haha frm the site meter i guess everione stop visiting my blog coz i hafnt been writing..
well so much haf happened since erm 2nd aug?
there was the wk of rag n flag in sch where i kinda spent the whole wk asking be**ing for money haha not so bad la
pple either walk past mi as if im transparent or smile n walk away or nice enuff to stop n donate
sigh i dont realli like selling flags or flowers la
the more fun part was the savh ah pek n ah mmms
my partner was a funky 84 yr old ah ma who speaks fluently n rather happening la
my teochew sprouting skills finally came to good use i guess haha
discussing now big or pretty tt bird is n how nice tt wild plant was
n then my og rather on stay n help rag overnite on fri too...
but not so bad learnt how to pay 99, hearts, carom properly so yea
i pretty much like my og la
all the rather nice pple
can click w like all the girls n hit off v well w like iris jean santhya...
i tink one of the days went to stayover at huayu house cant exactly rem wat day
but she summoned mi n i was going to learn driving so i appeared at her door step at 11+
kena shot wierd looks by her family though haha
but yea drank chicken soup we manage to cook
oh it was thu coz serene was rather unhappi tt she missed her oc n asked mi if i taped but i didnt
haha
i rem now

as usual the documentary goes on
then sch started soon enuff
xia tian yi jing guo qu le
first day of sch was after national dae rite
cant realli rem
the dean toking
he was not as sleep inducing as the vice dean whu effortly coax mi to sleep
how in auspicious as i was trying to tell everione hah
slept in the first lec
but i m proud to say tt i hafnt slept at all for the rest of it till this dae
on listen try to process n scribble like mad
i feel tt its quite silly to scribble almost everithing the lecturer says la but i tink it is some self comforting shit thingy tt i do to not feel so bad la rite
when i dont understand wat is happening at least i can tell myself tt i tried to write down wat he said then can read up later
alot of words i cant spell then i anihow anihow haah
incoherent
read up i m obviously so behind tt i dont wan to tink abt it
cannot cannot muz constantly remind miself
shit
i even did my tut
not the whole thing but the first few qn la
feel like i m constantly mugging for an invisible exam tt ll cum sooner or later la
sian like shit
but yea mayb i shud drink mug root beer in a mug to constantly remind my self
feel an info overload la
but yea i kinda like sch i wud say better than slacking at least
more purpose n directn

n there was pbl
during the workshop mi n peiyun were the onli two silent introverts haha
but nothing to say boh pian too
n i dont like toking in front of strangers or like fighting for an opportunity to tok
so pple whu jus now mi owas tink i veri quiet
dunnoe whether tts n understatment or over statement
but it wasnt so bad the second time i guess
i got mi rather excited tinking abt all the things im going to learn like wat is myocardial infarction
but like i was toking to joyce tt day like in rg rj so long neva realli had to go try to fit in in new environ wif new pple so yea tink my social skills gotta hone abit more la
but not so bad my class got like some jokers then ok la

anat prac was rather exciting too
was abit scared to go in la
then not so bad aft all
wanted to take mani step bk when the prof thrust an arm into my face 4 us to haf a closer look
jus one arm n nothing else
haha
but the bodies haf their faces covered skin n some tissuse removed n peni* hanging so abit desentisized la
not so much of a person when looking at it
but yea we gotta treat it wif respect

my tut almost the same pple as the pbl gp
but got like hsien min oso
he jus hafta intro mi to the class as luohan
tot tt name was exclusive to rj judo haha

n had my driving test on tue
wa lau scared like shit
so much of prac went in b4 the test lor went into the circuit like mani mani times
then i stupid stupid always hit curb in crank n s until my papa oso buay tahan say i lan
sigh but on mon nite i not so bad liao la
on the actual day damn nervous la
my car stalled when i was on the slope then i scared alreadi
then cuming down the slope i didnt signal too
but the tester mr yik was nice
he tell mi "signal left signal left" "relax calm down" haha
not so bad la then the rest of the circuit was ok until i went into the crank
haha
i hit the curb at the first bend
then my heart jus dropped sianz
i flu n cant breathe so was taking deep breaths until the tester asked mi aft the test y i kept panting haha
but yea went out n everithing was fine
got one time he say i stopped too far behind the car wait pple ll stuff their head in to cut lane
but then it was ok aft tt
then went onto eunos link coz i route 7 mah
aft the u turn tired to change lane to left lane
then saw a giant lorry charging towards mi i hum n cut out again
he said its dangerous coz pple cuming frm the centre lane ll knock mi when i suddenly cum out
i guess so
then i saw him tinking furiously i tot sure die
but it wasnt so bad after all coz got the free one tick for first time make tt mistake.. haha
in the end i passed w -14
hee
happi like shit
when i came out saw my dad then show him then he oso happi like shit
he say like strike 4d lidat haha

n yea i can drive liao
hafnt tried alone yet la
but to gang if i haf chance i cum pick u all up 4 supper k
when i prac abit on my own first la
unless my dad is invited too haha

my fareux og fren jus msg
say got gathering on sat
wa sat so happening
PEIYUN'S BDAE
... in two days time!! r u excited?
then got n405, charlamagne, fareux gathering.. howhow??

haf been tired tired the whole wk
sianz sia
sch is more exciting then slacking la but tiring sia everidae oso hafta go out
on no better watch my sia or else like carol lidat haha
todae is a rather fruitful day i guess but wa macam so shopping competition lidat
went ikea then damn alot of pple bet it mus b coz got sale
tink i can brave thru all this crowd i rather zai liao hah
went to shop for shelves n desk for my bro
their rm jus went thru some major furniture arrangement then got space for him to but a giant desk
he starting to mug liao good for him
hope he can keep his enthu up
doing his tuts n attending ivle lec liao boy im impressed
went wif my mama dage erge
my dad not there or else is whole fam shopping activity
buti can so see him standing in a corner impatiently waiting for everithing to end la so sigh
bought mani mani things quite cool
saw like a M2 couple the guy look scary to mi hmm
nvm
aniwae wat a shopping exp
my bro set up everithing liao look cool
heng my dage got bread van can send everithing home or else mus waste 40bucks delivery

woke up at like 11+ today
read the papers on my bed kept falling asleep on it
haha omg it was heavenly
almost forgot tt feeling n it all came bk
this used to b my mus do activity everi sundae morn last time
but since i started teaching tuition on sunday morn since nov
neva did tt animore
how deprive
didnt even realise wat i was depriving my self off in my crazy workaholic stint to earn $$
i haf decided i wan to slow down my "career" or even stop
i dont care animore guess i haf attain the amt of $$ i wan to earn
neva tot $$ was veri impt to mi
i mean i veri low maintainence one lor
sigh
they all jus sit in bank onli feel good when can buy bks n laptop w no worries haha
^__^
wth nvm
this is wat i consider a little happiness in life
like i told serene my default is always not happi not sad
but this morn for tt little while i felt happi
abit of true happiness haha
jus coz i got to do such silly stuff
but i like it
i luv?
haha

aniwae yest oso quite happening
got tuition w my ahem erm f*a*v* cousin
haha
frm like 8+ to 12 haha but quite good can eat cheese suasuage n serve net haha
then go gathering w 3f
serene came along too
lunch at marche
like i say where else can we go?
might as well make tt the 3f lao di fang hmm
met w them toktok played pool haha was rather fun
although i didnt tok alot unlike usual but i guess i was jus looking at them
trying to rem how they look like i guess
like soon enuff they ll all be in like diff countries lidat
i wud say i like pple frm my class
nice funni pple la huh

went bbq w my og at nite at WCP
wa didnt noe tt place so happening
got family picincs malay kids pushing each other ard on trolleys got jap kiddy baseball team trng
saw the med pple not alot of pple turn up la but not too few too
my og git 5 m1 + VICKY haha
oh well
then got like 7 ogls i tink haha
not too bad they told us alot of stuff
nice
like how to pon lec this impt tt not impt
for a moment ks mi felt like taking notes
haha like i predicted cant realli rem wat they said exactly haha
i mus turn into a mugger?? haha wat a thought
aniwae we chopchop first to start fire n cook
iris bought the nice jelly hearts
nice to see good to eat wow
i like
then got nuggets otah n suasages haha
i didnt realli cook at all jus stand ard n wait for food oops :p
nice bbq fish too
then tok tok tracy has a funni laughter haha
n i had ALOT of fun poking potatoes
like some psycho getting kicks stabbing pple
ooo
haha then we chopchop first to leave
settled at macs n toktok summore
then went home lor
found another nel kaki alvin stays in punggol haha
it was quite fun la i wud say hang ard n tok not too bad but alot o pple didnt turn up though

ok la need to sleep n burn cd
i mean burn liao sleep
meeting mel tmr
hope the gathering is cheng kong

happi birthdae to caroline yubaba ahline partner ..
pleased to beat u? haha

wow hafnt blog since yimyee came so didnt noe of this colour thingy
okie wat haf i done since then huh...
gang went on our overnite stays at huayu's house n mine..
we went huayu's uncle house n i realli like the tea there...
well the first nite we tried to scare yy at airport but ended up missing her rite haha i challenged my heels though but realise cant run or balance on a bus w it la sianz
aniwae i felt abit awkward at first but glad tt i soon found the way she tok n laughed damn familiar n yea got comfortable
glad tt yy came
we had lotsa fun going sentosa altho it rained n going WWW
we went shopping for mian bao n pinic food for sentosa n had picnic... pple pls tink of mr wierd heh
haha tok tok late into the nite n the chao san si huh
cant believe i dreamt of huayu's dad offering it to us at breakfast the nite we ate it
juess his "yao bu yao chi shui guo" thingy threatening us w knife scared mi
everione stayed over at mi house on wed nite rite haha cant believe how 6 ppl can squeeze into my tiny rm heh
n serene n fel my ka gias (whu i noe haf been trying to overthrow mi) made mi do tt stupid dj-ing thing haha n i fell asleep
aniwae we took bus 27  like usual n yy left
haha heng we all didnt cry
but abit she bu de
hope she cum bk soon
or mayb next time we can all go over hk together
we went for k lunch aft tt rite
first time i c pple falling asleep in the ktv lounge haha
but yea kbox together then went home n sleep la
yy's visit came to an end
:s

