yet.. like wats new huh
but its the sickening oh shit feeling
n oso the sickening self denial can one dont worry i ll make it
thne start planning ok first wk onli got 2gp papers n one phy
not so bad at least no phy n chem papers together
get past these 3 papers first la
then can chao pia for the rest
the sickening aftereffect of life long procrastination
didnt noe how i survive my jc yrs lidat
going into test exams unprepared
skipping most of the qn until u finished the paper miraculously fast
then i woke up
hafnt wake up at 8 feeling rested for a freaking long time
three tuition today wats new
n thu i haf got four haha
oh beng now wed is the best dae if kbox is still onz
coz i decided to dump one of my wed tuition on thu so tt i can go nus for checkup
tinking tinking how i can slowly give up all my tuition
feel abit distrubed dunnoe y like abit sad to leave
but i m seriously dying to
wat a paradox
like the issit ming zhong zhu ding or ren ding sheng tian shit tt i haf been trying to figure out
wow tts an improvement : mi tinking abt stuff lidat

on thu nit i melted my bros expensive tie
i was trying to iron it for my dad
for the ocbc sship presentation
i turned on the iron went over once
the iron hasnt heated up yet
the the front door opened n my dad n bro r bk
then i went bk to ironing aft tellin my dad its compulsory to wear a tie tmr
put the iron bk on the tie n it freaking melted in fornt of mi wif a funni smell somemore
dammit
felt realli stupid n lousy when my mum jumped of her bed when i put the iron down immediately
sigh as usual i got rattled off
i officalli cant cook iron use the washig machine n mani mani more things at home
i boast the ability to make realli nice beds n sweep??
not being too sastified f my ability to do chores huh

the next day was the the presentation went to take a train n bus w my dad n he kinda didnt noe where to tap the ezlink card on the bus haha
we were lost in the cbd area n walked a realli long way when the bank is rather near the mrt
walked all the way ard the ocean towers
concret jungle huh
then we were earli n waited at the bk nearby
the person at the counter was rather unfriendly sigh
n had the lunch thing at the executive club
i hafta go bathe to go tuition liao
its going to b a long dae ahead.............

ooo forgot to finish up my blog after all in haha
lifeguard zhuxiaotian is also known as harry buatoh ahah if he slips n fall
i m still rather chao-ta mayb my baoying always go laugh at pple say the chao-ta
its rather fun la toking to my ah yi
then she was telling my little cousin abt my nickname last time the one she gave mi
i haf so mani mani thruout my 19yrs hard to list them down
she used to call mi han bao bao aka hamburger
due to the cheeks thingy
even my tuition kid find it amusing tt my cheek shake when i shake my head too haha cant help it la
those were the days when i was still little kena abused n pinched haha
my aunt was saying she had to help out at my grandma's funeral
to help my mama look aft us when my parents were busy w the funeral prep
my mum hanged my sarong beside the coffin n my auntie had to shake the sarong to coax mi to sleep budden aft a few days she had nightmare tt a coffin was chasing her haha
erm...
was telling my mama how i tink its veri hard bringing up kids n i so dont see myself doing it or being able to do it
sigh its not our prob yet but scary
saw yongyong the kid my aunt is nanny-ing when i go tutor my cousin
he's realli realli cute n chubbby
the perfect epitome for a bundle of joy
1/2way thru tuition he woke up n my cosn went to burp him but he end up vomitting out all the milk he drank
walau like a hose lidat
scary rather alot n abit on mi too
i got scared n jumped out of the way realli kena freaked
haha kids r veri hard to look aft man nice to c good to touch can play w it but 24hr?
unless u r realli readily if not..
told my mama then she told mi i was famous 4 puking
i puked for a wk mani mani times a day for everi baby teeth tt grew
i willl puke until there's nothing left to puke until i start puking green liquid
the doc say the green stuff came frm my gut. bile?
bilirubin/biliveridin
cant rem the spelling damn
budden i start to puke when i c the med then hafta stuff the pill up my ass
nothing helped my dad tot i cudnt make it haha
i puked so much in the sarong i almost drowned myself coz the milk was covering my head my mama had to suck it out frm my nose..
eww
no wonder so mani mani pple get postnatal depression
my er ge famous for running high fever
my da ge for diarrhoea
haha
weird symptoms huh
bringing up kids is such an ardous task tt i tink pple shud tink tink b4 they embark on it
but then there wont b enuff babies n the dependency rati will b screwed
sigh
i saw mani mani butterflies these few days
they r everiwhere
butterflies used to b scary coz of mi li ye
budden now no more
haha
i saw a realli puny one like one segment of my finger cant realli c the insect but the colour is a typical common butterfly colour so i assumed it is
watched zhang hong liang at a fei yu qing singsong show
he's the guy wbu sang ni zhi dao wo zai deng ni ma? n mei li de hua hu die
he say tt pple like butterflies or get fascinated over them coz they r veri diff frm humans
we die when we grow old.. usually
when our bodily functions start to not function when we look wrinkly n ugly
we turned frm pretty at our prime to ugly at our end
but a butterfly is diff
it was an ugly caterpillar n thru metamorphosis
it turned into a beautiful butterfly n die in its prim
tt maes them so beautiful
didnt tink of it this way b4
now my interest in spotting butterflies kena aroused
haha
n i found another pretty plant along punggol rd at one of the landed property
haha
another type of weed is getting my attention as well
beside the kind w purple flowers
there is another species w white ones
darn
since when was i into botany
but not too bad la
i start to c mani things tt pple might jus missed if they walked too quickly
such as life
went to support amanda at spore idol on sat
she got in to second rd of auditions
CONGRATS MANDA!!!

