im sleepy but i dont feel like sleepg?
mayb im too excited abt the yunnan trip? tot i usually onli get the gitters of overseas trips the nite b4
mayb im enjoying the last nite tt i can stay up late n w nothing much on tmr
damn i haf tuition at 10am
夜深人 静
i like it at nite when there is no body to fan mi
but 寂静 与 寂寞
也只是一 线 之差
suddenly feel gratful tt i haf siblings
both my bro r out partying
onli mi n my parents to tok to
no one to crap w mi
no one to open my door n ask mi y i still not asleep
no one to quarrel w mi
no one to disturb mi

jus one nite haha
y i suddenly so 多愁善感？？
haha 93.3 is not helpg

i like quiet moments w myself but quiet at this moment seem abit overwhelming
y
i dont noe
mayb is the aftermath of watching long taiwanese serial haha
like angel tellg mi jus now
nothing to look forward to liao
its true
sum weird sense of emptyness
haha y do i like to watch tv so much?
my da ge always ask mi
when u peer into the tv
it brings u to another world
another place
u live the life of the the characters inside
like some omnipotent third invisible party
lookg at things happening

u leave ur reality
i forget my own life a while, while im watching
tt's y i tell my family not to distrub mi when i watch tv haha
it comes into the package of escape or denial when u need it
i need neither of these now but well.. haha

when a serial end
u haf to pick up ur life where u left it off
scary rite
mayb tt's y i hafg a sleepless nite on a silent nite
silent nite holy nite
haha apt for boxing day huh

im v tired my eyelids r closing

2004
cant realli bare to leave it behind
so mani new happening things happened
ended As
free until wa buay tahan
enjoyed life like taitai
shopping shopping go out like no one's buisness
gunbound till the next day

its onli 230am?

start to work
tuition tuition tuition
no collegues
met mani pple mani families mani kids
relief teaching
realized childhood ambition
teaching + tuition + teaching + tuition
slogged my ass off
earned my first XK

went for my first interview
scared like shit
work
function alone w/o fren for sum time
workaholic syndrom
tiredness unhappiness

resolved issuses
salvaged frenships
met long-time-no-see fren
first pair of 3-inch heels
met mr wierd at sentosa haha

got into medicine
happiness
sch started again
new environ
new frens
adaptation adaptation adaptation
didnt take long as usual

medicamp
brought bk some orientation memories
haha jus like the rj vcd we watched when gang came to stay over tt day
jc orientation is always special
one special nite
2yr long preoccupation
let it go liao?

cadavers w mushroom ears
mushroom pot n felika bdae!!

serene! yuan you hui is on 93.3 now hahaha
yuan you hui heng hao ting!

ok
mugging mugging
never studied so hard in my life but i guess not hard enuff
boohoo
harder harder mus try la

dad one yr anniversary for quitting smoking
mum ask mi wat i wud rem of her if she dies..
i said her nagging her noise haha
she was like eh!
actualli meant her everithing la
love niceness
but i cud never realli say it out
im a old-fashioned person i guess haha
sum lao kok kok person whu cant express love to fam out in words
heh
but i tink action n speech shows it here n there la
hope my parents dont go for explicit expression of love coz their daughter has sum prob w tt
but wat a qn my mama posed
a tinge of sadness in the air
glad to haf my family
i tink i cant b brave like my fren to tahan when her mama passed away
i wud jus dysfunction i guess if ani of my fam got anithing
at least at this pt la

