火曜日, 6月 29, 2004

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日曜日, 6月 27, 2004

It isn't the thing you do, dear,
It's the thing you leave undone
That gives you a bit of a heartache
At setting of the sun.

The tender word forgotten,
The letter you did not write,
The flowers you did not send, dear,
Are your haunting ghosts at night.

The stone you might have lifted
Out of a brother's way;
The bit of heartsome counsel
You were hurried too much to say;

The loving touch of the hand, dear,
The gentle, winning tone
Which you had no time nor thought for
With troubles enough of your own.

Those little acts of kindness
So easily out of mind,
Those chances to be angels
Which we poor mortals find --

They come in night and silence,
Each sad, reproachful wraith,
When hope is faint and flagging,
And a chill has fallen on faith.

For life is all too short, dear,
And sorrow is all too great,
To suffer our slow compassion
That tarries until too late;

And it isn't the thing you do, dear,
It's the thing you leave undone
Which gives you a bit of a heartache
At the setting of the sun.

~ M. E. Sangster ~

issit apt for mi or wat?
wat i dislike/hate abt miself
i procrastinate rather a lot in studies which is gifing mi nightmares nowadays sch's starting in life generally
tts y my rm can look like a ware house for mths
ming ri fu ming ri huh?
the poem tt was drilled into my head in higher class in pri sch last time
tmr i ll pack my rm
tmr i ll ...
tmr tmr tmr
sumtimes things pass u by
things tt u shud haf said or done
things tt u shud haf noticed
things tt u shud do when u promise
i dont like to promise pple anithing animore
sumtimes i not keep them
i feel bad abt it
sickening
but jian ku tou or sumthing jus keep doing it again n again
sianz sickening
hate is too strong a word itself n for mi
so is love
i guess
scary how i dont feel much abt mani things
i m realli not sure is it coz i realli cant b bothered or i jus dont feel it
but it is not a conscious effort i m certain
like huayu says i jus take things as it cums along
i dont like to disappoint
i try to b nice
i dont like confrontation
i dont speak my mind alot
i keep to myself most of the time?
i forget unhappy things
then days seem to b eassier
y do i wan days to pass by more easily?
haha silly qn
aniway my unhappiness jus left see wa so forgetful now chatting w frens
scary how pple jump in n out of emotions so easily
mayb coz i was veri moody n drastice when i was younger then it was hard la so now this is mi striking a balance dunnoe la hah


"人原来是这样健忘的.同样的一个人在短短的时间内竟然变换了两个面目.
过后他又想,大概正因为这样健忘所以才能够在痛苦中生活下去."
~觉慧~

"往事依稀浑如梦
都随风雨到心头"
~梅~

家--巴金


omg watched windstruck today
the first show tt i felt like watching again once as the show was cuming to an end
it has the funni hahaha parts of course
like the part myungwoo prentended to b a serial killer/rapist n mad the laoda kneel in front of hime
like the jyungjin role playing to b princess part n the ghost w hoping hair/wig, the janghyuk dressed like a jester haha
of course the nice sweet part
my fave was da books
the comic turn anime when u flip the pages? aww
the e sad part. i wont forgive them if the let him die there but i guess the ending i cant sae anithing liao la didnt noe so many things can happen 49days aft he die...
y change to wind when u die huh? carefree omnipresent
but cant b seen ya onli the paper plan
when the paper plan reappeared i knew i wud b the same one he tore out frm the mag
i knew it
the ultimate twist wats my sassy boy appearing walauuu
but i guess its realli touching la
i didnt cry like shit like my two kakis
but haha enuff to moisturize e eyes
hafnt cry damn hard for a lont time haha mayb i ll the next time i watch the show again la... i used to cry like shit at sad sad tv movie parts but too long neva use might b abit rusty haha
pple looking for a good laugh at the movie or at the funni lady sitting diagonally in front w funni laughter tt ends later than everione else in the cinema shud go watch
i wont want to b wind when i die though..
eh i not sure gotta tink abt it la
but tot the haleluya part of the light when he has to go was abit like bruce almighty ha
nice show