wow tired jus got home
haha finalli got a glimpse a better one into my dad's life
the uncle at kopitiam w lots of beer bottles watching soccer haha i was one of them jus now too watching euro 04
i always wonder y they so free aft work like to hang ard don wan to go home n sleep
but my dad say tt's how the relac
all the buddy buddy will hang ard together n chit chat n eat
haha i mus say they r goumets
i ate so much too full to sleep liao
the veri fresh steamfish tofu doumiao at changi rd
nice
the display is quite cute
the raw fish marinated lightly in metal plates at the display counter w price plagcards
u point they cook 4 u straight away
haha i neva c raw fish display b4
ate w two other uncles
jus a few hrs spent w them gain rather alot of insight
haha
both r taxi drivers
the older one look like my dua pek
tt ll mean he look like laofuzi
he's organs r all failing n his body is so messed up internalli tt he's finalli abstaining frm alcohol
he has been drinking n smoking for so many many yrs
he n my dad has this frenship going they look quite cute haha
they say his engine overhaul liao
then another third uncle offered his alcohol he say he will hold his funeral if he drink animore the other jokingly say he can give him advance condolence $$ for him to spend
erm...
rather funni
mayb if i cum the age when toking abt dying among peers doesnt sound stupid aha
but i kinda like him
a haha man tt enjoys food
he's da crab king
wow the way he manouver n pick up all the bis of crabmeat haha
i learnt the srilanka crab has the thinnest shell followed by vietnam then indonesia has crab w thickest shell sso lesser meat not as nice
the uncles tok abt soccer politics lky as muhouheishou haha
sengsiong supermarket education ministers health issuse
u name it they haf comments abt it n they sound logical man
ignorant mi haha
insightful nite wif the three uncles
coffeeshop food is great abit of flies cockroach scurry by no aircon but the company is good i guess
the third uncle is my dad's army fren
they knew each other since 1974 wow 30yrs
my earliest fren tt i still keep in touch mayb abt 12 yrs onli haha
by the time i noe my fren for 30yrs n they will still zhio mi to go sit at coffeeshop n arrange to go eat nice food haah tt wud b great
30yrs
i rather dread hafing to say im entering my 20s
cant we stay in 10s for long?
but such as life bohpian la
wat a nite
my driving needs improvement tink my dad say i no need to pay $$ so bohchap bohchap
jialat i better buck up :s

gotta finish b4 my all in starts then i can drool over my leebingxian haha
jialat i dun wan to b sum hua chi but my byo shuai ge activity seems to b more frequent since going swimming w angel last sat..
jialat haha all the swimmers ard but i rather blind w /o specs so cant realli c la
onli knew a se peh peh kept swimming ard us i scared
tink my cousin attracted him haha then we had to swim near the life guard to feel safer... but she tot mi alot of things like how to sit at the bottom of the pool n go deep sigh tink i need more prac haha
then saw this sickening metro guy whu kept 自摸 ing haha
he applied under his arms btw his legs wow haha

tokig abt swimming i m so totally cao-ta now haha frm white to black? haha
went wild wild wet or wet wet wild haha yest
rather fun la w ah man ahyi they all my cousins darling mingming xiaonaozhong n of course H.E.A.L
haha
cute yang guang life guards got the ahpek kind oso la haha
if i rank 1) dyed hair guy w red float whu "saved" angel
2)zhu xiao tian
3)braces la haah
aiyoh all in here .... ll b bk

woo...