then went to watch spidey man w judo pple i wore my spiderman tshirt for bossini n held the spideyman popcorn bucket to pose for a pic w the spidey man poster haha
we went to eat marche aft tt then got mini blackout haha
we went pofun's house a few days aft tt too rite? to swim  wa her pool the water extra cold n clear nice
then we went to play pool haha took damn long to finish one game haha
then went diaso to shop we were there for damn long
quite a cool place everithing 2dollar haha
then xinyi bought damn alot of things as ususal haha
then we went bk to eat eat n went home
bought my two korean handbooks tt teach mi korean n jap haha

then yepyep days went by n i went med camp on monday
hmm met peiyun n went then
we arrived rather earli then abit apprehensive
but we went n hmm my og is charlemagne
quite nice pple la n ogls quite nice too
so qiao my er ge's sec sch classmate khaiwei in my gp too
then got iris jean jocelyn santhya sunder cheemeng victor pple i kinda c b4 in sch last time
then got other pple frm other jc s too
painted the monkey flag on the first day jus coz mark shirt had tt print n we tot it was quite cute haha
2nd day had alot of games la...
dirty stuff like slide across the bench tt has dynamo ketchup egg to play shrek pass toothpaste w body parts n sick ur hair into dirty water sigh
the got troy building fortress w cardboard n haf waterbomb war
then learnt mass dance my partner is benjamin haha mi abit pshycomotor  but reminded mi of the raindance last time in rj
then all those games n stuff n fright/mambo nite lor
got the chucky station where the little girl ghost kept sitting on the ground looking scary then got the funni ghost tt kept hugging mi n the tall black ghost tt jumped out hmm
then got the rgs girl whu hanged herself coz her l1r5 is 32 haha
n her ah ma whu ll smile at u sinisterly aft she signed it
then sector charlie w the army ghost w make u pick ur his chang/liver haha
then went into the haunted toilet w daphne hahah she rather funni can scream damn loudly n i tried to giap the ghost w the toulet door as i tried to trap her inside dont let her cum out haha
3rd day went palawan
played all the watergames stuff rather sandy but ok la
got my black chaota tan tt onli serene cant see haha
campfire was se n boring n i fed so mani mosquitos tt i bet they mus b overweight n cant fly liao haha
played polar bear games n the pass-the-coin game haha till morning didnt sleep at all
plus all the 'intellectual' games haha
broke camp on thu morn oh mus tok abt the food got the surprising nice chee cheong fan in food warp the day b4 got cornflakes n then got roti prata oso
hmm

went to watch the judo finals at tpy aft tt
haha mi n pofun went sumo bento then almost fell asleep in there
aft eating we went downstairs n slept on the bench w our bags like sum run away kids lidat heh i woke up suddenly n saw pple staring aat us w tt disgusted look la 
then we move to the stadium to sleep haha
c girls won they look rather zai
c boys lost tink they still need more of tan&eng trng
b girls didnt play
b boys lost sigh
a girls lost too but guess they did their best la
reminded mi quite alot of us exactly a year ago scary how time passed by so fast
a boys won
omg its a match to rem i tink junming looked rather steady tink he put up a good fight but looked shattered when he was thrown
then justin rather impressed by him
my impression o him last time was like he try try then cant then ll defend n run ard but he didnt stop trying at all thruout tt 3 min yea commendable n he won
then emerson wow
hi tomonage cant b described la like the hc guy almost threw him lor trip him abit n he fell but as he was falling he tomonage him wa when the refeere called for an ippon both sides cheered la but we won haha
then jeremy another one like justin lidat kept trying shoulder throw althogh he's big hmm but he lost
budden tzeming won haha
steadily earned his koka n yukos haha
n we won!

i liked us singing the sch song aft the end of our competitions
a sense of belonging n pride hmm
yea we won

met up w huayu serene n py yest
hmm huayu recovered frm her water-bean liao
then she was rather angry w her bro
i understand
eat n tok hmm like wat we always do
serene kept saying like our last outing lidat but i dont tink so la...
haha had fun n met beng n sheryl hafing their sec 4 class outing

wa this shunfeng n ah chun ah tsktsk so drama but yea they met...
i shud go watch all the tv i wan today la
sigh sianz
sch starting tmr ...
then how then how
cant sleep till late late when i wan 
cant watch all the tv i wan sigh...
i shall resolute to stay afloat? haha jus dont fall bk on sch stuff la hor
yea ok to nus tmr la

haha wat a happening past three daes these past three daes haf been.
on tue aft cedric n nigel's tuition, angel asked mi to chinatown w her
she wanted to buy the spirited away little black bird which i told her can b found at lucky plaza n she wanted to used up tt $5 voucher tt i got when i went there w the judo gals b4 CNY to buy tt ninja top
the bra shop haha
but wow tt place was rather diff frm CNY most of the shops r closed then alot up for rental i guess no one wud noe tt little slide door tt leads to B2
but well she got her thingyy the black birds w the ultra skinny legs tt r rather flimsy,.,.
i told her i saw many leg-less bird of tt species n korea but she still bought it i guess haha
the scary shop keeper xiaofei is rather faggorty
but oh well the bra shop wasnt open so we decided to walk ard to check out china town
we walked n walked until we came to this street tt sells lotsa food in little push carts
b4 tt we saw this man wu ll make scultpures of ur face for $30 bucks his quite good but the little heads he making reminded mi of CHUCKY hhaa
then the food place.. its rather cool like angel says the 60s shanghai tan w like ghostly qibao-ed ladies walking ard haha

ahh cheated my feelings tot oc is here then in the end its ENCORE telecast of soccer-netherlands n portugal
oh ahaha got meteor garden

aniwae
we ated haha cha kauay tiao, BOH PIA!!, tangyuan, zha bingqiling, n KAYA BALLS... argh... i haf been traking kaya balls for yrs FINALLY!!
kaya ball is sumthing tt i like to eat frm amk central hawker centre haha but recent yrs i tink the little stall beside the fruit stalll close down liao so boh liao
we walked n walked n walked frm smith street to sago street to south bridge rd bk to pagoda street
haha saw all the cheena-cheena stuff n the pretty ZEN lamps tt cost like 100+
im suppose to buy angel one coz she like it
mayb i ll wait until she work n haf $$ n will buy one for each of us haha
then we went bk lucky plaza but the owner of the bra shop still not bk so we si xin alreadi
on our way home we went into the break talk shoppin mall w the giant popular
damn cheena oso haha all the zhong guo ren w the cheena feel in there
tink one day i can go there to cultivat abit of wen hua xiu yang too heh
we haf officially checked out chinatown frm exit A n found all da xiao chi place the cha siu thingy haha
cool place great company :)
then the BLACKOUT
haha rather happening
i hafnt realli exp such a big scale blackout in years
apparently the worst in 11yrs??
was on the phone w serene when i heard onli static frm the other end then realised there was a BO
my mama efficently lit candles frm the shen deng on the shen tai haha
my erge was downstairs heng didnt get stuck in the lift but hafta climb 15storeys out.
his soeed climbing was so fast tt was quite unbelivable so i tink he scared dark haha
then hung ard the living rm worrying abt my dad a while coz cudnt get him
the whole tpe was rather dark then scary lor
i was rather hum n scared as well
hehe
but in the end i took up my mama suggestion n went to bathe in the candle light
wow damn cold water yellow yellow light wat n exp
frm 10+ to almost 12 then the episode ended.

wed was rather eventful until it was uneventful
my gage had a tooth decay went to extract but aft two hrs of digging n scraping n tugging onli haf on if came out n apparently the root was attached to sum meatal bits when my bro had a jaw op abt 5 yrs ago
so yea had to go 4 dental surgery n since both my parents r not free the maid n chauffeur job was taken uo my mi n my er ge
haha but i good thing came out of it i guess my bro seemed to start to initate conversation btw themselves.
they got lost on their way there n since i was sleeping behind the van they had to discuss their way to nuh haha
the we took care of the admin stuff n my bro went n py popped by too
mi n my erge then had time to kill at nus for mani mani hours...
we went ard looking for the office of finance to get the tuition fee loan form
then got lost n kept turning ard nus mani mani times haha finally found
then went lunch at the sci canteen
the went to the van to sit for a while b4 it was time to go bk coz my bro came out of the ot liao
he look rather pain the got bloody gauze in his mouth w stiches on gum
the coz hafta stay in hospital for 8hrs b4 can use medisave to pay so we hafta hang ard frm like 1+ till four
at first mi n erge still hahah n download ring tones until in the end my dage sat on chair to eat porridge i buay tahan fell asleep on the hospital bed...i jus slept the kind nurse pulled the curtain for mi,..
hehe
then the doc came n suaned mi asking if i was the patient n i paiseh paiseh haha
then i heard my bro didnt take any painkillers coz he didnt noe wat he was allergic to... hmmm
mus haf been quite pain
wow then we went home w eunice
n my bro they all sent mi to bayshore for tuition

talked to the dr teo abit
found out tt she was wow rather cool
hafta take care of the small middle n large one hope she is doing fine.
as our tuition came to an end a jap girl came in to share the reading rm..
i knew she was jap frm the look n her translating stuff
realli wanted to go start a conversation n chitchat abit for fun laa
but like paiseh so dilemma
haa then wadee started asking mi abt metero garden n i told her abt it was a jap comic n tt was when the girl looked up n smile n told us she was jap
then we chitchat
abit n realised tt shes minobu.
she 23 came to spore to b air stewardess aha n she tot i was my tuition kid classmates... hahah shes frm fukuoka
quite cool la tot to her for fun n she missed her home so sad haha
she say she stay in japan all the short short houses then look forward to the high rise place in spore tink mani sporeans tink the other way huh
but fun toking to her all da best man

thu
last day of tuition at cedric n nigel
i fa bi qi abit in the end n they ended up quite scared haha
but i tink they gettig to lazy n slack always chitchat n tok nonsense,.. sigh
but i guess it came to an end took pic w them n stuff
they were quite fun to teach like
boys will always b boys
the way the tink the funni things they tell u haha damn funni
cedric is the trying to act cool age will nigel always zhuang ke ai like wat cedric always say
haha rather like to sa jiao so
haha
the maid is nice too venjie
will rem her great food
in the end nigel msg mi the over teh rainbow ring tone her composed haah sweet.
hope they like my erge la
haha i showed them his photo as they requested like matchmaking lidat then i was the meiren...
haha

came home phobe cancelled tuition so had time n went to rm
bought my first pair of HEELS
always wanted to challenge the high stuff
three inches
n they cost onli 9 bucks
yea good buy
bought at the bata clearance sale haha
but test wore of 10min at home then my ankle feels wierd liao so haha
hope i can lian until can run in them
hmm need a good day to challenge them...
haha quite fun..

tmr at ecp w beng at manda :)

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It isn't the thing you do, dear,
It's the thing you leave undone
That gives you a bit of a heartache
At setting of the sun.

