pretty rite?? 

the tree below my blk w purple flowers! 

close up! but i'm q scared of the centre of the flower.. like got bug wanna climb out.. jus like y im dont realli like sunflower coz e black black centre looks scary.. 

flowers frm my childhood.. amk central! 

doesnt it look like a little coconut tree?? 

haha check out this cactus, i love it! 

at the nursery of dss 

well i seldom take pix w the meddie pple so haha mus do it since we going on an excursion! 

dss trip 3 

dss trip2 

dss trip1 

well i hafnt blog in a while.. haha
coz CAs are here...
ns n cofm came n went.. i need to study!! more more more!! damn feel q ashamed feel tt i sleep too much study too little shit
but well prof ong rocks coz he tips r bull-eyes kinda zun :D
n cofm arrrgggghhhhhhh
never in my life haf i did such a stupid thing in the exams.. mayb coz the previous ns paper has 30min per essay, i stupidly somehow felt the same for my cofm paper when there's 3 essays n 9 mcq n i happily spent 1/2 hr on one how-to-help-mr-amin-quit-smoking question, coz i just read the hpb bklet before i went into the exam hall lor.
when prof jenette says 15min left n i haf 2 essays to go, my heart almost stopped. this is the most horrendous error i made in my whole academic exam life haha
i would have crapped more if i had time but i didnt, pray tt everything goes well

met xinyi joyce crystal for lunch.. haha as usual laugh till we drop n train abds but yea q happy la.. n meet nikki on nel too ;)
watched alot of naruto in the afternoon and caught up w sleep.. watched the frog taiwan drama too.. but i tink i need to abstain from tv for a long while la..
so all in all 2 down 4 more to go.. study study lar..

n read a fren's blog, typical of the person, abit too critical and synical la..

to fel, pls take care..


歌曲：夜曲

歌手：周杰伦 专辑：十月的萧邦

一群嗜血的蚂蚁被腐肉所吸引
我面无表情看孤独的风景
失去你爱开始分明失去
你还有什么事好关心
那鸽子不再象征和平
我终于被提醒捆着手我现在是奴隶
我用漂亮的押韵形容被掠夺一空的爱情
我应该藏这里夜色不干净
还给你整夜的回忆占满天的星
送你的白色玫瑰在纯黑的花季凋零
午夜在树枝上诡异的很安静
倾听我黑色的大衣像我的你
衣栉比鳞的鬼走过的走过的生命
啊四周弥漫雾气
啊我在空旷的墓地
老去后还爱你
为你弹奏肖邦的夜曲
纪念我死去的爱情
跟夜风一样的声音
心碎的很好听
手在键盘敲钢琴
我给的思念太小心
你埋葬的地方就有你
为你弹奏肖邦的夜曲
纪念我死去的爱情
而我为你隐姓埋名
在月光下弹琴
对你心跳的感应
还是如此温热亲近
怀念你那鲜红的唇印
那些断翅的蜻蜓散落在这森林
而我的眼睛没有丝毫同情
失去你泪水混浊无情
失去你我连笑容都有阴影
我站在满心期待的屋顶
嘲笑我的伤心
像一口没有水的枯井
我用尽我的自信
要我后悔莫急等待爱情
为你弹奏肖邦的夜曲
纪念我死去的爱情
跟夜风一样的声音
心碎的很好听
手在键盘敲钢琴
我给的思念太小心
你埋葬的地方就有你
为你弹奏肖邦的夜曲
纪念我死去的爱情
而我为你隐姓埋名
在月光下弹琴
对你心跳的感应
还是如此温热亲近
怀念你那鲜红的唇印
一群嗜血的蚂蚁被腐肉所吸引
我面无表情看孤独的风景
失去你爱开始分明
失去你还有什么事好关心
那鸽子不再象征和平
我终于被提醒捆着手我现在是奴隶
我用漂亮的押韵形容被掠夺一空的爱情