2004 ending
im entering my 20s
eek
sigh dun wan la
i got 5mth n 4 days?
sigh sigh
y cant i stay in my 10s?
my bro say he's in his quarter life crisis so i shud shut up haha
cant help it la
going to pass my 10s w/o finding it
有点可惜
but i ll wait then
10 more yrs till aft my 20s?? haha
ll i gif up then? wont la 30 v old meh

hahah
this yr passed so fast
got a feelg tt b4 long i ll b in my 80s
wheezing n coughing
argh
seize the day?
haha

the new yr is approaching
kids r born
pple die
everi min

my warp theory of there is sumone whu look exactly like me on the other side of the world
ll it still stand?
i haf no explanation
i jus feel tt way haha

i shud sleep
or else 2.5hr of tuition feelg sleepy n teaching emath is no joke

MERRY CHRISTMAS

had a lot of fun yest at serene's house.. great way to spend xmas eve too w/o crowds n sweaty strangers...
thanx to serene n xinyi for preparing the nice 'candlelight' dinner n the great company la.. peiyun too

jus finish watching the rose 蔷薇之恋!!
haha thanx beng for lending me... i tink its realli a nice show haha
wat a show filled w incest n damn funni
yes serene its incestuous not incestful haha
since i got it on monday haf been sleepg at abt 5am everiday watching it so now when its finally finished there's this emptiness sigh
a feelg tt i always get aft watching sum ultra long serial.

THE ROSE by bette midler
Some say love, it is a river that drowns the tender reed.
Some say love, it is a razor that leaves your soul to bleed.
Some say love, it is a hunger, an endless aching need.
I say love, it is a flower, and you it's only seed.
It's the heart, afraid of breaking, that never learns to dance.
It's the dream, afraid of waking, that never takes the chance.
It's the one who won't be taken, who cannot seem to give.
And the soul, afraid of dyin', that never learns to live.
When the night has been too lonely, and the road has been too long,
And you think that love is only for the lucky and the strong,
Just remember in the winter far beneath the bitter snows,
Lies the seed, that withe the sun's love, in the spring becomes The Rose.

叶子

叶子 是 不 会飞 翔的翅膀
翅膀 是 落在天上的 叶 子
天堂 原 来应该 不是妄想
只是我早已 经 遗忘
当初怎么开始飞 翔

孤 单 是一个人的狂 欢
狂欢 是一群人的孤 单
爱情 原 来的开始是陪伴
但我也 渐 渐 地遗忘
当时是怎样有人陪伴
我一个人吃 饭 旅行
(到处)走走停停
也一个人看书 弹琴 自己 对话谈 心
只是心又 飘到了 哪 里就 连自己看也看不 清
我想我不 仅仅 是失去 你

haha the songs used in the show i q planty huh
toking abt plants.. i ve got a cactus!!
courtesy of beng n her mama :D

in the show sumtimes the stuff tt the character say can get q lyrical
i mean of course taiwanese drama always haf funni ideas n analogies the i ll go like HUH?
budden there r the ones tt catch my attention oso la

当项链环过颈项
我期待着
扣环在脖子后方接上的瞬 间
那瞬 间的悸动 尤如是星火
滑落了 胸口

hmm neva tot of it this way b4..

蛮有趣的一套 剧 集
可能有些地方我可感同身受 吧

什么肿着的大 饼脸 ，肉包子，难听的声音 haha
还有自卑感
都能 够 理解 的 感受

ok enuff of the show..

gotta tink of sum new yr resolutions
due to the new sch system this end of yr hols felt diff frm usual hols.. mayb jus like a jun one
doesnt mean end of a sch yr onli in the middle of it rite

ll b in china in sum hours time
brrrrr
ll b bk onli next yr
so yep wat a long time ill b gone haha

今天见了一些我没什么好感的人
他们那嘴脸
即可笑又讨厌
受不了
还是得为自己为家人争口气吧

i shall pseudo colour my daimaru eye n pray for safety on our journey :D

finally my com is back..
now its kinda brand new n like a stranger so i ve gotta customize it
cant sae animore in case py says i dwell n gif off bad vibes haha
paiseh la :P to py serene n tracy n anione w were affected

aniwae i luves balloons now!!
damn fun today made a balloon meant for iris but i gave it to a little jap boy on the bus
he slowly pry off his chubby fingers one by one... n played w the railing for a while b4 he dared to receive the little balloon dog frm mi
so cute
felt abit bad tt i cudnt make for his sis n another girl on the bus coz i had to get down la

the bbq was v fun
thanx iris for the invitation
i tink i derived most fun frm making balloons for pple, telling the shutter story and bursting balloon to scare susan
oh n cheemeng was moved to tears w his bday present

haha
i had a great time!