SWF

single. white. female.

watched the show again on axn.. jus got scv scary man.
its this bian tai girl whu cant forgive herself then start assuming other pple's identity
this bian tai thriller freaks me out man
like talented mr ripley
identity
scary
i wonder how much it take for someone to snap
i mean i haf my biantai moments like when i see a motorcycle cut across three lanes to drive out of a slip rd... i can imagine a car coming towards him at high speed n running him over. he flew across the rd n land on my windsceen shattering it.
all this i can see in my head the split sec aft the motorcycle drove by
sick
but tt's the furthest i ll go
when allison stabbed hedi with a freaking screw driver i cringed
hedi threw away her own identity went to stay with diff rm mates try to get accepted try to b like her roommate where her clothes her perfume seduce her boyfriend
is she realli tt lonely?
with the harsh cynical world out there u haf no where to hide. realli.

im lucki
dont wan to b some bian tai... altho pple always tell mi once in a while i might entertain bian tai thoughts but well they jus come but as a joke most of the time

spent some time at the library todae
i guessed since i started tuition-ing full time the lib is the place i go to most
before tuition in btw tuition aft tuition
like it there.
i mean there r so many bks there i wan to read tt looks interesting
realli enjoying the luxury of reading for pleasure
tink i wont haf such time next time
so enjoy while i can i guess
i talk non-sop during my job but travelling the rest of the day dont realli tok to anione but tt's the time i either noticing pple or go travel in my own world haha

on a lighter note,
watched shrek II on tue
oh i still owe xiangyun 8.50
i tink it has more plot kept mi rather excited like will he make it in time or will charming still tt kiss n make fiona like him?
the muffin man is scary haha like marshmallow man in ghostbusters last time..
they where showing it ghostbusters on vesak dae... to tink it used to scare mi haha rather funni in a stupid way
like mi li ye as well
i guess perception changes. the same movie watch thru the same pair of eyes how diff can it get? but it sure feeels diff haha
but i prefer the first shrek
it was more cartoonish more down to earth good fun
the second one is funni too but sir JUSTIN n farbucks was rather ultimate.
they even drew justin timberlake out haha
its more cabaret.. like wat simon wud sae
more glitzzy hollywood like with like the oscar's red carpet n stuff but not too bad
the malu thing tt happen tt night was xiangyun n i entering the wrong theatre
my seat was k 11 theatre 4
jus as i was settling down making myself comfortable in my seat a couple came in n the guy was like "erm our seat is k10 n k11"
i was like "mine's k11, this is not theatre 4 meh??"
then he insisted it's theatre 2 n aft confirming with our neighbours we found out tt we went into the wrong theatre. haha wa lau damn paiseh n i still tot tt he's the blur guy haha
oops
we fled holding our illegal guava drink frm mrs fields

oh well nice show great company la cant ask for more..

tuition tmr.. life goes on
\o_o/

today as i was going home, i saw the evening sky. it was beautiful. clear pale blue realli blue with abit of clouds tt was moving rather quicly.. it made me see n feel the wind much more
n the greyish-white moon in the clear blue sky
with the sun setting, it became more obvious.
it looked peaceful but abit lonely n sad
i was alternating btw looking up at the sky n looking at the rd in case i trip n fall
a guy walking towards me was wondering wat i was looking at n looked up into the sky as well
haha it wasnt a jus for laughs jag but it wud haf been funni, mayb if i pointed?
heh but he realli ought to thank me
for showing him sumthing so pretty.
today i tot i saw him again.
i looked at the guy frequent enuff for him to glare at me haha
three n counting...

