Subject: dArk siDe Of u.. i find it quite true..

Capricorn (dec 22 - jan 19) You are rather materialistic and it is fueled by your fears of financial disaster. this makes you complain about monetary woes, irritating many with your obnoxious attitude. you can also be a social climber, manipulating your way up the ladder; name-dropping all the way to the top. once in a while, you'll have morbid thoughts about death something that scares you because you have no control over it. you tend to be obsessive about your mortality sometimes.
Advice Stop worrying about losing money, and you'd rid yourself of unfounded nightmares. stop manipulating others and you'll be free to concentrate on attaining your goals. get rid of your phobias and you'll be able to relax more and enjoy yourself.

Aquarius (jan 20 - feb 18) You tend to be too idealistic and naive sometimes. practicality gets thrown out of the window by you many times. cool and aloof, you rarely want to deal with deep emotions. you like to give advice but don't like to receive it. and ideas and inspirations that you sometimes neglect or follow through with them are constantly bombarding you. or else you are constantly shifting focus, giving people the idea with no staying power.
Advice Take time to explore your private feelings. not all people see things your way. and just because you come up with ideas, don't expect other people to do all the work for you. learn to trust people and accept advice.

Pisces (feb 19 - mar 20) You are an escapist - you have this knack of avoiding issues if they seem unpleasant. you delve into past memories to escape your present woes. there is also a tendency towards alcoholism and even drug abuse - you are on a search for some kind of 'high'. you also love to flirt and too much of it may send the wrong, dangerous signals out to other people. once in a while, a dark mood will descend on you and you become rather unsociable and withdrawn.
Advice Trust your instincts, but also be in control of your perceptions. whenever the escapist tendency hits you, join a seminar or get a pep talk from a friend to get your perspective right.

Aries (mar 21 - apr 20) A warrior at heart, you thrive on challenges and any strife and dramas, you are tempted to stir things up, just to keep yourself happy. you are also rather intolerant of mistakes and don't have patience for weakness or failings in others. and sometimes, you can be quite a snob as well you like to be seen at the right places or wear the right clothes. and you're also prone to bossiness. your restless nature may make you quit a project suddenly if you can't sustain the interest.
Advice Get off your high horse and pay your dues before people will accept you. learn to be more tolerant of others and try to see the other person's side of the story. if you believe in what you do, you can move mountains.

Taurus (apr 21 - may 20) You are stubborn and like to hold onto things, not wanting to let go of anything or anyone. you are slow to anger, but when you do get worked up to a rage - everyone step aside! you also have a selfish streak and can be quite sneaky as well. and although people may see you as helpful and agreeable, you sometimes have an inner struggle wanting the approval of others while sticking to your own opinions. you also tend to be suspicious of others and question their motives.
Advice Stop being mean and try to be nice. learn to forgive and let go of your past disappointments. learn from your mistakes and have faith in yourself and others as well.

Gemini (may 21 - jun 21) Your devil-may-care attitude sometimes could bring harm to yourself - you tend to live on the edge sometimes. many of you believe that you don't deserve success, somehow feeling guilty for it. you may give others too much of yourself sometimes that you lose yourself. you may be prone to suppressing motions as well. and at times that makes it difficult for you to accept affection and love.
Advice Work at listening to others and don't be tempted to try daring devil stunts all the time. and try doing something for yourself and once in a while, in between, doing favors for others. you're human, after all.


Cancer (jun 22 - jul 22) You can get carried away with emotions - your anger is overwhelming and your sadness can depress all those around you. you're also ultra-sensitive to other people's emotions and are affected by these as well. you tend to react before you think and then brood about what you may have done or said wrong. you are also prone to periods of morbidity, thinking dark thoughts. feelings of insecurity creep in now and then, making you snappish or else you try to win the approval of ev! eryone at your expense.
Advice Accept that you are hypersensitive to emotions and work with yours. go with the flow and by doing the right thing, you set an example for others. work with others and this will help build your confidence and open you up.