The tender word forgotten,
The letter you did not write,
The flowers you did not send, dear,
Are your haunting ghosts at night.

The stone you might have lifted
Out of a brother's way;
The bit of heartsome counsel
You were hurried too much to say;

The loving touch of the hand, dear,
The gentle, winning tone
Which you had no time nor thought for
With troubles enough of your own.

Those little acts of kindness
So easily out of mind,
Those chances to be angels
Which we poor mortals find --

They come in night and silence,
Each sad, reproachful wraith,
When hope is faint and flagging,
And a chill has fallen on faith.

For life is all too short, dear,
And sorrow is all too great,
To suffer our slow compassion
That tarries until too late;

And it isn't the thing you do, dear,
It's the thing you leave undone
Which gives you a bit of a heartache
At the setting of the sun.

~ M. E. Sangster ~

issit apt for mi or wat?
wat i dislike/hate abt miself
i procrastinate rather a lot in studies which is gifing mi nightmares nowadays sch's starting in life generally
tts y my rm can look like a ware house for mths
ming ri fu ming ri huh?
the poem tt was drilled into my head in higher class in pri sch last time
tmr i ll pack my rm
tmr i ll ...
tmr tmr tmr
sumtimes things pass u by
things tt u shud haf said or done
things tt u shud haf noticed
things tt u shud do when u promise
i dont like to promise pple anithing animore
sumtimes i not keep them
i feel bad abt it
sickening
but jian ku tou or sumthing jus keep doing it again n again
sianz sickening
hate is too strong a word itself n for mi
so is love
i guess
scary how i dont feel much abt mani things
i m realli not sure is it coz i realli cant b bothered or i jus dont feel it
but it is not a conscious effort i m certain
like huayu says i jus take things as it cums along
i dont like to disappoint
i try to b nice
i dont like confrontation
i dont speak my mind alot
i keep to myself most of the time?
i forget unhappy things
then days seem to b eassier
y do i wan days to pass by more easily?
haha silly qn
aniway my unhappiness jus left see wa so forgetful now chatting w frens
scary how pple jump in n out of emotions so easily
mayb coz i was veri moody n drastice when i was younger then it was hard la so now this is mi striking a balance dunnoe la hah


＂人原来是这样健忘的.同样的一个人在短短的时间内竟然变换了两个面目.
过后他又想,大概正因为这样健忘所以才能够在痛苦中生活下去."
~觉慧~

＂往事依稀浑如梦
都随风雨到心头"
~梅~

家--巴金

omg watched windstruck today
the first show tt i felt like watching again once as the show was cuming to an end
it has the funni hahaha parts of course
like the part myungwoo prentended to b a serial killer/rapist n mad the laoda kneel in front of hime
like the jyungjin role playing to b princess part n the ghost w hoping hair/wig, the janghyuk dressed like a jester haha
of course the nice sweet part
my fave was da books
the comic turn anime when u flip the pages? aww
the e sad part. i wont forgive them if the let him die there but i guess the ending i cant sae anithing liao la didnt noe so many things can happen 49days aft he die...
y change to wind when u die huh? carefree omnipresent
but cant b seen ya onli the paper plan
when the paper plan reappeared i knew i wud b the same one he tore out frm the mag
i knew it
the ultimate twist wats my sassy boy appearing walauuu
but i guess its realli touching la
i didnt cry like shit like my two kakis
but haha enuff to moisturize e eyes
hafnt cry damn hard for a lont time haha mayb i ll the next time i watch the show again la... i used to cry like shit at sad sad tv movie parts but too long neva use might b abit rusty haha
pple looking for a good laugh at the movie or at the funni lady sitting diagonally in front w funni laughter tt ends later than everione else in the cinema shud go watch
i wont want to b wind when i die though..
eh i not sure gotta tink abt it la
but tot the haleluya part of the light when he has to go was abit like bruce almighty ha
nice show

had a freaky dream this morn.. tink its coz i slept too earli last nite...
as usual theirs always common test n the two days b4 tt aka sat when the first paper starts on monday i hafnt started studying yet.. like wats new huh
but its the sickening oh shit feeling
n oso the sickening self denial can one dont worry i ll make it
thne start planning ok first wk onli got 2gp papers n one phy
not so bad at least no phy n chem papers together
get past these 3 papers first la
then can chao pia for the rest
the sickening aftereffect of life long procrastination
didnt noe how i survive my jc yrs lidat
going into test exams unprepared
skipping most of the qn until u finished the paper miraculously fast
then i woke up
hafnt wake up at 8 feeling rested for a freaking long time
three tuition today wats new
n thu i haf got four haha
oh beng now wed is the best dae if kbox is still onz
coz i decided to dump one of my wed tuition on thu so tt i can go nus for checkup
tinking tinking how i can slowly give up all my tuition
feel abit distrubed dunnoe y like abit sad to leave
but i m seriously dying to
wat a paradox
like the issit ming zhong zhu ding or ren ding sheng tian shit tt i haf been trying to figure out
wow tts an improvement : mi tinking abt stuff lidat

on thu nit i melted my bros expensive tie
i was trying to iron it for my dad
for the ocbc sship presentation
i turned on the iron went over once
the iron hasnt heated up yet
the the front door opened n my dad n bro r bk
then i went bk to ironing aft tellin my dad its compulsory to wear a tie tmr
put the iron bk on the tie n it freaking melted in fornt of mi wif a funni smell somemore
dammit
felt realli stupid n lousy when my mum jumped of her bed when i put the iron down immediately
sigh as usual i got rattled off
i officalli cant cook iron use the washig machine n mani mani more things at home
i boast the ability to make realli nice beds n sweep??
not being too sastified f my ability to do chores huh

the next day was the the presentation went to take a train n bus w my dad n he kinda didnt noe where to tap the ezlink card on the bus haha
we were lost in the cbd area n walked a realli long way when the bank is rather near the mrt
walked all the way ard the ocean towers
concret jungle huh
then we were earli n waited at the bk nearby
the person at the counter was rather unfriendly sigh
n had the lunch thing at the executive club
i hafta go bathe to go tuition liao
its going to b a long dae ahead.............

ooo forgot to finish up my blog after all in haha
lifeguard zhuxiaotian is also known as harry buatoh ahah if he slips n fall
i m still rather chao-ta mayb my baoying always go laugh at pple say the chao-ta
its rather fun la toking to my ah yi
then she was telling my little cousin abt my nickname last time the one she gave mi
i haf so mani mani thruout my 19yrs hard to list them down
she used to call mi han bao bao aka hamburger
due to the cheeks thingy
even my tuition kid find it amusing tt my cheek shake when i shake my head too haha cant help it la
those were the days when i was still little kena abused n pinched haha
my aunt was saying she had to help out at my grandma's funeral
to help my mama look aft us when my parents were busy w the funeral prep
my mum hanged my sarong beside the coffin n my auntie had to shake the sarong to coax mi to sleep budden aft a few days she had nightmare tt a coffin was chasing her haha
erm...
was telling my mama how i tink its veri hard bringing up kids n i so dont see myself doing it or being able to do it
sigh its not our prob yet but scary
saw yongyong the kid my aunt is nanny-ing when i go tutor my cousin
he's realli realli cute n chubbby
the perfect epitome for a bundle of joy
1/2way thru tuition he woke up n my cosn went to burp him but he end up vomitting out all the milk he drank
walau like a hose lidat
scary rather alot n abit on mi too
i got scared n jumped out of the way realli kena freaked
haha kids r veri hard to look aft man nice to c good to touch can play w it but 24hr?
unless u r realli readily if not..
told my mama then she told mi i was famous 4 puking
i puked for a wk mani mani times a day for everi baby teeth tt grew
i willl puke until there's nothing left to puke until i start puking green liquid
the doc say the green stuff came frm my gut. bile?
bilirubin/biliveridin
cant rem the spelling damn
budden i start to puke when i c the med then hafta stuff the pill up my ass
nothing helped my dad tot i cudnt make it haha
i puked so much in the sarong i almost drowned myself coz the milk was covering my head my mama had to suck it out frm my nose..
eww
no wonder so mani mani pple get postnatal depression
my er ge famous for running high fever
my da ge for diarrhoea
haha
weird symptoms huh
bringing up kids is such an ardous task tt i tink pple shud tink tink b4 they embark on it
but then there wont b enuff babies n the dependency rati will b screwed
sigh
i saw mani mani butterflies these few days
they r everiwhere
butterflies used to b scary coz of mi li ye
budden now no more
haha
i saw a realli puny one like one segment of my finger cant realli c the insect but the colour is a typical common butterfly colour so i assumed it is
watched zhang hong liang at a fei yu qing singsong show
he's the guy wbu sang ni zhi dao wo zai deng ni ma? n mei li de hua hu die
he say tt pple like butterflies or get fascinated over them coz they r veri diff frm humans
we die when we grow old.. usually
when our bodily functions start to not function when we look wrinkly n ugly
we turned frm pretty at our prime to ugly at our end
but a butterfly is diff
it was an ugly caterpillar n thru metamorphosis
it turned into a beautiful butterfly n die in its prim
tt maes them so beautiful
didnt tink of it this way b4
now my interest in spotting butterflies kena aroused
haha
n i found another pretty plant along punggol rd at one of the landed property
haha
another type of weed is getting my attention as well
beside the kind w purple flowers
there is another species w white ones
darn
since when was i into botany
but not too bad la
i start to c mani things tt pple might jus missed if they walked too quickly
such as life
went to support amanda at spore idol on sat
she got in to second rd of auditions
CONGRATS MANDA!!!