BABY OVERDOSE

Well, I think I just got a baby overdose these couple of days.
For a short lrt journey from sengkang mrt to rumbia lrt station, i actually saw almost 10prams and more than 10babies
omg
it feels quite weird to see so many at one shot
as if the govt is trying to promote the joys of having the baby and plant them around such that everywhere u look, u see a pram with a baby
well, they are q cute so i dont really mind them

another thing abt baby
my mum had been having dreams of the baby-me for the past couple of nights
the first one was
i was a little baby 1-2yrs i tink, where a little singlet with like yellow design n little shorts and i was sleep on the floor
then my mama came over to tell mi
mei-ar, the floor is very cold u should sleep on the mattress...

well in her first dream i didnt wake up to reply
and in her second i tink she put me on the mattress

and 2 nights ago, after watching dayang falling into the drain while looking for mei ren yu
my mama dreamt that my dad drove us out and suddenly i disappeared
they went round the neighbourhood lookg for me
and found mi in a drain.
i was crawling in like the dirty murky water, very stinky
and apparently i crawled q a distance in the drain in search of my parents
my dad noticed that my toenail were bleeding n i was really dirty n poor thing
n my mama told mi dad "heart pain.." haa aka xin tong!
n being different frm dayang, the drain i was in is not an open canal but a closed one with the metal grills
i kinda tap tap on the grill to get attention i tink

oh :( i tink i'm q poor thing too haa

well babies babies babies..
hmm i wonder y?
reminds me abit like final destination where u see signs, very apparent ones all around you.
hmm

aniway the tree under my block
bloomed purple flowers!
after staying there for abt 6 yrs its the first time i noticed the flowers..

hmm well the seasons of exams is always linked to the blooming of flowers
jus like rj last time,
the white flowers along the railway track at the far end of the running track/field?

i'm too high today
too high for my own good.
it renders mi fatigue

haha
but switched on my sale-woman mode to sell off the biscuits n kacangputeh for the YN trip
went to HPB n haha its q fun to play in health zone!
had a v animated conversation w mary n janise on the way home
haha they realli remind mi of mel alot.. we all get realli high n talk the same way

prof CKS d*gs his no**!!
wa

studystudystudy

ate crab for dinner today
shiok
haa my mama never fails to amaze mi..
how she jus catch the crab by the string tt's tying it
calmly find the lost crab n throw it bk into the pail
anihow anihow w/o reciepe came up w tomato sauce - egg crab
wawawa

haha

had alot of fun at munchie monkeys on thursday!
so much fun..
miss the good old days sia

haha my head is damn big 

today we went over to SGH to visit YP
yep heard she got a stroke and is warded there.
she was so touched tt she teared
aww
we went to buy her a little bouquet n she kept saying its very pretty
and wanted to keep holding on to it even as we were leaving.
hope she get well soon

today felt abit inadequate
coz e pple i got to noe at assissi
like mr L n YP not there anymore.. altho e four heavenly kings and lady in 3a r there but they dont realli recog mi n i felt abit unable to start conservations.. abit tongue tied haha
aniway
:s

but had q alot of fun at pdcp class today haha coz i sat w jean jialin carol
n haf the time mi n carol doing weird things like touching each other
haha
:P

oh i jus had KFC for dinner :D
n had this nice sugary swiss roll for tea frm Polar.. wa it was realli q nice haha

君のほほえが好きです。
それだけ。

well jus broke my blue jlittery hair clip - im sad
tink a jap gal gave it to me when i went on an immersion coz since a long time ago i stop buy hair clips.. like since i chopped off my hair at 12
any way sianz la
jus like went i lost the purple mechanical pencil tt hayato gave mi, lost it in rj i tink
shit
on my farewell gift he wrote
ぼくがあげたシャーペン大切に。。。 隼人