Leo (jul 23 - aug 22) On the rare occasion you lose your temper, you can turn into a savage beast. you seem to need an audience as well, to help boost your confidence and ego, sometimes. other times, you get caught up in the outward dramas of your life that you neglect what you're feeling inside. this results in a delayed reaction when emotions sneak up on you and you get hit with a whammy. you also tend to be proud and aggressive, cloaking these with your charm. when things don't go your way, you get impatient and may even throw a tantrum.
Advice Learn to spend some! time alone with yourself and get to know yourself better. and learn to experience your emotions at the moment; don't store them up for another time. and know that not all means justify the ends.

Virgo (aug 23 - sep 22) You have a martyr complex, feeling that you were put on this earth to do good work and not receive any credit for it. you tend to be ultra critical of yourself and others and you also worry about things that are beyond your control. a little pessimistic sometimes, you tend to be an intellectual snob. you bottle up all your insecurities and fears, and hesitate to reach out for help. and once in a while, you become a busybody that's when you also feel responsible for other people's problems.
Advice Modesty has its own limits - take credit for your efforts. give yourself a break and know that! you do not have to be successful in everything you do. keep focused and don't get tangled in other people's affairs too often.

Libra (sep 23 - oct 23) Your inability to reach a decision in matters of personal action is legendary. you like to weigh all the alternatives and hear every side of an argument - but this may take time and opportunities may pass you by because of it. you also like to expand energy on people who may not deserve it - you want to help the underdog. you are also sensitive to criticism and may take mild statements of fact very personally.
Advice Follow your instincts and act on them - stop sitting on fences. don't blindly trust people; learn to be a little more discriminating in your offers of help. learn to think for yourself and don't be swayed by persuasive tongues.

Scorpio (oct 24 - nov 21) You have a revengeful streak and a long memory for past hurts. sometimes you're downright spiteful. when you suffer, you make sure others suffer along with you. sometimes, you may even use deception to get what you want and to influence others to stay out of your way. you may even believe these untruths and unrealistic fears will grow on you. once in a while, you may come across someone that just rubs you on the wrong side for no apparent reason and you make it your mission to bury him or her.
Advice Flight the negative emotions that arise in you, and resentment will not sour your life. don't' give into temptation to tell lies, learn to conquer your strong tendency towards revenge and things will fall into place for you.

Sagittarius (nov 22 - dec 21) You've got a big mouth and unwittingly hurt an insult people with it. you can even go to utter strangers and give unsolicited advice and comments. you also seem to enjoy verbal duels with others whenever you can. and you sure can make sore losers, even suspecting foul play if things don't go your way. you have a knack for confrontation and you can't resist being sarcastic. you also don't think too much of many people, because you have mild superiority complex. vanity is also a trait in many of you.
Advice Learn with whom you can be frank otherwise keep your comments to yourself. discretion is the better part of valor. curb your cockiness, and you can combine it with your concern for serious issues, aiding in your search for truth.

beng sent this to mi haha q true huh.

yest's batch reunion was ok onli. abit boring.. hope my classmates dont regret listening to mi cuming :p coz they left earli when there was nothing to do.. paiseh paiseh
the music wasnt too bad towards the end..
but realise tt i dont realli miss the sch too much...
its jus experiences tt i remember and im grateful for but tts abt it i tink
but the parade sq is nice, in the new building w the sunset n nightfall n stars at night realli q nice

last wk of work startg tmr.. prob b treatg pple.. cant thanxk them enuff
n thu... O_o"

it's 1:38 am
my dark eyerings ll never go away.
my wk started off bad i guess haha
altho i manage to meet up w 3f huay+serene+py alljudogals n allfamily in the wkend.. it kinda buildup my tiredness n sleeplessness haha n it jus hit mi real bad on monday
fever sorethroat flu u name it
tue was the worst of the bout of illness
and got better subsequently... the fever went down the sorethroat left but the flu was left behind lingering in my airpassages

termsheets r all settled
did another publication format..
but learnt sumthing new again
like how they keep records of the inv and how u use excel to tell u the maturity date is soon n the traders got to watch out n stuff
tt's abit more data entry but well get to c which org can afford to deposit mio w the bank haha
n had q a abit of fun search for the funni files
yt spent alot of time today teaching mi inverse floater n how they calculate the forward IR
so learnt alot

