im sleepy but i dont feel like sleepg?
mayb im too excited abt the yunnan trip? tot i usually onli get the gitters of overseas trips the nite b4
mayb im enjoying the last nite tt i can stay up late n w nothing much on tmr
damn i haf tuition at 10am
夜深人 静
i like it at nite when there is no body to fan mi
but 寂静 与 寂寞
也只是一 线 之差
suddenly feel gratful tt i haf siblings
both my bro r out partying
onli mi n my parents to tok to
no one to crap w mi
no one to open my door n ask mi y i still not asleep
no one to quarrel w mi
no one to disturb mi

jus one nite haha
y i suddenly so 多愁善感？？
haha 93.3 is not helpg

i like quiet moments w myself but quiet at this moment seem abit overwhelming
y
i dont noe
mayb is the aftermath of watching long taiwanese serial haha
like angel tellg mi jus now
nothing to look forward to liao
its true
sum weird sense of emptyness
haha y do i like to watch tv so much?
my da ge always ask mi
when u peer into the tv
it brings u to another world
another place
u live the life of the the characters inside
like some omnipotent third invisible party
lookg at things happening

u leave ur reality
i forget my own life a while, while im watching
tt's y i tell my family not to distrub mi when i watch tv haha
it comes into the package of escape or denial when u need it
i need neither of these now but well.. haha

when a serial end
u haf to pick up ur life where u left it off
scary rite
mayb tt's y i hafg a sleepless nite on a silent nite
silent nite holy nite
haha apt for boxing day huh

im v tired my eyelids r closing

2004
cant realli bare to leave it behind
so mani new happening things happened
ended As
free until wa buay tahan
enjoyed life like taitai
shopping shopping go out like no one's buisness
gunbound till the next day

its onli 230am?

start to work
tuition tuition tuition
no collegues
met mani pple mani families mani kids
relief teaching
realized childhood ambition
teaching + tuition + teaching + tuition
slogged my ass off
earned my first XK

went for my first interview
scared like shit
work
function alone w/o fren for sum time
workaholic syndrom
tiredness unhappiness

resolved issuses
salvaged frenships
met long-time-no-see fren
first pair of 3-inch heels
met mr wierd at sentosa haha

got into medicine
happiness
sch started again
new environ
new frens
adaptation adaptation adaptation
didnt take long as usual

medicamp
brought bk some orientation memories
haha jus like the rj vcd we watched when gang came to stay over tt day
jc orientation is always special
one special nite
2yr long preoccupation
let it go liao?

cadavers w mushroom ears
mushroom pot n felika bdae!!

serene! yuan you hui is on 93.3 now hahaha
yuan you hui heng hao ting!

ok
mugging mugging
never studied so hard in my life but i guess not hard enuff
boohoo
harder harder mus try la

dad one yr anniversary for quitting smoking
mum ask mi wat i wud rem of her if she dies..
i said her nagging her noise haha
she was like eh!
actualli meant her everithing la
love niceness
but i cud never realli say it out
im a old-fashioned person i guess haha
sum lao kok kok person whu cant express love to fam out in words
heh
but i tink action n speech shows it here n there la
hope my parents dont go for explicit expression of love coz their daughter has sum prob w tt
but wat a qn my mama posed
a tinge of sadness in the air
glad to haf my family
i tink i cant b brave like my fren to tahan when her mama passed away
i wud jus dysfunction i guess if ani of my fam got anithing
at least at this pt la

2004 ending
im entering my 20s
eek
sigh dun wan la
i got 5mth n 4 days?
sigh sigh
y cant i stay in my 10s?
my bro say he's in his quarter life crisis so i shud shut up haha
cant help it la
going to pass my 10s w/o finding it
有点可惜
but i ll wait then
10 more yrs till aft my 20s?? haha
ll i gif up then? wont la 30 v old meh

hahah
this yr passed so fast
got a feelg tt b4 long i ll b in my 80s
wheezing n coughing
argh
seize the day?
haha

the new yr is approaching
kids r born
pple die
everi min

my warp theory of there is sumone whu look exactly like me on the other side of the world
ll it still stand?
i haf no explanation
i jus feel tt way haha

i shud sleep
or else 2.5hr of tuition feelg sleepy n teaching emath is no joke