wow tired jus got home
haha finalli got a glimpse a better one into my dad's life
the uncle at kopitiam w lots of beer bottles watching soccer haha i was one of them jus now too watching euro 04
i always wonder y they so free aft work like to hang ard don wan to go home n sleep
but my dad say tt's how the relac
all the buddy buddy will hang ard together n chit chat n eat
haha i mus say they r goumets
i ate so much too full to sleep liao
the veri fresh steamfish tofu doumiao at changi rd
nice
the display is quite cute
the raw fish marinated lightly in metal plates at the display counter w price plagcards
u point they cook 4 u straight away
haha i neva c raw fish display b4
ate w two other uncles
jus a few hrs spent w them gain rather alot of insight
haha
both r taxi drivers
the older one look like my dua pek
tt ll mean he look like laofuzi
he's organs r all failing n his body is so messed up internalli tt he's finalli abstaining frm alcohol
he has been drinking n smoking for so many many yrs
he n my dad has this frenship going they look quite cute haha
they say his engine overhaul liao
then another third uncle offered his alcohol he say he will hold his funeral if he drink animore the other jokingly say he can give him advance condolence $$ for him to spend
erm...
rather funni
mayb if i cum the age when toking abt dying among peers doesnt sound stupid aha
but i kinda like him
a haha man tt enjoys food
he's da crab king
wow the way he manouver n pick up all the bis of crabmeat haha
i learnt the srilanka crab has the thinnest shell followed by vietnam then indonesia has crab w thickest shell sso lesser meat not as nice
the uncles tok abt soccer politics lky as muhouheishou haha
sengsiong supermarket education ministers health issuse
u name it they haf comments abt it n they sound logical man
ignorant mi haha
insightful nite wif the three uncles
coffeeshop food is great abit of flies cockroach scurry by no aircon but the company is good i guess
the third uncle is my dad's army fren
they knew each other since 1974 wow 30yrs
my earliest fren tt i still keep in touch mayb abt 12 yrs onli haha
by the time i noe my fren for 30yrs n they will still zhio mi to go sit at coffeeshop n arrange to go eat nice food haah tt wud b great
30yrs
i rather dread hafing to say im entering my 20s
cant we stay in 10s for long?
but such as life bohpian la
wat a nite
my driving needs improvement tink my dad say i no need to pay $$ so bohchap bohchap
jialat i better buck up :s

gotta finish b4 my all in starts then i can drool over my leebingxian haha
jialat i dun wan to b sum hua chi but my byo shuai ge activity seems to b more frequent since going swimming w angel last sat..
jialat haha all the swimmers ard but i rather blind w /o specs so cant realli c la
onli knew a se peh peh kept swimming ard us i scared
tink my cousin attracted him haha then we had to swim near the life guard to feel safer... but she tot mi alot of things like how to sit at the bottom of the pool n go deep sigh tink i need more prac haha
then saw this sickening metro guy whu kept 自摸 ing haha
he applied under his arms btw his legs wow haha

tokig abt swimming i m so totally cao-ta now haha frm white to black? haha
went wild wild wet or wet wet wild haha yest
rather fun la w ah man ahyi they all my cousins darling mingming xiaonaozhong n of course H.E.A.L
haha
cute yang guang life guards got the ahpek kind oso la haha
if i rank 1) dyed hair guy w red float whu "saved" angel
2)zhu xiao tian
3)braces la haah
aiyoh all in here .... ll b bk

woo...

SWF

single. white. female.

watched the show again on axn.. jus got scv scary man.
its this bian tai girl whu cant forgive herself then start assuming other pple's identity
this bian tai thriller freaks me out man
like talented mr ripley
identity
scary
i wonder how much it take for someone to snap
i mean i haf my biantai moments like when i see a motorcycle cut across three lanes to drive out of a slip rd... i can imagine a car coming towards him at high speed n running him over. he flew across the rd n land on my windsceen shattering it.
all this i can see in my head the split sec aft the motorcycle drove by
sick
but tt's the furthest i ll go
when allison stabbed hedi with a freaking screw driver i cringed
hedi threw away her own identity went to stay with diff rm mates try to get accepted try to b like her roommate where her clothes her perfume seduce her boyfriend
is she realli tt lonely?
with the harsh cynical world out there u haf no where to hide. realli.

im lucki
dont wan to b some bian tai... altho pple always tell mi once in a while i might entertain bian tai thoughts but well they jus come but as a joke most of the time

spent some time at the library todae
i guessed since i started tuition-ing full time the lib is the place i go to most
before tuition in btw tuition aft tuition
like it there.
i mean there r so many bks there i wan to read tt looks interesting
realli enjoying the luxury of reading for pleasure
tink i wont haf such time next time
so enjoy while i can i guess
i talk non-sop during my job but travelling the rest of the day dont realli tok to anione but tt's the time i either noticing pple or go travel in my own world haha

on a lighter note,
watched shrek II on tue
oh i still owe xiangyun 8.50
i tink it has more plot kept mi rather excited like will he make it in time or will charming still tt kiss n make fiona like him?
the muffin man is scary haha like marshmallow man in ghostbusters last time..
they where showing it ghostbusters on vesak dae... to tink it used to scare mi haha rather funni in a stupid way
like mi li ye as well
i guess perception changes. the same movie watch thru the same pair of eyes how diff can it get? but it sure feeels diff haha
but i prefer the first shrek
it was more cartoonish more down to earth good fun
the second one is funni too but sir JUSTIN n farbucks was rather ultimate.
they even drew justin timberlake out haha
its more cabaret.. like wat simon wud sae
more glitzzy hollywood like with like the oscar's red carpet n stuff but not too bad
the malu thing tt happen tt night was xiangyun n i entering the wrong theatre
my seat was k 11 theatre 4
jus as i was settling down making myself comfortable in my seat a couple came in n the guy was like "erm our seat is k10 n k11"
i was like "mine's k11, this is not theatre 4 meh??"
then he insisted it's theatre 2 n aft confirming with our neighbours we found out tt we went into the wrong theatre. haha wa lau damn paiseh n i still tot tt he's the blur guy haha
oops
we fled holding our illegal guava drink frm mrs fields

oh well nice show great company la cant ask for more..

tuition tmr.. life goes on
\o_o/

today as i was going home, i saw the evening sky. it was beautiful. clear pale blue realli blue with abit of clouds tt was moving rather quicly.. it made me see n feel the wind much more
n the greyish-white moon in the clear blue sky
with the sun setting, it became more obvious.
it looked peaceful but abit lonely n sad
i was alternating btw looking up at the sky n looking at the rd in case i trip n fall
a guy walking towards me was wondering wat i was looking at n looked up into the sky as well
haha it wasnt a jus for laughs jag but it wud haf been funni, mayb if i pointed?
heh but he realli ought to thank me
for showing him sumthing so pretty.
today i tot i saw him again.
i looked at the guy frequent enuff for him to glare at me haha
three n counting...