enuff abt work
as i cum towards the end of my working stint
one more wk left
grateful for the real break
to rest
but tink ill miss the pple there
they r realli nice
but dunnoe if we wud b in contact aft im gone
i came to realise tt im inconsequential there
prob aft a day or so
no one wud notice tt im not there animore
i wud look bk and b glad to b given this experience in a trading rm
but i ll move on
like i always did
mayb i always move on too quickly
everi stage of my life
its how i grow up n learn e easy way out u see
being super nostalgic n stuff is damn tiring.. not particularly abt this working stint but everi phase of my life in general.. mayb i always move on so quickly tt i leave pple behind n when i turn bk to look they r too far away.. then i cud onli jus move ahead.. its kinda like retribution or sumthing.. i always run away frm pain n distrubances i tink.. until its like stillwater heh

dunnoe if its good or bad
but its jus decisions
n prob too late to turn bk time
i ll jus leave w it
too mani things undone
too mani things unsaid
bottled up too much stuff

but im learnign haa
these days ill jus go ahead n do things i wan2 do
say things i wan2 say
coz if u tink too much
u ll lose to moment to do it
n prob ll regret next time..
tt's y its always the go ahead sign for mi
applicable onli for new things?
old history is too long too messy for mi to b able to do things so boldly w/o hesistation

haha
so much hua zhong hua
lets go bk to normal story tellg

im going to make a speech this thu
in front of the CEO of oc
argh
ll i stage fright n die?
haha
but i mus tell myself tt i dint take speech n drama for 2yrs in rg for nothing rite?

dunnoe la
i taying coz ttday kl kept complaining into my ear until my head was going to burst.. on tt feverish day
i dont mind speaking itink
hope i can do it well
its jus tt i noe i cant write well
i cant damn freaking write the bloody speech myself la
feel abit sian
like face off w the biggest weakness i haf.
writing well.
i ll try.. read more n stuff rite but its gonna take time :S
but chadwick was nice enuff to give my ideas n help mi along editing the speech too which im grateful for.

i felt abit bad today
ashamed
coz i did sumthing against my principle
was q proud myself for a moment then i dunnoe y i jus said it n felt lousy
argh
its prob not impt
but its against my beliefs
i hold my beliefs w great importance because i crumble w/o them
so im hit most badly when i do things i feel tt i shudnt haf done
much more than when i do things others think i shudnt haf done

watever la
words tt leave ur mouth can never cum bk

words tt never leave ur mouth might not b good too
so
watever la

im making jelly for them i tink
last chance aniway
cant thank them enuff

im sorry my frens haf to hear my rattle off abt work
tts the onli thing tts happening to mi now at least..
wait for 1-jul
then i wont say it animore haha
hopefully

pple get tired of listening to mi tok easily i tink
so its no gd huh
ok

n i carry too much access baggage?
like my frens were saying to mi tonite
i tink so too
but dunnoe y leh
dunnoe how to say la

went zouk tt nite
the germbag still drank abit la
lychee martini
long island
1/3 of a shot of tequila
n a shot of B52?32? the one w baileys.,.. suprisingly nice n sweet

was tt too little?
wasnt even tipsy or anithing
but jus wanted to try it
dun wan my git/liver to die tho heh
interestg pple dancing funnily
but met up w bel zj ws sw colleen
feel happi to fulfil my promise to meet up w them
i make empty promises to easily i tink
it always haunts b (well for a while) aft i didnt do wat i promise..
so i mus b more cautious w promising
n make it a pt to make it cum true
was fun
listening to their lives
their experiences
n hafing fun la
except for the smoke i kinda like e place
gd to clear a mind of everithing
w the lights n noise huh

i NEED SLP
the kid better dont b late tmr
coz im always in a bad mood when im sleepy
n i tolerate her for v long liao.. too long for mi to take it le
sian

hope to haf a gd day ahead.

almost slept in my blanket n dark rm
then remebered something and came online to check again
went to read my blog and i realize something

jus like wat im doing now, and wat i do mostly as a conversattionalist
i dont exactly formulate my opinion and tots very well
i tell stories, recount, write stories
tt's all

sometimes i feel sick and tired of this
tired of how i cant covey my feelgs thoughts properly?