recently i hafnt been feeling too good leh the irony is it coincides with my bdae celebration which made mi veri happi but the mood fluctuation was rather drastic
happi angry sad
angry with myself most of the time though. mayb coz the stress level was rather high n the time management shit i had done.
i was kan cheong kan choeng abt the med letter
then had to go for the seminar for my bro coz the freaking ticket was $145 haha
budden i had to admit it was rather cool la learnt quite alot see alot of rick rich buisness man haha then all the heh shake hand shake hand build network kinda pple
the place along the kallang river quite nice n windy la haha if nothing to do go there n sit oso not bad..
then went to eat with serene huayu n peiyun at borders... tink the crayon idea is great haha...
tt fri marks the start of my bdae celeb haa not realli la but abit heh
then sat went ns went kick box went cartel went to watch day aft tmr went to marche for class gathering went to xiangyun's bbq all in a dae ha
kickboxz abit bit sad dont haf liao gotten quite use to this sat activity then aiya like juliana la i guess he stretching n cool downs rather cool haha got all the funni sound like waterfall kind of cooling music then did the troy sowrd fighting thing heh trinity the talkative auntie n of course caroline amanda xian's company haha
but all things come to an end i guess
can go watch spongebob square pants with huiyi n then discuss
it her haha apparently its quite a deeeeeep show heh xiangyun likes it too
the judo gals gave mi a pair of blue slipplers with lots of green buttons n sequine haha tot i wud neva wear anithing with sequine but oh well haha
they r realli nice i like can go with my green giodarno shirt haha
all the exchanging slippers thing at ri toilet.. tsk ying1 mou2
haha
then my gang celeb my bdae with mi.. at ps cafe cartel.. and guess wat gang gave me haha
things tt shock mi with everi tear of those newspaper ie classified ad n main paper.
there's
julie's stereo rich chocolate cookie instead of oreo.
chocky strawberry stick instead of pocky
mili mushroom instead of narcissus mushroom
mi-u white grape instead of qoo
twinkles milk chocolate beans * 3 instead of smarties
president cup noodle instead of super
kickapoo joy juice instead of mountain dew
plus clairol herbal essence fruit fusion conditioner tt has papaya starfruit mandarin wow rather powerful smell haha
the pink jewel biscuit with two pig ears n a little yellow one haha
and of course the little korean jinseng drink tt if i keep long enuff it might jus become a jinseng spirit honestly i dont dare to drink i haha
peiyun gave mi a purple eeyore cup nice dont bear to use its a mugger mug la next time can use when i start my no life mugging haha
oh well this is gang giving mi presents tt no one else in the world can tink off haha making mi take pics tt make mi look crazy oh well huayu tink tts happy but erm
thanx pple for all da effort n haha-ness
went perlini silver ot use the bithday thing tt 50% discount thingy made mi visit the shop three times la bought this big earrings mus find an occassion to wear la
then went to watch the day aft tmr..
wat a show so geog but i like the weather signs r reallli cool hurrican tsunamis omg... scary n disturbing man
ice ae? i guess it might come i mean not so soon la butin many many years hopefully by then some one might think of sumthing but if everione dies hope sumthing can b left behind so lesson can b learnt...
wat if we ll die tmr ?
i like geog i mean the weather is so powerful it kill pple like flies la,..
i mean looking at cumulonimbus clouds or cirrus for tt matter make mi rather happi haha
oh well if i die tmr, i ll jus dieno regets erm i hope
went to meet 3F at marche
a long long table i came rather late but glad i got to see them
soon enuff we will all be heading into diff directions in our lives literally n metamorphically.
know them for two short yrs but jc life was wow...
so guess i ll tink of them sumtime but might not get a chance to see them in a long long while aft those whu r going overseas go overseas..
tok chit chat tok n as usual when i tok they kept laughing dunnoe y veri fuuni meh but oh well glad i entertain pple
went to cherry hill xiangyun's uncle place at almost 10+
i forgot its her grandma's bdae bbq when she told mi then i remembered her telling mi
i tot it was onli a fam gathering
so i felt realli REALLI bad for missing her grandma coz she went home 10min b4 i arrived
tt was realli impolite of mi la
n mi n her grandma so good fren i realli like her
tt started the spiral of my bad mood for the nite
angry with mi self for screwing up being late n missing grandma
oso angry i forgot to tell huayu to call my dad until she almost cant learn on sun morn
damn pissed with myself la n the ultra eventful sat frm 7am to almost 12 midnight running ard
sigh
n angry with my self for losing my temper with my parents my bro everithing la
n the constant nagging thought tt i ought to b happi coz sun is my bdae but i seem to b screwing up everi where argh...