月曜日, 6月 21, 2004

had a freaky dream this morn.. tink its coz i slept too earli last nite...
as usual theirs always common test n the two days b4 tt aka sat when the first paper starts on monday i hafnt started studying yet.. like wats new huh
but its the sickening oh shit feeling
n oso the sickening self denial can one dont worry i ll make it
thne start planning ok first wk onli got 2gp papers n one phy
not so bad at least no phy n chem papers together
get past these 3 papers first la
then can chao pia for the rest
the sickening aftereffect of life long procrastination
didnt noe how i survive my jc yrs lidat
going into test exams unprepared
skipping most of the qn until u finished the paper miraculously fast
then i woke up
hafnt wake up at 8 feeling rested for a freaking long time
three tuition today wats new
n thu i haf got four haha
oh beng now wed is the best dae if kbox is still onz
coz i decided to dump one of my wed tuition on thu so tt i can go nus for checkup
tinking tinking how i can slowly give up all my tuition
feel abit distrubed dunnoe y like abit sad to leave
but i m seriously dying to
wat a paradox
like the issit ming zhong zhu ding or ren ding sheng tian shit tt i haf been trying to figure out
wow tts an improvement : mi tinking abt stuff lidat

on thu nit i melted my bros expensive tie
i was trying to iron it for my dad
for the ocbc sship presentation
i turned on the iron went over once
the iron hasnt heated up yet
the the front door opened n my dad n bro r bk
then i went bk to ironing aft tellin my dad its compulsory to wear a tie tmr
put the iron bk on the tie n it freaking melted in fornt of mi wif a funni smell somemore
dammit
felt realli stupid n lousy when my mum jumped of her bed when i put the iron down immediately
sigh as usual i got rattled off
i officalli cant cook iron use the washig machine n mani mani more things at home
i boast the ability to make realli nice beds n sweep??
not being too sastified f my ability to do chores huh

the next day was the the presentation went to take a train n bus w my dad n he kinda didnt noe where to tap the ezlink card on the bus haha
we were lost in the cbd area n walked a realli long way when the bank is rather near the mrt
walked all the way ard the ocean towers
concret jungle huh
then we were earli n waited at the bk nearby
the person at the counter was rather unfriendly sigh
n had the lunch thing at the executive club
i hafta go bathe to go tuition liao
its going to b a long dae ahead.............