im really like born to entertain pple?
like todays 3f gathering.. i start to tell stories when i reached
yak yak yak for like 15min or sumthing
made everione laugh
sometimes i wonder if my sole f(x) within my frens is to do jus tt
b an entertainer
mayb tt's y i score so high in tt self monitor test i did during pdcp
haha
then i tok so much tt im actualli tired frm toking
when i stop toking if it becomes too quiet i ll start toking again
mayb its jus w 3f
my f(x) there is to entertain them
it always happen in all class gathering

i noticed tt i act very differently w diff pple
w the gang i try to b more steady coz tt's laoda's job
then w judo pple i can afford to b more kid n haha coz carol is more of our dajieda, i jus need to b a lubricant or sumthing
then w my family i tok damn alot too.. always trying not to haf akward silences since my bros barely tok to each other

sometimes i can afford to relac one corner n jus shuddup w pple im not too familiar w
i dunnoe la
q sianzz

i hope i can express myself better
altho im a freaking blindspot
\haha i spend 75% if the time tellg stories
when pple really challenge mi to make my stand
i cant do it well
which sucks

was lookg at friendster
the saw frens whu haf characteristics tt i really like
i realli like them in tt way
then i tink of the person i am
the person i am not
and the person i never wud b

if i like a particular characteristic of sumone
shud i learn to b lidat
its q weird rite
n i prob cant do it coz im not lidat.
but whu defines "lidat"
wat whu defines our character/personality
can we change it
shud we
do we need to

i wonder

oh i rem wat i wanted to blog abt last nite
baby cousin = jaydon choy (cui) kaijun
haha
shud bring him to watch initial D to support jay haha

was toking to a fren abt naming my cousin
fren i definitely an unknown so glad when fren offered info/opinions.. haha
i always like toking to pple prone to being an unknown
not tt im trying to sterotype everione but when unknowns tell mi personal stuff.. im honored n happy.
seriously.
wat they say seem more worthy then blindspots whu rattle off all the time

tink i dislike doing tt sumtimes
but i cant realli help it
im trying to keep my tongue in check hahah
can conserve energy in this way

im confused la
as to wat kind of person i wan to b
if i can change tt

oh my fav boy name is kenneth
and there's a story to it
but haah
watever rite...
mayb my son ll b a kenneth next time :)

finally sometime alone w myself..
miss these 'me' times alot, been hanging a round people all day, so much so tt im q sick of crowds now..
work is tiring i tink n not too fun, so after working for three weeks I finally decided that I really should start studying harder next semester as going school is so much more fun.
I really feel drained and after my OT at office till 1230am on Wednesday night, by already bad eyebags have worsened so much so that I really look like some panda now.
Boss wanted to revamp the termsheet's look and feel as usual, into something that looks more professional but as usual "how does a termsheet actually look like??" and I wonder.
The first time they actually set a time limit for the work they want me to do so I decided I really should try my best.
But from 2 to 6pm, I did up so many termsheets until my boss is finally satsified but realize that there is so many more that I have to change by that night because jon was leaving for japan the next day and I need him to vet through the work to make sure that I don't screw up the calculations in the excel sheets.
So I started my OT to be nice so that he didn't have to do it himself or pass it on to andrew who is not incharge to take over..
at 9 he told me if I really can't finish then forget it la, but I decided to stay till 11pm.
At 11pm, I was still not done, but I realize that if I leave now, I will really be buganyuan.. haha because I already stayed so long and I want to finish it like TODAY!
jon left with his wife at 9+, telling me that he would be back later. As I was working and he didnt come back I was actually q pissed off that he is so unappreciative, but at that time I was really doing the work not because I want to help my collegue but more for my own buaytahan-ness, because I cant imagine to have to continue with it the next day. He came back at midnight to be shocked that I was still there but I told him I was finishing and I really completed the job at 1230 and emailed it to him. He kept saying," eh good job, good job. thanx for your effort" etc haha