had alot of fun w the yunnan pple making jiaozi oso
the skin is abit thick la
but otherwise i tink it tasted good leh
jenheng got a cook's seh
his argaraetion skills r good sia

orchard rd is still as beautiful
today/yest is an enjoyable day :D

okok drove serene n py ard on wed nite rite almost killed me, them and mani other pple
shit
haha
but it was q a ride
first time i felt so tempted to leave the car at the car park n take the mrt home.. can u imagine
*shivers*
ok for list of misdeeds, pls redirect to gang blog

friday was a good dae too
apart frm learning wat i can cut if i slit sumone's neck
i also learnt abt queezing the thymus first if i go strangle some one? haha
then went out w judo gals!!
so long neva meet up liao
altho we jus mop ard orchard it was fun
kbox soon ya pple

tuition started again..
realize tt i dont realli like it
it such a drag but 100 bucks each time is good money so i shud jus shut up
n yest i killed my cd rom drive
bad mood
shit now all my entertainment is gone!!!!
no more mps no more movies to watch no more no more!!!!!!!
my handphone cant make tt irritating tring-ling sound animore
now my com went dumb oso
i shud jus shut up n join them

sigh
i drove my bros breadvan yest
damn fun
macam like a bus driver lidat
frm the side mirror i saw a vehicle tailgating mi super near n got scared
in the end it was the reflection of the vehicle i was driving
hahahahahahahahahahaah

my brain is fusing
i haf got a whole rm to pack
living in a sty now
n i haf got bioimaging to figure
polar express tmr? my anat groupers???
better go do my work soon

im not in the best of moods la but my horoscope for the wk says:
making sense of ur feelings no can b a little difficult
you could b feeling intense emotions and lose clarity
cheer up
the stars have shown tt negative situations are always temporary

im so trusting it
today im going to hide at home n do my stuff

hafnt blog for damn long since i decided to shut myself off frm blogging n msn for ca haha
ca s r finally over but i hafnt realli rested at all
tmr gotta wake up at 6?
tink frs is crap but sigh gotta do it so yea

had alot of fun w all the phototaking thing w serene n peiyun haha
damn funni
finally trained py up abit to haf more expressions rather than jus the smile when she takes photos hahah

briget jones is q funni
the tombstone: the spinster 1972-2050
was rather sad
n our weird neighbour
whus slightly middled aged midly fat haha laughed at everithing
the sheer volume of her laughter is haha

xmas is cuming
sigh a yr haf passed us by since As
so fast scary
when u look bk everithing tt happened seemed q small

spore idol
never realli followed watched here n there
taufik win i tink ok la coz he sings better
but abit sad for sly like abit poor thing lidat

haha n yes peiyun im NOW burning the incredibles for u
crap im so going to sleep thru tmrs thing i spoil my reputation n scare daniels gang
coz huimin the tape recorder during lec for once is dysfunctional
dont worry it ll happen again
the girl in front w the red sweater sleep helped relived tracy's jc days too haha

im damn sleepy sia
but i feel relieved enuff aha

tmr i haf got the car
tink might b driving gang ard if they r onz for dinner/supper tink of where to go pple
abit scared abit excited first time driving w/o dad or bro sia
wish me luck
but anione else whu wishes to b farried by me pray tt i hone my skills well well first
life n death
no joke haha

jay chou concert
it was DAMN GOOD
told the storys mani times liao
so abit tired to say
ll b uploading the photos soon la :D

everione has their prob
since its so festive i shant tink of mine
but i gotta do sumthing abt it soon

samuel tay head n neck hope he's good

mani mani things to do!!!
argh jibun ni: oyasumi