ive got so much to share today
but its 130 alreadi.. n lky eyeballs ll haunt mi forever arrrggggghhhhh

today had been an interesting day
im startign to enjoy the course alot :)
our lec mentioned abt personality, communication styles and prof usa screened THE TERMINAL for us today
and i started to realize tt aft the lec n tut
i can better spot the diff types of pple ard in the movie and how pple converse and stuff
which realli strikes mi alot and wow.. its so real, like wat prof linus says... and its so much ard our lives tt i realli enjoy being able to pick up these signs..
i mean i used to try observing strangers and stuff but this gifs mi a more structed way of observing.. and putting it down in a better way

tut was fun
im a A- type of person, as expected.. i tot i might b an almost B or sumthing haa
im INFP - same as jialin, almost similar to pofun haah issit a gemini trait?? heh
pple tot i wud b E but i guess i can b both.. jus more confortable being an introvert, time spent alone is v impt to mi.. i totally dont resent it but instead i realli enjoy it... i like being w pple too haha abit of both la

im a blind spot in johari's window
and i so not surprised haha
i tok alot all the time
which is sumthing i recently wan to curb and change
coz its too frivolous and i feel tt things tt i say r sumtimes meaning less
sumtimes i feel tt way
but the onli meaning i find in it is tts my way of sharing w pple.. wat happens in my life, whu i met, wat i saw, wat i heard, funni things
but seldom wat i feel, seldom dreams desires needs.. haha almost never my secrets..
abit got dug up haha i guess in a mcdonalds yrs ago at typ haha
i tot i wud never say anithing tt is so inside, until i met pple whu r so willing to share n encourage us/mi to share haha
but tt s v long ago

i believe tt pple in the blindspot might not exactly b read like an open bk
jing2 pointed tt out too
pple whu tok alot
like jh oso a blindspot, alot of crap, funni things but seldom deep deep feelgs or anithing
true
so i guess it depends on the content of ur speech, ur audience, whether u r comfortable enuff to disclose more or not..

the course is gettg interestg n if i dont sleep soon i wont last till 5pm and 9pm for tut arrggghhh

then aft sch went w jing2 py pf to a nursery.. coz they lookg for flowers for church deco for a fren's wedding
corona was more for landscape didnt haf alot of flowers.. nice catcus tho
met pepper
a v guai dalmation tt loves pettg! haa
i tink it needs alot of attention n love.. ll put his face against ur leg.. wait for u to rub his head or neck so so enjoys it.. awwww
im not super into animals i prefer plants coz i tink i cant take care of them well and i dont haf the energy n interest to do a gd job.. tink the emotional attachment is too much to bare too in case anithing happens scared

then went to GG
for flowers.. super cold fridge
caspea is v nice n pretty n purple
flowers r beautiful...
i tink i learnt q abit how to purchase flowers for wedding deco liaoz haha
the dogs there look abit more fierce so i scared haha

oh pepper left a linger smell on my hand tt i wasnt too comfortable w so i went to wash it off..
as i was tokg to ny when we cum bk i realise tt i tink flowers r very pretty n nice but they r jus too short lived for my liking
i wud like them but i wont love them..
i always tot im someone whu 不在乎天长地久，只在乎\曾经拥有
but the flowers realli made mi reevulate n i realise tt i do like things tt last longer in my life so yep haha

we went holland v for dinner
the roads zoom mi bk to sumtime yrs ago..
memories tt r not shared but stayed w mi..
sumone pulled mi away frm a vehicle on the road coz i was too busy toking n didnt look properly
its ard the same time tt i feel more abt some stuff
and as i was walking along the road tonite at hollad v.. i was reminded of the past i guess..
the cool nite wind and the lights and the mani angmos sitting ard..

i dont noe if its all in the past
it shud b la
had a fun bs
ate nydc haah
and alex let mi eat yikou of his cheesecake to satsify my craving haha
and went home

on the train all alone, i starting reading this bk
二十岁的生日
haha i borrowed the bk coz it s so apt.. to prepare myself for the big 2 and noe wat to wish for haha
i was so into reading it tt when i heard "outram park station, passengers going towards punggol or harbour front, pls alight and transfer to the north east line..."
the door was open
i froze in my seat
my brain hurriedly process the info tt the door is going to close soon
and jus when everione in my carriage got off i grabbed everithing n dash out of the door
heng ar! didnt get giap!

haha
on the nel.. wow
met this happi fam
like three sis w blond hair.,. all mums
w like almost 10kids in all in tow
super noisy
scary.
e kids jump ard, tok loudly, played, stepped on sumone's leg and stuff wow like the Rascals haha
haha i was actualli q amused more than annoyed
altho almost everione was staring and dint looked too happi
haha one of the adults was holding on to a cane, readi to whack the kids anithing.. wa!
kids r hard to bring up
i realised.. very very hard..

came bk home watched abit of tv went online tok to pple
then the little box came up at the bottom right hand corner
and haha
my heart skipped abit n raced for like a split sec haha
a long lost feelg i guessed, no matter how fleetg
comtemplating if i shud initiate a conversation or not
while toking to mani pple at the same time haa
pleasantly surprise to find a fren intiated a conversation over msn.. n_n

tok to my frens
and told a fren abt the johari's window tt i did today
a self assessment to see wat kind of conversationalist u r
im a blindspot
n i told him he is an unknown
coz lookg at the conversation box, the ave is like 4 purple statments and one short blue one
unknows tok very little , they ans little, ask little
so pple dont noe much abt them and they dont noe much abt pple
and we started discussing all the 4 character types
facade, arena, blindspot, unknown

unknown pple r suppose to haf depth he says haha
i agree as i know someone in class like tt whu i always enjoy toking to
and whu always let mi learn abt stuff tt i didnt noe abt :)
but unknowns r easily misunderstood.. they say they r used to it or they dont bother..i hope they can speak up abit more.. n they ll find pple whu r interested in wat they ve got to say
but sumtimes they r jus not interested in e person or they r afraid tt they ve got nothing interesting to say

the rapid heartbeat was realli fleetg
nothing more came to it, at least i noe inside myself
so i guess its realli sumthing of the past haha
but its been a long long time since tt fleetg thing was felt..
im not estatic but it kinda puts a smile to my face ha

better go sleep now....