walau my eyeballs were so dry by then I couldnt really see the screen too well.
Luckily there were people on night shift in the office doing 24hr market watch, otherwise I would be super freaked out if they left me alone in that hugh office. I left by the east lobby without realizing that only the west one had one exit that is open. My dad had been waiting for me all these while since 11pm and when i was trapped by locked doors in the east lobby, I could actually see his car parked along the road in the distance.
I felt some form of panic creepg up my back because it was really dark and I couldn't see anyone around. Haha i guess that is the feeling you get when you are trapped in a building alone with no way out. Serene always says she like to be trapped in some shopping mall to play at night.. haha I always scared got hantu and I really felt creepy sia.. decided to breathe deeply and stay calm to return to the office so that I could cross over to the west lobby.
As the lift came down from the 20+th floor.. I waited.
One floor by one floor.
The lift descended.
I held my breath when the lift finally reached F1
and when the door opened
there was
someone inside!

haha the security uncle la
scared the shit out of mi, lucky i didnt jump in front of him or scream into his face haha
but he was really nice
he showed mi the way through the 29th floor to get to the other side of the building
but as i was walking with him alone in the dark bank
i was tinkg if he murders me now or lock mi in how???? no one wud find mi
haha
luckily he was jus kind and helpful n wasnt murderous haha
and i finally got home for dinner at 1am then slept at 2am reached office at 8+ lookg like some zombie

haha i jus stopped blogging for like 30min coz toking on msn
now my train of tots gone
heh
but yep tts work
met my jc class mates today!
everione hasnt changed much
but most of them whu went overseas come bk attached haha so exciting
n as usual interrogated them abit
then went to linger ard until nite for father s day dinner
the food was good la
wa im q sick of eating le
been eatg good food like EVERIDAY
prob eating away all my pay sia
n i feel obese
shit'
i tink i shud fast for a wk or sumthing
to do some deetox
but tmr meet g 3 gps of pple
sigh
sure eat eat alot again la
siannz

my jc classmates didnt change too much la.. but scary how quickly a yr passsed by so quickly.
i miss mixing w pple my age
glad to see n meet up w frens la
all those overseas r like bk
meetg huay tmrr! n serene n py
haha im too tired to tink le
suan le dont write animore

today i made everione in the office happi haha so i end up feelg q good oso too..
then at a little bird during lunch w kl.. coz we saw it tt day when we walked past the stall n i tot it was a chick.. i turned out to b roasted quill hhaa
the taste is very savory but its so small n full of bones so i dont tink its v hua.. for $5
haha jus a try would b fine la...
then stayed for meetg.. glad tt im understandg more n more
then went dinner w yt, jon, R, A haha
they r v funni lor.. yt talked abt how he haf to do all the housework coz his gf refuse to help then he wkend ll go ntuc to shop for groceries like some auntie.. haha i can so imagine him lidat..
no wonder he always come across to mi as some one q thrifty.. mus b influence frm aunties :P
then R has a very expressive face n a very distict voice.. tt ill always rem haha
jon toks abt his wife.. how she dont realli do housework oso..n how he is a better cook.. these guys ar
A is still the same.. got the laojian juhua feelg to him..
like someone w a veri strong facade.. but toking to him make mi feel abit sad for all the working adults.. hope i wont b lidat next time..
he s working in the place he wans to la but not doing the exact thing he wants to do.. so yep
then he jus tell mi in a v sian way like.. its jus earning a living lor.. n i tink he ll slowly become an alcoholic if he doesnt stop drinkg everiother day haha
these r my old-er collegues whu range frm 27-33yrs old..
even older than my dage lor..
bankers huh.. the way they tok n think is v diff frm pple i know... so i find watching these pple q interesting actualli.. my opinion of them changes abitabit day by day.. but i ll b gone soon la so.. haha wat an experience..

i met a CUTE guy today
he's q old actualli but jus the whole package
he has veri pretty eyes and look very gentle n kind
haha coz boss made mi run an errand to 9th floor to get something frm MrR
haha tink he looks q young to b a VP la
but he's prob married and i onli saw him for like 1min or less
but jus an observation...
such calibre actualli exists in the bank! haha

shud i become a medicamp ogl?
they rejected mi at e beginning then they jus accepted mi again?
i so totally factored it out of my hols alreadi liaoz.. sianz
how???

