Well, although I really should be studying right now, I cant seem to concentrate until I really sat down to reflect on this year. Today is the last day of 2005 and wow what a year it has been for me I guess

2005..
365 days are too many days to remember... things happen so fast that they feel kinda hazy and long ago i tink :)
I remember the year started with serene's bday party.. how we started planning since a few wks before and how I was the party liasion in town, from buying deco to pasting deco and mingling haha that was q fun..

then there was CNY, my fav festival that came and went.. cant rem too much
haha hmm actualli now i do.. invited gang n judo girls to my plc... actualli i packed all the judo girls into my dage's van and drove there here..
on the way home mando actualli sat on an orange and squashed it :p
lots of gambling

I rem distinctly PROs.. how i jus couldnt take it anymore, was v stressed and depressed.. first time in my life and scared the shit out of everyone, including myself..
Everything just came crashing down and I was realli abit bonkus hahaa i guess.. how py came by to visit mi aft the exams to study w mi coz I was sure I was going to do Supps and stuff..
Hiya.. first time i felt so shitty in sch.. to think I still laughed at my 2 Os in As prelims, I jus snapped
Results came and went, no pass fail vivas no supp
I rem tt py told jing i wore my shortest skirt and my highest pair of heels and went town.. an immense sense of relief.. I really dont want it to ever happen again ( which might if i dont study damn hard aft writing this)

Got off to a holidays with the judo girls and friends, first time out to travel with the oldest person in the team at a grand age of 20.
Taiwan.. eat shop eat shop.. a easy plc to go off for hols, q like spore in terms of transport and stuff and no language barrier
Remembered climbing yangming shan w an ahpek n 2 aunties and reached the highest peak ( i still hafnt send them the fotos sigh)
watched damn alot of porn in the hotel, loved the book stores there with all the chinese books..

OCBC was another phase, where my frens found mi irritating aft i started talking like the uptight bossy bankers haaa
Gotta curb myself in this way the coming yr.. i really got to stop letting my environ influence mi too much.. I jus blend right in.. it's good in the sense im v adapatble, but i ll lose bits of myself and gain new traits i guess

there's always BS with the YN pple.. had alot of fun with them.. discussing, dinners..
altho i decided not to go YN this yr.. it was a hugh decision i tink, for mi, but personally i wan2 slow down abit, spend some time with pple, do my work, stay away frm the cold..
everyone seem to ask mi y i didnt wan to go, i did at least for a while but i didnt really tink i deserve to go? aft the shitty Pros tt scared my fam reali bad.. i tot i needed to study more (did I?) and jus take things abit slow.. dont like the rush for time. the stress i might not be able to handle, the guilt to bear
of coz i gave up great experiences, deepening of frenships making new frens.. but kkh kinda got mi abit happier i tink w the kids la

a 4mth break
worked on my bdae
onli met py for dinner v late at night aft a round of drinks w my collegue along clark quey..
alos worked in my mentors lab for a while.. and finally did some lab work that i wanted to try..
got to noe frens like sokying n jasmine - real nice pple
slacked alot, read abit, lots of tv, lots of tuition, M2 started
I enjoyed school i tink, lots of fun, interesting things to learn, good company with frens..

of coz there's huay coming bk and going off to uk
memorabe gang outings and stayovers.. like Maf and White Chicks winloseordraw..
serene + holland v outing
more sch, more work, more things to read, and sch came to an end a grand 2 wks ago..

well these are the things i did i guess
things abit out of routine

I feel that this year got me to see sides of me i hafnt seen before
crushed my confidence and made me crumble
got it bk abit w a 89 in NS CA tt everyone knew wat was coming out :P
cried alot yanked out q a bit of hair, tt's y i got a coppercolored wig folks
but laughed alot.. entertained alot of pple i hope, it jus comes out naturally - tt's gd i tink
abit of angsty teenage anger here and there.. like i always say.. i grew up too guai so altho i feel q old inside, my younger traits still appear once in a while :)
but an enjoyable and enriching year i would say
made alot of new frens, esp the meddie pple - and learnt so much from them
talked to closer frens abit more, felt tt my relationship w them got abit better
but tink i can still do better, being a better daughter, sister, fren..
how i do not know

now im home, coz of the need to study
otherwise i wud b out.. but my mama's home.. she's always home.. go i tink i need to spend more time w her and bring her out more or sumthing
she isnt like my dad who haf countdown parties to attend, she isnt like her kids who dont come home until the wee hrs of the morn on days like this, and seriously w/o CAs.. i wont b home tonite too.. but my mama is always here for us.. so yea
gotta stop myself frm flaring up too much, cultivate better temper - esp ard my bros, better studying habits

my resolutions? hmm
a couple of mundane ones ll include, kick the tv addiction.
let my knowledge of medicine grow
know new frens, keep the old ones
b a gd tuition teacher haa yes oOshashyOo and maines - i expect ur A1s ya.. jiayou coz i tink we can go this together... u guys are capable of it k i realli tink so :)
~ prob wont teach anymore aft they graduate from me, so let's make this last tuition stint a good one :)
(unless i no $$ to survive frm m3-5, then tt's another issue, but my grand plan is eat away the gold moutain tt i haf stash away for myself first)

haha and a couple more that wont be mentioned here la :)

so byebye to 2005 in 4hrs time and HELLO 2006!
abit nostalgic sia
did my many first times
- lost abt $200 bucks in 1 go during CNY w the shoot goalpost game, luckily my bro kinda waver the payment off
- overseas trip w frens
- work in bank/lab
- made my first speech in front of many impt pple @ OCBC sship presentation
- dyed/highlight/perm/rebond my hair
- break down before an exam
- got a new hp, bought it myself frm the store
- changed my hp plan for the first time (finally rite, beng?)
- got into a traffic accident as a driver
- let go of sumthing i held on for a few yrs

HAPPY NEW YEAR to all, may it be a joyful year full of happiness and memorable experiences :)