yest was a really good experience at assissi..
sis tang is nice, always trying to teach us stuff
we tried toking to a 65yr old lady.. she's kinda quiet abit bored i guess n 3 of us w her in a rm w like no conversation topics
hmm of coz i tried my v best to chat her up
but within the first few qns i made her cry dunnoe y...
i was abit taken aback actualli and was wondering if wat i said was too insensitive or not..
coz i asked her if she has children n she said no..
but started crying
later i went for a stroll w her n stayed ard the chat w her...
i felt the need n the desire to..
altho i wasnt actualli do sumthing substaintial but spendign time w the patients there n chatting w them is something i feel tt its impt..
i tink I was under the mentality of always doing sumthing substantial n missing out on the part of interacting w them.. tt's wat always happen when i did community service last time i guess.. but it was a gd chat altho most of the time we were silent
aft a while she offered to start a part of conversation aft a bout of silence..
tt's the happiness i feel when i tok to pple whu dont realli feel like opening up.. whu haf little words..
n the thought of them making tt effort to say sumthing or tell u sumthing abt tt, makes mi v happi
:)
i usualli try by toking alot at the beginning..
sharing abt myself so tt they feel more comfortable toking to mi..
hope this doesnt irritate pple ~

i was exposed to changing patients diapers, flipping them on bed, feedg them..
it was a new experience n i realli enjoyed it so much so tt i forgot abt my terrible toothache..
well caleb's 4buck/pill panadol is actualli q an effective painkiller for mi..

caleb mention sumthing on the train abt mi resembling him in some ways
n like i said altho i dont wish to realli acknowledge tt but yea..
i noticed tt a long time ago too..
the natural need to entertain pple
not tt i particularly makes mi happi but it makes pple happi
these days im less of tt i tink
im more moody these days.. haha py can prob agree w tt
i tink im letting myself b abit more revealing of how i feel so i tink its fine
coz i always do wat i tink is right or wat i feel like doing..
so its fine la

yunnan
shud i go bk again?
i dunnoe i dont realli feel like going bk again
honestly coz if i do, i wud haf ask my parents long ago
or "informed" in tt sense since some time ago...
i tend to make decisions like tt myself

i tink its the CA
pros scared the shit out of mi actualli.. panic attacks even now haa
i hate the feelg of inadequacy, unpreparedness or ignorance
in tt sense i dont tink im up to it
i dont tink i deserve to go - i tink im even paiseh to ask my parents coz not as if i was ai-zai last yr w my work..
n to go for a trip b4 CAs might make them flip, prob make myself flip, with anxiety N stress..
its the thing abt taking it at my own pace
not rushing things
i like to go yunnan coz it opens mi up to the world out there
a brand new experience, learning journey
altho i dread the cold.. but its an exp of A lifetime
like wat i told the m1s during matric
which i realli believe in
but its the thing tt i dont realli want to go tt badly this yr
i dunnoe y
i dont haf a greater calling or somekinda faith tt propels mi to go there
which is generally the case in my life, i onli account for myself n listen to wat i haf got to say
so hmm im still tinkg abt it

altho caleb says the deadline is today..
hee
found at tt my councillee is one of the chop stamp sign pple going
altho he told me he was q confirm to go alreadi
but hmm jus found out..

well did tt frs presentation until damn late last nite
paiseh py i knocked out at 3 + while she continue till 4..
haha we took turns to do n sleep
sianz it better turn out well
so good luck to us..

its was good staying overnite at berns house..
mani caring frens
n ate so much toast.. thnx jing

mani issuses to tink abt
mani things to study
better get to work

ohoh how can i forget to note this down
tt ban mian auntie at the nuh foodcourt pissed mi off so BADDDDDD!
walao
i was suffering frm a realli bad toothache frm my erupting wisdom too tt was killing mi thruout the day
so i decided to eat something soft and i orderd hor fun
she kinda let 10 pple go in front of mi
i was tinkg ok hor fun takes time to fry the juice so its ok
budden she gave my long awaited hor away
i told her
n she still got the cheek to tell mi.. no la urs is still cooking
wtf
im there so long until i almost became stone
n the second plate of hor fun tt appeared again was given away again..
i jus had to intercept it
altho i was paiseh for tt lady when i snatched the food away frm her
but its MINE lor
kao
n i was realli hungry
w a toothache n a bad day ~ coz i happi tot lec starts at 9 n was still bathing aft 7 at home
heng dad got mi there on time
but
argh
she jus pisses mi off
its not the mistake tt made mi angry.. i noe there's alot of customers shes busy
but its tt attitude n face k
i told her nicely she made the mistake
well i was expecting a sorry la
but a denial?!?
she realli cant see mi standing in front of her meh???
watever
im going to boycott the store for a mth!
26/8 - 26/9
argh..