i saw a kid today whu can memorize some 'ci'
which is super long, like a san zi jing or sumthing
her dad ll tell her line 20.. then she ll jus recite
omg n she's like 6??
how much discipline mus b instilled into a kid for her to perform lidat man?
i dunnoe to feel happi for her or not..
n on the other end of the spectrum..
sigh my tuition kid ar
problematic sia
i blackfaced her coz for 3wks she barely did my hw... n gave her a mini pep tok
and she got so scared she didnt bring out her hw to ask and she like become damn worried and stoned at home.. feel so helpless and cant do anithing lidat
omg.. my mama told mi coz she heard frm her mum

omg kids nowadays ar
r so pampered tt they become useless liaoz
y cant they pick them selves up frm failure>??
sigh i shant say pple
i noe how helplessness feel jolly well
but im going to b more patient but rest assured i ll 'educate' her to b more independent..
her parents shieldg her frm everi drop of rain issit going to help her lor..
whu can b there to protect n lead her by her nose for the rest of her life rite>??
sigh

meet joe black.. this is when i became a bradpitt fan :P 

im tired these days
realli tired frm work altho i dont exactly do alot hhaa
but the first time i saw the final pdt of the research website thingy tt i "designed?" haa wrote abit la, i was actualli q proud of it altho boss later said the lang wasnt gd enuff to attract customers but got sum other pple to edit it, i still had some sense of accomplishment
work work.. had alot of fun observing the pple there
on fri went to sit w nellie and andrew n eddie whu showed mi how to do abit of FX, it s actualli more fun then jus studying off the screen.. hope boss says tt jon haf stuff for mi to help him w next wk la.. then i not so slack
but im still tired n sleepy
fri finally came n met up w frens...
wow felika (thx for the card, i realli like it), xy, serene, py
had a gd time, altho didnt go as hysterical as we use to may b coz i'm tired or hafnt seen them for q sum time, but i had a gdtime.. w gd company
mi n the jiu gui aka serene went for our hunt for a place to drink aft we parted w the rest haha
under S's recommendatn got a daiquiri, altho the alcohol if there was ani inside was so little tt i didnt taste or feel it
but the feelg's q gd, chillg out at the irish bar
its a place tt i had a vague memory of..
i rem carol brought mi there b4.. cant rem wat we did tt day but a few of us walked q a long dist to find tt place tt is lit w little purple lights at nite.,. it was realli beautiful tt nite, cant rem whu else was there tho.... but w tt bitbit memory, found tt place again last nite..
cheers* we shud do it more often :)
haha we tired to go into the pubs near somerset but either too full or too sleazy heh
aniwae 2 chiong for the last train, we ran so much tt got us soaked in sweat onli to b there 4min b4 the last train arrived
i dont realli drink, but i actualli like to go relac at these places once in a while? haah
seeing my collegues whu like go drinkg everiother nite and if anione cum late for work pple ll go ard saying tt he's too drunk to wake up haha
n to tink tt 2 of the guys in the office one joined manhunt b4 and the other is an elite model?
haha they look ok la but haha

today was a gd day too
beside being super pissed off w my lazy tuition kid, tt i sacrificed my slp to teach but did like 1/20 of the hw i gif her or sumthing tsk
hafnt had such a black face for a long time le
kids now a days ar.. tinktheir parent's money drop down frm the sky issit.. im hired to explain stuff to them, end up i can read the papers will waitg for the 2 do her work coz she did so little tt there was barely anithing to explain tsk

but brad pitt made the day as usual
mr n mrs smith
felt tt the pace of the show is abit weird tho, abit too slow in front but overall i wud say its gd..
rem '97 when i went to watch meet joe black, tt was when i first started to like him alot.
i mean alot,. like he's really my fav hollywood guy.. frm pri6 till now haha
but he's realli aged la can c
his face widened n became more angular but the nice feelg is still there :)
q a sweet show .. aww