ごめなさい
ほんとに
ごめんね-

ずっとじぶんに許せない :(

well today is a happy day because i finally went to eat TAU SUAN! haha i've been craving for it since weeks ago.. but today is not so good a day because i fell asleep in the aft until my tuition kid came shit.. CA is in 22+ days time pui.
well my tuition kid is kinda lost, where to go, wat to do, wat subj to take after Os.. hope i helped her abit.. but well hope she does better in Os coz i tink she is capable of getting better grades la..
instruments fair came n went... haha almost 1k worth of stuff i'm going to buy.. :p smart rite? haa
saw some nice flowers outside blk 151 on my way home yest.. ll try to take a pix of it soon.. they r the little yellow flowers tt they use to grow in amk central near the ulu cinema when i was young.. didnt noe tt sight can bring you back in time as well.. actually felt small once again looking at those little yellow flowers... hmm
a figment of my memories ?
but its q a weird feeling i got @_@

wakao damn pissed off lor
sometimes i wonder if my bro is 25 or 5 years old
im asking a senior stuff abt instruments fair tmr.. like he's tellg wat to buy n stuff the my bro has to come in n talk at the door...
so happi when i try to push him out coz he's soaked in sweat frm a jog
n hold this plate of fried eggs n spilled globs of soya sauce all over the floor of my room
kao..
im damn pissed off lor
spent the time screaming at him until i forgot wat i wanted to ask my senior
n so paiseh had to ask daryl to wait ll i scream at my bro
can u imagine??
shit.
pui.
cant he jus grow up or sumthing?

omg 98.0 is playing Truly Madly Deeply be savage garden.. walao this kinda songs always make mi haf goose bumps.. jus the floodin bk of nostalgic times...

woo..

n i jus watched episode1 of naruto.. haha i noe im slow but its q touching sia.. my kinda show.. ll try to find it when i haf more time 2 watch :P

dammnit
cant believe i allowed myself to slp at 9pm shit

n paiseh serene
for holding a long conversation abt worm-like myofibrils while i was half awake..
sorry

read abt a fren's woes n troubles.. but dunnoe wat to say dunnoe how to help so i didnt call.. tink it might not help even if i say that there r many pple out there w similar probs and thots.. by saying tt prob doesnt help coz it doesnt solve the root of the prob.
the solution is kinda by fate i tink.. while im a fatalist in that sense but only to a certain extent

Noun
1.fatalist - anyone who submits to the belief that they are powerless to change their destiny

i dont really noe wats my take in these situations, an escapist way of leaving ur troubles behind is to not think abt tt.. which is wat mani pple say they cant do.

i dont even noe wat is my pt abt writing all this animore
mayb its jus tt i wud like to help but i cant
mayb its jus tt i cant even help myself
mayb its jus tt my work is calling out to mi again until i cant concentrate on wat i wan to say
mayb its jus tt its too personal for me to say it

High/Low context
a fren say tt im a low context if im a listener.. i need pple to say things out to me blatantly... i prob was lidat last time.. but now im better.. i hope. being surrounded by many high context pple actualli trained mi up to b more acute in tt sense

i say im a high context person when i speak.
actually my thoughts are usually v blatant n mean
but i tend to curb them in hope not to hurt others w some caustic remarks
sometimes its gets so sickening i jus cant b bothered
but on a whole.. yes i wud smile at someone even tho i dont feel like it and i wont ask pple to eat shit n die even if i mean it, well at least not in their faces

is this being hypocritical?
it might b
it might not b
i generally dont do things against my wishes
i jus dont do things tt i wish too
i seek a compromise coz i cant promise wat i wont do in a confrontation.

watever
a polychronic self tells mi its 3+ in a day i haf tons of work undone but well its midday...
a monochronic self.. hate it when pple r late

life is full of contradiction
dont i jus love being a gemini
ah.. self fulfilling prophecies again!

im scaring myself

got news tt last morn mr L passed away
i'll never forget the last time i had it hand n how it quivered in mine
how he wished us all had a bright future
how he went into tt long bout of silence thinking
how he kept his hand propped up waving to us even as we left the room
how he looked like he's given up all hope n waiting for his time

got news tt last morn a fren's dad passed away too.
going for the wake on sunday nite
can't imagine myself losing a parent at 20
choi -
but shit happens

saw a dead cockroach on my way home too
too mani things r dying ard me

but yest was childern's day celebration for rivervale pri sch kids
they got to wear their own clothes to sch n they looked realli happi!
can't rem if i did tt when i was in pri sch
but i sure did it in rgs
all the fun we had -

such as life -