recently i hafnt been feeling too good leh the irony is it coincides with my bdae celebration which made mi veri happi but the mood fluctuation was rather drastic
happi angry sad
angry with myself most of the time though. mayb coz the stress level was rather high n the time management shit i had done.
i was kan cheong kan choeng abt the med letter
then had to go for the seminar for my bro coz the freaking ticket was $145 haha
budden i had to admit it was rather cool la learnt quite alot see alot of rick rich buisness man haha then all the heh shake hand shake hand build network kinda pple
the place along the kallang river quite nice n windy la haha if nothing to do go there n sit oso not bad..
then went to eat with serene huayu n peiyun at borders... tink the crayon idea is great haha...
tt fri marks the start of my bdae celeb haa not realli la but abit heh
then sat went ns went kick box went cartel went to watch day aft tmr went to marche for class gathering went to xiangyun's bbq all in a dae ha
kickboxz abit bit sad dont haf liao gotten quite use to this sat activity then aiya like juliana la i guess he stretching n cool downs rather cool haha got all the funni sound like waterfall kind of cooling music then did the troy sowrd fighting thing heh trinity the talkative auntie n of course caroline amanda xian's company haha
but all things come to an end i guess
can go watch spongebob square pants with huiyi n then discuss
it her haha apparently its quite a deeeeeep show heh xiangyun likes it too
the judo gals gave mi a pair of blue slipplers with lots of green buttons n sequine haha tot i wud neva wear anithing with sequine but oh well haha
they r realli nice i like can go with my green giodarno shirt haha
all the exchanging slippers thing at ri toilet.. tsk ying1 mou2
haha
then my gang celeb my bdae with mi.. at ps cafe cartel.. and guess wat gang gave me haha
things tt shock mi with everi tear of those newspaper ie classified ad n main paper.
there's
julie's stereo rich chocolate cookie instead of oreo.
chocky strawberry stick instead of pocky
mili mushroom instead of narcissus mushroom
mi-u white grape instead of qoo
twinkles milk chocolate beans * 3 instead of smarties
president cup noodle instead of super
kickapoo joy juice instead of mountain dew
plus clairol herbal essence fruit fusion conditioner tt has papaya starfruit mandarin wow rather powerful smell haha
the pink jewel biscuit with two pig ears n a little yellow one haha
and of course the little korean jinseng drink tt if i keep long enuff it might jus become a jinseng spirit honestly i dont dare to drink i haha
peiyun gave mi a purple eeyore cup nice dont bear to use its a mugger mug la next time can use when i start my no life mugging haha
oh well this is gang giving mi presents tt no one else in the world can tink off haha making mi take pics tt make mi look crazy oh well huayu tink tts happy but erm
thanx pple for all da effort n haha-ness
went perlini silver ot use the bithday thing tt 50% discount thingy made mi visit the shop three times la bought this big earrings mus find an occassion to wear la
then went to watch the day aft tmr..
wat a show so geog but i like the weather signs r reallli cool hurrican tsunamis omg... scary n disturbing man
ice ae? i guess it might come i mean not so soon la butin many many years hopefully by then some one might think of sumthing but if everione dies hope sumthing can b left behind so lesson can b learnt...
wat if we ll die tmr ?
i like geog i mean the weather is so powerful it kill pple like flies la,..
i mean looking at cumulonimbus clouds or cirrus for tt matter make mi rather happi haha
oh well if i die tmr, i ll jus dieno regets erm i hope
went to meet 3F at marche
a long long table i came rather late but glad i got to see them
soon enuff we will all be heading into diff directions in our lives literally n metamorphically.
know them for two short yrs but jc life was wow...
so guess i ll tink of them sumtime but might not get a chance to see them in a long long while aft those whu r going overseas go overseas..
tok chit chat tok n as usual when i tok they kept laughing dunnoe y veri fuuni meh but oh well glad i entertain pple
went to cherry hill xiangyun's uncle place at almost 10+
i forgot its her grandma's bdae bbq when she told mi then i remembered her telling mi
i tot it was onli a fam gathering
so i felt realli REALLI bad for missing her grandma coz she went home 10min b4 i arrived
tt was realli impolite of mi la
n mi n her grandma so good fren i realli like her
tt started the spiral of my bad mood for the nite
angry with mi self for screwing up being late n missing grandma
oso angry i forgot to tell huayu to call my dad until she almost cant learn on sun morn
damn pissed with myself la n the ultra eventful sat frm 7am to almost 12 midnight running ard
sigh
n angry with my self for losing my temper with my parents my bro everithing la
n the constant nagging thought tt i ought to b happi coz sun is my bdae but i seem to b screwing up everi where argh...
watched all in until i cant open my eyes animore
then sleep
then cums sunday haa
went tuition blegh
but i dont realli mind la actualli
trying to help as much as i can la then when i cant realli teach liao argh cant imagine how i can arrange my time
n xiangyun's suggested accomodation
tinking tinking tinking
saw zhiying's elder sis's tuition teacher who is a M2 student mugging her tink med bk will the kid is doing maths haha
sighon my way home i saw butterfly tt didnt seem to b flying too steadily n abit too low among the bushes
on a closer look tt butterfly actualli had a chipped wing
ike a giant hole on one of its wing sigh
felt rather sad for it like so poor thing
a handicapped butterfly
or as john floppe the guy w/o both arms says,
its a condition not a disability depending on how u view it
life's hard i guess
then mona lisa's smile
the shows not too bad reminded mi of rgs like serene says
smartie girls whu dont complain when their teacher dont seem too steady n wud rather self study
but tradition tradition?
women's place in the society the idea of tradition n the 50s
i guess its slowly spiralling into non existence now with women finding their place in society searching for their footing..
i tink being a housewife is a whole new science by itself which i tink entails so much most of us girls cant take it now i dont even noe when i ever ll b... but its not in the near future let alone the further future so sigh
giselle's lonely daring but nice n diff enuff
betty is ms omg-hafta-roll-my-eyes smartie ass
i cant realli figure out how she can love watson so much after her marriage went bad
girls tradition oppression
glad i m not in all those
but they r actualli work in producing fine women with propierty but pple obessed with tt scary
the onli prob i haf in tt show is looking at julia roberts cant make mi feel its 1954. she looked like how she did in my best fren's wedding or pretty woman?
her clothing kinda suggest she's suppose to b in tt era but kinda.
O_o"
mayb she has a modern face but the character is there i feel no doubt.
nite is fam dinner.
all three of us r rather grown up now when i linger behind looking at the backs of my fam members haa
went to a jap restaurant called nabeya masakatsu at orchard parade hotel.
the food is not too bad.
i went for the sukiyaki but i didnt get it but oh well its ok my dad mum n dage dont realli eat beef
n my mum hates miso
haha guess jap food dont realli clique with them too well haha
ate the hot pot huo guo kinda thing n shared three bento n guess wat everione was still hungry haha
was tinking of judo guys cant survive on 1 bento my bros are of tseming's size.. hah
so er ge suggest we go get kfc
like the good old days
we didnt realli haf alot of fast food when we were yound coz it was too much of a luxury but haha everi bdae we always had kfc
so off we went n my dad suggested the amk one the exact one we used to go too when we were all kids
amk brings bk memories many many
n i guess tt how fast time went scary ya noe
now i kinda feel a teeny weeny bit daunted by med like no life ani more
im excited but abit nervous but well..
i can do it.
so aft a kfc family fest we went home to eat cake.
my mama baked a chocolate cake for mi with the icing n the name on haha
well the cake down i cudnt move hafing ate three times for a fam dinner haa
then the day ended good with my fav show wif tt cute guy i liked so well haha
today is monday went bay shore for tuition
wadee drew mi a bdae note in the notebk i write her hw in haha
i had to turn the page to write n i saw her covering her face with her asssessment bk.. i tot she saw sum bug n was trying not to scream
but she was trying to contain her excitment to await my surprise look when i saw the note haa
tt's sweet.
on my way home out along the long rd tt i hafta walk on i saw a pretty yellow bird lying on the pavement
i looked at it n its eyes were close.
didnt noe birds r suppose to haf eye lids
it looked realli still
still.
i guess it died i cant b sleeping, can it?
jus then when i didnt noe wat to do. my hp rang n it was shelia frm ocbc bank n i had alot to asked her i wanted to do sumthing
but i turned n saw the security guard looking
i dint noe y but i fled i jus walked away
dont noe y mayb i didnt realli noe wat to do with it/to it
at the junction i saw the bus n i ran for it
onli when i boarded the bus did i start to regret not stopping to move it
mayb move it to the grass patch or sumthing so tt no one wud accidentally step on it? or no bicycle might run it over n kill it again?
i dont noe y didnt i do anithing n jus walked away sigh
but it looked so peaceful tt i didnt realli dare to touch it
like its so delicate bright yellow
i had a thing with birds i dont realli now how to touch them like i might jus break their bones coz they r so small n delicate
a bird one got trap in the window grill of my home n cudnt get out
i couldnt hold it to release it coz it looked panicky n so was i
i opened one side of the grill on finally it hopped out but i didnt leave b4 hopping onto my parents bed n television
wat a bird.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

haha com was down then recently haf so much to say but today too happening liao then cant realli tink properly hehe
aniwae got in got in got in liao
whew
realli thankful n happi wat a bdae present.
realli realli thankful la keep tiking if i blind see wrongly but accepted the course alreadi
veri tired now tink too much excitement then jiao luan + aft swimming 30laps today damn tired...
when i first heard can check damn nervous n shaky
then check liao veri excited
then aft tt now rather tired wow too much for a day
tink i ll sleep earli
then tuition tuition tuition tmr again.

breathe breathe..

someone once told mi tt writing a diary might not b a veri accurate record/account of wat realli happened n wat u were feeling at tt time.. it might jus b wat u hope the thing might b or how u perceived the whole thing n belive it to b hmm quite true but can b a reflection as well i guess
trying to capture the fleeting moment of feeling so anitime i feel like writing anithing i wud jote down i note bk first...

aniwae the interview was ok la not too bad tink i got it provisionally they say they will present if i get into pharmacy
told them abt ocbc then they say when the time comes to decide then tell them. tink will discuss with them when i going to sign the ocbc one la..
like the pple in the interviewer there la nice n friendly
the ceo 'ohaiyoogozaimasu' me haha i had to ohaiyo bk la
b4 i went in fluorence the hr person kept gd-lucking mi ask mi dont b nervous
then i waited outside ar the lift lobby when pple stare i jus smile faintly then they will smile bk too haha
then got one mr goh who said 'ni hao' to fluorence n fluorence jus told him,'mr goh, ni zui hao la'
he asked mi if this is my first job interview then i told him scholarship he jus oh n smile n waved before hopping into the lift tt came
haha nice friendly mr goh

but sigh left my wallet on the top of the toilet paper holder in the has toilet.. wth almost lost it la but heng a hr person went into the same cubicle n found it n came to return to mi as i was waiting to go in for the interview la... i didnt even realise shit.. sigh hope i dont lose anithing impt again aft losing my phone with all the nos n impt msges inside.. cant get them bk la *sobz*
if i lose wallet or phone again i can go bang into the wall n die la huh

went ora on sun too with gang n huayu+serene in uniform
miss the sch miss wearing uniform carrying my red bag n taking train with them in the outfit like a normal sch day going home lidat..
didnt realli do much there la walked ard... met miss lim saw some rgs teachers then eat swee hsien marshmallows n ernest's complimentary curry puff..
signed in the batch bk as well haha saw a so5a 20yrs ago haha scary..
the rafflesian idol n walked ard taking photos aiyoh miss the sch as well i guess n sitting in the lt in my fav seat... haha can still imagine those days in school sigh dunnoe la
met pple tok tink of the old days haha

n i met wenhui my pri sch fren tt i hafnt see for like 6yrs
wow still look almost the same haha
the guy whu used to sit in front of mi in p6 always quarrel
hafnt seen him ard... he boarded the 156 i recog him called but he didnt hear then i veri sure so jus went to grab his arm as he walked past then he stared like 2sec b4 recog mi haha
tok abt the old days n the old pple la he was telling mi yongsheng still haf the same smile n face altho got the commando body now haha i agree i guess..
at gathering last time realised pple still looked the same jus diff shen cai n hairstyle or else the face still there freaky rite? know most of them for more than 10yrs liao haha
hope to meet them soon sumday

wat the fuck cant stand the attitude n face tt my bro is giving my mama.. he can go eat shit la

finally donated blood today :)
dunnoe y since young i've always wanted to donate
mayb the tot of being able to help someone n tt fireman commercial haha
bk in j1, they came rj. wanted to donate but my mama jus refused to sign e authorisation form. was under 17
i was rather angry
but i knew she meant well la
the nkf screeners everiyear say my bp slightly lower then normal pple then rarely i ll feel faint suddenly oso...
j2 no need parental consent liao budden was sick took anitbiotics then cannot

HSA 1st interview tt time saw the blood bak in the same building
but was rushing for the ocbc bank interview so didnt donate
tot if i get my 2nd interview will cum bk to donate then
so haha
the pple there quite nice n friendly, non stop thankews
i got a sticker tt says,'be nice to me. tis is my first donation!'
ha with a heart shaped design somemore.
it was ok la... the filling of a many qn questionaire
the toking to a medical officer take weight bp etc
then the mo is called e widjaya... reminded mi of hardy...
then proceed to counter 5 to test haemoglobin
wa tot like blood test – staple abit onli
but this one different leh, rather pain then a lot of blood… the nurse squeezed then my blood shot across quite a distance n splattered on the table.
Healthy pumping heart huh. Then the nurse oso WA! Haha
then test my haemoglobin level is 12.7 below 12 cannot so heng or else stapled ten cant donate.
then into the rm abit like the kidney dialysis centre lidat

a foreign country nurse explained everithing
me malu tried to climb up the bed frm the propped-up-late part.. actualli no need mus frm the swingable hand side so she quite shocked haha
the funkynurse with punky hair came to find artery
as usual mi so much bah cant find on the right hand
abit more prominent on the left so yep LHS it is
then green antiseptic liquid to make sure tt par of hand bacteria free.
then stress ball to squeeze...
then a first injection to pop up the area coz the second needle rather ig like a thin straw macam satay stick thick
i dilated my eyes n omg....
then the poke but not painleh jus wa...
abit hard to find the artery i tink she manuveor quite abit to stick almost the whole thing in,...
n it started lor...
blood red is the colour i guess..
got this thing tt moves like a seesaw to seesaw the blood
mi can donate 1 packet onli coz i dont haf alot of haemoglobin..
asked how much then the nice chinese auntie/nurse say like coke can lidat. nice malay auntie later say 300ml.
then the nurses gave mi iron tablets then cream coz they say my flesh soft will get bruise haha sigh jus flabby arm la..
then nice malay auntie put the packet of blood in my hand..
it was rather warm, rather warm.