airport to c huay... welcome bk!
gd to c u again.. didnt feel too long ago tt we jus sent her off for 1st yr n now she's bk
how time flies n we feel freaking old w all the 15 yr olds ard haha
but aft tt we went to watch the 93.3 concert haa jus for energy but we stood a grand total of 3.5hr?? haha
but serene's dream came thru gd for her la
saw them perform, and i manage to push her front front when they cum out of the tent to go to their bus... then she manage to taptaptaptaptap his arm haah.. i wanted to try mou-ing oso but too shock when ah di came out and too amused when serene started tapping his arm hahaha
but yea had a fun time la.. things tt we never dream of doing
well going aft stars isnt realli sumthing 20yr olds do rite.. but to make up for our lost childhood.. haha too busy studing last time huh..
aniwae my legs r so tired.. i need slp again

haha i mus b too sleepy last nite forgot to mention my 2 hospital visits
my ahgong is in the hospital now coz he fell down and dislocated his knee.. then now too swollen so they jus put it in cast until the swell goes away so tt he can go 4 operation
listening to him and looking at him im q relieved coz he's feelg q ok jus the leg abit immobile and e funni thing is tt my dad says he realli enjoys the nurses' company and insist tt they help him up the bed instead of his sons.. haha tsktsk
all these se peh peh
haha
well aniwae as i was visiting my ah gong i saw a gudulaoren
he has dementia, tt's wat i heard and when he hear my ahgong call my dage ah ming.. something kinda clicked in his brain and he kinda remembered or imagined tt he had a grandson called ahming and start toking to my dage, asking him if he has met up w this other relative or sumthing and my dage jus conversed w him la... like play along
im glad he did it coz the gudulaoren realli very poor thing like no one kinda visits him
in the same ward there was another wheezing ahpek and another old man whu jus amputated his leg..
i was get q an overwhelming feelg when i step into wards.. like there r so mani patients inside everione has their stories to tell and they r all v poor thing
n i realized tt sumtime they jus need someone whu has the time to go tok to them, reassure them and pay them some attention, coz apparently i heard frm my ahgong he was really unhappy tt the doc jus came in and looked at his info and stuff and walked away w/o speaking a word to him.. hmph ill keep tt in mind

then we went downstairs to visit a grand uncle
another gudulaoren
his adopted son, tt's his bro's son la kinda abandoned him
tt bast*** cheated him of his cpf bought a 4rm flat
then aft tt changed to a 3rm and made him, a 78yr old ahpek sleep in the kitchen?? wth
then now aft he was hospitalised aft a fall his stupid son aka my dad's cousin jus doesnt wan to come to discharge him coz he doesnt wan to pay the bills
i cant believe these pple actualli exist, well i noe they do but within my family???!!??!!
he sucks lor
so now i oso dunnoe how
its not jus the hospital fees its how to get a place for tt old man to stay and find a job to survive and stuff..
where to start? i wonder

on a lighter note, i met my cousin
a new addition to the family :D a baby boy
now the biggest challenge is to find the right name haha
he's so cute and his face is so soft its powedery sia
tt is good complexion!
haha
but he's really suuuppppperr cute
like liv says, "new toy"
haha he ll kinda b the centre of attention for a long time la
but i mus remind myself to shower lots of concern to her older sis
so used to b our baby
now there's a tiny baby to get all teh attention i bet she feels abit hmm..
so!
haha i happily promised to b there at her sch's funfair to make balloon sculptures so tt she cud sell
haha wat haf i gotten myself into?
but i realli dont mind la entertaining kids
but guess i gotta learn alot more design so tt i can make wat they wan :D

shopped damn alot today for office wear
sigh
tired sia.. but gd to meet up w the taiwan! pple again haha n thai express's tomyam shop is ZAN!
haha
my eye got better hope it recovers la

haha as i was reading my last entry i m realli amused.. i wrote "lky eyeball" wat i meant was "lky eyebags" la.. muahahaha
aniwae its been like more than a fortnight since i last blog liaozz...
wanted to write abt my pri sch class gathering tt i tried to organize
altho not mani pple turned up.. but im glad i tried la
now still trying to compile the list of contacts but tink for the rest of e pple tt i cant track down it ll take a while.. really glad to get bk in touch w some of the old frens and seeing how much everione has changed make mi feel old-er.
well then there was phs rite.. where i witnessed a ho faint in front of mi.. and i was so scared and stunned tt i realli felt helpless n cant do anithing.,. luckily there was lurenjia whu lifted her head or sumthing and i got help frm the mo and seniors in the consultation rm
tt experience really make mi realize tt im still so not there yet and there is still so much to learn
then toking to all the pple, heard abit abit of their stories here n there is realli q interestg la
but tt all seem q long ago
going over to stay at serene's house haha buying her diet coke coz she got sore throat and py got her heels stuck in the drain haa i tot she so brave go walk the drain w all the gaps summore..
but had a long tok w her, glad she's all cleared now