火曜日, 6月 15, 2004

ooo forgot to finish up my blog after all in haha
lifeguard zhuxiaotian is also known as harry buatoh ahah if he slips n fall
i m still rather chao-ta mayb my baoying always go laugh at pple say the chao-ta
its rather fun la toking to my ah yi
then she was telling my little cousin abt my nickname last time the one she gave mi
i haf so mani mani thruout my 19yrs hard to list them down
she used to call mi han bao bao aka hamburger
due to the cheeks thingy
even my tuition kid find it amusing tt my cheek shake when i shake my head too haha cant help it la
those were the days when i was still little kena abused n pinched haha
my aunt was saying she had to help out at my grandma's funeral
to help my mama look aft us when my parents were busy w the funeral prep
my mum hanged my sarong beside the coffin n my auntie had to shake the sarong to coax mi to sleep budden aft a few days she had nightmare tt a coffin was chasing her haha
erm...
was telling my mama how i tink its veri hard bringing up kids n i so dont see myself doing it or being able to do it
sigh its not our prob yet but scary
saw yongyong the kid my aunt is nanny-ing when i go tutor my cousin
he's realli realli cute n chubbby
the perfect epitome for a bundle of joy
1/2way thru tuition he woke up n my cosn went to burp him but he end up vomitting out all the milk he drank
walau like a hose lidat
scary rather alot n abit on mi too
i got scared n jumped out of the way realli kena freaked
haha kids r veri hard to look aft man nice to c good to touch can play w it but 24hr?
unless u r realli readily if not..
told my mama then she told mi i was famous 4 puking
i puked for a wk mani mani times a day for everi baby teeth tt grew
i willl puke until there's nothing left to puke until i start puking green liquid
the doc say the green stuff came frm my gut. bile?
bilirubin/biliveridin
cant rem the spelling damn
budden i start to puke when i c the med then hafta stuff the pill up my ass
nothing helped my dad tot i cudnt make it haha
i puked so much in the sarong i almost drowned myself coz the milk was covering my head my mama had to suck it out frm my nose..
eww
no wonder so mani mani pple get postnatal depression
my er ge famous for running high fever
my da ge for diarrhoea
haha
weird symptoms huh
bringing up kids is such an ardous task tt i tink pple shud tink tink b4 they embark on it
but then there wont b enuff babies n the dependency rati will b screwed
sigh
i saw mani mani butterflies these few days
they r everiwhere
butterflies used to b scary coz of mi li ye
budden now no more
haha
i saw a realli puny one like one segment of my finger cant realli c the insect but the colour is a typical common butterfly colour so i assumed it is
watched zhang hong liang at a fei yu qing singsong show
he's the guy wbu sang ni zhi dao wo zai deng ni ma? n mei li de hua hu die
he say tt pple like butterflies or get fascinated over them coz they r veri diff frm humans
we die when we grow old.. usually
when our bodily functions start to not function when we look wrinkly n ugly
we turned frm pretty at our prime to ugly at our end
but a butterfly is diff
it was an ugly caterpillar n thru metamorphosis
it turned into a beautiful butterfly n die in its prim
tt maes them so beautiful
didnt tink of it this way b4
now my interest in spotting butterflies kena aroused
haha
n i found another pretty plant along punggol rd at one of the landed property
haha
another type of weed is getting my attention as well
beside the kind w purple flowers
there is another species w white ones
darn
since when was i into botany
but not too bad la
i start to c mani things tt pple might jus missed if they walked too quickly
such as life
went to support amanda at spore idol on sat
she got in to second rd of auditions
CONGRATS MANDA!!!
wow tired jus got home
haha finalli got a glimpse a better one into my dad's life
the uncle at kopitiam w lots of beer bottles watching soccer haha i was one of them jus now too watching euro 04
i always wonder y they so free aft work like to hang ard don wan to go home n sleep
but my dad say tt's how the relac
all the buddy buddy will hang ard together n chit chat n eat
haha i mus say they r goumets
i ate so much too full to sleep liao
the veri fresh steamfish tofu doumiao at changi rd
nice
the display is quite cute
the raw fish marinated lightly in metal plates at the display counter w price plagcards
u point they cook 4 u straight away
haha i neva c raw fish display b4
ate w two other uncles
jus a few hrs spent w them gain rather alot of insight
haha
both r taxi drivers
the older one look like my dua pek
tt ll mean he look like laofuzi
he's organs r all failing n his body is so messed up internalli tt he's finalli abstaining frm alcohol
he has been drinking n smoking for so many many yrs
he n my dad has this frenship going they look quite cute haha
they say his engine overhaul liao
then another third uncle offered his alcohol he say he will hold his funeral if he drink animore the other jokingly say he can give him advance condolence $$ for him to spend
erm...
rather funni
mayb if i cum the age when toking abt dying among peers doesnt sound stupid aha
but i kinda like him
a haha man tt enjoys food
he's da crab king
wow the way he manouver n pick up all the bis of crabmeat haha
i learnt the srilanka crab has the thinnest shell followed by vietnam then indonesia has crab w thickest shell sso lesser meat not as nice
the uncles tok abt soccer politics lky as muhouheishou haha
sengsiong supermarket education ministers health issuse
u name it they haf comments abt it n they sound logical man
ignorant mi haha
insightful nite wif the three uncles
coffeeshop food is great abit of flies cockroach scurry by no aircon but the company is good i guess
the third uncle is my dad's army fren
they knew each other since 1974 wow 30yrs
my earliest fren tt i still keep in touch mayb abt 12 yrs onli haha
by the time i noe my fren for 30yrs n they will still zhio mi to go sit at coffeeshop n arrange to go eat nice food haah tt wud b great
30yrs
i rather dread hafing to say im entering my 20s
cant we stay in 10s for long?
but such as life bohpian la
wat a nite
my driving needs improvement tink my dad say i no need to pay $$ so bohchap bohchap
jialat i better buck up :s