it was like awww.. some warm current like seeped thru mi abit touched la. hope it will save someone
then got the huat guay refreshment the cake thing tt always used to offer to gods then dont realli like didnt noe abit high class cafe at hsa oso got sell tt + milo.

oh nice chinese auntie ask mi whu recommended mi here
i say coz i came for scholarship interview then ya saw n came in
she was like "oh so can or not? i onli tok to u abit, but think u r a veri nice person." then as she walked away she turned ard n said,"u can do it"
haha wat a feel good session
aww.. i ll take tt as she meant it la n thank her for her compliment.

saw quite a few pplw: yound ladies taitai middle-aged uncles yong man with motorcycle helmet...
one uncle looked like blackie ke shou liang haha wan an uncanny resemblance...

never know when we'll drop dead
came to terms tt when the time comes, it comes n we die.
pple shud go donate blood la i guess

10/05/04 11am

finally
so many things happened over the past few days
happy sad happy sad

nothing beats a nice old can of coke
but i mus say the pepsi ad is good

out of pt

happi thing 405 gathering at noelle's house last fri
glad tt i still found it comfortable to tok to my ex classmates
gald to haf went even if includ a 1 hr ++ travel frm bayshore
tok to jan abt sch kids crystal too
but mostly abt life now n work
confused abit abt do pple change...
last time many pple told mi i change
did i or did i not
till this day... hmm..
but guess i was on the move non-stop action tt's y i cudnt c?
now i'm slow n stagnant tinking more but see things in diff light liao
a topic tt i dont like to broach on n neva will b good at?
jus take it as it comes with the pseudo optimism
too late cant tink liao

aniwae tok alot abt my kids tt day then can rattle on n on with jan /o hafing to sense glasses clanking n dust being blown due to the boredom i brought... ha
pple with same experiences can relate better la i guess
a happi nite

then sat came went for k box but dont haf aft macs breakfast manda carol xian suppose to cum my house
happi thing
but figured i lost my hp when i reach the lift landing
huimin neva lose her things
her ex things lor
ask xiangyun how paranoid she was when she was young... will squat down in the middle of no where to search her bag for her wallet haha
i dont lose my things lor
but as carol they all say there is always a first time
called interchanges to no avail...
concluded tt the bus person at changi interchange is more helpful then the one at hougang

but well didnt si xin
went up one hour worth of 27.... starting frm ard the time it takes to loop bk to sengkang
abt 10+buses i tink
didnt find anithing
but most drivers r nice...
onli one sickening whu kept telling mi he's driving off he's driving off when i went up to seach
relac la uncle
sigh
the rest r generally nice but they gave mi the ' u r too hopeful la' look which i guess i true
wud i return a hp if i pick up one?
my idea of finder's keeper but hmmm
mayb aft this incident n my fav purple i can b fren of police man.. no more fren of singa this yr haha
mayb
but now tt i lost a phone haha
may---b?

sigh cant take it lost all my no
my contacts like wif pri sch pple.. but with batch directory n class can still find bk most
sigh dont like to lose things...
i can win fren of karang guni award as well
the things i keep haa

then sun nite went to attend a malay wedding hafnt done it since i was veri young
spicy but gd food tink xinyi will luv...
weddings hmm the hassle but the happiness can b felt la
my tuition kid wans to b invited to my wedding? haha like how long she muz wait? see her pattern scarli i go attend hers like a spinster haha

mid yr tuition many times a wk scary..
stress but i tried la dunnoe can not cannot boh pian sack mi then?

happi sad happi sad until dont feel anithing much generally
but was rather ju sang on sat la.. like sitting on the little stone slab to wait for 27?
the met the judo girls then happi until like siao n tok funnily haha
wierd...oh the 1 hr 14 bus ride realized tt east coast rd got alot of eateries... mus go try one day mayb in aug when i can drive liao then can borrow my bro's bread van the drive my frens ard for supper... i'm assuming a one-time pass hafta stress got big shoes to fill frm past 2 examples

i tink my parasympathetic vagus nerve activity rather powerful most of the time.. the bk i reading wow got many this big terms....

hoping to find sumthing tt stimulates the sympathetic one then pulse will race n bp will rise.,.. haha
the heart - mind issuse quite intriguing.. hafta learn alot frm him...

met a bus driver on 372 on my way to tuition then met the same one aft my tuition
yuan fen? yi mian zhi yuan onli la...
same thing happened in little india oso met the same couple before n aft my tuition at the same place summore scary...
wat is it with ang moh n little india? they r everiwhere?
n i feel tt tt place is not even the generalized protrayal of singapore... but the place can see uncommon things
pple selling 2nd hand goods in lorries...
pple sleeping along the rd..
at night pple so dark u tink they r shadows until u make out their features then u jump abit
pple so dark u tink they statue until they move.. scary haha

btw like i told serene the boat's here
i see mani mani funerals scary
muz b careful but i guesss everione has their time la
so no scared la
the ah gong gong gor club established together with the merk sharp n dome life sciences lab at rgs haha
with philip yeo eppendorf tubes n orchids yea

3 funni things happened today

1
was sent home by my tuition kid's mum by car
the kid was in the car as well
she told the mum she wanted to hear the song 《黑眼圈》
i was like huh? wat a name haa
when the song started i recog it ...
was 小刚's 黄昏
haha she called it dark eye rings coz the song goes

唱不完一首歌 疲倦还剩下黑眼圈
感情的世界伤害在所难免
黄昏再美终要黑夜

haha wat a apt title given by a pri 3 kid though

always tot the 小刚 = 周传雄 person is this oldie tt come out again to cheat younsters whu go crazy over him with this ahem hip image
i guess i was bias
the song's realli quite nice words r not too bad as well n it's realli veri catchy can cater to wide range of age gp i tink
n i always tot onli pple like my da ge whu was a fan when he was in sec sch to buy his cassette tape whu support him n by his album
i became the consumer n bought it for my bro though
hmph
haa shud re-listen the album

2
aft my serangoon tuition it rained cats n dogs..
pardon the idom/proverb
looking at kids writing 'the brillant rays of the morning sun shone thru my bed rm window...'
creative writing
aniwae heavy rain so BIG until my jeans was wet frm toe to waist?
haha then i went on 27 n guess wat
tot i was safe n shelltered liao
but the bus was raining inside haha
i didnt noe y but to mi
the sight was hiliarious
heavy rain outside then this ventilation/air con thing on top of the bus was drippping rather badly with H2O
like u evil then onli got one cumulonimbus cloud above ur head raining on ya haha
i'm not evil
when i was having my bayshore tuiiton
lightning light up the sky pink
scary
damn heavy
tink ani evil person(s) walking along the rd might get strike my lightning
i was quite certain i wont b :)

3
bayshore security guardhouse
mus give them ur ic sumtimes if u r visitor
depending on the guard too
today's guard was rather shocked when i took out my pink ic,..
he tot i was frm CHINA
hmmmmmmm
do i look like a china girl
i'm chinese la but??
haha
when i gave him the
aha O_O" look
he told mi i was pretty nontheless
ERM @__@ "l

3 amusing happenings today

i accepted scholarship frm ocbc bank liao :) ? :( ? :/ O_o"
relieved la

went bk to jingshan pri sch todae...
saw ms bala then lin lao shi n mr swarna
a rather successful gathering i shud say.. 9/37 tt's almost a quarter...
the pri sch gathering organiser.. i'm still good la haha

liling liteng meirong izzati karthik shengkui xiangyun + me
liling ar still the same la haha
took theater studies in vj going to do psychology...

liteng future mata woman...
can so imagine
haha

meirong i say she look abit like drug addict.
then she wa lau mi
he ultra straight shoulder length finally changed abit
more funki shape n highlights haha
didnt tok to her much
but looking at her
still believe that she can b my pai zui friend haha

izzati relief malay teacher still da same
felt abit aiyah tt didnt kept close contact with her even when she was the onli one whu went rgs with mi...
but still calm steady same pattern la

karthik liling say he look like contractor
i tink he look like some middle edge man with tt moustache
but he can ride motorbike liao n he promise to give mi a ride hah
mi still hafnt ride on motorbike b4....
he shud stop smoking though...
if i get into med
guess i can treat him if he gets lung c*****
choi touch wood la
but aiyah
my longest knowing fren frm pri sch
same class frm pri 1 to 6 la
buddy la

shengkui say he used to haf shoulder length long hair..
hah cant imagine
but jus shaved his head
so still da same la
study interior design
wow didnt know tt they have to study philosophy of like different philosophers to understand their concepts n themes for designing
rather cool
didnt know tt puma n addidas used to be 'brothers'
haha
the rather short guy whu always sits at the front row when we take class photo with thre younger siblings
always rem tt he told us he jus bought some junk food to celebrate his own bdae when we were younger n hafta tend to his parents' fruit stall at the market

lifang still da same la
look n sound the same
brillant in maths
going to b engineer

then xiangyun didnt get to meet the rest but haha went to watch 50first dates with her n liteng
best fren in pri sch :)

jus met this 8 pple
talked abt wat we doing wat we did wat we r going to do
these r the pple i haf known for like abt 10yrs...
wow
but guess we like went different ways la
the jc pple n poly pple tt's wat some of them say la
abit la
but still veri happi to see them la
haha tok alot of rubbish oso
got to know wat they r up to nowadays
how they haf been
hear them tok feels like no matter how different we r now underneath we r still kinda the same
still feel more or less like how i knew them when we were 9 haha
those pple tt wont scheme at u
those pple tt feels comfortable n familiar to hang ard
toking abt the good old days
class soccer
the sitting arrangement
how even the school uniform changed n the old builing demolished
tink the uniform now abit ugly ours still nicer i tink
then the large field tt we used to play rounders watch guys play soccer n run ard make shoes muddy in
where i used to catch grasshoppers but kena tramatized when my teacher threw them away
can rem the stairs n stuff
but the pple there still the same haa
the teachers the stall holders the bus driver uncle rama
wow
the place where the caterpillar dropped on xiangyun n mi meirong go dig earthworm during sci class n sway them to scare other girls haha

sigh
so long ago la
then the guys all taller than mi now sigh
but i guess as we grow old things change la
glad still haf these pple tt share some part of my past with mi

mr swarna
still looking the same
the teacher frm ri tt told mi tt rgs was good
so i went
another place tt i guess accumulate up to mould mi la

the days when i was some gangster girl tt fight with classmates behind the canteen
but still the smartie kid tt teachers love haha
rather happening days
happi childhood

the pple tt i dint get to meet today
heard abit abt them
wonder how they r getting along but guess everione doing fine la
hafta wat....
some how figure up where they going
at the pt in life where i gotta thing of where i going n wat i wan to do...
tinking abt the past comfort mi abit la
feel abit old looking at the kids
but still feel comforted like i'm still mi last time
getting all nostalgic haha
how much i haf changed huh
how much i haf learnt more importantly

well
an enjoyable day catching up with pri sch frens n teacher

What Type of Villain are You?

mutedfaith.com.