then soon aft i went off to TAIWAN!
we went so free n so easy tt we onli got the hotel ready and the airtix
other than tt we had nothing
no transport to hotel and stuff
and we jus land and met the first big hooha of our lives, the tix man whu look like a bear insisted tt we took 1000 change frm him alreadi but actualli he hafnt gave up.. still try to scare us say call mata, turn out to b his fault lor sigh
then at ximending some crazy man approach mi n ask mi for 100k haha
he ask mi if i were frm europe n ask mi for $$ luckily the ahzong mianxian guy shooed him away scary sia
had alot of fun w beng xian xyairen wendy pofun yumin
realli mai dong xi chi dong xi sia
im so fully everiday cant believe it
but its a good feelg living abroad for a while findg our way ard.,..
and had good company mah
didnt realli feel v out of place coz when we spoke mandrine most pple wont notice tt we r foreigners but its our slippers tt gave us away haha
tink not alot of pple over there wear slippers actualli
n watch lots of ch 15 16 haha
wow
ANIWAE
like the pple n the food there la
veri frenly and we were 'tricked' or coz of fate met 3 pple tt brought us to climb up the highest peak in taipei! haah we went up the highest pt of yang mi shan
i tot i wud jus stop breathing n die
stairs into the mist look like they ll lead mi to heaven but THEY R NEverENDING!
well it ended at the peak la
n the way down was another story sigh
but glad we all made it n went daishui w beautiful sunset
n the leofoo village was fun!!
so exciting went w beng whu kena coaxed/forced by mi to take all the rides some a few times haha
so much mai dong xi chi dong xi
had a great time n glad to b bk safe n sound
budden started work the next day on my bdae haha
ocbc bank treasury
was tinkg prob make mi count $$ or sumting but i was so wrong
i work in a tradng rm!
the sales side n the trading side
then q exciting, they ll shout across the rm and like ask for prices of USD/SGD and stuff and buy this sale tt
all the stuff abt stocks and shares n investments make mi totally clueless
met the hr pple
whu was q shock i dint noe anithing abt treasury
then met my boss terence, gave mi a short intro in like 15min
he's q nice la but hmm haah i like the fact tt he always ask for the best things like the template he made mi do was amended like more than5 times b4 he was happi sia n the weekly i hope it ll b done on mon sigh
but he made mi realize tt some one whu ask so much frm others n himself really make things work
coz he so hard to satsify tt make mi keep changing n changing until i was plesantly surprised tt the final pdt was so much nicer thAn the one i came out w initially. so yep tt's my boss
n his boss is wm, her name sounds like mine so when pple calll her which is v often, i ll look up
i was assigned to the research team n met chadwick
haha wat an uncommon name
but he's realli nice n frenly n bought mi kopi at starbucks on mon n tue
haha n bought mi lunch too.. im realli q paiseh la
but he realli made mi feel at home
haa they brought mi to drink aft mon's meetg n met the rest in terenece's team
now sitting w yt, my new neighbour whu is realli nice n soft spoken i tink., he remind mi alot of my dage, i tot he was the youngest of the team turn out tt he's like the 2nd oldest apart frm boss.
haha
n i met py on monday nite to celeb my bdae, thanx for the ribs ya
i m realli damn tiredfrm work
didnt slp enuff frm taiwan haha
n now got some stupid eyeinfection and to tink i slept for like 13hrs str frm yest... haha
im tired alreadii sigh
my poor eye
didnt noe tt the eyedrop i use dilates my eyeball no wonder so light sensitive the whoelday
wa cant take it le
slpg soon.
works q fun la, stocks n shares investments, encons
realli something totally new to mi, glad to b learning la