土曜日, 6月 12, 2004

gotta finish b4 my all in starts then i can drool over my leebingxian haha
jialat i dun wan to b sum hua chi but my byo shuai ge activity seems to b more frequent since going swimming w angel last sat..
jialat haha all the swimmers ard but i rather blind w /o specs so cant realli c la
onli knew a se peh peh kept swimming ard us i scared
tink my cousin attracted him haha then we had to swim near the life guard to feel safer... but she tot mi alot of things like how to sit at the bottom of the pool n go deep sigh tink i need more prac haha
then saw this sickening metro guy whu kept 自摸 ing haha
he applied under his arms btw his legs wow haha

tokig abt swimming i m so totally cao-ta now haha frm white to black? haha
went wild wild wet or wet wet wild haha yest
rather fun la w ah man ahyi they all my cousins darling mingming xiaonaozhong n of course H.E.A.L
haha
cute yang guang life guards got the ahpek kind oso la haha
if i rank 1) dyed hair guy w red float whu "saved" angel
2)zhu xiao tian
3)braces la haah
aiyoh all in here .... ll b bk

金曜日, 6月 04, 2004

woo...

SWF

single. white. female.

watched the show again on axn.. jus got scv scary man.
its this bian tai girl whu cant forgive herself then start assuming other pple's identity
this bian tai thriller freaks me out man
like talented mr ripley
identity
scary
i wonder how much it take for someone to snap
i mean i haf my biantai moments like when i see a motorcycle cut across three lanes to drive out of a slip rd... i can imagine a car coming towards him at high speed n running him over. he flew across the rd n land on my windsceen shattering it.
all this i can see in my head the split sec aft the motorcycle drove by
sick
but tt's the furthest i ll go
when allison stabbed hedi with a freaking screw driver i cringed
hedi threw away her own identity went to stay with diff rm mates try to get accepted try to b like her roommate where her clothes her perfume seduce her boyfriend
is she realli tt lonely?
with the harsh cynical world out there u haf no where to hide. realli.

im lucki
dont wan to b some bian tai... altho pple always tell mi once in a while i might entertain bian tai thoughts but well they jus come but as a joke most of the time

spent some time at the library todae
i guessed since i started tuition-ing full time the lib is the place i go to most
before tuition in btw tuition aft tuition
like it there.
i mean there r so many bks there i wan to read tt looks interesting
realli enjoying the luxury of reading for pleasure
tink i wont haf such time next time
so enjoy while i can i guess
i talk non-sop during my job but travelling the rest of the day dont realli tok to anione but tt's the time i either noticing pple or go travel in my own world haha

on a lighter note,
watched shrek II on tue
oh i still owe xiangyun 8.50
i tink it has more plot kept mi rather excited like will he make it in time or will charming still tt kiss n make fiona like him?
the muffin man is scary haha like marshmallow man in ghostbusters last time..
they where showing it ghostbusters on vesak dae... to tink it used to scare mi haha rather funni in a stupid way
like mi li ye as well
i guess perception changes. the same movie watch thru the same pair of eyes how diff can it get? but it sure feeels diff haha
but i prefer the first shrek
it was more cartoonish more down to earth good fun
the second one is funni too but sir JUSTIN n farbucks was rather ultimate.
they even drew justin timberlake out haha
its more cabaret.. like wat simon wud sae
more glitzzy hollywood like with like the oscar's red carpet n stuff but not too bad
the malu thing tt happen tt night was xiangyun n i entering the wrong theatre
my seat was k 11 theatre 4
jus as i was settling down making myself comfortable in my seat a couple came in n the guy was like "erm our seat is k10 n k11"
i was like "mine's k11, this is not theatre 4 meh??"
then he insisted it's theatre 2 n aft confirming with our neighbours we found out tt we went into the wrong theatre. haha wa lau damn paiseh n i still tot tt he's the blur guy haha
oops
we fled holding our illegal guava drink frm mrs fields

oh well nice show great company la cant ask for more..

tuition tmr.. life goes on
\o_o/