ANGRY! ANGRY! ANGRY!
earlier this morning
woke up realising tt it's morn liao n i missed the korean show tt i've been waiting for since last wed.
Damn
wow i was like ultra pissed n barked at pple
there's this deja vu
like when i was still in sch, falling asleep when i wan to study/do my hw
it happens almost everidae and i'll wake up at 6am the next dae with my bag as it was the dae b4
this feeling irritates mi alot
no wonder last time my results so sai
my slack life for the past 5mth almost allowed myself to forget abt it.
and it came bk
in torrents
i hate this kinda thing
missing the show is nothing TOO BIG
but it;s the 'i've many things to do, i've time but my things jus dont get done' syndrome
abd i dread going to my work
boring n the travelling.
i left home at 8.30 and i reached home onli at abt 9.30
am... pm
13hrs outside jus to earn the almost 100bucks
think of the $ think of the $ wth
then all the kids hafing the mid yr on da same wk
10/5 tt wk
stress
n like happinesss my hsa 2nd interview on tt day
i go cancel sure kena blackface/scolded my the mama die
dunnoe they stress or i stress
skarli they dont do well how????
sigh

waiting waiting waiting
@ specialist clinic B orthopedics
an appointment aft 4 mts
the broken arm haha
hope to put the whole episode behind
all the shit you've to go thru aft tt
taking 1 hr to bathe
cant wear clothes myself
physio tt hurts damn alot to straighten the freaking bent 90o arm
the arm more or less the same as it used to b
almost forgot how incovenenient it used to b
almost
the funni bent bone will be ard to remind mi for a long time to come
and the suan-ness i feel when i try to do push up during kick box
reminded of it the first thing i woke up this moren

whining wth

glad tt iit's all over la
hope tt i never hafta be a patient again

wait:1.5hr
consultation:0.5hr
cost $20
:S

(11am)

我的家在一個偏僻的山村,父母都是面朝黃土背朝天的農民。

我有一個小我三歲的弟弟。
有一次我為了買女孩子們都有的花手絹,
偷偷拿了父親抽屜裏5毛錢。

父親當天就發現錢少了,
就讓我們跪在牆邊,拿著一根竹竿,
讓我們承認到底是誰偷的。


我被當時的情景嚇傻了,低著頭不敢說話。
父親見我們都不承認,說那兩個一起挨打。


說完就揚起手裏的竹竿,
忽然弟弟抓住父親的手大聲說：『爸,是我偷的,不是姐幹的！』

你打我吧！
父親手裏的竹竿無情地落在弟弟的背上、肩上,
父親氣得喘不過氣來

打完了坐在炕上
罵道：『你現在就知道偷家裏的,將來長大了還了得?我打死你這個不爭氣的。』

當天晚上,我和母親摟著滿身是傷痕的弟弟,弟弟一滴眼淚都沒掉。

半夜裏, 我突然號啕大哭,
弟弟用小手捂住我的嘴說：『,姐,你別哭,反正我也挨完打了。』


我一直在恨自己當時沒有勇氣承認,
事過多年,弟弟替了我擋竹竿的樣子 ,我仍然記憶猶新。

那一年,弟弟8歲,我11歲。

弟弟中學畢業那年,考上了縣裏的重點高中。
同時我也接到了省城大學的錄取通知書。

那天晚上,父親蹲在院子裏一袋一袋地抽著旱煙,
嘴裏還叨咕著,倆娃都這麼爭氣,真爭氣。

母親偷偷地抹著眼淚說爭氣有啥用啊,拿啥供啊?
弟弟走到父親面前說：『爸,我不想念了,反正也念夠了。』
父親一巴掌打在弟弟的臉上，說：『你怎就這麼沒出息？』

我就是砸鍋賣鐵也要把你們姐倆供出來。說完轉身出去挨家借錢。
我撫摸著弟弟紅腫的臉說：『你得念下去,男娃不念書就一輩子走不出這窮山溝了。』弟弟看著我,點點頭。

當時我已經決定放棄上學的機會了。 |

沒想到第二天天還沒亮，弟弟就偷偷帶著幾件破衣服和幾個乾巴饅頭走了

在我枕邊留下一個紙條：姐,你別愁了,考上大學不容易,我出去打工供你。弟。

我握著那張字條,趴在炕上,失聲痛哭。那一年,弟弟17歲,我20歲。

我用父親滿村子借的錢和弟弟在工地裏搬水泥掙的錢終於讀到了大三。

一天我正在寢室裏看書,同學跑進來喊我,梅子,有個老鄉在找你。
怎麼會有老鄉找我呢？

我走出去,遠遠地看見弟弟,穿著滿身是水泥和沙子的工作服等我。
我說，你怎和我同 學說你是我老鄉啊?

他笑著說,你看我穿的這樣,說是你弟,你同學還不笑話你？ |

我鼻子一酸,眼淚就落了下來。
我給弟弟拍打身上的塵土,哽咽著說：『你本來就是我弟,這輩子不管穿成啥樣,我都不怕別人笑話！』


他從兜裏小心翼翼地掏出一個用手絹包著的蝴蝶髮夾,
在我頭上比量著, 說我看城裏的姑娘都戴這個,就給你也買一個。
我再也沒有忍住，在大街上就抱著弟弟哭起來。

那一年,弟弟20歲,我23歲。

我第一次領男朋友回家,看到家裏掉了多少年的玻璃安上了,
屋子裏也收拾得一塵不染。男朋友走了以後我向母親撒嬌,
我說：『媽,咋把家收拾得這麼乾淨啊？』


母親老了,笑起來臉上像一朵菊花,說：『這是你弟提早回來收拾的,你看他手上的口子 沒？是安玻璃時劃的。』

我進弟弟的小屋裏，看到弟弟日漸消瘦的臉,心裏很難過。
他還是笑著說,：『你第一次帶朋友回家,還是城裏的大學生,不能讓人家笑話咱家。』

我給他的傷口上藥, 問他，疼不?他說,不疼。

我在工地上，石頭把腳砸得腫得穿不了鞋,還幹活兒呢……

說到一半就把嘴閉上不說了。

我把臉轉過去,哭了出來。那一年,弟弟23歲,我26歲。

我結婚以後,住在城裏,幾次和丈夫要把父母接來一起住,他們都不肯,
說離開那村子就不知道幹啥了。
弟弟也不同意,說姐：『你就全心照顧姐夫的爸媽吧！』

咱爸媽有我呢。

丈夫升上廠裏的廠長,我和他商量把弟弟調上來管理修理部,
沒想到弟弟不肯, 執意做了一個修理工。


一次弟弟登梯子修理電線,讓電擊了住進醫院。
我和丈夫去看他。我撫著他打著石膏的腿埋怨他,
早讓你當幹部你不幹,現在,摔成這樣,要是不當工人能讓你去幹那活兒嗎?

他一臉嚴肅地說,你怎不替我姐夫著想著想呢?
他剛上來,我又沒文化,直接就當官,給他造成啥影響啊?
丈夫感動得熱淚盈眶,我也哭著說,弟啊,你沒文化都是姐給你耽誤了。

他拉過我的手說,都過去了,還提它幹啥?那一年,弟弟26歲,我29歲 。

弟弟30歲那年,才和一個本分的農村姑娘結了婚。
在婚禮上,主持人問他,
你最敬愛的人是誰,他想都沒想就回答：『我姐。』


弟弟講起了一個我都記不得的故事：
我剛上小學的時候,學校在鄰村,每天我和我姐都得走上一個小時才到家。
有一天,我的手套丟了一隻,我姐就把她的給我一隻,
她自己就戴一隻手套走了那?遠的路。
回家以後,我姐的那只手凍得都 拿不起筷子了。
從那時候，我就發誓我這輩子一定要對我姐好。

台下一片掌聲,賓客們都把目光轉向我。

我說，我這一輩子最感謝的人是我弟。在我最應該高興的時刻,

我卻止不住淚流滿面......

《什麼是愛》~email frm yimyee

外の人わらないのため、日本語を使う。
土曜日の夜、ほんとにどこにいったんの？
家の親もはなさできないし、なんか変な気持。
ほんとに悪い所ですか？
たばこの臭い
チラチラの電子、なんかカメラをもってる感じ
うるさくて大きい音楽
たくさん人々
でも。。。
なんか好き
そこに、自分自身が忘れちゃった
困ることも消えた
気持いい
こわいよね
じぶんそんなひとじゃないわ。
楽しいよ
踊ること
でも、私まだ下手でけど。。
ハーハ
赤い悪魔というバー
ビルまだのまない
ちょっとあぶないね
ヤー別に。

惊人耳目的事件

老婆婆一时紧张，就为了追这一趟地铁。
她把手提袋摆在电动扶梯的梯阶上，弯下腰想提起。
一时不慎，慢动作地跌坐在梯阶上。
扶梯徐徐下降，她坐在平地上，梯阶已变成平地，毫不留情地滑进出口，以便开始往上爬。
滑过她的臀部，却没帮她站起来。
目睹这一切
目瞪口呆
一个箭步走上前，伸出援助之手。
“Please help me"
想拉她一把，好重。
心有余而力不足的感觉。还好有位携带子女的大叔出手相助。
”喀嚓“疏松的骨质发出了声音，好可怕。
站了起来，
提起袋子，往即将紧闭的门冲去。

XXX

”一时紧张，一时紧张”
不好意思。随身走向另一车厢。
若在下车前她还在，一定上前问候
满头白发，戴着一副眼镜，拿着一把白色的雨伞，
孤寂地坐在一旁

XXX

深呼吸，走去。

XXX

她闭着眼睛
“你没事吧？”
HUH？
"Did you injure yourself?"
*Smilez*
"没事，没事，没受伤，一时滑倒 HA”
“没事就好，没受伤就好。”
“谢谢你，谢谢你”
微微一笑，下了地铁，上了另一排电动扶梯。
回头，双目交汇，互相微笑。
挥着手，扬长而去。

*完结* 四月二十四日

XXX

真是有缘，再一次巧遇，在同一排电动扶梯。
她依然往同一个方向，
我却与她背道而驰。

同一个事件，同一个地点，同样的我俩，同样的一把白色的雨伞。
不同的心情，往不同的方向走去。
我，
归心似箭。^___^
她，
吃力地上了同样无情的扶梯。
我，
尽量往下看，想望着她安全降落，抵达。
它 -- 地铁，
同样早了十秒钟抵达。

希望，
她不再匆匆忙忙，失足。
希望，
她安全抵达。

*完结* 四月二十五日

in order of preference :p

aww.. so small guess i need a bigger pic..

wow this is big.. haha can ignore da girl la haha

haha thank u serene for the tip : putting pics in :)

ともだち

You have a kind soul! What can be better than
cooking lemon-pastries? Only helping out sick
kids of course! Congratulations, you have a
kind soul. Known for your purity and goodness
you follow your heart and your brain. The path
you seem to talk on is golden, and your touch
can make others forget about their pain. Your
always the one who donates to charity, feeds
the squirrels in the park, and volunteers down
at the shelter. Youre determined to make the
world a better place, and be sweet and
thoughtful everywhere. You are probably
multi-talented, and others love being around
you. Be careful though. Dont let them take
advantage of you.