watched all in until i cant open my eyes animore
then sleep
then cums sunday haa
went tuition blegh
but i dont realli mind la actualli
trying to help as much as i can la then when i cant realli teach liao argh cant imagine how i can arrange my time
n xiangyun's suggested accomodation
tinking tinking tinking
saw zhiying's elder sis's tuition teacher who is a M2 student mugging her tink med bk will the kid is doing maths haha
sighon my way home i saw butterfly tt didnt seem to b flying too steadily n abit too low among the bushes
on a closer look tt butterfly actualli had a chipped wing
ike a giant hole on one of its wing sigh
felt rather sad for it like so poor thing
a handicapped butterfly
or as john floppe the guy w/o both arms says,
its a condition not a disability depending on how u view it
life's hard i guess
then mona lisa's smile
the shows not too bad reminded mi of rgs like serene says
smartie girls whu dont complain when their teacher dont seem too steady n wud rather self study
but tradition tradition?
women's place in the society the idea of tradition n the 50s
i guess its slowly spiralling into non existence now with women finding their place in society searching for their footing..
i tink being a housewife is a whole new science by itself which i tink entails so much most of us girls cant take it now i dont even noe when i ever ll b... but its not in the near future let alone the further future so sigh
giselle's lonely daring but nice n diff enuff
betty is ms omg-hafta-roll-my-eyes smartie ass
i cant realli figure out how she can love watson so much after her marriage went bad
girls tradition oppression
glad i m not in all those
but they r actualli work in producing fine women with propierty but pple obessed with tt scary
the onli prob i haf in tt show is looking at julia roberts cant make mi feel its 1954. she looked like how she did in my best fren's wedding or pretty woman?
her clothing kinda suggest she's suppose to b in tt era but kinda.
O_o"
mayb she has a modern face but the character is there i feel no doubt.
nite is fam dinner.
all three of us r rather grown up now when i linger behind looking at the backs of my fam members haa
went to a jap restaurant called nabeya masakatsu at orchard parade hotel.
the food is not too bad.
i went for the sukiyaki but i didnt get it but oh well its ok my dad mum n dage dont realli eat beef
n my mum hates miso
haha guess jap food dont realli clique with them too well haha
ate the hot pot huo guo kinda thing n shared three bento n guess wat everione was still hungry haha
was tinking of judo guys cant survive on 1 bento my bros are of tseming's size.. hah
so er ge suggest we go get kfc
like the good old days
we didnt realli haf alot of fast food when we were yound coz it was too much of a luxury but haha everi bdae we always had kfc
so off we went n my dad suggested the amk one the exact one we used to go too when we were all kids
amk brings bk memories many many
n i guess tt how fast time went scary ya noe
now i kinda feel a teeny weeny bit daunted by med like no life ani more
im excited but abit nervous but well..
i can do it.
so aft a kfc family fest we went home to eat cake.
my mama baked a chocolate cake for mi with the icing n the name on haha
well the cake down i cudnt move hafing ate three times for a fam dinner haa
then the day ended good with my fav show wif tt cute guy i liked so well haha
today is monday went bay shore for tuition
wadee drew mi a bdae note in the notebk i write her hw in haha
i had to turn the page to write n i saw her covering her face with her asssessment bk.. i tot she saw sum bug n was trying not to scream
but she was trying to contain her excitment to await my surprise look when i saw the note haa
tt's sweet.
on my way home out along the long rd tt i hafta walk on i saw a pretty yellow bird lying on the pavement
i looked at it n its eyes were close.
didnt noe birds r suppose to haf eye lids
it looked realli still
still.
i guess it died i cant b sleeping, can it?
jus then when i didnt noe wat to do. my hp rang n it was shelia frm ocbc bank n i had alot to asked her i wanted to do sumthing
but i turned n saw the security guard looking
i dint noe y but i fled i jus walked away
dont noe y mayb i didnt realli noe wat to do with it/to it
at the junction i saw the bus n i ran for it
onli when i boarded the bus did i start to regret not stopping to move it
mayb move it to the grass patch or sumthing so tt no one wud accidentally step on it? or no bicycle might run it over n kill it again?
i dont noe y didnt i do anithing n jus walked away sigh
but it looked so peaceful tt i didnt realli dare to touch it
like its so delicate bright yellow
i had a thing with birds i dont realli now how to touch them like i might jus break their bones coz they r so small n delicate
a bird one got trap in the window grill of my home n cudnt get out
i couldnt hold it to release it coz it looked panicky n so was i
i opened one side of the grill on finally it hopped out but i didnt leave b4 hopping onto my parents bed n television
wat a bird.