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wah so long hafnt write..
sigh finally quit my job... enjoying the break la.. misssing the kids abit on mon still visualising tt i'm suppose to b in the halll asking 5j to pick up their bags then with perry sprouting nonsense at me as usual abt how he wans to smoke n kill himself his 怎么会是？haha damn funni...
the last dae on fri was crazy la... chiong-ing to finish marking so tt can return all da books then didnt eat lunch lor.. kept marking until got stiff neck liao.. but den the lessons sigh.. the trademark noise level n running ard.. haha took pic of them not wif la they too scary haha damn excited to take pic la
i tink i was too stressed n tired to feel all the sobz farewell mood la but yea received quite alot of cards n a few haha gifts so.. haha
they r still cute la
but all in all these 30 odd days of relief teacher proved tt i cant realli teach for nuts.. if i wan to bcome a teacher i better cum out better ways to interest them man.. but hmm yea education... not easy la
then damn demoralising the last dae johnathon's mum call to complain=scold mi which is like shit la
budden i dont understand y i tell the kid to do work then he refuse to do then it's still my fault la not telling him str in the face not complaining to his mum wth i dunnoe la dunnoe it's cant b bothered or like more than 1/2 my class lidat then i oso boh pian la dunnoe dunnoe la
but all in all it was quite n experience
n the way i work scares mi la
like i some workaholic no life
no need to eat no need to rest veri tensed veri stressed
scary
tink i'll end up a walking skeleton if i kept on at the job la
it's sucking mi so dry
glad to b resting
glad to b slacking again
went to eat free buffet on fri nite
the staff satay meeting tt everione dying to leave earli coz got own lives but due to political reasons stayed...
so funky teacher
normally got like flat oily hair tt can see all the comb line n wear boring shirt n pants
then at night wore some tight fitting black shirt n spiked up all his hair n kept singing la haha realli 人不可冒相。。damn funny

kick boxing nus open house
then the rush to apply s-ship haah juz try la huh
tink it's good exercise made mi tink long n hard abt aspirations n stuff
stuff tt i hafnt given much thought b4... not tt i had ani conclusions yet la but i guess i still tinking ... saw the tip of the ice berg shud i say...
then the whole week was like crazy la
application forms n essays n tinking tinking more tinking + tuition..
n flu tt had been ard for a wk
actualli i didnt noe wat happened leh
how did time pass so quickly juz knew i waz tired n alwayz sitting in front of the com la..
sigh its all over like a dream
but felt rather bad didnt noe manda flew sigh
hmm seriously this wk seemed like a blur
slept alot n hid at home...
recuperating i guess

haha then yest ah ma ah yi uncle darling n nana
hmm i went shopping with them
the jap place we went quite good 13.90 then can keep ordering lor frm 11.30am to 2pm i tink..
will bring pple to go check it out haha
nice food... then went shopping at taka
n knew the reason i was invited out of the blue haha but tt waz veri nice of them la
had alot of fun
n they gave mi a new watch
if u had a hundred dollars now wat wud u buy
i was stressed again didnt noe wat i wan ( as usual )
cant sui bian animore when u r the main character n the whole world's waiting for u tink ah ma's legs were tired... but i like the fossil... hmm too nice cat bear to wear
neva had n extra watch.. mayb those free gifts la budden neva bought an extra one...
i'm the kind onli one of each kind of possession then if the thing spoil then buy but sumtimes no time tt's how i ended wearing bata sandles to teach for a few wks...
now got extra watch heh..
had fun like korea lidat...

then slept at 10 for 10hrs luxury/...
oh managed to eat the 2 things i was dying to try...
shrooms burger frm kfc... ok la not impressive
then the seafood chowder at delifrance...
went to deliver sumthing at raffles city then went shopping alone.. no shopping la walking haah
stayed in hmv realli long then went to sit at the high high table at delifrance the breadbowl veri big i dont realli like the bread.. left half of it alone.. but it was quite nice la
damn freaking hungry now...
then went to ps n home...

tired
kickboxing was fun
enertaining la.. seeing pple move wierdly
but the feeling of sweating is still good..
even aft u rested then still feel nice n warm la
haha then fa xian the swimming pool hehheh

went to eat wif huixian the 3-in-1 damn nice... aha her recommendation la.. abit more convinced tt tau huay dont taste like cement ani more... one lousy tau huay tt haunted mi my whole life huh..
then carrot cake n library - bound
found tt stupid book on japanese un-useless inventions.. cant rem the jap name but so lame can die..
its for pple to conceptualise make n not use la
wah wah
someone save mi frm the lameness...

i passed my final theory test like finally finally la
2nd try
tink my dad was quite disappointed n paiseh when i failed la
oops
the president of SDIA's kid hmm
haha muz pass the prac one shot oso or else break the tradition n throw face..
watever la...
muz learn liao
date of exam : 3aug
one day aft nus start school
wow
finally relieved la

i wan to work at expo as john little's temp cashier n packer but my mama tink i siao
lousy pay lousy working hrs then all my tuition how?
haha but my childhood ambition
those less noble ones (erm in other pple's POV la)
cashier photocopier n camera shop lady tt develops photo
haah later become like robin williams siao n start wanting to join other pple's fam n go crazy haha
yea man
ambition leh but discouraged n stupid la
haha mayb i'll go for the walk in interview on mon.. hmm

library
going to it make mi realize how i miss reading
deprived la.. erm mayb b myself
a chong dong to finish reading all the bks there
shud juz start frm one...
haha excited
hmm
where did all the r.l. stine n chrstopher pike boks go?
cant find them like aniwhere
then all the seach say most of them at sembawang lib
wat r they doing there man????
i wan to read them again..
tink i read almost all their horror bks... it shaped the way i write quite abit (erm minus the typo)

so many things to do
a good time to break n enjoy life huh
n see pple
hafnt seen pple for a long time..
mayb i haf foresaken them?haha in their pov la...
sigh
another headache qn i like to deny
but
dunnoe

tmr got tuition again
wah the little indian getting lazy leh
so iz the anchorvalerite
but as usual bayshorist is still so motivated...
it's quite tiring la sumtimes
having to b responsible to them
but well well...

got a purple watch n a purple cup as gifts...
wat's my fav colour again?? haha

this whole long thing better dont disappear if my com hang now.. i'll cry n die n gek n bang my head against wall... yea

cant believe i forgot my chat wif serene until i read her blog haha..

i'm free i'm free i'm free as a bird
too tired :(
sick

results day.. came n went...
happy la.. veri happy actualli
so much better than i expected la... tink tyco oso haha aboo to aaaa
budden feel abit lost in like the big world la i guess.. sigh.. scary dunnoe how to go abt doing alot of things la...

when i was near bouna vista mrt i kept wanting to go toilet..
1st sign of nervousness.. haha onli hit mi this morn..
then the hodge's speech then the queueing haha
tensed stretched taut like siao haha
then ms chen whu refuse to let mi see until i sign 2 pieces of paper

wanted to cry liao la
then the :"heng hao"
congrats u did well
then the aiyah abit more than can b on the perfect score list or sumthing
then the results la
better so much better than expections la..
relieved
thankful
tears la
haha

tyco sia...
alwayz a person whu kinda noe wat i wan but neva been focused enuff.. scrape past it again
given a 2nd chance hope can do wat i wan la
then haf to work hard frm the beginning la
hmm... happy n relieved la

closure of another chap of my life... end of jc erm oficially la.. sigh
the nostalgia hit mi abit oso actualli
the batch/cohort thing n the familiar faces
abit la guess we move on
everione does...

now need to go tink wat i wan in life..
wat i wan to do
planning planning
marking zuo wen n wks oso la

starting kick boxing tmr haha
looking forward to it la..

My inner child is ten years old!

The adult world is pretty irrelevant to me. Whether
I'm off on my bicycle (or pony) exploring, lost
in a good book, or giggling with my best
friend, I live in a world apart, one full of
adventure and wonder and other stuff adults
don't understand.


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haha cant believe this.. it's rather erm.. hmm stupid? i wont even watch a power ranger movie la... then i hafta star in it??

12hrs b4 i meet serene to go rj
today is R day but i'm still abit sleepy abit hungry eating cupnoodles with alot of boiled canned mushrooms haha
it'll come it'll go
expectations hopes
dont wan to tink abt it
think my denial skills thru my yrs of honing haf reached another level of competence..
i'm not realli feeling it now... erm not yet?

today beng came to visit mi at sch haha
veri paiseh
onli chat wif her for like 10min then muz go start pri 3 class... haha

shud i quit or not?
hmm decide aft tmr la the teacher can onli cum bk 9may sigh

i veri tired
think i shudnt b doing it lor
i dread going to class i tink abit la
when they go crazy n noisy i haf this urge to walk out on them n my responsibility...
i enjoy their company but teaching them in class seems like a chore... tink it's mi they're so disinterestred hmm... sigh

i enjoy the hanging ard wif kids
i dont mind the marking if i can ever finish them but the teaching?
mayb i'm not creative enuff.. i let them play wat but i feel when it's time to learn n do work they shud but alas...
they dont tink tt way,,,
the major part of the job.. teaching... i'm not realli enjoying it la.. i like to noe them but aiyah dunnoe

tt can wait can hang until aft tmr haha

finally called the officce to ask them to send sumone up to shut my class up..
if they persists... to the parade square we go
muahaha